Paralyzed in love isn’t quite what we imagined, but

websitezero june '24

prod @recyclexBin
mixed + mastered by shinigami and justin spaulding.

redeye (prod. recycleBin + saint mike)

arrowhead

sorry anyway

the first single off my new album 'dearly departing', coming out 9/9!

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
album art by @/ashleydhe on instagram

so much time and effort has been put into this project and i truly hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
i cant really see it here and now
and the lights behind my back are turning down
every sailor knows his in and outs
but i struggle every now and then with life so hear me out

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

and i stand and wait as cold air breaks the sail before us all
our fatal fate has taken everything that we once loved
so fuck it all
if i go down i’ll be swinging
a rope tied to songs i’ve been singing
the weight is enough for a fixing
so i tighten the knot and im ready for war
war
i still need more (from life, inside my mind)
more

i cant really see it here and now
so i contemplate the ways in which i drown
every time i’m lost im never found
i just suffer all the consequences, end up on the ground

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere 

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

im leading a life not worth living
and seemingly so, unforgiving
its time i let out this anger

dearly departing

anchor [jolst]

spotify & apple music!

V. anchor [jolst]

Prod @Sinxi 
Thx for the guitar sample @izwithonez

LYRICS 

Fuck it up take the problem and the pills again
Im honest but, I can lie when I need a friend
So dont face me with all the regret you have
Cuz I know damn well you believed in what we did

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW
DONT TRUST AGAIN I HOPE

Breathing lines
Head to toe im feeling shivers
From her demon eyes
Sell my soul just for a feeling
That u caught at mine
I swear she choking on my shit
She say she wanna die
Who dont wanna die
God my times been plastered
Holy water from a pastor
Mixed up all up with the vodka
Guess im only half a bastard
I know
She gon tell me Im broke
Its the same as before
Taking shots at the door

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW

Dont pull the strings away together from me
Blocked out facetious things
she wants to say toward me
Collect the only things
You wanna say you own
YOU DONT
And thats just how I fight back
Five bottles counted up right on ya nightstand
Fucked up, never trust me and I write that
Every god damn time I go

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW

Spotify

SAIKO

hate u ft. sendflowrs (sorrow bringer)

s/o my buddy @brecken
lyrics
power me up now i cant get enough
live in the dark but theres fire in my cup
theres fire in my gut
i tell her im sober she calling my bluff
now every day beats the worst day
i hope ur praying for me cuz im lost inside my ways

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

i gave it up but its stressing me out
u in her dms but im in her house
said she in love with the way that i shout
its the way that i sound
just bring me back to the ground
i got heavy eyes
i dont call nowhere home
but im comfy inside of her thighs

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

i wish that u could kno how every night u make me feel
i dont buckle up when im in my whip but i steer
yea u make me fear
was it ever real or was it all just a lie
but i cant take it anymore
is there any surprise
i was down on the floor
n u looked me in my eyes
u said its all gonna be fine
i said i hope its alright
i guess ill stay here tonight
i guess its one more delight
its okay if u dont want me back
just kno that ill be here forever
its okay if u stab me in my back
baby girl ur messing with my temper

power me up now i cant get enough
live in the dark but theres fire in my cup
theres fire in my gut
i tell her im sober she calling my bluff
now every day beats the worst day
i hope ur praying for me cuz im lost inside my ways

i could build u up
but i would die for u
n she scratch out my eyes
n turn my fingers blue
n at the end of it all i hope that u feel the same way that i do

calling my bluff w/ brecken (cløud x heyrick)

Thought we had a moment...

Shout out to Vails for the fire feature on this track!

Moment feat. Vails (prod. homeboyjakob)

lyrics ⬇️

whats the reason for looking at yourself and saying
im so worthless and desperate i need my medication 
what i painted regret it i needed ventilation 
you wanted validation 
but you couldnt hear me say it
and you remember those nights
when i got so frustrated 
with you and everything else
evil that we created
once we got to those heights
i think our love had faded
cause i did not like ur disguise i hated how you fake it

everlasting love isnt quite what we imagined
but i hope you know you cant just restore your life magically 
youll have go through the poorest conditions oh so sadly 
mystery how i cant defend myself when theyre all happy

maybe i got issues i cant solve 
maybe youre just someone i pissed off

but hopefully not
cuz i been working on all my flaws 
fixing up my temper ik i need a lot
Thats right thats right u need lots of help
no lie no lie
started ringing bells in my head oh my god
i guess i gotta try mh best this time
whole life on the line i guess im fine
but im not going next
yea ima put my head down and finally get rest

that’s right (everest)

prod. mackk

scorpio:
i love the way you walk, yeah
i love the way you move
im in love with anything and everything you do
i love the way you talk the talk
and your actions lay back to prove
i love the way you know whats wrong
before ive ever spoken to you

bad past was a silver lining
now i got you my darling
dont even check twice when the phone ring
i just hope its you when the phone pings

youre the light when the suns not shining
youre my star that keeps aligning
you make everything exciting
i love when our hands intertwining

vails:
everything you do
means more to me than you think it did
and everything you go through
cant be there for each other like when it started
never really told you 
how much appreciation i had
im thankful for the worst of you
cause i know how good the best can be


scorpio:
i love the way you walk, yeah
i love the way you move
im in love with anything and everything you do
i love the way you talk the talk
and your actions lay back to prove
i love the way you know whats wrong
before ive ever spoken to you

bad past was a silver lining
now i got you my darling
dont even check twice when the phone ring
i just hope its you when the phone pings

youre the light when the suns not shining
youre my star that keeps aligning
you make everything exciting
i love when our hands intertwining

anything and everything (feat. Vails)

shoutout the gang 
@alex-thomas-fox @rip37official @whos-that-clown
LYRICS!';'
[blospar]
Carry me away but the sandstorms strong
Grains hit my wounds and the pierce last long
Bury me in ember rest me ashes
Sand will cover my grave as time passes

Wish me well Wherever the sands may settle
I cant tell, but for my problems i got several
I need good paper, fat stacks, good friends
For the journey to continue when we meet roads end
I need good hope, calm seas, what the tide may lend
For the shifting sea of sand to change and bend

[vails]
Was this what was meant for me
My head buried in the sand 
Feel like I’m abandoned in the wilderness 
I need a hand

they say paradise is what you make it 
Can’t help but feel  that was fake shit 
Yes it’s pretty out the sun is gleaming bright
And it seems perfect
But theres just a heavy weight persona yah we just look past it 
baby it’s concerning me the way I feel
Nothing that I do is ever seeming real
The crystal waters shining blue & teal

[RiP.3.7]
Yeah before or after no happy ever afters the clock moves forward but we're looking at it backwards 
I guess that im just another worthless bastard to you 
Yeah I'm sorry but I cannot live faster for you 
Got rid of all them demons now they running back faster at you
In my soul where's the hope 
I've been all alone so
[back2chorus]
Wish me well Wherever the sands may settle
I cant tell, but for my problems i got several
I need good paper, fat stacks, good friends
For the journey to continue when we meet roads end
I need good hope, calm seas, what the tide may lend
For the shifting sea of sand to change and bend

sea of sand w/ vails & RiP.3.7 [prod. the sound clown]

Hook:
Yeah wassup heart was broken threw it in the garbage 
This gon end better than it started 
Yeah im not from here rip is a Martian 
You gotta aim high to even hit the target 

Verse:
Yeah Letsgo we gon get it you know I'm stacking up the dough 
They can't fw our shit 
They don't know that im legit 
I Popped a couple Molly's I've been geekin ever since like

Hook 2:
Fuck a promise 
Drink to much might Vomit
You can hate but it won't stop shit 
I want it I bought it

Bridge:
Where the fuck you go I don't know but your gone 
Yeah we live it up every night like we gon die young
Yeah you know I'm up ima make another fkn song everytime I pull trough you know it's 

Full hook:
Yeah wassup heart was broken threw it in the garbage 
This gon end better than it started 
Yeah im not from here rip is a Martian 
You gotta aim high to even hit the target 
Fuck a promise 
Drink to much might Vomit
You can hate but it won't stop shit 
I want it I bought it

ilykira verse:
I can't keep all of my promises 
So you better blow me in the wind
If I had more time left would you still hold me close 
Hold me close 
Fuck that I know I missed my chance
Fucked up always In a trance
I don't ever wanted that
But I'm not the same since you left 
What you did to me was so fucked up
Ima ruin myself 
Ima ruin myself all alone

Hook:
Yeah wassup heart was broken threw it in the garbage 
This gon end better than it started 
Yeah im not from here rip is a Martian 
You gotta aim high to even hit the target 
Fuck a promise 
Drink to much might Vomit
You can hate but it won't stop shit 
I want it I bought it


VOMIT!? Ft ilykira (Robert mostro)

lyrics// 

youre unbothered when i walk by 
and you only waste my damn time
 i dont think that we can do right 
no chance im not waiting for this green light 

[chorus]
cuz u said u loved me just stop the bluffing, i try so hard
to you im still a deadbeat 
nobody can love you like i did girl 
my bodys been broken im brittle


but ill never say i never let u down 
u were half the reason that i got out of this town
guess ill never get it back huh?
4 months and you left me in the background
aint it funny how we go seprate ways
and we turn right around i swear we never change
and all i wanted was a soul i could save 
u just rot and decay 
six feet inside my grave 
and i would ask you i know u dont listen
if its too much a hassle i’ll go back in the basement
it’s hurt that you’ve discarded the picture that we painted


[chorus]
cuz u said u loved me just stop the bluffing, i try so hard
to you im still a deadbeat 
nobody can love you like i did girl 
my bodys been broken im brittle

[vito]
you call and call
embrace the fall
back to the wall
is where i belong
and i count every second your away
my memory of you has fade to grey

i can pull myself back in real time
lie and say i feel fine 
iv been on a decline 
wish that i could rewind
and take it back to you and i

[pre chorus]
all we ever do is run
and fess up on our broken trust
i wish that i could be the one
iv been tripping on your fucking love

brittle w/ VITO [cxrter]

dearly departed

TRANSPARENT

𝕾𝖎𝖓𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖙𝖊𝖊𝖙𝖍 𝖎𝖓

Lyrics:

(frvr)
Got me feeling ecstasy 
Bleed all over me yeah bleed on me
Suck my scars I'll be your remedy
Poison me, and fall for me 

You were a vampire
Sinking your teeth in 
Couldnt feel the pain until you were leaving
In love with the feeling, I'm in love with the feeling
Bleeding and bleeding 
Keep me recieving 

I don't fucking care it's all bliss
I dont fucking care I like this
Get out of my hair I need it
Get out of my hair im bleeding

(erisu)
Your a vampire suck apon my fucking veins
Lemme feed you 
I’ll do whatever it fucking takes
Lemme be there
I need you 
Lemme be there for you 
abuse you
Take my life away
Use me as a puppet aye 
I don’t got a name 
I’ll let you use my fucking strings

YOU’RE A VAMPIRE 
I NEED IT 
I NEED YOU TO ABUSE ME
I NEED IT
JUSt TEAR Me limb from limb APART TILL IM BLEEDING
I DONT NEED NO LOVE I JUST NEED DEMONS
RIP MY HEART OUT I 
promise I’ll FEEL IT
I want attention you give! promise you’ll see this ?!

Frvr X Erisu - 𝓥𝓐𝓜𝓟𝓘𝓡𝓔 [prod. IOF]

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that’s right (everest)

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