prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

spotify

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

she does what you never did
you don't know how hard it is
to wake up alone
if it's over it's funny it still makes you cold
when you know

that you couldn't step away
in hopes that a memory
of something you need, would ignite from the first thing
that i thought was real but it's not

and i said i'd wait for you
in silence and in solitude
if it can't get better
there's darkness ahead
but it's safer together
i'm gone

shake at the thought of you
i still think a lot of you
of things that you said
feel at home with the worst things i keep for myself

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
so i don't trust a fucking thing
the nicest face could do the same
i think about it everyday
i wish i never let you in

make it quick i'm still here waiting
lost my mind way back in Salem 
all at once you've only been all i want

and the life you were dealt's not a thing that you wanted
and i wasn't either and you made it obvious
wait for the day that your body decays
just to hear that they love you
cause they never will

Snow Cabin

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) [Ciche&Jarn]

Huge thanks to notahero for killing this. Like, Repost, and Comment if yall rocking with this one <3
Produced by The Sound Clown (a haze collective producer btw) and tiedforsilver!

**lyrics**

(You only hit my phone when you don’t feel alright, 
I’m at your beck & call, but I’m still some other guy)

I think it’s time I packed a bag and ran away 
In case you even cared, I still feel the same 
You tell me that you’re here and it’ll be okay
I’m breaking like the leaves in this winter rain 

You tell me those three words, I can’t trust that
Brand new silver Benz, feelings on the dash yeah
I might just hit 100, never going back
I’m feeling presidential when I count my stacks 

You just wanna break my bones and that’s fine, 
Were those tears even real I saw when you cried?
It was already hard to trust now it’s worse by 10 times 
You left me with no choice, I’m leaving tonight

I’ve been in this race and it’s making me exhausted
shawty filled with hate, and we losing all our progress
Ain’t got the time to waste but you’ll bury me in August, yuh, in August, yuh, in August

Saw it in her eyes, she like messing with my conscience
Wishing I could change, I don’t know if I can solve it
Moving to the day that I’ll be inside a coffin
A coffin, yuh, a coffin

I think it’s time I packed a bag and ran away 
In case you even cared, I still feel the same 
You tell me that you’re here and it’ll be okay
I’m breaking like the leaves in this winter rain 

You tell me those three words, I can’t trust that
Brand new silver Benz, feelings on the dash yeah
I might just hit 100, never going back
I’m feeling presidential when I count my stacks

(notahero)
i’m starting to feel like i’m a junkie but i’m not ready to be done yet
i fear i’m falling into the void come grab my outstretched hand
so high i’m seeing into the future, but i don’t know where imma land

we got the whole weekend, baby what’s the point in getting mad?
tommy jacket on me, cuz it’s way too cold for july
got something special in my cup i think my brain might get fried

and would u cry baby if tonight’s the night that i died?
but i could never let u go baby ur way too special
a new shirt after i smoke to be respectful
a new number i’ve never seen on top the dashboard

i might just pack my things and go, i don’t want to stop when i’m home
cuz this winter rain outside so wet and cold

and i’m too fucking drunk to see straight, baby i feel nauseous
a different type of dumb in your head to say i ain’t popping
it’s blue it’s not a green thumb cuz i’m counting hundreds
i shake it into a tornado like a fucking mosh pit

Girl I’m loving you cuz everything you do is flawless,
You could stop it but i don’t wanna stop it
(No I don’t wanna)

bury me in august w/ notahero (Prod. The Sound Clown & tiedforsilver)

lyrics⬇️
crushing the thoughts that been breaking me down
how could i write so much and you never liked my sound
voluntarily always around
but now ur making me feel a way so i gotta get out

lie on the cold ground
duplicate that feeling that you thought you found
maybe this my chance maybe right now
yea or I’ll suffocate in advance if i dont fight it out
even lookin at these plants i i feel like i dont amount 
to all the beauty that they hold cuz i cant even count all the times that i would fold at the fault of my mouth
even when i promised everyone it wouldn’t go south

late gigs knowing that you wont be there

paint a pictire for me knowing that i will not fear

yea cuz i wont breathe ur judgy person air
for once it might be nice to be all the way out your hair

ill push back i dont like it when it feel like that

no crash pad when im falling i fall down hard flat
i dont even have the energy to feel bad
i dont see anyone who wanted a rematch
i been pushin in my memories like way back
Yea u dont want anything like this you want a price tag
money dont mean anything if you cant even buy that 
promise youd be runnin from me if you knew what i had

i live i laugh
but i dont wanna use the stuff that hurts the people most
wait until the night pass
then ill stay low
cuz thats the way that itll last

(Weepings)

We've been on and off like every other week I fucking swear
Girl you got me crashing out; You got me growing out my hair
I'm doing all these drugs to pretend like I don't care ...
But I do too much
Girl I know you fucked him I feel nauseous but I still miss your touch 
Smoking on some potent pop some oxy till my brain turn dust
I'm bleeding out my back I'm just your toy and my heart soft like plush
A puppet on your string an I will wait for you to treat me such
~
Cuz if the pain I feel is cause by your hands I don't mind
I showed you my darkest parts and you left me behind
Who knew that my love for you would leave me feeling blind
Girl no matter where I go you're still stuck in my mind
~
And flashback to the moment that I met you
Even then I knew I cannot forget you
I remember how you looked at me the night I loved you
But now I fear I'm falling short
Back and forth, every time we speak it feels like we in court
God it hurts, Knowing that the girl I love left me in dirt
What am I holding onto still, like bro ... that hoe left me first
I could never trust another soul, like I trusted you
I still got love for you
I wish you loved me too
Girl honestly I can't see my future with another fucking person in this life

voluntarily w/ Weepings (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

if you know where the reference bars are from - you are swag

Lyrics:

on the pavement i've been laying low
i'd rather lay alone
i'd rather sit and contemplate my fate and fuckin zone
wield a mask and cut my wrist until i feel the flow
i wanna kill myself so bad and you don't even know
never cared about the money or the fame
cuz the money fill my tummy but my pockets stay the same
i've been slowly craving happiness and I should be ashamed
i ain't let myself feel anything these thoughts are all to blame

sweater weather's better
i'd go shirtless in december
but i'm dysmorphic of my body
with no sign of getting better
so i hate the way i look
and i hate the way i feel
but i cannot force the change
so i just suffer in what's real

no happily ever after
return the cast back to sender
i'm no mage but eating spells is something i think i could manage
i just pop another xanax
i am used to disadvantage
i can see through every wall
but i just let her deal me damage

she supports me from the shadows
and i don't know if that's better
think i'd rather her let go
she makes me kinda wanna vanish
i just relish in the effort from my friends and all my brothers
if these pills happen to kill me
hide my body from my mother

my own mind got me fallin off the deep end
sleepin in the crevice
it's not much
just slowly creepin
if you tryna stay alive
don't bother
voices been speaking
cuz the reaper split your face in two 
your blood is leaking

sweater weather (hollowprpl)

lyrics ⬇️

i walk away from everything i know
let me be
where i wanna go
drifting away in my sleep

broken lamp but the light still on
everything i do i feel is wrong
tell me to try and then i end up seeming dumb
yea my anxiety riddles my tongue

i cannot speak without feeling numb
and i feel at home when im all alone
weak in the knees when i see em run
i know that theyre against all of the stuff ive done

Crawl out of the basement find another when were out of touch

find someone to share the love from up avove
i dont hate the pressure but i fold when it gets way to much
yea outta luck
yea outta trust

i saw my demise when i saw you do that lil shoulder shrug
yea now u hate my guts; no longer think im a stud
yea i thought it was over with the first time that you left me off
wrong all along
turn my body off

(skele)

skele -
i won’t let you go 
but we won’t make it till the morning 
colder than the snow 
but i still need someone to hold me 
start to lose control 
i hold it down
inside it’s storming 
hear it in my voice 
it start to shake 
when i’m recording 

going numb 
off this bottle 
poured up 
nobody left 
no more light 
no love 
fool me once 
gave my life 
for what 
all i want 
in my eyes 
was us 

nobody there for me to cry for
breaking down 
to you i’m looking like an eye sore 
breaking down 
to you
you’re someone i would die for 
triple digits on the dash 
hit a high score 

i thought maybe i was someone you could try for 
i thought maybe i was someone you would like more 
i thought maybe i was someone you could fall for 
i can’t feel it 
i can’t feel it 
i can’t anymore

spite w/ skele & static (blocktane x nate2timez)

lyrics ⬇️


we dont talk abt it enough
lately when i wake up
im tremblin no luck
turn my emotions to dust
it’s sickening down in my gut
life isnt all about love
its about all that you got

right
right to leave me there when i was wrong
nothing you could do to make strong
(cuz i was lost)
i cant be the one to lead you on
see me one more time and next time ill be gone

i dont wanna think like that
i dont wanna breathe like that no more
and i dont mean scream my bad
and i been really feeling real bad
it goes down to my core
maybe ill be better off alone
secluded outside away from my home

(notahero)

lyrics

i don’t really ask for much
and i won’t be here for too long
the only cool thing is the songs
you tell me a hits on the tip of my tongue
but i bite my tongue
i say all the things that i shouldn’t have
i try not to care bout the should’ve had
as long as u still love me in the end
oh but baby i been struggling since last halloween
and youre the only reason im sleeping
got your smell on my sheets
if only i could’ve turned out the way i wanted to be

i know that you hate the way that i feel
i know all that you wanted was just something real
but i don’t even feel real
oh but i don’t want to feel like that
and she wonder why my songs so sad
baby there’s not an emotion that i wish i don’t have
it’s like i try to spark my feelings but it just turn to ash
it just turn to ash

better off alone w/ notahero (under the maple tree)

Emotional alt-rap / emo-trap beat, Bittersweet tone with a hazy, melancholic feel but not totally hopeless—moody, introspective and vulnerable. Slow tempo, distant reverbs, late-night thoughts in a cold room—gritty but melodic.

I wrote this whilst hiding in a clients hedge trying not to have an anxiety attack.

What Goes Up Just Comes Down

MYMAMA

beauty feat.0Ameri

my therapy
-3 song EP w sad chill out now on all plats 💚

spite w/ skele & static (blocktane x nate2timez)

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