I wanted to include a little talk at the beginning, I know many people probably don't read all the descriptions. Myself included. I've been thinking of a way to reach people more and I figured it's worth a shot to start talking about the song I'm performing. This is a live take with no editing what so ever. Just cranked up a little reverb and then recorded. I did the song a few times before it sounded how I wanted it to. Personally, I got a lot of pleasure out of making this song. I hope the meaning and feelings reach those who need it most. Love and appreciation to all of you who take time out of your day to listen to me. I truly means the world. To those who don't like to leave comments I would like to just say hello to you. Maybe one day when you're brave enough, we can talk about our passions, and encourage each other to keep going in whatever adventure you're in.

Lyrics:
This is just a glimpse, what I’m going through
Paper thin recognition, won’t get me through
Love so deep ignoring consequence
Alone using the same sequences
should just cut it off it seems so useless
Can’t get a bite mentally toothless
Giving and giving want so badly to take
Like a withered old battered down rake
Unable to gather what’s left for my sake
Stuck in a pattern and I’m ready to BREAK

I Need an infusion
Be my surgeon
Use the extraction
Ignore my reaction
Implant it quickly
Forced serenity

Cuz I can’t stop the bleeding
Need someone to retrieve me
Hold me down and snap me
From these delusions to reality
Should I scream for you to understand
Or should I just endure, be a man

Can’t seem to decide for myself
Just pull me off the highest shelf
Don’t let me fall, that would crush me
Gently hold my soul, emotions are erupting

Forced Serenity

County Fairs & Rodeos

Mercy

Roberto Hutchins; vocals, guitars, composer.
Victoria Mazpule; keyboards.
Todd Booth; technical advisor.

last time I that saw you
your name in the light
chugalugin’ the comfort
on the stage every night
‘blues’ in that world		
were crazy inzane		
like singin’ your song			
in a runaway train

Pearl, it don’t change
no matter what you fix
or re-arrange
stuck out on that broken road too long
flower growin’ wild in the mud
and now, you can’t change

some bridges you know
should never be burned
some lines you know
should never be crossed
some dreams you wish
would never ever end
but every morning you wake up
in a runaway train

Pearl, it dont change
no matter what you fix
or re-arrange
stuck out on that broken road too long 
flower growin’ wild in the mud
and now, you cant change

you were so far out there
you were so far out there
the last time i saw you
were you waving?
or were you drowning?

Pearl

🕯 I Leave Ashes Behind 🕯
A slow-burning soul elegy wrapped in velvet smoke.
No anger. No goodbye. Just the soft hush of someone choosing absence with grace.
Minimalist jazz-inflected instrumentation meets intimate, breath-warm vocals — a departure so quiet, it echoes.

This is not closure. This is sovereignty.
She doesn’t vanish — she simply leaves nothing behind but ash.

🎧 Mood: detached, graceful, unshaken
🖋 Line to remember: “I leave ashes — dry and clean / Like I was never in between.”

Let the silence speak.

I Leave Ashes Behind

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Verse 1

I don’t need closure, I don’t need grace
I watched it burn and turned my face
No final words, no bitter cries
Just smoke curling through the sky

Pre-Chorus
You’ll search the air for what we were
But darling, I don't leave a blur


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Chorus

I leave ashes behind
Not love, not hate, not the ties that bind
No trace for you to follow back
No scent of me on your collapse
I leave ashes — dry and clean
Like I was never in between


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Verse 2

I left the dress, I kept the name
I walk in silence, not in shame
No bags to pack, no doors to close
Just lighter steps where nothing grows

I didn’t flinch, I didn’t stay
I simply turned and slipped away

Pre-Chorus
You’ll search the air for what we were
But darling, I don't leave a blur


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Chorus

I leave ashes behind
Not love, not hate, not the ties that bind
No trace for you to follow back
No scent of me on your collapse
I leave ashes — dry and clean
Like I was never in between


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Bridge (the ritual of disappearance)

No candle lit, no mourning song
No looking back to prove him wrong
No trace of me in what you find
Just breath… just dust… just disinclined


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Final Chorus

I leave ashes behind
Not love, not hate, not the ties that bind
No myth for you to twist or keep
No echo waiting while you sleep
I leave ashes — soft and wide
Then I return to what’s inside

I Leave Ashes Behind

A song in the style of a gaelic folk song, although from an idea from hearing a Georgian folk song. The original lyrics were quite sparse and left a lot unsaid. I tried to write in a similar style, but felt it needed  a little more of the story. This was added from the perspective of the traveller. But left with some of the story untold as in the original

An Offer Of Help

Last breath of war

French pianist Sophie Riviere and Japanese composer Makoto Sawai reunite for “Nagi no tsuki”, a delicate and melancholic duet where gentle piano lines meet soft saxophone tones.
Like a quiet conversation at dusk, the piece offers a soothing and introspective experience, calm, emotional, and evocative. ad21.

Nagi no tsuki

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Frank & Mama

I've posted this song twice before, so I should be done with it; I'm just not though. I keep developing the guitar (though it's all slight) and changing some lyrics. All about a lost friend; guess I'm not over it.

Seasons Make Sense -- Third Version

Astro Funk Music For Dead Astronauts

Kaleidoscope

(Verse 1)
Colors fracture in the morning light
Faces blur and fold into the night
Your hand is shaking, mine can’t stay still
The mirror bends, but it’s bending your will

(Verse 2)
Words unravel before they’re said
Thoughts are heavy, sinking like lead
Photographs hide behind your eyes
A thousand fragments, a thousand goodbyes

(Chorus)
Kaleidoscope, turning slow
Pieces scatter, but you don’t let go
Falling apart in a quiet show
Kaleidoscope, I still see you in the glow

Verse 3
Hands fold like paper, soft and thin
The storm’s inside, not on your skin
Every turn rewrites the scene
You’re fading out, but I still dream

(Chorus)
Kaleidoscope, turning slow
Pieces scatter, but you don’t let go
Even when the colors start to fade
Kaleidoscope, I see the life we made

(Verse 1)
Colors fracture in the morning light
Faces blur and fold into the night
Your hand is shaking, mine can’t stay still
The mirror bends, but it’s bending your will

(Chorus) 2X
Kaleidoscope, turning slow
Pieces scatter, but you don’t let go
Even when the colors start to fade
Kaleidoscope, I see the life we made


Kaleidoscope

I work as a nurse in the state of Florida and I love being there for people in need. My other true passion is making music. I'm kind of an amateur but I look forward to getting better and making the best music I can.

Most the songs I do in about a day and then move on. I don't have the skill to make them radio quality yet, but I hope with collaborating with others and making my own music I will learn some skills along the way. I don't focus on perfection, I focus on emotion and try to put feeling into my music.

Also, I love to get lost in other peoples work, I will often play video games while listening to a bunch of someone else's works and commenting on the ones I like the most, not all though, don't wanna seem like a stalker, unless you like that of course.

Been feeling a little burnt out lately, so if I'm not responsive please don't take it personal. Having to work OT to keep the family afloat, so I haven't had time for music and when I do have any time I'm just too exhausted. I definitely want to make more it brings me a lot of joy to make music. At the same time it is very taxing, reaching into the depths can sometimes cause unwanted feelings to linger longer than they should. Anyway, I love all the support you have all sent my way. See ya around!

Update: Soundcloud has become too expensive and the free version is terrible. They removed a lot of my songs etc... I will be moving on to a different distributer and working on more social media outlets so I won't be on here as much. Many of my songs will be on Spotify, apple etc, I'm in the process of transitioning them. I will leave what I can with the allotted two hours. I appreciate all of you. James Geer, Miami Jeff, Steve V... If you guys are reading this I want you to know how much I appreciate you guys. You are all wonderful musicians and you shared your knowledge and music with me and I'm a better artist because of it, so, thanks!!! See yall around!!!

Forced Serenity

Bubba Maddux