beyond the black rainbow ft. sace6 *pavlos & horesspline*

[Non-Profit]
Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nciku
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(Lyrics)
perfect for me 
I'm always crying in the cold nights
this is something we gotta talk about 
but some days just get harder 
i don't wanna do this no more
i want you , you want me 
we're such a perfect match 
i know we won't collapse 
don't get bored of me 
i know that I'm too much 
i'm trying to be perfect

it's always silent in the cold night 
the weather is so cold without you 
and i love you 
don't want this to end 
I'll hold you till the end
just notice that i care 
i trust you with my heart
i just wanna be there 
i just love you way too much

i love you (nciku)

@x1fern
@navyxower
@northshoremusic
@kuriositylol
@emptychest

War w/ 1fern, NAVYXOWER, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

@homesick @pekarot_161

Lyrics:

it's icy out
that's cue to think of you in a instant 
i don't like the crowds 
why'd you think i disapeared
like magician 
depict 
sketch
colour me out im lifeless 
recount all my memories with violence 
plucking on my heart like a violin 
set back from the start 
i need to sit out


finding out you 
sort of hurt me 
i can't lie 
i think your venomous 
i need to cut you off
but i dont have the guts
for you to hurt me twice 
means that you hurt me once 

i lost
all my credibility
reminded by broken capillaries
the clothes that i wear
carry the holes
of my past
showing my scars

it's icy out
that's cue to think of you in a instant 
i don't like the crowds 
why'd you think i disapeared
like magician 
depict 
sketch
colour me out im lifeless 
recount all my memories with violence 
plucking on my heart like a violin 
set back from the start 
i need to sit out

icy out (homesick x pekarot)

https://soundcloud.com/irby314

https://soundcloud.com/decksmusic


you said it too many times 
to everybody else it’s got no meaning left 
I don’t wanna close the distance 
I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this 

(Decks)
i’ve been having a hard time adjustin
i don’t want it to amount to nothin
you unravel the spite and corruption
i know im stuck, whats the point in reduction
i, been holding on
nothing falling past the point
i took too long
i saw the problem with the story
all along
i wouldn’t have done that if i knew
how i was ending up
why? a troubled thought
gotta leave this fuckin town
i been here too long
if i heard what u had said
i wouldn’t be movin on
all the stars are burning out,
all my wishes gone
its far too often
my conscience
makes me regret the topic
i’m too anxious
over nothin
is this why im still stuck here?

murder the man but not the memory
east coast, now i know thats where they’ll bury me
far along the shoreline
i cant sit and waste my time x2


I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this

unabashedly bashing my head in ft. decks (Irby)

they should NOT have given me fl studio
prod. @cherryrizla & @jolst
art, mix, master by ya boy
new music biweekly again lets get it
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
focus
my conscience
is losing
its’ progress
toxic
to talk
when its often
an option

all on me
u can fall on me
if i fall behind
would they all just leave
i can hold ur hand
we can both succeed
i can play that game
we can go unseen

baby all on me
u can fall on me
where im at right now
isnt so daunting
i dont want your hand
but its what i need
if we lose it all
u are all i need

taking time for the fast life
imagine my past life
i needed this growth
in a million ways
under scope of a past light
i knew what u asked, right?
i followed it up & you stayed

if we talk about what’s got you upside down
i think we’ll work it out, is that a lot to count on?
down and out, i know u can’t right now
i’ll always come around, i want to be someone to count on
and i know what ur saying
i want u to prosper
i wanna look after you
one & another
a hug from my mother
a talk with your father
i’ll never forget it
the time by the water

all on me
u can fall on me
if i fall behind
would they all just leave
i can hold ur hand
we can both succeed
i can play that game
we can go unseen

baby all on me
u can fall on me
where im at right now
isnt so daunting
i dont want your hand
but its what i need
if we lose it all
u are all i need

all on me
u can fall on me
if i fall behind
would they all just leave
i can hold ur hand
we can both succeed
i can play that game
we can go unseen

unseen

unseen [cherryrizla x jolst]

stream everywhere!

engieered by kii. 
mastered by kii.
produced by king theta 
written by kii.

lyrics: 
it's been 4 months since you called me 
i know that you're broken you say that your lonely
i know why you called me 
and no i know, i know i know 
you spend days inside my bed 
blame me for all this dread 
know you felt bad when you broke my heart
and i been inside my head
and i cannot go to bed 

and i'm so sorry i didn't mean to leave 
and all these lies all they do is deceive
and i can't breathe with all these people looking at me 
looking at me 
looking at me yeah 

the cigarette ash left on my bed spread 
oh our last left me breathless 
i guess i know you have a deathwise 
your parents never settles all these issues they left
oh the soul tide that you gave left with my last breath
i can't tell you how felt that last night 
we spent together and we could sit and cry 
we can sit and cry 
we can sit and cry 
we can sit and cry 
sit and cry 

and i'm so sorry i didn't mean to leave 
and all these lies all they do is deceive
and i can't breathe with all these people looking at me 
looking at me 
looking at me 
and all you do is argue with me 
and no i can't take it when i'm breaking down 
is leave, leave

silk sheets - (king theta)

Produced by @pekarot_161 & @xlhc
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
It's a hat I wear these days
It's just one of many
I keep a picture of you in my pocket
I'll commit this to memory
You are the missing piece I never knew I needed
But you fit in so seamlessly
And after all this time I still can't believe it
I found my family

But do I actually deserve it
I feel like a serpent
That slithered in to take
What is not his away
Impostor
I fear I'm an impostor
I shed my skin
I'm a monster
You let me in
Now I'm not sure if I can measure up

I'm not sure If I can be the one
To bear this weight on my shoulders
There's so much expected of me now
And I'm still tryna figure out
How to care for myself
While being there for someone else
It's not so easy
But I know that you'll be there for me as well

silk sheets - (king theta)

byefloret (kii)

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