You should have made a video clip bruh this song is so beautiful

confusion w/ hiraeth (switch)

【﻿ｎｕｍｂ　ｍｙ　ｔａｓｔｅ　ａｎｄ　ｆｅｅｄ　ｍｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ】

thank you for listening. i really, really appreciate it.

produced by @prod_death 🖤
hope you enjoy.


walking with grace 
behind closed curtains
and i know that pain
finding out they're not the same
it's just not the same.

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

fuck that
i'm ripping the tape off of my face
but don't look at the paste please :(
i wake up and i'm already shaking
there's only so much i can take in
loss of dexterity causes corrosion
i missed every note that i needed the most
don't open their heart till' you've opened your own

the truth (i'm boutta fall through)
i guess you never really knew me (knew me)
that's why i never get through (give a fuck abt you)
it's connection we're losing (losing)
i'll reach my hands through the screen
till i see the spark's out
they're starin' at me; said
"you should be star-bound"
take in the scene
and don't you forget it
the ocean'll sink (sink)
just cause i let it
(let it)

is there even a deeper meaning?
i study her every pattern
i ache then break but they don't seem to take it as a heavy matter
and that's hefty ladder that i'm probably gonna climb forever
and if she goes i let her
and if she goes i let-

kay, i've opened the shades
i thought it was grace, i guess that it's hate
fool me once and take my change
no wonder why i feel the same
fool me twice; i'll start anew
my misfortune falls right back to you
the scent of colors fill my room
to numb my taste and feed me truth

(truth)(4x)
i don't know what does it mean to you..
what do i mean to you? (you-you)
what do i mean to you
you-you-you-you

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

i feel like a mime (4x)
(i feel like a mime...)
(am i wasting my time?)

feed me truth [prod. death]

prodbylxcid

https://youtube.com/@prodbylxcid

i need the beamer, i need the wagon 
and i need the porsche 
money it comes real quick 
but leaves just as fast when u take a loss
girl keep hitting my phone
she need me now
i carry a cost 
whip straight thru LC im hittin up graff 
and buyin the lot 
pinewood in my cup
i’m pourin it up
i cherry the drops 
i can’t hold shit down 
i’m sorry my girl
i travel a lot 
i got expensive tastes
i ran in the spot 
and took out the crop 
im on my elden ring
i run up on opps
and slaughter the boss 
slaughter the boss 
i 
i’m sippin on care+ high up
don’t talk shit you’re a liar
throw b’s only smoke fire 
pull up all black attire
strider, not from the shire
send 10k, hit my wire 
you’re bait don’t hit my line up
you’re bait don’t hit my line 

and i’ve been running 
to the money 
these guys try so hard  
tryna be gully
i’m pourin care+
sipping on honey 
please don’t come round me
tryna be funny 

cus i, i i, 
look back at life 
sometimes i cry
like oh my god i 
got by those many times 
i had to hustle by 
got greazy
i’m not tryin 
moncleezy 
have to buy it 
stay sleezy 
i’m not lying 
GTeezy
big supplyin
real platinum 
emerald, diamonds
switch watches 
when i’m flying 
dream big 
and u can buy it 
some man are broke and healthy 
some man are rich and dying 
45 i had to fry him
big wren otn gliding ✈️

ELDEN RING

I hope u love it, enjoy <3

prod. me
https://soundcloud.com/nihil2free on guitar
collab with https://soundcloud.com/bitekivibes
shoutout to both of them for real


lyrics:
i've been trying to fight off this gravity
can't have shit in this life its fucking comedy
seems to be i worked up on my honestly 
were still stressed, nothings left, somethings gotta be up
tell me that you don't give a fuck
i said, "okay see you in bit" 
crushed my hand with a mallet
ditch all my attachments and bring the fucking damage

keeping me up on a late night 
in deep, no sleep in my damn eyes 
you said you missed me i said, "damn right"
can't rest i'm stressed till the daylight

i could use a little bit of closure
fucking up my mental i've been distant and colder
they're so judgemental it sucks my composure
all i have left is what i should have told her

break me down to see myself
i've lost my mind
don't need your help.

now i get it
synthetic how they act around me tryna be my friends its pathetic.
i keep waking up to panic 
suppression locked in, i cant stop it.

gravity.deprived

spotify

https://soundcloud.com/irby314

https://soundcloud.com/decksmusic


you said it too many times 
to everybody else it’s got no meaning left 
I don’t wanna close the distance 
I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this 

(Decks)
i’ve been having a hard time adjustin
i don’t want it to amount to nothin
you unravel the spite and corruption
i know im stuck, whats the point in reduction
i, been holding on
nothing falling past the point
i took too long
i saw the problem with the story
all along
i wouldn’t have done that if i knew
how i was ending up
why? a troubled thought
gotta leave this fuckin town
i been here too long
if i heard what u had said
i wouldn’t be movin on
all the stars are burning out,
all my wishes gone
its far too often
my conscience
makes me regret the topic
i’m too anxious
over nothin
is this why im still stuck here?

murder the man but not the memory
east coast, now i know thats where they’ll bury me
far along the shoreline
i cant sit and waste my time x2


I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this

unabashedly bashing my head in ft. decks (Irby)

Prod @hiraethsry
Released with @ytstatic

LYRICS 

Hoping that she loves me again
Stuck up in the rain hoping something will end
I can feel its pouring but its nothing I cant
Stand on my own
Dark silhouettes
They chase me around my room
They make me lose my breath
The smell of her perfume
I swear it causes death
Don't take me for a fool
I know you want me dead

So Who am I
To make amends I feel like
I might have to die
To take my only life
I know its you and I
I know just how your feeling when I
Shake your hand
Before we go don't take your clothes
You feeling cold Just hold on close
Tightly squeeze I wont let go
You're all I know

My heart beats faster than you will ever know
In the gutter fall apart and by the grass il grow
To be the fastest seed the best of me
The biggest tree you will ever see
And il act like I never really care
All you did you never show I'm scared
But thats just lies I told
I know its old but I wont close the things I had
Blurred lines like it never really mattered
In my mind I feel shattered
Its affecting me and I know
Its depressing me cuz theres a hole in my
Sinking chest I can feel it when I go to sleep
Its in my breath I can feel it when it goes away
And comes right back it stays the same

So Who am I
To make amends I feel like
I might have to die
To take my only life
I know its you and I
I know just how your feeling when I
Shake your hand
Before we go don't take your clothes
You feeling cold Just hold on close
Tightly squeeze I wont let go
You're all I know

SPOTIFY

Who Am I

Lyrics:

lights out
i guess im tired
and i been fightin sumthin
im goin silence huntin
i just want a moment, give me a second to hone it
every day that i wake, i gotta sharpen the blade

oh you're takin it back like it was a typo uh
i guess i was never your type then huh
cause you only like em when they love you and then leave but i wasn't that cause i never did mistreat you
you put up your guard, defend
how do we start again
when every conversation we're havin ends in disgust
cause i got insecurities and i know you don't trust
but honestly baby i don't want it to be the end of us

every time that we start to get close you pull away
and i know that i still gotta say it right to your face
but i make time to make sure that i'm around
but you never called, even when i'm not im town
oh i'll stay here even tho i know that it's fake
and i guess that we tried but it's just not aligned to fate
honesty and regret abstained, i think i almost loved you

every body got an opinion, i will just shut down
cause maybe i don't wanna hear you out the picture run mouth
and baby if i'm honest, i think that you should run now
cause ain't it bout that time for us to get close and then bounce out
eyes bled red but i want hazel instead
i'm sorry that i wasn't there when you wished you were dead
axe grind, cut the line, let my neck snap
make sure that it's taut baby won't work if it's slack

overdose license, pure death i siphoned
bro said stick to the tests, don't give a fuck i did the rest
swallowed all dat shit to give my respitory a rest
i was doin shit that'd give a baby hair on chest
and no im not proud, but i escaped from that cloud
shut the fuck up, boy them voices aren't loud
all those numbers on the internet, but you can't pull a crowd
and if we post up on this side then you are not allowed

oh shit i gotta, lie down
im dyin here won't you pipe down
you always said that what goes around comes back
but orbital, that's not how i'd describe my path
cause i just looked ahead and i see distance in my past
and things ain't goin slow your just too used to movin fast
i still got a couple questions i'm afraid to ask
understand i would but right now ima let it pass

a_pattern_of_disaffection_ (secre x splashgvng)

please don’t step on my heart 
i’ve been over and over this
many times before 
please don’t get out my car 
the door opens and you leave 
and then we fall apart 

call my bluff, we play cards 
but she always has the ace 
hiding up her sleeve 
i can’t ever recall
not one moment that she ever 
simply smiled at me 

and those cold eyes make me panic
what do you want 
i can’t manage 
and those bright red lips 
make me vanish
what do you want with me 

stop the crying and the shouting, im sorry 
but maybe you’re better off
i’ll stop the crying if u tell me u want me
i’ll do anything no matter the cost

cus the rain my love hasn’t stopped coming
ever since you were the one i lost
i can’t be here without you, im dying
one kiss will finish me off 

please don’t step on my heart (stop the crying and the shouting i’m sorry)
i’ve been over and over this
many times before (but maybe you’re better off)
please don’t get out my car (i’ll stop the crying if u tell me u want me) 
the door opens and you leave 
and then we fall apart (i’ll do anything no matter the cost)

call my bluff, we play cards (cus the rain my love hasn’t stopped coming) 
but she always has the ace 
hiding up her sleeve (ever since you were the one i lost) 
i can’t ever recall (i can’t be here without you, im dying)
not one moment that she ever 
simply smiled at me (one kiss will finish me off)

banshee (wisssery)

prod. metlast x 5head
w/ teddyboi 
master: teddyboi  (@yoimn3ver)

lyrics:

i forgot on these lonley nights
that i won’t see you by my side
not anymore 
but you’ll still find me holding onto your
memory
but i won’t let this be the end of me

so cold, she knows 
i’m out here growing mold 
ashes floating in the air burned up from a story that went untold
but where did this fire come from?
it’s not in my soul
my desires are coming undone
i’ve lost control

teddyboi:

everybody telling me i’ve lost control
frankly i don’t wanna believe that no, no
girlfriend yelling at me over the phone
god damn, here we go again
arguments, wanna fight like that?
i don’t text back no, not like that
and even though i wanna kill you, girl i still say it back
yeah you push me away but forget i’m attached 
and maybe 
maybe that shit is the problem 
keep a bottle and a 9mm finna solve ‘em
too lonely babe it’s suicide when you’re calling
you know i don’t like to talk at all
or even think
so why’d you leave me here alone 
coping with this drink
woke up, you left, i died in a dream
percocet got me worried bout the way that i breathe
you tell me that you’re scared you don’t want me to go to sleep
you put me in this position where i can’t even breathe


i forgot on these lonley nights
that i won’t see you by my side
not anymore 
but you’ll still find me holding onto your
memory
but i won’t let this be the end of me

so cold, she knows 
i’m out here growing mold 
ashes floating in the air burned up from a story that went untold
but where did this fire come from?
it’s not in my soul
my desires are coming undone
i’ve lost control

epitomeoffailure & teddyboi - these lonley nights (metlast x 5head)

prod by me
enjoy<3

lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

by the creek

prod. josh bae x turro
cover art by @safeatlast <3💜

i swear im feeling wonderful
think those are racks? ill double those
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll

its not fine, but who cares? 
dont look at me, dont dare
mom shoulda told yo ass, dont stare
im boutta get on yo ass, today  
you can tell me anything, i promise it wont bother me,
im inside my yodieland, not caring and counting trees
counting threes, counting twos,
i need my weed, i need my blues
see me next week on a cruise aye
fuck what i see on the news aye
fuck what i see on the daily 
im getting pissed off at tryin' to save me
i dont care for a convo, unless its bout payin me
dont care bout a trick ass hoe that wasn't there for me ;'/
x2
people still scare me, scare me
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll
(awoo!)
hope i dont hit a pothole
im stuck inside the bottle
mom shoulda told yo ass, dont stare
im boutta get on yo ass, today  
im gonna blow real pack today
but im gonna crash hella fast just like every other day	

i swear im feeling wonderful
think those are racks? ill double those
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll

FUCK a team effort
(fuck iiit)
I wear black leather
(fuck uuuu)
im someone ledbetter,
im someone whos been better
(yh!)
you could tell me anything,
and it would probably bother me
(wha!)
cus i can barely stand to walk
and i hope this shit dont wear off,
yh

i need to hurry up
i need to pack it up
uh...
suck that shit up ,
you fucking suck ,
aint bled enough ,
fuck what you smoke, that shit boof
me and divine in a coupe
blasted as hell, we phase thru the roof
wtf we gon do?

counting threes, counting twos,
i need my weed, i need my blues
see me next week on a cruise aye
fuck what i see on the news aye
fuck what i see on the daily 
im getting pissed off at tryin' to save me
dont care for a convo, unless its bout payin me
dont care bout a trick ass hoe that wasnt there for me<3

i swear im feeling wonderful!
think those are racks? ill double those!
brand new life, like fuck these hoes!
im on a mission, i gotta roll!
simply hoping i am not broke,
don't know where the fuck to go..

!💜🔮🔌!

wonderful

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unabashedly bashing my head in ft. decks (Irby)

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