∞↓:↓:↓∞***one hundred percent of a delusion::::☆


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deluded, oh so deluded

epinephrine​!​! ╥﹏╥

As the clock strikes twelve. Everything fades to black as if it never was.

PROD: @ABORTEDAUDIO & @ZYROM // @KOROSARETA99 & @C3OF
MIX: @ZYROM
ART: @C3OF

LYRICS:
[HOOK]X2
It was all decided long ago
Before I even had to chance to be born
Before I grew my wings and went airborne
Strung along by fate until the string snapped underneath the weight

[BRIDGE]
As an artist, you cater to an audience of sad people who could possibly never be satisfied
Yet the irony is that as an artist, you too are unsatisfied
This is true, yet remains false

[VERSE]
Been waiting for a miracle to happen all these years
I'm sitting by the window staring till opportunities disappear
Wishing I could choke the man inside the mirror
He taunts my tattered wings with an audience that cheers
A bird that stays within the cage from the moment it was hatched
Flight is just an illness and the world is sick
Say the songs I sing are like painting words on canvas
But painting is an action not a form of art
All the colors that I choose come straight from my little bleeding heart
As an artist, I can't help but hate the things I chose to make
My music is a big mistake to help my trauma stay repressed
I want more but I could never wish to fly above the rest

[BRIDGE]
But I beg for my freedom
Sulk in my corner in the evening
Branches of the trees seep in
Offer up a place to be nested
But I beg for my freedom
Want to leave this corner that's congested
Spread my wings past suggestion
Finally take flight I crash and burn its depressing

[HOOK]X2
It was all decided long ago
Before I even had to chance to be born
Before I grew my wings and went airborne
Strung along by fate until the string snapped underneath the weight

//

[VERSE]
The tower of my babel filled to brim with all my secrets
Passage of my life from bibles handed out through corridors
Lower all my vitals rolling up my body in a carpet dousing out the candles
This mansion start to fall apart wallpaper peeling
I'm feeling just so alien inside my own skin
Never picking sides but they all tear me straight to pieces and they taking all the parts that they seem to think they like
I'm bleeding out on top the pavement and my blood corrupt the soil underneath me
Think I finally planted all the roots of evil and I know it stem from me
I fell from straight above the heavens and I headed where it's deep
Everything you fear start to stack up high and it's getting steep
Put a price on my love and it'll never be cheap enough for the people all around me
Toss me far away just like a broken toy hope you all forget about me
Rest in peace here lies saint sleep
Burst into ashes sweep him away
Told me to stay but weep when I speak
Nothing will linger but strife in our words
I'm taking my knife and I cut off my wings
Want to be human I'm singing my hymns
Finally mortal I'm already sick of it
Singing till the lights start to flicker and they go out
What did you expect?
A grand gesture of an ending?
What did you expect?
One big bang for the closing
Time to say goodnight
Time to say goodbye
Make sure you snuff the candles light on your way out
I'll look into your eyes again on the day I finally choose to die

Goodnight&Goodbye

Stream/Buy

Goodnight&Goodbye [prod. kill ebola & zyrom // korosareta & saint sleep]

When's the last time you didn't feel like an actor in somebody else's story?

PROD: @NOVOSK
MIX: @ZYROM
ART: @C3OF

LYRICS:
[VERSE]
Time is thin I don't even cherish things 
Unless they come with puppet strings
Man I love that shit
Playground melting with my self esteem
I punch my rotten body just to blow off steam 

[HOOK]X2
Doomsday clock missing hands
Ticking time bomb in everybody's business plans
Next generation have to give up
Put the .45 inside the palms of every kid

[VERSE]
Sit outside at 3am watch the planet fall
Wait all night and then I start again I didn't get to see it all
Been a bad day, bad week and a bad lifetime
Watch the minutes fly by
End is nigh so why should I care
My ignorance is thick and I choose to live in bliss
Not so different we all suffer just the same
Same shit different day
Same pits that we live in
Same problem just a different coat of paint
What a waste of good glitter
Spread it all around like litter
Cowardice inside of me 
Inadequate to speak with others 
Too avoidant never have a special moment
Drift in lonely waters

[HOOK]X2
Doomsday clock missing hands
Ticking time bomb in everybody's business plans
Next generation have to give up
Put the .45 inside the palms of every kid

Vocal samples taken from "Fighting in the Age of Loneliness" (2018) by Jon Bois and Felix Biederman

Grounded

Grounded [prod. novosk]

MUSHY

frustration w/LAVA BEATS

Got my shit together and they still keep laughing.

REMIX: @NOVOSK
WITH: @BIV
MIX: @ZYROM & @BIV
ART: @C3OF

LYRICS:
[SAINT SLEEP]
Chivalry is dead I kicked the chair right out from underneath the noose
I'm falling off and giving into visions like I'm Raoul Duke
A shaky voice leave my ears soaking wet
Whispering "Sleep you so delusional what you want is so impossible" 
Tell me what it's like to mop remains of me out a rustic pressurized tank
My body fat is seeping out the ceiling and your clique is lining up to get a slice
Hunched over digging into organs
Here's a lunch menu welcome to the donor gardens
If you want advice I say you take a bite of my flailing frontal lobe

[HOOK]
I been tryna get my life together
Listen and they laugh like I'm a court jester
Kick me in the chest then kick me once again while I'm down
Frowning at me while I'm dripping like a deep fryer

[SAINT SLEEP & BIV]
I don't owe you shit
All my time get forced a bit
Don't like how you fit
Back pack off my dick
I ain't gonna sugarcoat it 
I ain't gonna gloss it over
But the walls I put up are just leaking through the cracks
Peek between them and our eyes finally make contact
Said my peace,
Please don't feed your pain to me
Life's a bitch with one speed
On her knees
Tryna make that bitch do as I please
It's so curious indeed,
There's so much for you to see
But we burn after we read
So afraid to meet you all and shake your hands
Endless sea of tiny soldiers with a horde of swords
My heart is beating faster than it ever has before
They crawling up my nostril tugging on my vocal cords
Wanting more know they can't be satisfied
Never asked for an opinion, just to fit in
Crowds that never listen, all just fall into addiction
Whether money, power, or prescription
Boy you just a drop inside the mission 
bitch goodbye,
Said what I said, never speakin out of spite
I just know the kind I like, it's ight, it's ight

[HOOK]X2
I been tryna get my life together
Listen and they laugh like I'm a court jester
Kick me in the chest then kick me once again while I'm down
Frowning at me while I'm dripping like a deep fryer

[BIV]
I leave the stains and the stamp
And riddle with my hands
To give me better chance
To get my family they demands
Was taught to be a man
Was taught to be a
Brought the money, made it make some cents
Proud as fuck
Goin be proud of us
Fuck who I was
That pussy never fuckin jumped
Fuck who you know
Bitch where you from
Comin for your blood
Grip the nuts, bitch wassup
Yall goin be the first to ride up on my nuts

Night After

Court Jester Effigy (Novosk RMX)

Court Jester Effigy ft. Biv [novosk RMX]

I promise this is the last time I say these hurtful words. I promise this is the last time I suck the life out of both of you and relish in it.

PROD: @KOROSARETA99 + @NOVOSK + @C3OF + @ZYROM
MIX: @ZYROM
ART: @C3OF

LYRICS:
[VERSE]
I was young and afraid wasn't ready yet to turn the page
Start a chapter
With my bleeding heart
Sabotage what's next made you fall apart
Sitting underneath the rafters
Let the rain splash
I'm drenched before the first line is written
Too attached to you but too afraid to just admit it
Sent mixed signals on a freeway made of love
Sorry that I put a brick wall when push came to shove
Treat you like a star then gave you empty space when you needed warmth
I did not preform my parts I left you scared and confused
No excuse made you used can't refuse to admit it but that's the way it always goes
Swallow pride and ego I'm so scared to get this off my chest
My biggest problem is I want you all to like me
Overcompensate and lie to make you happy
Promise me you'll never let this disappointment speak

[HOOK]X2
Promise this the last time
Promise there's no next time
Promise that I'll break the promise two more times again
Promise me you'll never give me one more chance

[VERSE]
Wasted moments could've been something didn't let it happen
Didn't make things clear let you move on
Gave you migraines size of a tumor
Stole from your smile little bit of ill humor
Sorry that I turned my muse to a tool
All I did was write sad songs in my room
Now I got a best friend not a soul mate get so jealous when you live life in a good way
Play my sorry tunes on a glass violin filled with tar
No amount of therapy will make this soul the opposite of charred
No surprise I never listened made you sick
Used your words as instrumentals never cared I'm a narcissist
I hope you're happy
That's all I ever wanted
For both of you
I tried my best I'm sorry
Now promise me you'll go out there and do better than I ever possibly could

[HOOK]X2
Promise this the last time
Promise there's no next time
Promise that I'll break the promise two more times again
Promise me you'll never give me one more chance

Vocal sample taken from "Grim Fandango" (1998)by LucasArts

One Last Promise II

One Last Promise II [prod. korosareta + novosk + saint sleep + zyrom]

A liar to the world.

REMIX: @WITHLOVEFROMKAIN
MIX: @ZYROM
ART: @C3OF

LYRICS:
[HOOK]x4
You're special
You're shining
I'm desolate
I'm restless
You're perfect
I'm worthless
Determined
To lie

[VERSE]
I don't know
What to do
Without you
You're my muse
You're my love
Someone that I have to compare to when everything is rough
I don't know
What to do
When I'm stuck
Cause you could care less if I lied about my life
Just a sprinkle of it flick the lighter and inhale like a cigarette

[HOOK]x6
You're special
You're shining
I'm desolate
I'm restless
You're perfect
I'm worthless
Determined
To lie

Burden of Dreams (Kain RMX)

Burden of Dreams [kain RMX]

BOOM! (TAKIZAVA SAMPLE CHALLENGE) [3RD]

"ANESTHESIA"

produced by @deadfave
mixed by @zyrom & @the0000
mastered by @zyrom
cover by @the0000

Thank you so much for all the support I got this year, I can't wait to show you all what I've been cooking next year :) Enjoy the holidays if you do celebrate them. 

lyrics :

Time slips through my fingers
As I'm looking for answers
While I dissociate
That's where all my demons occurs

Memories in pieces
Laying down the floor inside my mind
Hiding my many faces
I bear not any smiles behind

I never controlled anything
I fuck up at the worst timing
I always watch them leaving
I always end up grieving

Popping pills to keep me calm
As the years accumulate 
They multiply inside my palm
I hope that it's not too late

Im still afraid
Alone
I ache

Am I awake ?
Atone
I’ll make

My fate await
Outgrown
I’m late

My mind decayed
Disown
I break

OUT NOW EVERYWHERE!

anesthesia [prod. dead fave]

TEEN

I'm completely normal I swear.

Rip GW, Skevious Tips, Kalpa, Dj Sammy P & 19.Thou$and

banner / pfp by saint sleep & miyorator

Burden of Dreams [kain RMX]

Saint Sleep

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