i started this like a month ago for a project thing and i finished it today so its up now
this was going to be a collab but then i forgot and did more and its a solo oops

lyrics

I refuse to sit around and watch my life run out
I need to do something more but I’m all burnt out
I’ve been tryna make a difference but the world hurts
But if I sit around all day it only gets worse for me

It only gets worse for me
Feels like my life is counting down like one two three
Relying on ecstasy
I wanna get out I just wanna be free

Its kinda tough for me to open up again
Dont know if its worth it I just want it to end
I dont wanna fuck with metaphors no more
Wanna tell it how it is and stop hurting in my core


I just want it to be done
I’m sick of breathing
I’m just used by everyone
I’m done believing

Its to hard to tell
If its real or if its not
Everything is complicated
I might just sit here in my spot
But

I could be uncomfortable
I could be uncomfortable

Is it real is it not
Im just stuck here in my spot
And while the world keeps moving on
Im just stuck here making songs
You dont know the half of it
I think im nearly done with it
I couldn’t really give a shit


I dont wanna fuck with metaphors no more
Wanna tell it how it is and stop hurting in my core
Wanna
Make use of the tools that ive got and I
Dont want to waste the time that ive got and I
Keep running in circles 
Wasting my time and losing all of my inertia


I dont wanna fuck with metaphors no more
Wanna tell it how it is and stop hurting in my core

I just want it to be done
I’m sick of breathing
I’m just used by everyone
I’m done believing

I just want it to be done
I’m sick of breathing
I’m just used by everyone
I’m done believing

Is it real is it not
Im just stuck here in my spot
And while the world keeps moving on
Im just stuck here making songs
You dont know the half of it
I think im nearly done with it
I couldn’t really give a shit

metaphors

F.O.L.L.OW T.H.E L.E.A.D.E.R (prod. sachy)

this deadass the fastest song ive made, the beat was that fire

lyrics:
Yeah i’ll be alright
We’re running out of time
I’ll let my soul rest up, for my head though
It’s all i know
You know i’m feelin down at what you do, oh

Yeah your smiles were dreamlike
I was watching you in the fuckin starlight
Yeah you know what we’re waiting for

I’m starin at my phone now 
You hit my snapchat
One day i will tell you all about the times i've lived
They’re in my heart, yeah
But all these scars will never tell me why i don’t get along with life
Someday i will find out why
I promise that i’ll try

And what i’m looking for
Is something you will not know
Cuz i’m so used to being alone by myself
I cannot live with the truth
Of being so far from you, cuz i can’t leave this mood 

I’m always salty
You waste all my time
To love i’ll make it
You try to break it 
But you will never break me down this time

I’m starin at my phone now 
You hit my snapchat
One day i will tell you all about the times i've lived
They’re in my heart, yeah
But all these scars will never tell me why i don’t get along with life
Someday i will find out why
I promise that i’ll try

tell me why (ruan x chrismarek)

Thirty𝟥1

Lyrics -
Hit the bassline
I've been tryna cope, tryna waste time
Don't know what to think and I can't even catch no sleep at night
Everybody lying to me I don't know whats real, no
I can't even care no more, I'm on the line like tightrope
x2
Same shit like every day
I'm just getting tired of it
Tryna waste away
I just want to get out of this
state of mind
always feeling trapped inside
Grass is burning on my side
Think I'm barely alive, uh
I'm just waiting for the flatline
Feels like I've waiting to get out, waiting for my time
Some days, wake up, I don't wanna be alive
all my music steady getting worse (just fucking quit then)

Wastetime (happytears)

la daronne veut fuir notre hlm pour un autre hlm
mais zincou j'suis comme zuko j'lui dis qu'on va s'en sortir
j'veux quitter cette vie misereuse sur mes bras ya vla des chaines
sur leur cou y'a vla des chaines, ils sont devant mais moi jsuis hors piste

j'me rappelle au lycée jreclamais des croutes de panini
la go elle kiffe la gucci cap mais elle est fausse jsuis pas si riche
la daronne nous ramene des restes sans ca j'ai le ventre vide
sous alcool j'me vois comme eux entrain de rock du amiri

Mon enfance des cris et du sang, j'fuyais vers madrigal
j'mange trop peu, heureusement j'suis pas normal sinon j'serais cannibale

grinding all night long, i go to sleep when the sun is already out 
i spent all my night in the dark, so lonely i need u right now
i don't show u i care but i look for u when i'm back in town
you ask me if i'm fine but with u i don't have the same frown

jme rappelle la derniere fois j'l'ai vue deux heures j'étais deg de partir
j'reve de temps avec toi, cette vie moi j'peux qu'la hair
j'men veux pour cope j'passe mes days d'vant des animes
a part le fictif y'a rien qui m'anime

des que je zone out j'scroll des webtoons
y'en a qui m'idolent j'fais juste du son de bedroom
parfois j'ai peur de dire mes secrets quand j'suis tout chétou
la dep la par la schiz meuf j'te comprends j'ai tout

Mon enfance des cris et du sang, j'fuyais vers madrigal
j'mange trop peu, heureusement j'suis pas normal sinon j'serais cannibale

grinding all night long, i go to sleep when the sun is already out 
i spent all my night in the dark, so lonely i need u right now
i don't show u i care but i look for u when i'm back in town
you ask me if i'm fine but with u i don't have the same frown

tout ltemps j'dépense quand j'recompte ma kich
mais j'm'en veux pas car bcp j'investis
j'bois trop mais j'ai pas l'zen dans la piche
autour de moi que des vrais, pelo rien qu'j'fais l'tri

j'kiffe ma life y'a aucun regret
j'avance comme si y'avait zero stress
on avance meme quand personne le sait
j'ai appris a remonter seul en cas de sos

back in town

Back In Town (Prod. GAXILLIC & KEYNETT)

[R-Rated]
I got couple bitches
In my basement
Creepy mfs in the back try to catch me
Try to catch me (nah they just zombies)
Blow my brains out then give her a france kiss (😘)

Blow my head and eat my brain yeah
Blow my head and eat my brain yeah
Blow my head and eat my brain yeah
Yeah im a fiend cause i give them girls cocaine 

Like im living in a movie
Things looking like a mess
I think i need to get out
Everything looks like a nightmare i don't wanna go there
I don't wanna go there

too many drugs and heartbreak now im stuck in my head
still see her face when im fucking bitches in my bed 
i make her bed rock then she give me small talk
Say she want a headlock
Freaky like Sonic the Hedgehog

Bitch u left my chest a hole
Maybe that's the reason i don't fucking with no hoes
Maybe that's the reason i don't fucking with nobody
Got nobody but this flow
Pop the pills im alone (damn)

wake up to fking nightmare 
I just wanna blow my brains off
Um i just need somebody in this planet i can count on
Call me hell boy don't fuck with me if u are lame
Call me hell boy don't fuck with me if u are lame
Fuck my life its a R-rated movie
And it end like a nightmare yeah
(im going crazy)

Lil sJeep - R - Rated🧟‍♂️(prod. breakupbreakdown + mycorpsebride)

cover by liiv
instrumental by KhaTo Guitar on youtube
song creds + original work goes to brakence

metaphors

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