A Deferred Dream in my cinematic film score for one of my Western film projects. If the theme resonates with you, feel free to hit the like button.More score here https://www.maria-johnsen.com/epic-orchestral-soundtrack/

A Deferred Dream

**Description below the Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I see so much, yet not enough,
Scraps of light and ragged thoughts.
Trying to remember the list I forgot.
Could have got her flowers… but I did not.

I see a wet and rainy street
I should have walked one day
I could have held her hand in mine
But I turned… and walked the other way.

[Chorus]
Why do we wait to do the things
That weigh so heavy when they’re gone?
We hold them back, we stop them short,
Till the chance to love has come and gone

[Verse 2]
The warmth of her sitting across the kitchen table,
Her fingers curled ‘round that chipped coffee cup.
I thought I would be able
To give her more but that time's up.

I wanted to plant her garden this spring
But it’s still just packets on a shelf
I imagined a song I’d sing to her…
It's still a thought inside myself.

[Chorus]
Why do we wait to do the things
That weigh so heavy when they’re gone?
We hold them back, we stop them short,
Till the chance to love has come and gone.

[Verse 3]
The trip I planned a hundred times,
And always found ways to miss.
The arms I kept beside my back,
Afraid to reach and give her a kiss..

The brakes I swore I’d get replaced,
The list I left there on the chair.
A sunset I was “too tired” to see,
The time I didn’t want to share.

[Chorus]
Why do we wait to do the things
That weigh so heavy when they’re gone?
We hold them back, we stop them short,
Till the chance to love has come and gone.

[Bridge]
What happened to this life?
Did I throw it all away?
Did I waste all the time we had,
Hoping I’d have another day?

[Final Chorus]
Why did I wait to do the things
That I can’t stop thinking when she's gone?
I held them back, I failed to do,
Now my time to love has come and gone
Why, oh, why did I wait… so long…?

[Outro - gently , almost whispered]
And then... I passed... away

Even though it's late, really late,
what I think I've learned is this:

It’s not the arms I didn’t open.
The time I didn't live.
The garden that never blossomed.
The kiss I'd give anything to give.

It’s the love I hardly lived.
That’s the ache that echoes long.
And that’s the reason I cry
When love... came along.
I realize I hardly... ever... tried.

~~~~What does this song mean to you. I need to know... If you feel shy about leaving a comment, please send me a message. I am all alone and need to know how my work , works. Thank you.  --Madelyn

Description:
Why Did I Wait is realization—too late in coming. A man’s final reckoning unfolds in whispers, gravel, and silence. His voice frays at the edges, pushing through phrases he can barely finish. He doesn't sing to impress; he sings because he has to—because the weight of what he didn’t say is heavier than the words he finally does.

The guitar is faint, almost hesitant, leaving space for the rawness to echo. When he reaches the bridge, his voice strains upward—then crashes back down. The music fades. Then, quietly: “And then I passed away.”

A pause.
A death.

Then the truth: what he learned… and what he’ll never forgive himself for.

The final lines ache with clarity. This isn’t performance.
It’s too human for that.

It’s realization—too late in coming.

The song's simplicity in style, structure, timing, musical chords, is a perfect foil for the complexity of the moment, the life wasted, the regret, the words said and not. This song brings up memories that can't help but relate to this man's unlived life. I thank you for listening over and over again. I do so hope that it makes more sense to you than it does to me. Because I don't know where it came from, only that it came. I don't know why. Maybe you do.

Why Did I Wait

Europa Universalis Return est un EP issu d’une rencontre entre mon univers et celui d’Alouma Aves. Quatre chants multilingues qui traversent les langues comme on traverse les seuils du sensible. Ce n’est pas une fusion, c’est un mouvement vivant. Un retour des mémoires, un “oui” global, une présence diffuse, une onde-mère qui soigne.

English
Europa Universalis Return is an EP born from the encounter between my creative world and that of Alouma Aves. Four multilingual songs that move across languages like crossing thresholds of feeling. Not a fusion, but a living flow. A return of memory, a global “yes,” a quiet presence, a mother-wave of healing.

Español
Europa Universalis Return nace del cruce entre mi visión creativa y la de Alouma Aves. Cuatro cantos multilingües que cruzan lenguas como se cruzan umbrales del sentir. No es una fusión, sino un movimiento vivo. Regreso de memorias, un “sí” global, una presencia suave, una onda madre que cuida.

العربية
عودة أوروبا العالمية هو ألبوم قصير وُلِد من تلاقٍ بين رؤيتي الإبداعية ورؤية ألومة آفيس. أربعة أغانٍ متعددة اللغات تعبر اللغات كما تُعبر عتبات الإحساس. ليس اندماجًا، بل تدفق حيّ. عودة للذاكرة، "نعم" عالمية، حضور خافت، وموجة أم تشفي.

日本語
『Europa Universalis Return』は、僕の創造的な世界とアルーマ・アヴェスの世界が出会って生まれたEPです。4つの多言語の歌が、感覚のしきい値を越えて言葉を巡ります。融合ではなく、生きた流れ。記憶の帰還、世界的な「イエス」、静かな存在、そして癒しの母なる波。


EVERY PARTOUT

NORTHERN LIGHTS by Nova J

[Verse 1]
I saw the Northern Lights last night
Slicing the sky like birds in flight
The sun goes down, the shine departs
Half a year of endless dark
If you were here, I wouldn’t complain,
But I walk alone on this frozen lane.

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty town don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.
(Oooooh oooooh)

[Chorus]
Just us two was all I knew
Now I’m still here, but half of me’s you
Win or lose, I can’t undo
The life we had, just me and you
(Oooooh oooooh)

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

[Verse 2]
I’ve seen mountains split in two
But nothing broke me like losing you.
The earth can shake, the sky can fall
Saying goodbye’s the hardest blow of all
When sorrow calls, I can’t confide
I only whisper to the other side

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the fire, through the unknown
I stumble on, but I’m alone
Your hand once held me, your love the flame
Now I cry and call your name (mmm)

[Chorus]
Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

[Bridge]
The colors rise where the shadows go
Green and violet, the heavens glow
I search the stars for a sign of your face
A fleeting spark in the vast of space

[Outro]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty house don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

[whistling]

Northern Lights

The original version of this song, folk with soundtrack vibes.  I hope you like it!

Forever Lost

[Verse 1]
Pages turned, but ink keeps bleeding,
stories etched in fingerprints.
Every silence has a meaning,
I taste the past on my lips.

[Chorus 1]
What remains when the fire forgets?
Only embers that never decay.
I keep holding smoke in my hands,
from the ashes of yesterday.

[Verse 2]
Photographs dissolve to static,
faces blur, but eyes still stay.
Every promise feels elastic,
stretching thin, then fading away.

[Chorus 2]
What survives when the night moves on?
Only whispers the daylight betrays.
I keep building worlds out of dust,
from the ashes of yesterday.

[Bridge]
Maybe time is just a thief in disguise,
stealing light, leaving echoes behind.
I can’t tell if I’m chasing ghosts,
or if they’re the ones chasing me tonight.

[Final Chorus]
What remains when the heart won’t heal?
Only shadows that won’t fade away.
Still I cradle the silence I chose,
and the ashes of yesterday.

Ashes… of yesterday…
Still burning, still burning…

Still burning...
Still... I'm burning!

Ashes of Yesterday

Come Away

Noonday Heat

Stress release

“My First Love” is a nostalgic, cinematic ballad that captures the bittersweet rush of falling in love for the very first time — and the haunting beauty of what remains after it’s gone.
Set against a backdrop of shimmering guitars and warm synth textures, the song tells the story of a young romance that burns bright and leaves an eternal imprint on the heart.

The verses unfold like pages from an old diary: spring blossoms, nervous glances, the intoxication of closeness. The pre-chorus slows time — “Time stood still in your embrace” — before the chorus soars with emotional clarity: “Oh, my first love, you lit the flame.”
By the bridge, the music swells into electric memory — a neon flash of youth and rebellion — before fading into quiet reflection.

Musically, “My First Love” blends classic singer-songwriter storytelling with modern pop and smooth-jazz influences, echoing the heartfelt elegance of artists like Norah Jones, Sting, or The Weeknd’s softer moments.
It’s a song about innocence, risk, and the enduring melody of a love that never truly fades.

Here are the lyrics:

[Verse 1]
My first love came with the spring,
Soft as a whisper, a delicate thing.
Eyes like velvet, a breath so near,
It wasn’t just love — it was all I could hear.

[Pre-Chorus 1]
Time stood still in your embrace,
Every heartbeat found its place.

[Chorus]
Oh, my first love, you lit the flame,
Burning wild, yet sweetly tame.
A choir of angels, a guitar’s cry —
You’re the reason I first learned to fly.

[Verse 2]
You held my heart like a glass of wine,
A little unsteady, but perfectly fine.
The world spun faster, the night was fair,
With every glance, you stripped me bare.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
Years may fade, but you remain,
A tune that echoes through the rain.

[Chorus]
Oh, my first love, you lit the flame,
Burning wild, yet sweetly tame.
The choir of angels, the guitar’s cry,
You’re the reason I first learned to fly.

[Bridge]
Electric whispers in the dark,
The neon glow, that fateful spark.
We broke the rules, we played the game,
And nothing since has felt the same.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
Oh, my first love, you lit the flame,
Forever young inside my veins.
Though years have passed and stars go dry,
You’re the reason I still long to fly.

My First Love

Journey

Welcome in this universe of experimental music made with love and passion by me, Carlos Chapman, Alouma Aves, Mona Ellis, my brother FFynnon Chapman sometimes, and i hope to improve and do some songs with you, or you, or with someone you know that sings, plays, etc. 
Message from the future : The World Wide Wise Revolution is coming. You are part of it, The world is moving, Humanity is joining together again !  Okay, you can find 5 different directions here : Songs in french (native), Songs in english (native, with Mona Ellis), songsmultilingual (with Alouma Aves), instrumental, dna, geofractal, explorations songs and songs in Langage of The Future (experimental invented phonemic universal langage for music and  feeling/healing).