aweee casppyyy you and not home did amazing on this wtf, i really like (ik im listening to it late LOL)

The Upload

Ivan B, Zeegs - Where Everything Ends

this song was inspired/interpolated from a softheart type beat i found on youtube, please go give some love to w1nter/shy: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChPhqiihr2QL0nMOr5FmlbQ

New Terrain

featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

Get You Back (Thomas Reid, cøzybøy, Jomie)

Walk Out That Door

Tracy Grimm X SpaceMan Zack - Walk Out That Door

@nevrfall
i love @heylog so much, he's an amazing person c:
lyrics:
(casperrr)
moving away as my body collapse
half a day and i already smoked half a pack
i smell the chemicals burning in my hand
i need to change this i need to take a stand
all of the promises u made they didn't worth nothing
while u ran ur mouth ur actions didn't prove anything
u still wanna tell me that i am lying
do u really wanna tell me that i am lying

AND THIS IS FUNNY CAUSE THE PROMISES ARE STUCK IN THE WALLS
U TREAT ME WRONG AND I STILL PICK U UP EVERYTIME U FALL
I GET DEPRESSED AND I SHUT MYSELF FROM WINTER TO FALL
I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT SEE WHATS REAL I JUST SEE fog
FOGGY MEMORIES IN MY BRAIN HELP ME REMEMBER
WHAT WAS THE THING THAT TRAUMATIZED ME LAST DECEMBER
CUZ I TOOK IT OUT OF MY HEAD
I KNOW I WISHED EVERYDAY FOR DEATH
I WAS GETTING SO MAD
I WAS GETTING SO FED UP

(heylog)
u made me mad, i called but u won't answer
don't speak to me like that where are your manners
it's hard when life just sucks, is it supposed to?
deteriorate non stop what am i s'posed to do
u hate on me now when i didn't do a thing
u love causing ruckus and it's concerning
but i kill the vibe is that why u hate me
i won't give u shit or anything

is it safe to say that i miss u
forgot what it's like to kiss u
i'm sorry u had to tell me what u been through
if u need me i'll be here for u
forgot what ur face looks like, it's been a day
leaving ur house but i can't drive away
arriving home and it don't feel the same
without u here, it feels so plain

promises w/heylog (nevrfall)

lyrics:

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

I could do it all perfect and they’d still need more
I already quit once I won’t hide no more
Its lonely in ur head and I need the bottle to survive here
There are no fucking breaks I chose the path and ill die here
Oh u miss my pain well here’s the pain now clap
This shit feel the same as on that bridge when I had snapped
Eat ur fucking food u better enjoy it it cost souls
Im sitting in my room at 2am just drunk and stoned
Of course were all a bit fucked up that’s how it goes
But my job relies on being fucked up to go gold
The stress destroys me quickly but they love it so I stomach it
Abusing all this shit inside my body im in love with it
I cant hold relationships cause my body doesn’t work right
She touch me on my chest her hand went numb and she got frostbite
I been broken forever so u can treat me how u deem right
Vomit on my sweater Im throwing up because it feel nice
Its only right I give my wounds time to heal yea yea
I thought 150mg of Zoloft pills might help
I was wrong I was cursed from my birth I swear
This aint shit to fix with cigarettes and dyeing hair
I been out my mind since I got back on my meds
I cant even fuck or feel emotions in my head
I feel so alone inside this home that I built
This shit been my life every day it dont feel real

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love
Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

i start to rust (eric godlow)

Chasing horizons we never could reach
Let's just be happy that we have each other to be
Fall, collapse on me
Hopefully you won't back at me

There is a serpent I met while at sea
"I'll always find a way in" is what he said to me
Sometimes he just needs to eat
Don't let him clap on a feet

When you lose hope
You still have a home
Right here with me

The path water flows
Despite what we know
You're perfect to me

And you land on your feet
Biting your teeth
Friends tend to leave
With the good memories
Keep you glued to the beat
Keep you glued to your seat

Seasons change with the leaf
Despite all the changes
Despite all the wheat
Despite what you see
You'll be perfect to me

I can repair you in time
Please, at least let me try
You're all I need
All I need

Lost in the night
Right by my side
Is the other part of me

garbage

u are perfect to me

sewerperson - u are perfect to me *cover* (tom bailey)

Lyrics:
[Intro]
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
To all these people that flaming me (To all these people that flaming me)
You think you got a lot of fucking good opinions (You don't)
Huh, don't you (Don't you)
And I don't give a shit about your feelings (Nah, I don't), I chose to
My friend pop a couple beans and now we up the ceiling (Give a shit)
You guys are crazy
My friends friend pop xans till he get to sleeping
Damn, you guys scare me (Yeah, yeah)

[Verse 1]
Knock on that door, fucking kick it that door
Thought this was a party, I'm drunk from before
She solo and sour from scattered the floor
You guys still going, I'm ready to go
Man what are you on, I've been talking to the ghosts
I swear they take anything, I do the most
End of the night man, it's not even close
We ordered the uber it came in a ghost

[Chorus]
Ghost (Ghost, Ghost, Ghost), yeah
I've been talking to the ghost (Yeah, yeah)
It said we all in some fucking trouble
Because we wrecked earth way to go, ayy
Most (Most), yeah
Swear, y'all do the most (Do the most)
Rolling woods and I roll another
Got the house smelling real gross (Fucking gross)
Ghost (Ghost), yeah
I've been talking to the ghost, yeah
It said we all in some fucking trouble
Because we wrecked earth way to go, ayy
Most (Most), yeah
Swear, y'all do the most (Do the most)
Rolling woods and I roll another
Got the house smelling real gross (Fucking gross)

[Verse 2]
Got a man but wanna text more
At a party that she need a nice dress for (Yeah)
You looking lame why the fuck you wear a vest for (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Looking icy in the dress shorts, no
Haven't talk bout a month now
She updated on my life via SoundCloud (SoundCloud)
Im frustrated with the way things worked out (Yeah)
If I'd pushed for it, we'd be doing good now (We'd be doing good now)
Gatorade frost and a beef patty (Yeah)
I make music but the rest of me is mad average
It's too cold to go out so I'm always making music (Yeah)
And I think it gave me mad leverage (Mad leverage)
Smoking on skunk
I feel like a zero
And I'm on my ones (I'm on my ones)
I feel like relaxing
That's all that I've done
I've been too busy, not giving a fuck (Not giving a fuck)

[Bridge]
Smoking on skunk
I feel like a zero
And I'm on my ones
I feel like relaxing
That's all that I've done (Yeah)
I've been too busy, not giving a fuck (Not giving a fuck)
Smoking on skunk (Yeah, yeah)
I feel like a zero
And I'm on my ones
I feel like relaxing
That's all that I've done
I've been too busy, not giving a fuck
(Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah)

[Chorus]
Ghost (Ghost, ghost, ghost)
I've been talking to the ghost (Yeah, yeah)
It said we all in some fucking trouble
Because we wrecked earth way to go, ayy
Most (Most), yeah
Swear, y'all do the most (Do the most)
Rolling woods and I roll another
Got the house smelling real gross (Fucking Gross)
Ghost (Ghost), yeah
I've been talking to the ghost
It said we all in some fucking trouble
Because we wrecked earth way to go, ayy
Most (Most), yeah
Swear, y'all do the most (Do the most)
Rolling woods and I roll another
Got the house smelling real gross (Fucking gross)

9TAILS - ghost (prod. light blending in)

[Intro]
I'm not doing as good, as I really wanted to at the start
(Beam me up Scotty)
I'll probably fucking die in the next few months or something with my luck

[Chorus]
Hopeless nights tend to forget about the sickness till it's time
When I'm rid of all the fucking pharmaceuticals or prescriptions
Sliding through the real world on vomit from my system
What the fuck is wrong with my life
I'm weaning off of everything that kept me sane at night
Every scrape or cut or bruise or sore is cancer in my mind
Preemptive sick days you never know when you might die (RIP)

[Verse 1]
When you might die about a thousand fucking ways to do it everyday of life
Not a fucking lie there's shows about it on spike
Danger's real and it exists inside your mind (Fucking mind)
I don't give a fuck if you pay me, no royalties make it easy
Put every purchase on my Visa my food money could buy a Mercedes
Miles don't give a fuck and they praise me (Oh), minor fevers might phase me
Haven't ate in a couple days, so even shit could look tasty (Yuh)
Puking in a Starbucks bathroom, then I order from the menu
Organize loose plans, so they fall through
I'm really good at cancelling when I want to
At this point I don't know if I want you
Really good at fucking up when I got you
Really good at dodging everything about truth
If the book of lies exist I'll make a part two (Okay, okay)

[Chorus]
Hopeless nights tend to forget about the sickness till it's time
When I'm rid of all the fucking pharmaceuticals or prescriptions
Sliding through the real world on vomit from my system
What the fuck is wrong with my life
I'm weaning off of everything that kept me sane at night
Every scrape or cut or bruise or sore is cancer in my mind
Preemptive sick days you never know when you might die

[Verse 2]
What is this scene, I don't wanna fucking die
I'll make music about awaking to the smell of apple pie (Shit is yummy)
There's no clout in here if you're enjoying life
I don't fuck with anyone who uses sadness as a high
All emotions are my vice, firm relationships I like
I got molten lava touch if you want talk about something fire
Put piano in rewind and I can spit verses all night
I can tell you life is shit in songs it doesn't make it right
I've had friends I like a lot, but I drop them out of spite
If I block out all the guilt bet I could ghost them over night (I'll fucking ghost)
I'll fucking ghost, I'll fucking ghost (Overnight)
Okay, okay, okay

[Chorus]
Hopeless nights tend to forget about the sickness till it's time
When I'm rid of all the fucking pharmaceuticals or prescriptions
Sliding through the real world on vomit from my system
What the fuck is wrong with my life
I'm weaning off of everything that kept me sane at night
Every scrape or cut or bruise or sore is cancer in my mind
Preemptive sick days you never know when you might die (Fucking die)

9TAILS - liar (prod. scottysplash)

sewerperson - winded (eric godlow)

Closure

Ooooh
Wanna pour out my whole heart to u

Noooo

Trust i put in u
But i always lose 

Snow 
Cold on my feet
Think I’ll have to retreat
Back into the woods
Where I’ll find my reprieve 

Reprieve oh
Gone are the days 
When i used to talk brightly 

Conceive no 
One understands 
I don’t wanna go lightly 

Believe no one 
When they say
That they wanna take your hand 

shit dont go to plan
dont think i can stand 


2008 low
I’m sittin watchin the rain
Be careful when u reminisce
Because u might go insane low 

I think im a case in point  
Dont think when i my joint nah 
Cuz id rather be high 
Then face my own demise

The faultless sky 
What do you do 
When you see such beauty

Dont wanna tell u why
I stopped talking 
This lifes too moody

For me 
Is it for you too
U adored me 
Now i wont come through nah 





Reprieve (Prod. Dead Spyro)

lyrics:

chemical love
i thought i was old news
i guess i was right
where were u fights
the frequency rised
girl i know u fucked him
u dont have to lie

now all the things u said u aint mean em
and it hurts my heart
u knew what u doing was deceiving but u carried on
75% percent of me is demons but they mean no harm
theyre just tryna shape me while im breathing but shes too alarmed
u said ur decisions deal with reason
then what the fuck is this
u left me too rot inside ur wounds cause ur a piece of shit
i should come and kill you oh ur lucky im at peace with it
i should come and show u what it feel like when u hate to live

half the people here aint make it out in time
the water took their life
underwater i cant breath but fuck i feel alive
still i let u waste my time
and for what
i aint got shit to show but my slime wrapped guts
numbing inside my room
and i like it
oh when the runes come take my soul
i dont fight it
i work hard
i work fast
and in silence
looking up at 4 oclock
like where had the time went
drunk
ya im drunk again
still im tryna lie again
she not dumb
she find out and she just sigh again
2oclock
in the night
could you call me
could you help
could you save me 
from the state im in

now all the things u said u aint mean em
and it hurts my heart
u knew what u doing was deceiving but u carried on
75% percent of me is demons but they mean no harm
theyre just tryna shape me while im breathing but shes too alarmed
u said ur decisions deal with reason
then what the fuck is this
u left me too rot inside ur wounds cause ur a piece of shit
i should come and kill you oh ur lucky im at peace with it
i should come and show u what it feel like when u hate to live
u said ur decision deal with logic
im not buying it
i just gave my heart to her before she started frying it
u said i should focus on the present i been trying it
so far it aint working but im fine with it

we live underwater (killedmyself)

Stream

let go (ft. 916frosty)

lyrics:

really im amazed really im amazed
I spent my whole life inside this cold state
now I change pace
we both know that u could never say the same

New friends turn to old friends to new hate
And old friends either close friends or good fakes
I scrub my brain with a toothebrush to purge hate
If U aint with me u against me or u two faced
In this life i could go one of only two ways
Old names on my tongue would leave a bad taste
Old names in my phone carry that heavy weight
Old names in phone keep getting erased
Oh u love me but u hate me im like true say
Guess u buddy up at night and leave a new day
I move miles in my mind without a suitcase
Apartment walls with cigarette smell and white paste
This life is fast u might just miss it if u look away
I feel im driving past a scene that’s in a foot race
I know they recognize me but we don’t see the same face
I been eating every day but I aint gain weight

Oh u think im dead and gone well that’s a myth
I have shaky hands but I have never missed
I spent my whole life just working up to this
If u think ull rob me of it think again
If u think ull rob me of it think again
Id knock down the door if they don’t let me in
I know u thought Id take an L but this my second wind

Im going way too hard every night
Drank in my cup double up get ice
I could see in a room with no lights
Fire in his heart make it turn to ice
This shit hitting hard like it always does
Told me im on top but I always was
U aint got the strength to carry on
Guess u made a home in the mud
Ya im too lit now
U shoulda never dug me up
And u aint on shit now
Truth be told u never really was

Oh u think im dead and gone well that’s a myth
I have shaky hands but I have never missed
I spent my whole life just working up to this
If u think ull rob me of it think again
If u think ull rob me of it think again
Id knock down the door if they don’t let me in
I know u thought Id take an L but this my second wind

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

casperrr

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