prod me 
demo , didn't make it onto @holdmetillicry

im feeling sick
i can't wake up or feel again
it's another thing that'll make me dead
and all those messages u sent
i don't think i'll open all ur txts
i rly hate u
but i love u
but ur just so damn fucking weird
i might go and kill myself tomorrow
just to hope that you'll be near

i feel the sorrow
i can't sleep right
i could go and kill myself like tonight
spent my life in bed
i can't even cope
all i do is smoke
god i'm such a joke

i really wish that you could see
but i know you'll never notice me
i feel so goddamn incomplete
i'll end up dead in a few weeks

i really wish that i could see you everyday
but i know i'll only feel
just a certain type of way
i know i wanna keep u safe
baby please just be okay
i really wanna fucking kill you just so things go all my way

oh i'm so fucked
i'm cursed
and it really fucking hurts
i'm scared
oh i'm so doomed
or worse

and i'll never know
if it's meant to be
or if i'm the worst
i think i'm the worst
and i'll never know
if it's a gift or a curse
or if i'm the worst
i'm the worst, i'm the worst, i'm the worst




i think i'm the worst

i wasn't meant to be here and i'll be gone with time

i think i'm the worst

cat named chris