if only

I think I might die alone, my head full of Styrofoam
I'm so empty, don't tempt me, might put a bullet right
Between my eyes, grasp for hope, in this broken home
Need a antidote, for my rotting, rotting soul

I see disgust in my mother's eyes
is this the child she raised, trying my best, oh lord, how It aches

Grasp for hope, in this broken home
Need a antidote for this rotting soul
Your heart's made out of stone
The wind oh its freezing cold
I'm scared there is no were to go
I sink deeper, oh, in this hole

Oh, you're happy on your own
That's why I can't leave you alone

I'll haunt you when you're dead, I'm haunt you, dreaming in your bed
I'm a rotting soul, losing all control, I can't let you go
Ran out of my love, never enough, I blame the drugs
I'm an empty shell, you know

Grasp for hope, in this broken home
Need a antidote for this rotting soul
Your heart's made out of stone
The wind oh its freezing cold
I'm scared there is no were to go
I sink deeper, oh, in this hole

I'm an empty shell
Couldn't see how far I fell
Put me in a comatose
Leave me there to sleep in an endless dream
As I walk this lonely road
Still read every word she wrote
Burn every photograph
Think about the past, my head running laps

Grasp for hope, in this broken home
Need a antidote, for this rotting soul  

Grasp for hope, in this broken home
Need a antidote for this rotting soul
Your heart's made out of stone
The wind oh its freezing cold
I'm scared there is no were to go
I sink deeper, oh, in this hole

Grasp for hope, in this broken home
Need a antidote for my rotting soul

GRASP FOR HOPE prod. @lostangel @jaysset

think i'm leaving soon
tears fall with the rain 
dig into my wounds 
make me feel the pain 

look up to the moon 
cut up, bloody stains 
i was born in June 
i will die in vain 

gashes in my flesh 
from all that they say 
i will rot in cess 
it's the only way 

feel like i'm possessed 
i am not okay 
i am so depressed 
i am led astray 

yuh, yuh
i am led astray
yuh, yuh
make me feel the pain

Sometimes,IWishIWasn'tAliveAtAll (prod. MEATCLEAVER)

ethers

this EP is mainly about the darkest thought someone can have in the back of their head and how much of a desperate attempt they'll do to feel "love" / it depicts how someone's thoughts can get if they don't get what they want / in this case it's some sort of affection or love that they wanna feel.

soul bound

lyrics: 

cause i tried to
to let you know
and I feel lost
and so confused

i feel its you
conflicted
I feel it's me

but it's not 
it's not

i feel so terrified
from myself
you think I'm a game
but I'm not

conflicted / alone

spotify

conflicted

gray

around & around

lyrics:

look at me again
swear you're upset with me
it won't take long
for you to get mad

this is the price i pay
for falling in love
there's no other escape
i can't run away from this

look at me again
it won't take long 
for you to get mad


it won't take long

Lyrics:
AHHH
They’re failing me
AHHH
They’re failing me

A sky of static, bleeding grey
while My thoughts and I decay
A ghost inside my skin remains
Wired wrong, my circuits break

The mirror melts, I fade to black
My heartbeat here’s under attack
These molecules, they twist and turn
These chemicals why do they burn

Neon floods behind my eyes
I’m not broken, I’m designed
Addicted to the dopamine
These chemicals are failing me

Failing me
Failing Me
Failing me
They’re Failing Me

CHEMICALS

lyrics:

holy fractures in the sky it's over
crying from the sight of the angels
every day they told me it was over
just gave me more reason to soldier on
and wipe the tears away
oh i've just been dreaming of her face again

close your eyes cuz it's over now
i will take your hand in death
a love that's louder than every sound
will take its final breath

look to the sky i'm amazed now
as i'm watching all the lightning crash down
yeah that's just how i live with the rain out
baby's riding in the backseat passed out
pistol in my pocket, i'm a ranger
but nothing you can do is gonna save her
and you're losing your breath cuz you've got to remind me
you cannot save her
you cannot save her
sometimes i wonder do they understand us
i don't know myself, don't recognize no one
i can save your life if you trust me
baby do you trust me?
baby do you trust me?
as i drive you through the stormy night
oh i'll hold that memory
oh so tight my love

close your eyes cuz it's over now
i will take your hand in death
a love that's louder than every sound
will take its final breath
yeah
ooh, ooh
yeah it's toxic
and obnoxious
and i'm coughing from this poison apple babe

Sometimes,IWishIWasn'tAliveAtAll (prod. MEATCLEAVER)

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