fuck it im making this public i made this in 30 min

god im sad and pissed off and i feel like such a waste of space for not doing the open for https://soundcloud.com/okstarkie even though i tried for 8 hours straight

lyrics:
[prechorus]
 god im pissed off
tryna make it right
i cant really ever help it 
i cant get her off my mind (who lol what am i talking about )
its the hardest at the night time
eyeing up the razorblade
i got these thoughts up in my mind
that i cannot get away

[hook]
i put 20 on my soul
screaming out im getting old
i swear to god they do not like me
they just liking what i've shown

why the fuck im always wasting all my time
i got places i should go
i got methods i should try

but im stuck up in my ways
so ill vent inside this throwaway
i just wanna cry
but i cannot find the time
(cough)
cannot find the time
swear to god im never right
i just wanna go to sleep
swear to god i just wanna die

[verse]
i cant even keep the will enough that i can scream
baby i just wanna overdose and i just wanna sleep
tell me why im always so upset and why i feel these things
i just want to sit inside my room and cry at my tv
(yeahhh)
lately ive been feeling like im r4msey 
cus anxiety's my only friend 
i popped another ady
now im reeling off the chems

wishing it would end
lying on my bed
i feel horrible for ghosting hunter (and my friends)

[bridge]
yeah
im a worthless piece of shit
i pop another ady i dont ever wanna sleep
cus when i sleep i see the faces of the people that i hurt inside my dreams 
fuck
my
life
(crash!)

[prechorus]
 god im pissed off
tryna make it right
i cant really ever help it 
i cant get her off my mind (who lol what am i talking about )
its the hardest at the night time
eyeing up the razorblade
i got these thoughts up in my mind
that i cannot get away

[hook]
i put 20 on my soul
screaming out im getting old
i swear to god they do not like me
they just liking what i've shown

why the fuck im always wasting all my time
i got places i should go
i got methods i should try

but im stuck up in my ways
so ill vent inside this throwaway
i just wanna cry
but i cannot find the time
(cough)
cannot find the time
swear to god im never right
i just wanna go to sleep
swear to god i just wanna die

[bridge but outro]
lately ive been feeling like im r4msey 
cus anxiety's my only friend 
i popped another ady
now im reeling off the chems

wishing it would end
lying on my bed
i feel horrible for ghosting hunter (and my friends)

vent (ninewaters)

<3
lyrics:
sometimes i think about you
your too good to be true 
exactly who you are
i really wish i knew
i love you so,
your scarlet strands
and gentle tone,
im sorry my love
i know i know
im trying my best and i wont go,
frozen
im not afraid of you,
im terrified of the truth
i love you too damn much...
oh you drain the life from me baby
oh i think your driving me crazy
im trying my best and i wont go
i need someone to hold
this cold is growing old 
but you help me stay strong
i know i know
its hard sometimes when i dont call
but that doesnt mean your not on my mind
i know your crying im trying to fix it, 
you want my attention, i know that you do.
hope that your comfortable, girl just stay true to me
i know your crying, im trying to fix it
i just turned 18 man this real, got me tripping
im try'n be a man, but i just keep on slipping
i know that you know, but you stay 10 toes
i dont care about a mercedes (idk how to spell that)
i just want to be with my love
i just want to be with my baby
terrified of the truth 
- everything by me lol

spotify <3

produced by yungspoiler
LISTEN EVERYWHERE - https://ffm.to/lumina

here I sit and I wait for change again
how did I end up this way?
I ponder relationships, can't stand
ruin it all inside my head
another step forward sends me plummeting back
I thought I could trust them
kick me down in a ditch
when will it end, I'm engulfed in the sadness
You played me a fool I....

'cause I never heed a warning
It's all my fault, right?
Why was I so damn naïve
The jokes on me
No one around will hear me scream
I bleed out in the open muffled by the breeze

I plea
the jokes on me

I got this feeling I might just lose it all
I waste my fucking time I constantly spend sighing
evidence is in my view, I just don't want that truth
no one around, the eyes on you
please god...
again I'm a fool, I let you fuck me up

'cause I never heed a warning
It's all my fault, right?
why was I so damn naïve
the jokes on me
no one around will hear me scream
I bleed out in the open, muffled by the breeze
popularity contest
fake real at best
thought you were my friends
guess it will not mend the holes that you shot through my chest

lumina

eyes on you, jokes on me

Stream

eyes on you, jokes on me (yungspoiler)

beginning of the end (prod. by yungspoiler)

~=~
[prod. dercept]
feat. @starfall
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spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3ZnhwQeGBb1tBRAozPoWcN?si=9fca382509c54c5f
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twitter: twitter.com/dooozii_

i hate taking the blame :/

spotify ^w^

itooktheblame (feat. starfall) (p. dercept)

prod. by fxckyeahako

lol this song kinda okay ig :point_right: :point_left: , thanks @vvvalll for pimping out on the song swagbucks style :sunglasses:, i will make more music i promise, im very slow and like tired but allg

ilyall

lyrics:
tubt 
ive been all alone cryin in my bedroom
i dont even wanna see you
i dont even wanna be here rn
i dont even think i belong in this town

and wait a sec
ik that im a mess
ive been trying to get this shit off of my chest
maybe i should just go just for the best
maybe im really just like the rest

why you never try to call my phone
you were never there im always on my own
you dont even know me so watch that tone
its clear to me that you havent even grown

and its clear to me and its clear to see
you dont even treat this like a centrepiece
and its clear to me and its clear to see
you treat me so bad im in misery
and i feel like im drowin
my anxieties surrounding
these thoughts in my head
and idk where u went

yeah

tubt
i just want you back
im addicted to the past
not the you who was an ass
but the you that made us last

i want you back so badly (prod. by fxckyeahako)

HYH feat. Alruna and Nick Ferreri

ty to sean franco (@seanfrancotothemoon) for the amazing feature :)

listen on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2rKerp55MFcZ6Eo2IovUWy?si=c69de65714f040e6

it's overwhelming w/ sean franco

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/avah/love-letters
hope you enjoy this <3 lmk if y'all want more of this kind of stuff
ig: @ripavah
tiktok: @1avah

Oh, just give me a kiss before you go
Uh oh, I just need me a second to hold
You tighter till the days are brighter
Mental illness eats me alive, while I'm trapped and I'm stuck inside

My brain
Depression end this pain
But lil shawty makes me happy, so happy
I don't know why i was sad at the start
Take a trip and we'll fly up to mars
I hate when we're apart
I hate that you're so far
Love letters in the mail from my heart

Red moonlight, staring at the stars
Now I'll fall apart in your arms
Cause I knew that something was so wrong
Who would think the
Doctors wrong, or everyone's wrong
Who would think that you were all alone
But you aren't alone
Every time that I think I feel fake

My brain
Depression end this pain
But lil shawty makes me happy, so happy
I don't know why i was sad at the start
Take a trip and we'll fly up to mars
I hate when we're apart
I hate that you're so far
Love letters in the mail from my heart

zy

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