it's been so long since I heard this omg, luv u chri

coming back to this regularly fr. miss you friend hope u been well, needa work again soon <33

Hyperpop

03

https://open.spotify.com/album/4BuJ4jRfLoTj9rQ8vi94zk?si=KSnxOYr9T0qwGS16BoSYEQ

lyrics >
talk
it anyway...
stop
tryna control
but with the glass half full, i was staying awake
and i've been running out of options and i needed a taste
do you mind if i want it back?
do you mind if i have that?
'cause i don't want you to think i'm like this
'cause somebody wants you
and you never talked to me anyway
didn't you want to?
what i'd do to fucking crash at your place,
sora you don't know the half of it
you gave somethin that i cannot replace
sora you don't know the half of it
(you don't know the half of it)

do you mind if i want it back?
do you mind if i have that?
do you mind if i want it back?
do you mind if i have that?
do you mind if i want it back?
do you mind if i have that? (so)

'cause i dont recommend u
look through your camera roll while you're figuring it out (yeah)
so sora, when will you come home?

and i don't want you to think im like this
'cause somebody wants you
you never talked to me anyway
didn't u want to?
what i'd do to fucking crash at ur place,
sora you don't know the half of it
you gave somethin that i cannot replace
sora you don't know the half of it
.
if you read this, i will see you soon in the town below the dancing star.

sora

prod. @t0rr

Stars look down on the river it's like deep sea
It goes silent listening for color can you hear me
And the screens always somehow find just what's in my soul
But the static fear always haunting makes my breath go

Hush, hush, hush, hush
It's terrifying

Break right into my soul and start the closure
I'm an optimist when you don't know my emotions
Sucked right outta my heart, they're like it won't hurt
And the nightmares sing to the stars "are you still nervous?"
Break right into my soul and start the closure
I'm an optimist when you don't know my emotions
Sucked right outta my heart, they're like it won't hurt
And the nightmares sing to the stars "are you still-"

You never know why you cry
Reasons like a lullaby to you
And I'll stand there, is this all it for me?
It's never nightmares, why am I scared of dreams?
And the sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment

And you can sleep


Sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment
Sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
(It's always static, a child manic)
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment
(It's always rancid, you wake me up and)

Nervous (Prod. torr)

hi here's another sad song 
prod. me
all live instruments recorded by me too ya ya

available on all platforms!

lyrics: 

lately
feel like i can't even talk to you
seems like all you ever do is twist my words
remove
get myself out of the room
don't know how much more of this from you that i can take

i won't answer when you call
cause i prefer not getting screamed at through the phone
and told that you're not coming home
every single point i make
you don't even think about it
you're always getting mad at me like there's no way around it 
i think i like me much better without you
blame me for all the awful things that you do
every conversation we fight and we argue
i think i like me much better without you

don't expect me to act how you want me to
can't expect me to act how you want
you turn me away with what you say to me
don't expect me to be what you want me to be

i think i like me much better without you
i think i like me much better without you
i think i like me much better without you
i think i like me much better without you
i think i like me much better without you
i think i like me much better without you
i think i like me much better without you
i think i like me much better without you

orangecore

much better

Spotify

it's my birthday so here's a song featuring @yonklolz !  enjoy :)
prod. me
all live instruments were recorded by me as per usual

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

@chriad
every single moment's pass
you can find another different reason to hate me
i feel like i'm made of glass
i know you try to look right through me lately
if there was a single thing left for me in this place
maybe then i would've had a reason to stay
maybe i wouldn't have left without a trace
throw away any pieces that i left behind
and i'm sorry that i cannot leave your mind
i'm sorry i can't leave your mind

i don't expect you to understand
but leaving here was my decision
somethings just cannot go as planned
but leaving here was my decision

@yonklolz
misuse my fragments as reflections
i don't know why you want me that way
you told me everything would pass
somedays i fall but somedays i last
now you don't see me
treat me like a broken piece of glass

@chriad
one fucked up night that just ruined all the rest
i don't wanna care about you but i'm wishing you the best
and you don't wanna listen so i'mma just say less
but i know that one day what i did will make sense
one fucked up night that just ruined all the rest
i don't wanna care about you but i'm wishing you the best
and you don't wanna listen so i'mma just say less
but i know that one day what i did will make sense
to you

one fucked up night that just ruined all the rest
i don't wanna care about you but i'm wishing you the best
and you don't wanna listen so i'mma just say less
but i know that one day what i did will make sense
to you

made of glass

made of glass (ft. yonklolz)

i wrote this during a very bad two weeks of my life

prod. me
all live instruments were recorded by me!

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

i wish i could lose myself 
fly far away
to somewhere that nobody yet knows my name
and can't say that i've changed 
when I’m still the same person
i'll leave it all behind and you’ll never cross my mind again

it’s getting hard to think 
and this medicine’s not helping
tell me what is real 
'cause i don’t know your intentions
at sunrise i’ll lay down
to close my eyes and panic
from all internal sound
that your words manifested 

is it too late for us to be okay?
i just need you to hear 

neglect to see any side but your own
deny me all that i know
take away what i call home 
take away what i call home
no trace of an end in sight
if i could make one damn i might 
take away my hope tonight 
take away my hope tonight

is it too late for us to be okay? (is it too late?)
is it too late for us to be okay? (is it too late?)
is it too late for us to be okay? (is it too late?)
is it too late for us to be okay? (is it too late?)

neglect to see any side but your own
deny me all that i know
take away what i call home 
take away what i call home
no trace of an end in sight
if i could make one damn i might 
take away my hope tonight 
take away my hope tonight
it’s getting hard to think 
and this medicine’s not helping
tell me what is real 
'cause i don’t know your intentions
it’s getting hard to think 
and this medicine’s not helping
tell me what is real 
'cause i don’t know your intentions

intentions

everything by me

ima come back better than before
i try my best to restore
you wanted less but i wanted more
i sided with the bitch who hurt my core
fuck it i don't want her anymore
got me feeling things i cant describe 
in my head; i keep inside
now i just want you to die
got me feeling like im insane
plant evil thoughts inside my brain
you dragged me through the rain
i'll put the pain inside your head
i don't want your love anymore
throw out my heart onto the floor
dagger blade cutting out my sores
i don't love you anymore

i bleed blue but my blood red i'll stay that way 
faith fades along with the passing days
they try to stop me they always hate
i walk the path inside a broken brain

far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
far from home (i cannot feel anymore)
i would know
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust
i need your trust

stream

restore

this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

road trip log 1: the start of big mouth's downward spiral, i think... :/

@wishlane

doom signal

doom signal w/ wishlane

||until then i'm lost||

prod me ykyky 
co written with @insertsonghere

thank u for the awesome year even though i didn't post much, next year is stronger :3


🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[intro] ~ @jauntsen
If you have a question
I could answer it
I need to break the ice
I’d leave a nice impression and just a little hint
Our fire can suffice

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
until our paths cross
I promise i will be ok
Until then i’m lost
I still have my memories 
that you must of forgot
I’ll remind you who i am 
Doesn’t matter what's the cost

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
time moves slowly
but my heart is speeding up
thinkin’ am i out of luck
to find you, to find you
you, you, you, you
i can never get enough 
i can't seem to give it up.

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
If you have a question
I could answer it
I need to break the ice
until our paths cross
I promise i will be ok
until then i’m lost

until our paths cross

quit your job!!!!!

a letter

3. IDKK

Produced by Mark Xenophontos 

Lyrics by Mark Xenophontos 

------------------------

Rub your hands together, feel the static rise
Cast your spell on broken dreams and alibis  
With your wicked ways, you're digging deeper down
Trading everything to wear that golden crown

Don't blink twice, don't look right
Something's coming in the night
Everything you built will wash away

A chariot on fire, burning through the power lines
You'll run away scared when you read between the signs
To the Babylon tower where the broken angels fall
Where your kingdom crumbles and you lose it all

In the neon glow where devils make their deals
Pretty faces hiding how the darkness feels
Built your empire on a foundation made of lies
Now you're staring at the fire in the skies

Don't blink twice, don't look right
Something's coming in the night
Everything you built will wash away

A chariot on fire, burning through the power lines
You'll run away scared when you read between the signs
To the Babylon tower where the broken angels fall
Where your kingdom crumbles and you lose it all

Here today, gone tomorrow
Time to burn it all down
Watch your kingdom die

A chariot on fire, tearing through your house of cards
To the Babylon tower where your empire turns to ash
A chariot on fire, coming for your soul tonight
Your kingdom's burning down, you lose it all

There's still time for redemption
Choose your side before it's gone

Babylon

basically twitterloser but i’m even more mad

production: jane remover @janeremover
mixing & mastering: me & heavn @heavenindaclouds

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[verse]
get out my head
wish u were dead
yeah when i bled
u laughed n stared
while i was down bad
left with dread
without a friend 
left in the end

i’m all alone and i’m ok with that
as long as u stay way the fuck right back 
yeah baby don’t attempt to come right back
cuz baby i don’t rlly know ‘bout that

[pre-chorus]
and even though u been gone from my life so long
ur presence lingers on and on
and all those scars u left on me
just make me want to fucking scream

[hook]
i h8 u! 
despise u! >:(
ur the reason i’m this way
suicidal
can’t get up, no
ur the reason i’m this way
i’m numb to 
the pain now :/
ur the reason i’m this way
your lies and 
your fake love
ur the reason i’m this way

[verse]
yeah it’s so hard for me to just pretend 
it’s all ok
when u were close to me, and u just gave my love away 
i trusted u, guess that’s too bad :/
i shoulda knew, it makes me mad >:(

well it’s ur loss
n it’s ur fault 
that we fell apart
n u left me to rot 
what we had, i laid it to rest
those wasted years, i feel regret

[pre-chorus & hook]

[outro w/ 28 ppl :o]

ur the reason im this way (jane remover)

ima be honest, i just winged it on this one.

production: jane remover @janeremover
mixing & mastering: me & jane remover

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

lights out
darkness shrouds ‘round my head
my doubt
clouds my thoughts ‘til i’m dead
without you baby
i can’t stand
to even sleep inside my bed

lights out
i wish that i could forget everything
lights out
i wish this void wasn’t consuming me
lights out
everything i do, you’re always right next to me
lights out
i just want you out my head
lights out
let me breath for one damn sec
lights out
i hope this pain inside won’t last
lights out

much better

chriad

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