worst 11 months of my life

 think I've been overthinking everything
I think I've thought too much about this
I've come to realise what is wrong and
I didn't even need a therapist, it's you

It's always been you
What you put me through
It's always been you
Fuck you

I can't take anymore
Leave me outside the door
Treat me like I'm a whore
I won't take anymore

It didn't have to be this way
It didn't have to go down like this
You made my world so grey
What the fuck did I do to deserve it?

It's you, I won't take anymore
It's you, leave me outside thе door
It's you, you treat me like I'm a whorе
It's you, I won't take anymore

Fuck you
Fuck you
Fuck you
Yeah, fuck you
Fuck you

its funny people thing this isnt a joke song

Letter to an Ex

Hung Up

Lyrics:

The light fades out as
The sun goes down 
Although we’ll miss each other
I can’t stay around

The beaches where you drowned me
I haven’t forgot
Chained me to your loving concrete left me dead to rot

Lose a little more
Forget what’s left
Lose what held you together 
Give me the rest

You washed right over me
My castle gone
My fault for building it weak
Your fault for none

The warmth is long gone
Forgot how it feels
The time is over for
Seashells and seals

Beaches

you play stupid games and you win stupid prizes
you meet new people but you just meet disguises 
taking pills to sleep and taking drugs to eat
I'm just trying to make it through the week
I don't know who to trust and i don't know who to love
I'm asking help from the angels up above 
I don't have a home and I don't know which way to go
I'm so sad but it doesn't even show
lalalalalalalalalalalalala

that one daydream where you slit your wrists

I Ruined Everything

theres so many things wrong with this world
i just want to be a normal girl
a normal girl
a normal girl

im painting my nails
even though i know there gonna chip
ill never trust the government
cuz i know they're full of it
wasting all my time online
i wonder how it feels to be alive

theres so many things wrong with this world
i just want to be a normal girl
a normal girl
a normal girl

G Em C Em C
G Em C

normal girl? (demo)

i wanna make you suffer my world is blakc
the way you push me down now ill push u back
no one knows my name till  i get on channel 8
catch me tomorrow live cctv footage online
and

bang bang when i hit the scene
bang bang they were just sixteen
bang bang now i am so supreme
can a gentleman get a break

bang bang i wont let you go
bang bang its a fucking joke
bang bang now you will croak
bang bang heres 300 pages of my thoughts

i would tell you why
but you never listen
so i sit alone and it's all your fault
and I've been crying bad in the bathroom stall
dreaming of the day you will respect me

bang bang when i hit the scene
bang bang they were just sixteen
bang bang now i am so supreme
can a gentleman get a break

bang bang i wont let you go
bang bang its a fucking joke
bang bang now you will croak
bang bang heres 300 pages of my thoughts

i never could melt anybodys heart
but today my body counts all the way up
im a sad excuse for a wasted life         
but today i will grant you your wings
and i wish you all the worst
in your hearse
and i think we were meant to be 
but never last
staring down an empty zine
i am sick of listerine
i will go down with my teeth so red
never had chance at life 
so now i will say goodbye 
the concrete is calling me

mfw no gf

you told me everything you wanted
so i could play it out
and write a song about it
your dreams and fantasies
took em’ off and put em’ all through me
you know i couldn’t help it

demons, and reasons, and stories of dreamin’
you know that i just listen
you know your love is never out of season

you just could have told me
that you were gonna roll me
i’d let you have it your way
i trusted you with heart and soul
and you just went and took it all
but that’s just what i wanted

you write the poems, i write the songs
i guess it’s fun to play along
and get it wrong with everyone
at the pearly gates, your job is done

evergreen

First 'live' recording...

2-1=0
Insta ‘til midnight every night
Haunting starts at the dark of twilight
Can’t seem to get you from my mind’s eye
Nothing looks better in hindsight
Why can’t we make things all right?
I know I’d take him in a fight
Who said it’s not black or white
Never lived a day in my life
Never loved a day in my life
Never felt its cold and cruel bite
Never died a day in my life
Never felt the sting as their heart met the knife

I can’t say I’m good at maths
But I can see two becomes one
But when this one ain’t made to last
Then two minus one equals none

I saw you the other day
Laughing as you walked away
Wondered just what he had to say
To make you smile in that way
If I only could have stayed
I would have gone and made him pay
Who said this world is always grey
Never had to live through my heartbreak
Never loved through my heartbreak
Never took what I had to take
Never died from my heartbreak
Never got crushed beneath the world’s weight

I can’t say I’m good at maths
But I can see two becomes one
But when this one ain’t made to last
Then two minus one equals none

Life is like a see-saw
Up one day and then feeble
How can love hurt people?
Because love is evil
Hearts should be made illegal
Hearts are way too lethal
Black and white is what it feels
Magpies are made to take and steal
Love is a god that sees us all
Love is a god that beats us all
There is not a sequel
Two minus one equals


2-1=0

Dead Meat

lyrics still need work but here they are:

dream

Kurisu