My Music

From my mind

A song about escaping a emotional abusive relationship.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals created with AI.

Phoenix Cry

A song about the loss of a sibling too young.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals created with AI.

I miss you

Song of a father.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals created with AI.

Thats My Dad

A song for a little sister who lost a spouse.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals creates with AI.

Light In The Dark

A haunting melody with a reggae feel about life is short, like words in the sand.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and voice created with AI.

Words in Sand

She loves me, so at least in This dimension, she is mine!  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals by AI.

In This Dimension, She’s Mine

She may look generic to others, but I see the beautiful sexy woman inside.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals created by AI.

Only a Smile and Black Lingerie

She puts on a persona, of Blue Velvet. But I know and love the real girl, my baby.  Lyrics written by CJ,  instruments and vocals created by AI. 

BLUE VELVET

After a loss or heard break, we tell others we are "fine" when it's just a mask we put on... a plastic smile.  Lyrics written by CJ, instruments and vocals created by AI. 

Plastic Smiles

LYRICS
**[Verse 1]**
I wake up, put on my shoes, start another day,
Coffee in hand, I push the hurt away.
In meetings, I joke and keep the mood light,
But inside, my heart's still shattered from the fight.

**[Chorus 1]**
On the outside, I'm a clown, full of jokes and smiles,
But behind this mask, I've been hurting for miles.
Laughing loud, but inside it’s not what it seems,
A broken heart, lost in silent screams.
There's a waterfall of tears behind these eyes...
A waterfall of tears behind these eyes.

**[Verse 2]**
Out with friends, I crack a joke to fit in,
Hiding the sadness, but I’m wearing thin.
They never ask, they just think I’m fine,
But they don’t know the storm that’s in my mind.

**[Chorus 2]**
On the outside, I'm a clown, full of jokes and smiles,
But behind this mask, I've been hurting for miles.
Laughing loud, but inside it’s not what it seems,
A broken heart, lost in silent screams.
There's a waterfall of tears behind these eyes...
A waterfall of tears behind these eyes.

**[Verse 3]**
When I’m alone, the mask starts to fall,
I let the tears spill, but I don’t call.
No one’s around, no one can hear my cry,
A lonely heart, with nowhere to hide.

**[Chorus 3]**
On the outside, I'm a clown, full of jokes and smiles,
But behind this mask, I've been hurting for miles.
Laughing loud, but inside it’s not what it seems,
A broken heart, lost in silent screams.
There's a waterfall of tears behind these eyes...
A waterfall of tears behind these eyes.

**[Outro]**
I keep on pretending, I keep holding tight,
But inside, I’m breaking in the dead of night.
The world sees the clown, they don’t see the pain,
There's a waterfall of tears falling like rain.
No one knows the pain I feel inside,
There's a waterfall of tears behind these eyes... 
A waterfall of tears behind these eyes.

Waterfall of Tears

Lyrics

Verse 1
I thought we were something rare
Maybe I just saw what I wanted there
You’d say my name, I’d come undone
Thought maybe I could be the one
But I fell too fast, I fell too hard
Now I’m left holding what’s been scarred
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope —
...love has weight

Pre-Chorus 1
It’s hard to fight when your heart won’t bend,
And all your reason says this pain won’t end

Chorus 1
’Cause love is a BIG word,... love has weight
When it’s not returned, it suffocates
You give it all, you lose your way
When their heart don’t beat the same
Love is a BIG word — love has weight
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope
Love is a BIG word —...
...love has weight

Verse 2
You said you cared, I know that’s true
But not the way I feel for you
It’s strange how hope can twist your mind
Keep rewinding, pressing “find”
And every night I talk to walls
Just to feel like I still have it all
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope —...
...love has weight

Pre-Chorus 2
And I keep learning the hardest way
That loving you won’t change a day

Chorus 2
’Cause love is a BIG word,... love has weight
When it’s not returned, it suffocates
You give it all, you lose your way
When their heart don’t beat the same
Love is a BIG word — love has weight
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope
Love is a BIG word —...
...love has weight

Bridge
It’s hard to breathe when dreams won’t fade
Every thought just calls your name
You move on light, I walk in chains
That’s what unreturned love became
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope — love has weight

Final Chorus / Outro
’Cause love is a BIG word,... love has weight
When it’s not returned, it suffocates
You give it all, you lose your way
When their heart don’t beat the same
Love is a BIG word — love has weight
Crushed by longing, crushed by hope.
Love is a BIG word —...
love... love... has... weight.

Lyrics by CJ, instruments and vocals created by AI.

Love Has Weight

CJ is an amateur lyricist and works with different AI's to create self reflective music and concept exploration.  Exploring loss and love.  Some songs are available to other artists, contact for more details.

Waterfall of Tears

CJ n AI