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10/8/24

Claude💛

novocaine (original pitch)

produced by @johnnyfriend

featuring @rouri404

my favorite view ft. rouri404 (johnnyfriend)

IDRWTAI//kennedyxoxo + Kenny Orlando + noahmadethiss + SINNERSDEDX + killmesumday + sace6

produced by @dercept

lyrics:
i done tried to speak my heart a thousand times and it gets nowhere
i thought i could change myself for the better instead i say it's not fair 
my enemies reach out to me they like it when i tear
i tried being humble think i did that for the last time
sitting in my bubble tryna figure out my past lives
like did i ever get it right?
have i changed in the slightest?
i promise i don't bite

i don't think u really get it 
wake up feeling double headed
two headaches need double the medicine
two pm so i hop out of bed
empty stomach my health in the red
i still been trippin over what u said
seventeen feet under and i can not catch a breath
maybe i'm holding on to u cuz i don't got anything left
if i let go it's for the best i don't want us to be dead
i don't want us to be dead (x2)

i dnt want us 2 b dead (dercept)

produced by @p-guda

lyrics:
step back and let me analyze
it's their bad and my loss, i'm just crushed inside
just let me go, please just let me go
nothing left for u to know
i'm just sick of only keeping to myself on the low
i guess soon it will be over
3 steps back, guess ill never get closure

am i even speaking?
do u hear me?
i just get ignored and i'm never taken seriously
guide me
just acknowledge that i love u and i'm trying
really don't wanna go back home, probably shouldn’t say it i might come off as an asshole
(fuck you)
time stalling, i was taking backroads
i'm falling deep into a trash load

was it worth it?
(no)
i know i can not be perfect
u said it was part of the learning
now i’m too scared to talk
can either of u open up ur arms when i start to feel lost?
i guess not (yeah i guess not)
i guess soon it will be over
3 steps back, guess i'll never get closure

am i even speaking?
do u hear me?
i just get ignored and i'm never taken seriously
guide me
just acknowledge that i love u and i'm trying
really don't wanna go back home, probably shouldn’t say it i might come off as an asshole
(fuck you)
time stalling, i was taking backroads
i'm falling deep into a trash load

backroads (guda)

throwaway from like months ago 😭
if yall heard the kevin conroy line ily

molly (darlyybeen, mamoru)

light

ty carter

lyrics

way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

it feels like you love me more when im going away
just look me in my eyes and tell me im okay
ill call you when im home so you know im okay
i could lose everything but id still keep my faith
i stopped smoking but i still keep them just incase
i wish i had some wings so i could fly away
way above the clouds
i wish i knew what i was doing instead of asking how
and im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
i was driving by myself im seeing a face in the fog
im supposed to be a man
but im just crying at a photo once again
and im obsessing over shit ill never get again
time moves fast i guess


way too many times i had to tell you
you dont got to read between the lines
i want to help you
we can chalk it up to last friday i just caught you in a bad mood
but im just tryna catch the signs
i dont want to watch the storm pass without you
you know that its just more than what im used to
i know that you're used to getting used too
and God forbid you leave i know that these songs will find a way to you

youre the rainbows and the sunshine
i can feel you in when the wind blows and you pass by
i can see youre face in everything
all sides
i need you to surround me till the day i die

as i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see you
smiling, shining
look how you did so well
and the day that i go
will be the day that you go
and girl im broken
i dont have a purpose
i dropped a song for you i hope that you heard it on your own
cuz baby this ones new and i just made it last night
i know they all sound the same to you
ive given up pieces of my brain for you
you know im trying to hold you tight when the night comes
but i feel you in my bones and my weak lungs

as i watch the storm pass 2 (cxrter)

@mxsui

I've been lost and found
lost and down 
tossing around
can't clear my head out 
you fine you stand out 
don't look for handouts 
just glad I can now 
just glad it's all over 
still I'm not sober 
I can't get over 
that you with him 
why with him 
guess I'm not him
why you did it 
If I say I'll be wrong 
I can say I'm alone
I can say if it weren't cip what would I be doing 
fuck it where would I be going 
don't know how I'm still going 
when true colors showing 
you weren't here for me
got my head steady rolling 
playing games and I ain't knowing 
how I ain't know 
hurting my soul 
taking a toll 
swear I don't mean it 
girl you the reason 
if one thing i know 
you had left me feigning
you had left me dreaming
all the shit we done had 
was it for no reason
wasn't for the keeping 
left me in the deep end
you ain't have no reason
cuts on me I'm bleeding
I've been sorrier 
I'm so sorrier 
I done cried for worse 
you done left me hurt
no no don't go 
I don't wanna be alone
but at times I get distant 
don't want attention 
no one I'm missing 
soul just ascending
tell you don't get it 
tell you don't hear me
but I speak clearly
why do they fear me 
why am I teary 
why do they go go go.......

why you with him (mxsui)

Everlast Samples 1.0

[Big thank you to everyone who made this possible]
#everlast

1. kiv + dia6lo + epv
2. kiv + cloudy
3. shrine
4. se7en + rexiroh
5. shrine + kuriyai
6. se7en + ilychrxme
7. shrine + epv
8. sptmbja
9. rexiroh + ilychrxme
10. shrine
11. sptmbja + djl3
12. sptmbja + kappafvr
13. kiv + cloudy
14. kiv + ilychrxme
15. shrine 
16. atomiclvl + vercettiprada + ilychrxme
17. ilychrxme + kiv
18. kiv
19. se7en + epv
20. kiv + cloudbxy + Xos
21. warheart + shrine
22. ilychrxme + cloudy + life
23. cloudy
24. shrine
25. atomiclvl + kuriyai + kashik
26. cloudy + sptmbja
27. sptmbja
28. shrine
29. claude 
30. claude
31. se7en + mamoru

#Everlast Samples 1.0

https://soundcloud.com/neohnq
https://soundcloud.com/prod_promise
https://soundcloud.com/rewind214

hoping i can make it up
i know that i suck
hope u arent already gone 
wouldnt blame u no
baby ur my only love
baby ur my only one

drugs was there when no one was 
hard for me to let it go 
n i hate keeping secrets
especially from u
baby when we kiss
only time i feel shit 
baby when ur speaking 
cant u see i listen
only time i feel safe
is whenever u reach me
but i know u cant wait 
get it if u leave me

neohn:
baby tell me ur secret
ill do all that i can
ima do what i see fit
to bring u back to land
to get u back in my hand
and if it dont go to plan
few more milligrams
just so i can feel again
pierce my skin
and salt my cuts
yeah i wanna know
baby is this love
i dont wanna give it up
i dont wanna lose u
ya i wanna know
do u feel it tooo
ill take the dmg bby
jst lay it on me
baby is this luvv

hoping w/ neohn (promise+rewind)

hate to see u cry p. nami & xos

bring it up p. epv & nami & xos

Badd Prod Jayysoul + Toybreakrr
#everlast
@neito1

Badd (Jayysoul & Toybreakrr)

"what would i change"
##everlast
@222quiet @rexiroh @user-499895937 @pw4prez

what would i change (222quiet + 6nemy + rexiroh + sochi)

heart my story (dreamboi ilychrxme shrine)

produced by @ilychrxme x se7en

featuring @victxrw

lyrics:
(claude)
please don't be afraid
i'll stay out the way
i wanna touch ur fangs
i would never ruin what we made
now she go to sleep when i wake up 
it's not easy to leave i need ur love
i watched u from above
she only wanted a hug
but got a taste of my blood
ur never taking enough
wouldn't erase what you've done

(victxrw)
cause we go thru everything u nd me,
would u feel the same ways abt me?
tell me something so i can finally breathe
tell me something just-

u got me feeling so sick
im fucking tired of this
i hate when we reminisce
i miss the taste of ur lips
u got me feeling so sick
i'm fucking tired of this
i just want to live in bliss
why does it feel endless?

(claude)
please don't be afraid
i'll stay out the way
i wanna touch ur fangs
i would never ruin what we made
now she go to sleep when i wake up 
it's not easy to leave i need ur love
i watched u from above
she only wanted a hug
but got a taste of my blood
ur never taking enough
wouldn't erase what you've done

when i wake up ft. victxrw (01dec se7en)

lyrics:

Just Look at all the shit that I had done went thru
U aint doubt me since about my drive cause its not true
Know I got some demons in my life I tap into
I needed change inside my life and that meant u I swear it
Something hit different when bathed in the moonlight
I feel my spirit come out in this blue light
This shit come naturally bathed in the stage lights
This is just what it had to be not just what I felt like yea

By myself I had got thru it by myself yea
Big blunt put some worry on my health
Its a kick drum when I listen to my chest
She bit me on my tongue and it took away my breathe
Scrapes bruise 
I could see the lake off pape
Views
I see plenty friends get snaked
Abused
Some shit never change and it’s painful
Oh Its hate full
And it Breaks you
Somewhere in the back I relocate
Something in this glass turn my drink to a drank
We had something in the past but its something that I hate
Something in my brain now its something in my bank
In my graduating class I was flunking everything
Now ill show up at reunions with that f on top my waist
When I show up at my home and she had waited on me in lace
Girl if u feeling that way u could put it on my face

Never in my life
Never in my life
Never in my life
I aint feel like this since bout never in my life

Just Look at all the shit that I had done went thru
U aint doubt me since about my drive cause its not true
Know I got some demons in my life I tap into
I needed change inside my life and that meant u I swear it
Something hit different when bathed in the moonlight
I feel my spirit come out in this blue light
This shit come naturally bathed in the stage lights
This is just what it had to be not just what I felt like yea

no pulse (jabarionthebeat)

lyrics:

It is clear to me pain has been granted rule over these lands. It seems even on the quietest of nights here, the woeful shriek of tragedy consumes all.

Just stay still and let the web hold the weight
It’s just love beneath a cantrip of hate
My 8 legs will wipe the tears from ur face
The silk spun is meant to savour the taste
Their long guns had blown a hole in my chest
I’m wrapped up to stop the leaking of breath
My teeth punch the funnel webs of the nest
Its just love so cant the world let us rest

The first time you’ve seen me hunger for blood
I cant lie I feared id lose you to man
But u stayed inside the cold of my clutch
And showed me the heart is more than a pump
The Hourglass that paints my back
Is nothing more than reason to separate me from flesh u said
And I burned that deep into my head from then on
Oh so deep The thought of u is all ive got to go on
Make this easy
Cant you make this easier on me
Yet they punch And they kick
And they budge And they shove
And We fight And make up
Then We fuck And lay up
When its all Said and done
Ur still all That ive got

Just stay still and let the web hold the weight
It’s just love beneath a cantrip of hate
My 8 legs will wipe the tears from ur face
The silk spun is meant to savour the taste
Their long guns had blown a hole in my chest
I’m wrapped up to stop the leaking of breath
My teeth punch the funnel webs of the nest
Its just love so cant the world let us rest

CHAPTER2_AN ARACHNIDIAN HYMN (NICO NORTH)

lyrics:

generations upon generations of the lezoryth have sat atop the sociopolitical ladders of their respective era, and many believe it is not just for their genetically predisposed inclination to starting profitable business, but something much darker. What follows are journal scrapings of the last lezoryth house employee to have disappeared on family property. And if what is said is the truth, Then the lezoryth bloodline must be purged.

Cracks in this ceiling turn golden with UV
The walls will dilapidate slowly onto me
Im scared
I wait for sunlight to go away
Till then I live as a stow away
I hope this bucket can last me to morning
Beside what im eating there’s nothing important here
This windows will burn me like ever clear
In truth I have only gained more to fear
As I fast emaciate here on linoleum
I wonder why my morality saved to run
I couldnt eat him its killing me
So I waste away and refuse to feed
Ive overlooked all the guilt in me
And now it shall cause my armour to sunder
And now its become my calamity
I brittle my bones in the way of a lover
Ive drawn away to this cellar bones
Abandoned by humanity as something more like animal
Id never gave this curse my full control
This dampened floor
In where im stored
Is covered up time like an open sore
If the afterlife
Has closed its doors
A vamper is in last of what could force it ajar
This candlelight supplies me with a vision of stone
And the three of my victims
Id wish I had known
Ive worn this as a badge to have this plague in my soul
But now im weak in my bones
With this stake in my throat

CHAPTER9_HOMINUS NOCTURNA (SKELLINGTON)

produced by @bazington x @1wasterr

lyrics:
gave up on u
tell me to be brave, i don't want to
watch em all fade when i walk thru
i just wanna leave a trace ion know what to do
i'd do anything if u could crawl back towards me
i know u've been by urself don't worry
i'll be there swear it's alright
why y'all talkin shit? they gon be scared when it's on sight
i been acting like i fucking care now i'm all tight

there's nothing left that's here for me
everything i kept u took away
hate it when u say that it's not that hard
always wish u'd stay but it's not that far
said they wanted me to change and it left me scarred
they all putting me to shame i just played my part
hate it when u break and it's on my shards
don't know how much u can take when ur my safeguard (3x)

do anything for u
i think of u every day it's just cuz i adore u
give more than i can afford to
u tell me i'm lying but it's all true

gave up on u
tell me to be brave, i don't want to
watch em all fade when i walk thru
i just wanna leave a trace ion know what to do
i'd do anything if u could crawl back towards me
i know u've been by urself don't worry
i'll be there swear it's alright
why y'all talkin shit? they gon be scared when it's on sight
i been acting like i fucking care now i'm all tight

i just wanna leave a trace :/ (baz wasterr)

kynlary - danger

emo4

Written, Performed, & Produced - Natalie
Mix/Master - @eddiepriest

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Lyrics: Majilla & Natalie
Production: Dov & Natalie
Mix/Master: Eddie Priest

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Mix/Master: @yungeddiepriest

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is it really easier being just friends?? *+>