Still though I’m always wishing for the most still holding on to a little bit of hope 😔

soundcloud.com/xternalz x soundcloud.com/kyoakyo

i really couldn't be any happier than i am right now

[soundcloud.com/clay0127]
I don't ever wanna let go
But I knew: This love was never gonna hold
Still though, I'm always wishing for the most
Still holding on to a little bit of hope

There's just a little left
Fight to my last breath
In the kitchen, singing
Making food at 2am
The memories I make with you, they're my favorite
Babygirl, I can't believe I'm bouta waste this
Talk on nothing, take my hand; This my last dance
Falling in with you is something that I really couldn't have planned
I'll never understand the way the world works
I'll never understand why I keep getting hurt

It shouldn't feel like this, I should be excited 
Left home all alone got reminded
Of the beauty of the place I resided
Of all the people, all the love that I might miss
Of having someone that I really can confide in
Of why I shouldn't walk away, you're my light, and-
No, I don't ever wanna let go

(It's all wrong, when did I lose the plot)
(Everything falls apart)
(I don't know how to stop)

[hook]

Every day I see you, it feels like I'm waking up for the first time
You're the only thing that wanders all around my mind; I can't get enough
Feel the tears in my eyes welling up cause I know
We've only got a few months 'fore I go
But I think I'm in love, I wish I never got close (not true btw i dont regret a thing)
You hold my heart but my souls headed home
Still holding on to a little bit of hope

[soundcloud.com/xternalz]
I’m holding on
I can’t let go
Cause you’re all I want
You’re all I want

I wanted us to last for good
I did all I could
I wish you understood

(I’m still holding on)

Facing down at the floor
I’m chasing the steps now retracing
Don’t want anything replacing
What we had before
Why can’t you just stay?
I’m tired of walking away
This world is turning to grey
I don’t ever want to let go

[hook 2x]

{sidenote : this song is like 7 months old}

Holding Onto Hope w/ Xternalz [kyoa]

prod baz and @1wasterr 
featuring @victxrw

lyrics:
no matter what I say I can't get through to you
you know that it's hard for me so I need you choose
I tried to tell you all of it but you don't have a clue
you know that it's hard for me, it's hard to tell the truth

you don't wanna speak out, but I don't wanna freak out
so won't you tell me what you mean now? (I'll tell you what I mean now)
or all we built is gonna break down

you know that I've always had a lot I wanna say
always had a problem I was hoping I could change
cuz everytime you look at me I look the other way
you know that I'm wishing it would go away

@victxrw
but even with me wishing, it don't go away
it all stays in my mind, running inside of my brain
I'm waiting for a difference or for something to change
but nothing ever moves everything's still the same

it feels like its the winter in 2012
but why am I still frozen when the snow starts to melt?
how could you call me cold when you put me through hell?
maybe it was meant to be this way oh well...

I'm not doing fine, and you can't even tell
maybe it was meant to be this way oh well
I feel like I'm trapped; stuck inside this hell
maybe it was meant to be this way oh well

hard for me w/ victxrw

prod.
@jichuuu

notes:
goat prod jichu
no matter what u say, ill be right by ur side
till 3005..

//

[shiro]
yh, u already kno that its obvious
that i want to be by ur side yh
but u already kno how it goes
people fk w/u n they gone 

and i already kno
that i fell for ur tricks
but i know its my fault
that i trusted u, n i cant believe that 
its really true
that i miss u
and i cant talk to u, bc we're through
but, im still reminiscing u
no matter what u say
im js losing all of my day
js thinkin bout u
ur like, my drug, my ectasy
i cant live w/o u n me

walk out, s class, in a m3
n u cant figure out that u want me
so im always feelin worthless,
push me to the side, like im bronny in the draft pick
  
lately idk how to feel
uve been on my mind n i cant seem to change what im thinkin
so im always prayin that u make it
n i hope ur the doin the same for me
is it make believe, that u care for me
thats what it seems yh
and its js bringing me down

[hook]

//

by ur side『jichu』

og: silverstein - burning hearts

lyrics:

the blood is rushing 2 my head
this room is spinning round the bed
a flashing image perforates
tarnishes memories of grace
a bursting bond reforms into this shape

nd if my body makes it out
unscathed nd safe from broken vows
a promise spoken leaves me holding on
i just can't get a hold of
why we always hurt the ones we love
can burning hearts still keep us strong?

a crack has formed in the foundation
the floor is falling out from under me
a pleading loser makes his case
a liar shakes his head and breaks
a life of honor turns into his shame

nd if my body makes it out
unscathed nd safe from broken vows
a promise spoken leaves me holding on
i just can't get a hold of
why we always hurt the ones we love
can burning hearts still keep us strong?

it's all my fault (It's all my fault)
this eagle's flying down below where shadows fall
now it's sinking in (now it's sinking in)
tht I'm sinking into this place I never thought I'd fall...

u can't trust me, I'm not worthy
u won't ever feel this way
the storm is moving overhead
the wind is blowing back, we've been misled
we've been misled

nd if my body makes it out
unscathed nd safe from broken vows
a promise spoken leaves me holding on
i just can't get a hold of
why we always hurt the ones we love
can burning hearts still keep us strong?

burning hearts cover

with my love @thelastmai

lyrics:

(just for tonight, just for tonight)
(we'll be alright, we'll be alright)
(just for tonight)
(we'll be fine)

[chorus] x2
just one more time before u go now
without u i got no one to hold now
dont tell a white lie
ur all mine
even just for tonight
just for tonight

run through my hand through ur hair
its real hard not to care
cause the pain dissapears
every time u come near
now its malibu and driving in the late nights
puppy talk and kissing on the train ride
ill find another way to make u feel alright
does that sound fine?

so please-

[chorus] x2

(hello?)
are you busy?
(what do you want?)
can you just come over?
(im on my way...)
do you promise?
(i promise...)

[chorus]

just for tonight
everything will be fine
if u give me one more night
i know things will be fine
and i know cause ur calling my phone
hear ur voice at the tone
i know where u belong
just follow me home
wanna get u alone
while ur playing this song
got u singing along

so please-

[chorus] x3

prod. under the maple tree

tonight w/ mai

https://open.spotify.com/track/5CBCDcThy18wjEyYIboXNW?si=704d9329ab634e04
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@resolve1k
@mental
@arid
@bazington

you're breaking my heart
you're going down a path i can't follow
stop, stop now and come back 
I love you 
liar

take me back 
the way we laughed
say its my bad
put it way in the past
could you tell me when ur done
i want to be one
all i want is you 
you dont care what i want
ur the worst
you want me back but you left me in the dirt
i hope ur getting all the shit that you deserve
and i remember when you said it wouldnt work 
baby ur the worst
only care about yourself
no i dont want you
im with someone else
i bet you hate it, how its not you
i forgot your number
i forgot how much i blocked you (out)
i blocked out all our memories 
and blocked out how much we fought too

left me bad
looking at the things that i wish i said
now im gone and u want him instead
yea run away
i dont wanna lay inside my bed just to feel the pain
living in the scars and scratches
looking at me like i overreacted
miss the feeling when i wasnt static
just tell me that it never happened

pick up the pieces hope it helps
what's the point of talking if we lie and we won't tell?
what's the point of fighting if i'm putting you through hell?
no I don't wanna hear abt it pls say something else
just tell me that it's okay, don't tell me that it's too late
no matter what it might take, i'll do it for our sake
pick up the pieces hope it helps
what's the point of fighting if i'm putting you through hell?

take me back w/ arid + baz (inno + mental)

i got a spotify now!!

prod. @bothhappyandsad @seoulisms 
ty wallflower for awsom beat :D

send biteki some love for the amv

-

you say you dont mind
baby, if i fuck it up
(you) gotta promise you wont hate me 
till tomorrow, tell me love
i dont need anything else
cos you’re already who i love
dont let me stay by myself
cos ive been all outta luck

yeah im whispering my heart out
you dont know all that i go through
to reach you till i black out
and i come back to my senses
see these fucking faces
they welcome back my self doubt again

why wont i make sense
now ur tryna frame me
i wont take the blame baby
you js lit a flame yeah
girl what do you mean yeah 
what are we to be 
if we aint one and the same

love (wallflower, seoul)

only want cash 
ts a curse
only want racks
stuck in dis hearse
she feelin bad
wudnt do dat
its too laced
im on dat path
smoke on dat gas
im boutta trip
im boutta crash

my bitch right beside me
vyvanse mixed w da molly
flooded my wrist my cartier
aint drop shit like carti
run up on him straight cardio
im tryna get to dat dough
im w da fiends my gng my bro
feed my pack gotta feed my ho

fuck r dey tammat, im back in da cut again
but lil bit gimme butt
im in dat cullinan truck
off of dat road when im off of dem drugs
ian even got no one to trust
ian even got nowhere to go 
reefer my pack wat I smoke
left in da past dnt know u

im on a side drill
im w my side girl
ur not the right girl
i need the right drugs
when dat perc gmfu
dat bad bitch
got me yellin out fck luv

i got dat paper in my pocket j for myself
i did it for myself
swipe da perc right of da shelf
dumb bitch had a man oh well
found u found my own hell
dumb ho dnt hope u get well
when i get to da bag ud sell

bitch but i dnt know tf is a handout
bit when i get to dat scene i might crash out
sip on dat wock too much i might pass out 
run in your mans house im takin da trash out
bad lil bitch break her back out
im da 1 keep it a buck
u said dat its up, then its up
u said dat its up, then its stuck
u don been lost my trust

press on dat bitch no sound
im boutta set another round
i hadda skrt out town
dat lil bit turnt around
im boutta walk in dat bit w da fye
n im aimin dat blick at his eye
he hadda run, he not about it
got dat boy runnin like sonic

cardio (akura, yashio)

@arid


am i dead to u
or are u dead to me
i thought i trusted u
but ur still dead to me yaa
run away i had to leave the scene idk
(yea idk)

its gettin harder to breathe when I'm locked in these chains
want u closer to me but ur farther away
now theres blood on the grave and theres nothing to say
feeling so useless I lay here and fade
the reason I see
the reason I'm bleeding
I'm down on my knees
the pain I'm receiving
yea Ive fallen on the ground like I slipped in the mud
i don't wanna break away all the trust

i don't wanna waste my time
searching for what isn't mine
i saw u in a different life
ig ill leave it all behind

run away - arid (sochi)

LET’S MAKE FUN* abueloMix

Skynet <3 - UNTIL YOU COME BACK

@kess0kuband
@graveem1nd 
@lovecrysis

- earendel

Holding Onto Hope w/ Xternalz [kyoa]

clay

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