/i remember that u called just to know how i was doing/ by the time u were making that phone call// the revolver was doing a clicky sound/ thinking and feeling if i should burn this page from my chapter once and for all/cause all ur filth and awful memories u gave me came back to haunt me and not let me live / i made up my mind/ as the phone continues ringing/ u were already on the floor leaking all the blood from the scars that u gave to those of the innocent/../// 

PATIENTx2002

lyrics..

valentine won't you watch the rain?
that always turn to pain
lately my own soul won't dare to stay
in this world that is all pain
it wont hurt me now
im numb and so is my little brain
heaven or hell
i don't know which friend to break
valentine are you crying now?
cause it's people that made my heart break
now my heart has run away
valentine where are you now?

waiting in this land of stars
i'll be right here again
i got some drugs on my mind
i'll be across the ocean sometime
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•.•

CRYING VALENTINE (prod. gisabella)

---

im trying to get away from you
all these pills in my room
always suffering because of you
trying to end my life with these memories

break me
end me
i had enough

---

i had enough. (prod. NXMADIC)

---

cxcaine for my heart 
i cannot cope 

write all my sins
i ain't got no hope 

listen to my heart
i am done 
i killed all the hope 

i just wanna lie
on your shoulder 
but you're dead 

tell me it's all a lie
soo i don't wanna die
but now i gotta cry 
and do another line


sitting in the park
smoking dope
i wonder where did all my hope go
do another line so the world knows
that nobody cares
im so scared (fuck) 
im gonna die young while nobody cares
how am i gonna live like this?
am i really gonna die like this?
 (fuck)
everybodys dreaming to be living like a king
while im living trying to repair me like a broken thing
im using all my power to be happy and snappy
but the cracks don't fade away
 (no)
they are like im sorry for hurting you but i need to stay
fuck my heart doesn't want wealth
what it wants is a war to those who broke my mental health
 (yeah)
but im like jesus
i forgive and forgive but my wrist don't forget
so im setting up a wedding for my wrist and blade to take the pain away.

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i wonder where did all my hope go? (prod. Leaningbeats)

---
is this a goodbye?
look me in the eyes
and 
.
go ahead & die
you're a mistake
i can't stand your face
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go ahead. (prod. WH!RO)

---
i hate my life
tried to put pills to make it better
but im here writing suicide letters
but im here
im here
i feel
that i don't care about anyones feelings
just put a gun to my head to make a heartbreaking lifetime feeling
god abandoned me like it abandoned you
ive been getting drunk to not know the truth
make a fucking razor blade hug my veins 
.
make a razor blade hug my veins
a friend that wants to heal my pain
mix pills with the liquor and you got the devil laughing with you 
.
but who would of thought that the devil is struggling just like you
now you're doing xans while you're trying to forget about your trauma 
all these scars makes you want to remove all the drama 
hey but theres no escape to it (no/no/no)
i feel useless theres no lie in it (no)
soo one more cut to mark the days
one more cut to count the abusive days
maybe i'll be safe if it rains
but while having a heart and a brain there will always be pain
(there will always be pain)
(it's not fair)
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RAZORBLADE ABANDONMENT (prod. Foxer)

---
talking with my nightmares
trapped inside another dark lair
and i know i should cry for help
but im already in hell

mama shouldn't cry
i want you to live 
and not have the desire to die

i don't wanna change the world
cause i want the world to change me
thats why im constantly abused 
nobody will know the truth
fuck you and this world thats my truth

cut myself
don't fucking hate it
it's the only thing in the world

(it's the only thing in the world)
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VOID WHINE (prod. CapsCtrl)

---
washed upon the rain
everything is still the same

you did this to me
why???
---

‎ᙏ̤̫ ꪔ̤̥ ꪔ̤̮ ꪔ̤̱
(|__|)
(=•.•=)
 (")_(")

DON'T CRY JUST GET DRUNK (CapsCtrl)

.n.u.g.g.e.t.s. STARMAN WOOOOOOOOHAAAAAAAAAAAAA

~| i lost my mind on this song
want some lemonade poptarts???
|~
...

---
she knows what ive been thru
she knows the kind of blues i swim to
she knows the kind of blood i have to lick for
she knows every godamm thing to use to abuse me me/me/me/no/

tie me up in ur bed
 soo u can release the demons in ur fuckin head
i know u been thru fukin enough,
 that i can feel u wishing to be dead
u can put the needle in my veins/veins

instead of yours
u say u love me
while ur drowning with insecurities

(give me fake love)

give me fake love
 razor it to my veins
while im still alive
everything will still be the same

tell me pretty lies
 stab it thru my brain
why i wanna die?
 im never gonna be sane 
bury my head
its disturbing the dead
skin my head,
devil wants me dead

im the devil 
and i wanna blow my brain
pain is my friend,
 im never sober,
 it will never end
pretty white cxcaine, 
like the fukin church 
i painted red

(manic cookie noises)

bury my head
disturbing the-
dead
/no/

skin my fukin head
devil wants me dead
let me blow my brain//

(let me blow my brain)

for fvck fvcking sake
let me blow my brain
[fvck]
-
(manic cookie screams)
=~>

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(´･ω･)　　   　    |  |
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(＿_⊃　　　　   |  |
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　     ￣~｜∥~￣
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　／　　　= ￣)
￣　　　　= ￣)
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BURY THY HEADLESS (prod. SNGG)

---
ur sweet smile
got me feeling no despair
and those eyes got me trapped
its not fair
all the petals
of my heart
are broken
tell me 
tell me do u care? 

im tired of draining myself
to not tell u how i feel
let myself
absorb all ur hurting scars
but the tears are coming down
and the pain has no sound 

it felt like i got hit by a car 
feel that im not enough
---

A____A
|・ㅅ・|
|っ　ｃ|
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U￣ ￣U

PRETTYxDESPAIR (prod. injury)

---
i hope you feel what i felt when you shattered my soul
you left me in the cold
and everything we went thru was just moments to you
now i see while im blue 
everyone smiles
i hope you never know
what is like
to lose a vein
look at it turn blue
i hope you never knew my heartbreak 
me like glass
now i have to live to act this fake smile
wondering if ur walking with a real smile
---
ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マ

DISSOCIATE WITH ME FOR SIX MINUTES

---
i feel like the prettiest bottle of liquor
for the world/for the world

i can't do
anything
can't breathe
anything
polluted
my surroundings poisoned
my pathway to hell/to hell
---
ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ
/ᐠ > ˕ <マ

A POLLUTED PATHWAY TO HELL

---
oh my god
i can't shake it
this awful feeling
awful feeling
im losing myself
on a daily basis/basis
pills on the counter
thousand blunts
fetanyl's in the couch
20 thousand pills
in a beautiful pink cup full of butterflies 
.
im not high or happy about this
these were my toys
when i was just a little boy
a little toy
broken joints
can't feel joy
(thank u/thank u/thank u/thank u)
---
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　　 ／　| ｜ヽ＼
　　/　　ヽ⊥ノ　ヽ
　 ｜ﾐ<■ヽ　 /■>|
　 ｜　ﾆ (_乂_) ﾆ |
　 /＼_＿＿二＿＿ノ
　｜　 ￣￣＠￣￣ヽ
　｜＼_)　　　　　|)
　｜　　　　　　　|
　 ＼_　　　　　_ノ
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BROKEN TOY MP3

MY BRAIN CONSUMES ME
IT WILL NEVER LET ME REST 

FUCK THIS WEIGHT ON MY CHEST
ITS A CONSTANT HAUNTING REGRET 

IM CRYING IN SILENCE
NOBODY NEEDS TO HEAR ME
STOP PRAYING FOR HAPPINESS
STOP PRAYING FOR ME

STOP PRAYING FOR HAPPINESS
CUZ IT WILL NEVER APPEAR
OH
NEVER APPEAR
OH
NEVER APPEAR
MY FRIEND
APPEAR
MY FRIEND
APPEAR

MY BRAIN CONSUMES ME

///
~~
ahh-hahaha-yeah
~~~
take out a razor
now lies in my dream nightmare 
bed i can't sleep well
/
fuk ur religion they trying to rape me at night  every mother fukin time
fuk ur religion i tried to not make me bleed every fukin time
no no no /no no no
/
grab ur motherfukin guns
gun u shoot shoot
shoot every priest
shoot every president
shoot every important motherfuker that's irrelevant
/
this is my motherfukin world
i don't give a motherfukin shit
this is my motherfukin church
/
i am the motherfukin g0d
i got the motherfukin razorblade
everybody got the same treatmeant
get in the motherfukin cage
i don't give a fuk
ive been bleeding enough/ive been bleeding enough
/
it's ur fukin ur turn
it's time
it's ur turn/it's ur turn
~~
haha/hahaha
~~~
it's ur motherfukin turn 
it's my turn to motherfukin make u bleed
it's ur motherfukin turn to mark & cry to fukin god 
oh yeah/oh yeah/oh yeah
look at u bleeding every fukin time
look at u
/
cry for me
bleed for me
i want to see ur family cry
bleed for me
die for me
i want to see u all die/die
/
i don't have a heart
die
motherfuker die/die
~~~
die/die/die/DIE
/
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KARMAxDEATH

///
you
kill ur god
say amen
im the one now
u pray
you
///

AMENxDIE

///
i won't let u
kill me/drag me down
just cause the lord says in ur stupid black book
this isn't the lord's / this isn't the lord's work
/
i'll kill u and send u to heaven myself
call that god's work
i'll drag u down to my little bloodsheed house
lock u in a cage
will see who's laughing now
go ahead and pray
no one will find u here
go ahead and pray/go ahead and pray/go ahead and pray/go ahead and pray
go ahead and pray
~~~
go ahead and pray
~~~
///

PRAYxAHEAD

///
oh
u are gone/u are gone
it's too late
mi amor tu mueres aqui
oh
mi amor no llores
tu mueres aqui
/tu mueres aqui/aqui/
oh
u are gone
/
oh/oh/don't wanna drown here/oh
mi amor tu mueres aqui
oh
mi amor no llores 
tu mueres aqui/tu mueres aqui
aqui
oh
///

SHADOWxWOUND

//
my mind and my soul are nothing but silent hill
can't ever escape this hell
what can i do?
/
smoke some fire og
in this planet i just remembered u
what can i do?
i wish i killed u
caught up in this smoke
i needed to save my soul
everynight/oh everynight
u bittered my soul
fuk me who-(oh fuk)
everynight my soul 
scream for help
everynight my soul 
scream for help
then u opened the door
beaten me to a pulp
what can i do?
nothing happened
beaten i was
screaming for help
i truly wish
i truly wish u
were nothing but dead
u made me dead
i wish u were dead
wish u were-
//cut it-actually wait//
~~~~~~
as he 
lays a 
finger 
on me
its 
difficult 
to live 
with a 
smile 
like u
can i?/can i?
steal ur
lips
with my 
knife?
can i 
steal ur
lips? 
with my 
/
the
 big
 great
 white 
night/night
u 
still 
beat me up 
at night
u still make mommy 
cry and die/cry and die
as we watch tv
we die/we die
as we live 
as we breathe
u kill us 
at night
smoking at night
like we run away
that awful night
we escape from that life
oh
when we escaped
when we escaped that night/when we escaped that night/when we escaped that night/when we escaped that night/when we escaped that night//
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DEADxHARMONY

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hi/hi
___
pretty dying flowers
in this little dream of mine
a dream with a broken heart and mind
ur little soul i devour
oh pretty dying flowers
//
//hahaha-//
//
we drink the poison our minds pour for us
and wonder why we feel so sick all the time
//
it is the same rain that u loved that drowned u
all the time // it is the same rain that u loved that drowned u all the time
//
we drink the poison our minds pour for us
and wonder why we feel so sick all the time
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POISONxSEDUCTION

///
this is where the skull lies
this is where ur family lies
/
doll tossed abortion
always fogged with distortion
kill the raping priest 
just to feel a joyful notion
no-tion
lie
/
we're nothing in this motherfukin world
we're nothing in this motherfukin world
we're rotting in ur motherfukin room
we're rotting in ur motherfukin-
we're nothing/we're nothing
we're nothing
/
we live in ur shoe
when will we get out?
we live in ur filth
all we try is feel
we're trying to live
we're trying to smile
////
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THE DEAD DOLL TEAR

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