Wow simply breathtaking.. I love this so much ❤

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 1: Toshokan]
And I'm afraid I lost another friend
Seems like everything is fine 'cause I'm forced to pretend
Fade into oblivion, don't wanna make amends
If this is serious, then it's my descend
My eyes still burning 'cause I cried all night
I'm still hurting, nothing feels right
Bentley called me up like it's the middle of thе night
Still got a voice in my head, pleasе don't think that I'm lying
I miss you, you don't really care
When I needed you, you were there
Talking about me is not fair
Yeah, talking about me is not fair

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs
[Bridge: Toshokan]
I couldn't see the truth
How could I be so blind?
And when I feel so blue
I stare up at pastel skies
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
And when I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 2: sewerperson]
She's in the party, it started after the party (After the party)
I understand and I'm ready
Memories were made for forgetting
I keep my confidence close
Keep my drink filled with Henny
Girl, I just need to relax and I hope my body can let me (Body can let me)
And I got this target on top my head and it fucked me
I hope you'll still try to love me, I let my barriers down
And I prepare for the ugly
She's at home with her partner and I just hope that she's comfy 'cause girl I know it gets rocky
But hold on (Hold on)
Baby, stay strong (Stay strong)
Hold faith even when it seems lost (Seems lost)
It's alright (Alright), when we move on (Move on)
Don't talk, I can hear your thoughts, yeah

pastel skies (prod. wolfgang pander) 

toshokan - PATIENT w/ sewerperson

this hell that i live in

And please don't leave,
Said you're sorry it had to be me,
I've been looking for reasons to be,
alone in my room, where I'm meant to be
she don't understand, she don't see what I see

And baby we could take over the world too,
if only you would let me fucking hold you,
you say you got a man, like what will he do?
if only you would let me get to know you,

I don't wanna hurt you like that,
I see you watching me back,
I'm not good for your mental,
you're bad for mine back
and if stars would align,
one day you'd be mine,
don't know how to win when you lose every time

are you happy now?
does he treat you well,
coz I've been in hell,
invisioning, a better now

I keep a knife under my bed,
to fight the monsters off,
cant keep the thoughts of you away,
they tend to throw me off
I hope you're happier with him,
I know I'm not the one,
I'll never be the one

Align (prod. daks9k)

i might have just lost all of my projects so fuck it i dont care take this

Lyrics: 

I say ily and you shut me down
I can't tell you why I still reach out
and i wanna kill it all this sunday
but next week i reach out and we do this shit again
ok that’s more than a little skin
what 
you want me to deal with this?
i think 
that you should put your clothes back on
i think 
the term for this is long past gone

i think that you should put your clothes back on
i think the time for this is long past gone
i think that you should put your clothes back on
i think the term for this is 
long past 
long past gone
i think i wish u'd put your clothes back on
i think the time for this is long past gone
if it's me you butcher close that door
oh tar face it's a bloodfest
was this wrong

i think that you should put your clothes back on
i think the time for this is long past gone
i think that you should put your clothes back on
i think the term for this is
long past 
long past gone

what's that song
what's that song
long past gone
long past
long past gone

uncensored

produced by mackk
intro. 
i hope you enjoy.

the flood (intro) (mackk)

i just threw another picture in the fire
ain't nobody had it like us
did you have to be so condescending 
this ain't much of a life anymore
drain me out 'til i'm not bleeding 
and i won't leave you alone
i just can't leave 
now now now
i just can't leave

i had to figure this one out on my own
you ain't have direction there was only so many places we could go
you made me hate myself for a long time 'til i figured out i don't
did you have to be so condescending yeah
maybe you had to

i just threw another picture in the fire
nobody had it like us
is it true that everyone dies 
or does our heart just give up

i just threw another picture in the fire
from a box i had of photobooths and polaroids and such
i just drank for the first time in 60 days and i miss the way
make me feel like i'm some sort of fuck up
but the truth is that

i ain't even have to make this song or
put it on this ep but
i just wanted you to know that i'm happier than i ever was with you
lowkey i think you made the worst mistake of all time
when you let me take the fall like that 
i know that guy that used to call you all the time is still on your instagram
i know you used to tell me that he creeped you out then why'd you engage with him
i looked back at his posts during the time that we were together
and you pretty much still liked them all it's okay whatever but
i got a new girl now 
and i'm way better off without you
even if i didn't have her i'd say that shit yeah yeah yeah
shouldn't have led me on
did you have to be so condescending

the fire (p. michael harrison)

i ain't ever needed advice

so ill ignore yours for the rest of time

everytime somebody gave me 2 cents it wasn't worth shit

when i give myself 2 cents i turn it to a dime

pockets full of nothin i been emptied out

burnin paper like im smokin joints, dryest fuckin mouth

feelin weight up on my shoulders dawg my legs could give out

losin patience with the rest of yall im off the hand outs

im off the respect shit

off the nice talks

if i wanted conversation i would call a fuckin doc

fuck help, i ain't splashgvng im thuggin shit out

34 year old pussy stay hidden stay down

old as fuck

and fuck animepapi too 

i ain't forget

only pop here is your boy, im sonning every tune

the son of the greatness i swear, boy you can ask dukes

hate seein mom blue 

sick of somethin all these doctors don't got a damn clue

when i'm rich i'll make sure everybody's all good

till the day i die and afterwards ill feed the whole crew

everybody eats b swaine will make due

2 cents

Thanks for checking out What If?, the fifth single from my upcoming album Underground Sky. The album will be released one song at a time throughout 2025. The video for this track will be out on YouTube on October 10th.

What If? is one of the most introspective and reflective tracks I’ve made. It sits somewhere between alt-pop and classic singer songwriting, opening with stark piano chords and vocals before unfolding into layered acoustic guitars, intimate strings, pedal steel, jangling riffs, and cascading harmonies. It’s about questioning choices, imagining alternate paths, and confronting those quiet “what if” moments that linger in your mind.

Every part of this recording was done independently in my home studio. No label, no filters, no one else’s fingerprints.

Written, produced, performed & mixed by Heron @ Cracked Analogue
Artwork by Heron @ Cracked Analogue
Mastered by Toby Campen

What If?

featuring/guitar - https://soundcloud.com/user-182805726
prod - https://soundcloud.com/cloudhighcomeup

Wide awake like I’m afraid of my own damn home   
If I had changed you might have stayed 
But I’ll never know 
I’ve been doing worse but you saw that 
If I get better will you come back?
All this time I’ve waited cos you’re all I had 

I won’t get it off my chest 
cos I can hide my thoughts instead 
told me what I should have said 
I nod my head like you know best

What’s one more sleepless night without you?
I swear I miss everything we had 
And all the memories 
Like the first time I met your dad
Or when your brother caught us kissing on your bedroom floor 
And I know know I should call my friends 
But I just want to be alone

hide (feat. saint tomorrow)

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