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hmmm 8

The Upload

luna has risen

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this girl hit my phone up but i dont care
your words mean nothing to me 
i just wanna go home
will i ever go home?

the walls in my bedroom theyve seen it all
stumbling through the door as i fall apart 
alone
why do i feel so alone?

i wonder what you felt when you said you loved me
hiding in my sheets cos im good for nothing
no
this is all that i know

the clouds paint the skyline like ghosts at twilight
these stars up above make me feel so finite
can you see my heart glow?

i feel the growing pains
in me every day
trying so fucking hard to escape my fate

the way i hide is not your concern
if i fuck this up then i might change
get myself in better shape

so i hold my breath and i hope for the best
its fucking hard to breathe with demons on my chest
the thought of you brings gloom in my room
and i cant fucking stand this place
i just need to get away

luna

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all that i know 🌌

luna has risen

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lying in the snow
so cold 
please dont leave me tomorrow
pressure on my shoulders
feels like boulders
i might crumble

be my sanctuary
you might save me
let the waves take me
on on on i wander
all alone
beneath the surface

watch me drift among
the stars and moon and sun
my journeys just begun
but all ive done is run
take away the pain
the silence of the rain
skin and bones remain
fragments of fragile remains


its time we stopped this pointless nonsense
pick yourself up its not worth it
they just wanna see you down
but miss you when youre not around

youre wasting all your time on this
thats all you do is overthink
i know you wish for this to end
i know you wish for this to end

i cant fucking stay this way
burn my body to a blaze
ash and skin and bone remain
lay me to rest in the rain x4

sanctuary pt. 2 🌠

luna has risen

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this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

staring at my ceiling
hiding from my feelings
tired of the same shit
tell my mom im leaving

playing playstation
ill call you back later
im so sick of waiting
can you do me a favor

just leave me alone when i ask you to
silence by myself is all i ask of you
you tell me that you care but i dont think you do
i need to get away i just cant deal with you (x2)

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

i just need to move on
ive been waiting too long
to feel like myself again
to feel like i never left

hiding from the gallows
hang my head downlow
walking in the shadows
feeling fucking shallow

just leave me alone when i ask you to
silence by myself is all i ask of you
you tell me that you care but i dont think you do
i need to get away i just cant deal with you

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

lite brite ✨

luna has risen

also available on:

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take me away from this path that i follow
its left me hopeless and empty and hollow

will i stay asleep forever
nothings the same as i remember

i still bite my nails like i learned when i was seven
and i still remember that car that you left in

so i close my eyes and hope that tomorrow
brings brighter lights and respite from my sorrow

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way [x2]

my eyes are still sleepy just like when you kissed me
just let me be alone i dont care if you miss me

numb and cold and scared to be away
from those i love im heartless anyway

im scared of the day i wake up and im 18
the walls of my room are collapsing please save me

dream a dream and hope for that one day
you come to life and feel like youre something

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way 

nobody
nobody

nobody 😔

luna has risen

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lost and afraid of the world that surrounds me
i constantly let down everyone around me

my heart it glows
my soul it floats
i stay awake cos i cant breathe
when demons haunt me in my sheets

have you ever felt like you were dead?
like nothing feels the same 
so you just lie in your bed?

light a cigarette 
put your woes to rest
im a fallen angel baby im not like the rest

i try to hold on to the things that i once loved
my heart and emotions are something im void of

youre wasting away
are you okay?
please just keep your head up and just hope for better days

hold on to your memories and youll be safe
this may be our last chance to leave this place

its like i hold myself back
crying wolf to all the sheep
singing lullabies to ease my mind
safely drifting in the night

but nothings ever as it seems
waking up from fever dreams
ive counted every single sheep
but i still cant fucking sleep

a fallen angel 🌟

finally finished up this extremely stressful semester, and figured I would release this. shoutout to @iamsidxkick for the beat, this man is a fucking god. 

I'm planning to start putting my music on Spotify/iTunes/Youtube, and I'm gonna have an EP out sometime soon, keep your eyes open.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9GaMIgoqy4

would you? (prod. sidxkick)

RiverKinn
"Cut"
Instruments and Production by RiverKinn

My tears fell on the microphone while recording this
Thank you Trent
Thank you Johnny

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I cut myself today
To see if I might bleed
I cannot stop the rain
But it's the only thing I need
And you will make me fall
Right up off the earth
You don't love me now
Your love's more than I'm worth

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
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@riverkinn

Play Dead MMXVIII

KISAMA

Produced by Fabian Secon

Artwork: @ AaronCAustin

What Do I Live For

Prod. @bornhero
Art @shadyxwade
Mixing @kidamateur

what happened to me? (Prod. Born Hero)

produced by https://soundcloud.com/jakkyboi
mixed by https://soundcloud.com/demxntia
Lyrics:
[And if you asked me to drive you far away from here
I would grab my keys and go wherever we wanted
Cuz Summer's almost over baby gotta make the most of it]

I hit the brakes when I know something's just not right
Maybe i'm overthinking crazy or i'm outta my mind
I took this road so many times but I can't give up
Till I put up a fight
And I won't say it's not you, it's me
But I could say it all in my sleep no
I fell in love from the very first start of it
I can't reverse cuz we made it so far from there
And if you asked me to drive you far away from here
I would grab my keys and go wherever we wanted
Cuz summer's almost over baby gotta make the most of it

It's into drive, nevermind, turn it back around
Ever since I met you got my head always spinning
Around and Around like we goin 180
I think you got me sick but I know you're the remedy
And if you love me, you would sit there riding shotgun quietly
While I say what I gotta say cuz I don't have another day
If my heart's doing U-turns

I hit the brakes when I know something's just not right
Maybe i'm overthinking crazy or i'm outta my mind
I took this road so many times but I can't give up
Till I put up a fight
And I won't say it's not you, it's me
But I could say it all in my sleep no
I fell in love from the very first start of it
I can't reverse cuz we made it so far from there
And if you asked me to drive you far away from here
I would grab my keys and go wherever we wanted 
Cuz summer's almost over baby gotta make the most of it

SPOTIFYY

My Heart Does U-turns(prod. jakkyboi)

i'll say goodnight

prod. @antongxldn & @produnown

Today I turned 19 and I'm still lost af tbh.

P.S. You're Dead To Me

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@poorstacy - hollow (prod. nick mira & trillogy)

"you were so broken, i was so lost in myself"

LYRICS

VERSE
i was so high
and you brought me down
(you brought me so down)
you wanna try
i’ll see you around

VERSE 2
i was so scared that you would
take a couple pills
try to float away
party in the hills
'quila for the pain
find another man
that’s how we began
why wouldn’t you do it all again

CHORUS
you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

RAP
i been tryna fix us
you been caught in mix ups
that receipt it aint mine
you forget what you buy
lingerie aint on my mind
put your baggage on me
i can carry your grime
fuck the shit that you see
if you saw what i see
pussy stains on my jeans
sure as hell came from you
sure as hell aint from me
i been feeling soley
maybe if you hold me
i can show you what’s real
i can show you what’s me

BRIDGE
i just wanna try
but she dont wanna stay
baby let me try
i know that

CHORUS
you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

OUTRO (Foreign Forest)
you broke my heart
i just wanna restart
but baby there you go again
i’m hurting and i can’t pretend
i just want to heal
but i can’t tell what’s real
i could really use a friend
baby let’s start from there again

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yøu were sø brøken (ft. Foreign Forest)

Middle of the night thoughts. Thanks to these guys
Prod.: 8rokeboy 
@lalalavera
@raines-pollard

Mixed by @flwrs

Keep me Company, Please (ft LaVera x  Resident)  {SPOTIFY NOW}

never made it back
never made it back
now i hate my life
there’s no saving that
i’ll just slit my wrists
where’s my razor at
i just waste my time
and i’m fine with that

why you stab me in the back
guess your love was just an act
wish i didn’t want you bad
‘cause you treat me like i’m trash

hit a hundred on the dash
and i really hope i crash
i been burning through life fast
now i can’t wait till it’s passed
now i’m living to forget
every night when i’m in bed
i can never fucking rest
‘cause you’re always in my head

you’re in my head lil bitch
fuck what you said lil bitch
i’m fucking dead lil bitch
i’m fucking dead
you just left my life. now it’s a fucking mess

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@benedixhion - insomnia [prod. sketchmyname]

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i freestyled the majority of this, feeling pretty rn <3

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jasmine tea* (prod. flowers in narnia)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/prodbybrody

Life gets better 
If you say so 
You don’t understand it 
Well I guess we’re in the same boat 

I can’t honestly remember why you’re mad at me still 
And the fact that it’s not over swear it’s making me ill

I swear it’s making me stagnant 
Weighed down 
Need some rest 
I’d give you all I have so I can feel again you 
say that you wanna move along
 but you don’t show it 
You don’t give a shit 
You never did
And now I know it 

Well how am I meant to lay here with your knife in my back 
You say I won’t run away like you’re all that 
Zone out
Over drink
I don’t wanna feel anything 
But if I’m honest 
I can’t walk away I’ll just come right back 

Shy away 
I try my best but Ill never change 
Go back 4 years 
And I’d feel the same  
I can’t stay afloat
I just stay awake 


All this time spent all alone 
Feel alright again and you know
Then you’ll see inside my mind 
Then I’ll wake up on my own 

If you leave then I get it, go
See the words past right over my head 
Say I look down when I’m at my best 
Say I look down when I’m at my best 
Not doing well but you could have guessed 
Think that I care the way that you dress
Look at my face 
Am I impressed?

How am I meant to lay here with your knife in my back 
You say I won’t run away like you’re all that 
Zone out
Over drink
I don’t wanna feel anything 
But if I’m honest 
I can’t walk away I’ll just come right back

if you leave then i get it (prod. brody)

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