MrDenisoyd - COCAINE (prod. sadface)

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Lyrics:
You can call me whatever you want
It'll never save you from yourself
Can't admit anything's your fault
So you live in your own made-up hell

Never willing to see it
Obvious you've been bleeding
Take it out on who didn't cut you
History repeated
Hurt the ones you hold close
Those who need love the most
Projecting all your flaws trying to hide
But it shows

I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling to find your peace
Says more 'bout you than me
When you talk all your shit 'bout me behind my face
I feel bad for you
I can see right through
The facade that you wear to cover up your wounds
I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling

Hate to see that you're stuck in your ways
Unaware of all the damage you cause
You can keep trying to run far away
But you won't ever escape from your flaws

Don't wanna throw you the blame
You probably grew up the same
Neglected through your youth, now you pay forward the pain
I know you do it to cope
But I just want you to know
You could do so much better if you wanted to grow

I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling to find your peace
Says more 'bout you than me
When you talk all your shit 'bout me behind my face
I feel bad for you
I can see right through
The facade that you wear to cover up your wounds

I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling to find your peace
Says more 'bout you than me
When you talk all your shit 'bout me behind my face
I feel bad for you
I can see right through
The facade that you wear to cover up your wounds
I can't take it personally
'Cause I know that you're struggling

Personally

personally

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi for jumping on this track <3

Yeah, take a step back see the faces under yeah they scream
get my life back from the ones who say they're real to me
feel the train tracks vibrate under as you intervene
get a flashback, realize now that  suicide is free

memories stack, like a knife it slices and I bleed
(I FEEL FREE)
realize now that, the options there if I just want to leave
(FOLLOW ME)
feel my spine crack from the pressure of the stress it creaks
(I FEEL FREE)
flick a match down watch the embers burning at my feet
(FOLLOW ME)

cut up slice down, I don't want to talk now
(DOWN THE HOLE)
change up lose faith in a god who betrayed
(NO, NO)
everything that we tried to be
(ANIMALS)
we're just human yeah why can't you understand
(WE’RE ANIMALS)

how cruel could you be, to give a body to someone so weak
(DOWN IT ALL)
it's not like you to intervene, then why’d you put a curse on me
(FOLD, FOLD)
deteriorate, fatigue, chemistry wasn't your expertise
(MAN THE ZONE)
you lied, then left, guess this father never cared
(BURN IT ALL)
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke
 


Burn the world ash I’m doing god a fucking favor
Watch me self destruct and I’ma send you to your maker
All together now let's walk to hell it's getting cold
Know the devil waiting, keeping on saying, that we gotta go

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke

Lazarus Ft $lothboi

Produced By. LMGMADEIT
Artwork By. Sick Again
Engineered By. Baby Gos

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Taboo

Walking on a tightrope in the end
Been looking at the way down from the air
It may be time to ease the pain
Broken stride caught in the rain

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

If I don’t do something right
I may disappear
I’ve been lining up the white
Look in the mirror
I couldn’t see my reflection
My course in need of correction
I’ve been hanging by a thread
Don’t look at me unravel
You’ve been running through my head
I’ve been kicking up gravel
To keep up with you
We made it through the summer
Make no sudden moves
No telling what I might do

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

Ad Nauseam ft. RiverKinn (prod. 52Blu)

Observer

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Hard to Breathe

Lyrics:

I don't have to remember cause it's still my everyday
Living with the same problems that I thought would fade away
Self destruction on my mind
Self esteem is hard to find
Self reflection seems to be my only way of getting by
I ain't even chasing highs, keep my expectations low
As my mind, trying to fight the feelings as they come and go
See the signs of decline but I never let them show
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know 


Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know 


Seems to be my affliction has become my addiction 
Been a while since I gave in but my time is still wasted
Contemplating if it really ever solved anything
Or if I was just distracted by the pain that it brings
Ain't ashamed to admit that it remains how I think
But even if I had the choice I wouldn't change anything
I'm still the same as I was, only difference is
I'm in control
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know


Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know

2024 eighteenSAINT / Clouded North

All That I Know (Alt Version)

All That I Know

Lyrics:

I don't have to remember cause it's still my everyday
Living with the same problems that I thought would fade away
Self destruction on my mind
Self esteem is hard to find
Self reflection seems to be my only way of getting by
I ain't even chasing highs, keep my expectations low
As my mind, trying to fight the feelings as they come and go
See the signs of decline but I never let them show
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know

Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know

Seems to be my affliction has become my addiction
Been a while since I gave in but my time is still wasted
Contemplating if it really ever solved anything
Or if I was just distracted by the pain that it brings
Ain't ashamed to admit that it remains how I think
But even if I had the choice I wouldn't change anything
I'm still the same as I was, only difference is
I'm in control
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know

Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know

2024 eighteenSAINT / Clouded North

All That I Know - Alt Version

@spacegodapollo https://soundcloud.com/realflyingfish?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
I was originally the feature on this project, but it hasn't been uploaded for years so I wanted to share it. We don't own the rights to this beat, so that's why it's going respectfully on soundcloud! Love u, hope u enjoy! Xoxo, E

Do U Still Care? (feat. SpaceGodApollo) [prod. flyingfish]

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Lyrics:
So won't you leave me alone
I need to be on my own right now
And don't tell me to be careful
Honestly it's not helpful
And I just hope you know
Don't mistake me for ungrateful
I just don't need the mental noise
You're bleeding out your anxiety
Got no space here inside of me
Trying to keep both hands on the wheel

Spin around, spin around out of control and then
Here I am, here I am stuck in this ditch again
No I can't, no I can't follow your directions
They don't lead me to, they don't lead me to heaven
Spin around, spin around out of control and then
Herе I am, here I am stuck in this ditch again
No I can't, no I can't follow your directions
Thеy don't lead me to, they don't lead me to heaven

Don't want to hear about your thoughts
A lot of trash that you got in my head
You wanna feel in control
I know you're lost, aren't we all
But I can't be here for that
So why don't you just say you love me
Or is it not what you really mean
I'm losing grip on reality
Getting real fucking tired of me
Trying to keep both hands on the wheel

Spin around, spin around out of control and then
Here I am, here I am stuck in this ditch again
No I can't, no I can't follow your directions
They don't lead me to, they don't lead me to heaven
Spin around, spin around out of control and then
Here I am, here I am stuck in this ditch again
No I can't, no I can't follow your directions
They don't lead me to, they don't lead me to heaven

All That I Know - Alt Version

NTHN

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