https://soundcloud.com/rivilin

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNQ77eK9Gf8

Lyrics

Yeah, yeah this doesn't make any sense
So why did you tell me you don't want to see me again
How's does it feel to be you, pushing abusing the ones you love you break
So what does it mean to be me you wanna ask me
The questions you don't wanna see
You're rubbing the back of my hair your screaming so loudly
You don't want to show that you care

You're punching your face in the street
You're hitting the pavement your spitting out bloody teeth
Eager to meet me, don't want to see me, so confused i don't want to see
So what does it mean to me, you never ask you never care
So what does it mean for us, yeah you know i shouldn't ask that

Cus im a skinny piece of shit from the west side, lose sight
From where I wanna be cus im back on the drugs again
I wanna blame you but I know it's my fault
Just to date someone so disgusting

So who am I meant to be, yeah I know
He looks a lot like me
So tell me lucifer is that your reflection in the window
Staring back at me, what do you see

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Fuck you watchu thinking, you ain't know fuck all about me
I work harder than some pussy boys that do it for a bounty
They be bragging bout the money that they sucking dick to see
You a sheep boy, living in the simulation, deep

I am free

Boy I threw away a 6 figure job, twice
Knew I'm giving up a life, still I paid the price
I ain't give a fuck about the money, I'm alive
Create to survive, that's my line, till I fucking die

My ex said that I was a lame-o
Said sloth you a pussy just take those
Blank thoughts while blacking in the shadows
Fuck, thank god I left that hell hole

Drove fast, eyes closed
Count downed, I really didn't know
Thought my life would just stay shit
But know there's light in darkness

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

Cus too many people here talk about me
So how does it feel to be the one without a dream
Fuck a 9-5 I wanna be free
Cus too many people wanna talk about me

BURNT IGNITION

Construct

$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Construct [Music Video ↓]

last time

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi for jumping on this track <3

Yeah, take a step back see the faces under yeah they scream
get my life back from the ones who say they're real to me
feel the train tracks vibrate under as you intervene
get a flashback, realize now that  suicide is free

memories stack, like a knife it slices and I bleed
(I FEEL FREE)
realize now that, the options there if I just want to leave
(FOLLOW ME)
feel my spine crack from the pressure of the stress it creaks
(I FEEL FREE)
flick a match down watch the embers burning at my feet
(FOLLOW ME)

cut up slice down, I don't want to talk now
(DOWN THE HOLE)
change up lose faith in a god who betrayed
(NO, NO)
everything that we tried to be
(ANIMALS)
we're just human yeah why can't you understand
(WE’RE ANIMALS)

how cruel could you be, to give a body to someone so weak
(DOWN IT ALL)
it's not like you to intervene, then why’d you put a curse on me
(FOLD, FOLD)
deteriorate, fatigue, chemistry wasn't your expertise
(MAN THE ZONE)
you lied, then left, guess this father never cared
(BURN IT ALL)
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke
 


Burn the world ash I’m doing god a fucking favor
Watch me self destruct and I’ma send you to your maker
All together now let's walk to hell it's getting cold
Know the devil waiting, keeping on saying, that we gotta go

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine

I ain’t giving up
God ain’t give a fuck
Seen a light

Spoke a lot of words
Nothing in return
Wouldn’t bite

Why the fuck I try
Urging me to fight
For a light

Broken by design
Not a fix
When you redefine
 
is this it is this all I have to show yeah im done
burnt alive in this hell, guess the anguish yeah it won
watch my soul start to leave yeah guess he had enough
I should have left with him I guess we'll say im just shit out of luck

what's the point when the sky it bleeds and starts to take control
lacerations scar my skinny  guess my heart yeah you just stole
hit me up, hit me up, and say that my love was a joke
the emotions in my throat, they start to swell as I just choke

Lazarus Ft $lothboi

written/performed/produced by sepha.
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lyrics -

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together 
On

i wanna spend the end of my days in a 
'Leaving Las Vegas' style haze as I
Burn my possessions and i tap that - 
Romance that needed no 'chit-chat'

We can turn under smoke
of the lights as we're broke
and i'll bin all my clothes
and my jewellery - pawn broked

and you'll dance for me
and i'll clown around
i'll clown around this shitty place with you
this shitty place with you

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together
On

Everything now feels like it's gonna kill us
So fuck it we'll just deal in realness
Like the way your skin feels in this stillness
as we let the sunset breeze distill us

I get a body transfer in dreaming
When i'm only putting myself in feeling
Now the lights are hitting her in all the right places 
But she's unaware of the beauty in her paces

and you'll dance for me
and i'll clown around
i'll clown around this shitty place with you
this shitty place with you

lets - blow out
lets spin
go round
in these dirty streets

lets - blow out
lets spin
go round
in these dirty streets

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

i'll take you as you are
i'll never let your bad side
make me judge or push you far
away - we can be toxic together

together on
together wrong
together on
together wrong 
together on
together wrong
together on
together wrong
together on

TOXIC TOGETHER

Follow $lothboi: @slothboipapi
Follow Nicolas Sales: @nicolassales
Prod. Grayskies

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/LtUeTlERXQM

Lyrics:

[$LOTHBOI]:

STARING AT THE SKY
LOOKING GOD UP IN HIS EYES
ANGELS ALL AROUND ME
BUT THE DEMONS STAY INSIDE

DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
IN THE CLUB I'M ROLLING DICE
REALIZE
DEVIL STILL AN ANGEL
BEAUTY NEVER DIED

WAY ABOVE MY HEAD B*TCH
I BE DROWNING IN THE SAND
FRAYED STRANDS
HOLDING ME TOGETHER
WISH I HAD A HAND
PLEASE
HEAD UP IN THE SKY
WITH MY MIND HIGHER IT ASCENDS
THE END
I BECAME WHAT IMAGINED I TRANSCEND

LATELY I SEE CREATURES SHIFTING
VOICES IN MY HEAD BEAT
CALL THE ONE THAT SHARES MY MIND
MYSELF IN DIFFERENT MEMORIES

SIPPING WINE I FEEL ALIVE
ASCEND I SHINE IN STARRY SEAS

PALACE SO DIVINE I EXIT
FLASHING LIT THEM LIKE A SCENE


[NICOLAS SALES]:

RUN
RUN AWAY
RUN IN PLACE
I CAN’T RUN AWAY
AND I’M BACK WHERE I STARTED
MUST BE A BETTER WAY
INNOCENCE YOU’RE MIXING IT UP
CONFUSED WITH IGNORANCE
NOW I DON’T KNOW WHERE
ALL MY FEELINGS WENT
WHERE MY FEELINGS WENT
YEAH

[$LOTHBOI]:

WAY ABOVE MY HEAD B*TCH
I BE DROWNING IN THE SAND
FRAYED STRANDS
HOLDING ME TOGETHER
WISH I HAD A HAND
PLEASE
HEAD UP IN THE SKY
WITH MY MIND HIGHER IT ASCENDS
THE END
I BECAME WHAT IMAGINED I TRANSCEND

[NICOLAS SALES]:

SKY FULL OF STARS
LOOKING DOWN
THEY’RE ALREADY DEAD
YOU'RE NOT YOUR JOB OR THE VOICES
YOU HEAR INSIDE YOUR HEAD
YOU DON’T HAVE A NAME
YOU DON’T HAVE A PERSONALITY
YOU'RE JUST THE OBSERVER
TRYING TO SET YOU FREE

[$LOTHBOI & NICOLAS SALES]:

I SAW A LIGHT AND FOLLOWED IT
DO YOU BLAME ME FOR ALL OF IT
I’M SORRY THAT I LEFT WITHOUT A BYE
BUT I BE TIRED OF IT

SIGIL IN THE NIGHT
I ABIDE
CAN YOU GUIDE ME RIGHT
EVERYTHING’S CONNECTED
SO IT MATTERS WHEN THE TIMES RIGHT

THROW ME IN THE FIRE
LET THE EMBERS FLOAT AWAY

LET THE FATES DECIDE
IF I’M GONNA GO OR STAY

BURN INTO THE GROUND
AND FEED THE EARTH A BIT OF PAIN

ALL THAT’S LEFT IS SMOKE AND ASHES
HALLOWED BE THE DAY

I SAW
ANGELS
KILL MY
FRIENDS AND
I SAW
GOD PRETEND
HE CARING

Painted Clouds

$LOTHBOI x NICOLAS SALES - PAINTED CLOUDS

Produced By. LMGMADEIT
Artwork By. Sick Again
Engineered By. Baby Gos

Spotify

Taboo

Running

Lyrics:

I don't have to remember cause it's still my everyday
Living with the same problems that I thought would fade away
Self destruction on my mind
Self esteem is hard to find
Self reflection seems to be my only way of getting by
I ain't even chasing highs, keep my expectations low
As my mind, trying to fight the feelings as they come and go
See the signs of decline but I never let them show
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know 


Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know 


Seems to be my affliction has become my addiction 
Been a while since I gave in but my time is still wasted
Contemplating if it really ever solved anything
Or if I was just distracted by the pain that it brings
Ain't ashamed to admit that it remains how I think
But even if I had the choice I wouldn't change anything
I'm still the same as I was, only difference is
I'm in control
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know


Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know

2024 eighteenSAINT / Clouded North

All That I Know (Alt Version)

All That I Know

Bleeding In The Dark (Feat. XELISHURT)

Lyrics:

Too much on my mind, I had to learn to keep it out of sight
Soon as I let my guard down, they're asking me if I'm alright
“Yeah I'm fine”, I reply as I fake a smile
From time to time, it's real but in reality it's been a while
Since I had some peace of mind
You wouldn't want a piece of mine
Trying to find solutions for emotions that I can't define
Or should I say I can't recall
Barely feel anything at all
I find I'm always waiting for the fall

It's gonna be alright
Take care 
When it's all too much to bear
Everything you wanted
Don't you know you've got it right there 
Long nights
Nightmares
Life don't fight fair
Look inside my mind
You might not like what you find there

Yeah, yeah
Lost myself one day and I'm still trying to find my way
Try to explain it but I never find the words to say
Searching everyday for ways to take my mind away
From the darkness, now I figure that it's here to stay
But it's okay
Honestly I'm quite acquainted
I learned from my mistakes, it takes its toll when I fake it
Used to think I'd never make it
Now every chance, I take it
If this is the hand I'm dealt then I'll play it

It's gonna be alright
Take care 
When it's all too much to bear
Everything you wanted
Don't you know you've got it right there 
Long nights
Nightmares
Life don't fight fair
Look inside my mind
You might not like what you find there

Alright

OPHIUCUS RECTIFICATION

CLOUDED NORTH ☁️
UK Cloud/Emo Rap Artist & Producer

Alright

NTHN