Drowning (feat. Teorstan)

Drowning feat. Teorstan

Tokyo (Prod. ERLAX)

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

I feel your jaws start to wrap around my neck
so disgusted with how I left
I feel the anguish in my bones, watch them snap I turn to stone
try to ignore the pain

I see the flesh around my heart rotted with hate
this wooden home, it screams my name
no grand design above the sky 
skin is burning with the lie watch me embrace the void

im a waste, im a vermin, a piece of shit, hurting
doesn't matter if I stay I’m always just lurking
the ghost between us, the floorboards and concrete
it doesn't matter now when you don't amount to something

To people that you thought just really cared
but they leave you on the ground when you’re choking, not coping
And now you're embraced by the emptiness you never loved
and you’re watching as he consumes everything you came to trust

down the alleys where you grew up and you never understood
what it means to just care, what it means to just stare
with the blank eyes when someone’s just falling
to suicidal tendencies, they always get the best of me

so tell me why you’re never fucking calling
never checking on me until you need something to waste your time
just leave me the fuck alone
cus id rather be dead to you than something

Yeah depression hits me up, says he loves who you are now
I want nothing to do with you
invade my dreams and give me nothing, no I couldn't see you bluffing
find a lover, feel disgusted from you


feel my consciousness hit my stomach, weighs a ton it's dragging me down
I got nothing to give to you
you took the best then left me stranded, filled with hate then reprimanded
come tomorrow empty-handed from you


so bury me out the back where I can't hear a thing
I don’t want to be something more than a dream
but you know that’s not fair how you're always in mine
always plaguing my thoughts waking up and your gone

my friends say that it doesn't get better than this
is being tormented just some form of a bliss
these glass walls that I construct just seem to crack
and like a puppet I just always come back

yeah so it always turns this way when your friends turn fake
and you don’t have a lover to remember your name
so you crumble at the fear when you don't know yourself
pills from a psychiatrist, yeah it sucks they couldn't help  

with the constant torment knowing that you never will belong
with the piercing stares from family where they love to prove you wrong
like what you do for work yeah your looking half alive
yeah I swear I have been on repeat since I nearly died

say you wanna understand but you can't, I never said I wanna be alive long
it feels like im not living in my body
like who am I to you, am I just a joke of someone that I used to be
use me, abuse me until you leave again, im sick of living like I want to kill myself

Visionary

Produced By. Morecalcium
Artwork By. Sick Again
Engineered By. Baby Gos

Cold air touches my face
With you everything seems fake
So high can’t walk out this place
I’m fucked up I just need a break
Skyscrapers make me feel like I can jump
Drink another 5th like to fuck it up
Crying everyday I feel like a chump
Rockstar status so I gotta live it up

Motorola trap phone buzzing
I’m fucked, can’t tell me nothing
I’ll hibernate stay shut in
I’ll dodge and weave this fuck shit
Why you asking questions
Your words they feel like weapons
The more you scream and threaten
When you gon learn your lesson?

She lied, he lied that’s all facts
I fell in love with anthrax
Guess opposites do attract
Because you’re in my mind
I feel you’re gone, I lost that
Lost all I love too damn fast
Don’t think I wanna come back
Because you left me blind

I’m a mess and i confess that I'm obsessed with you
I feel attached and i can’t pass or match this feeling boo
Some days I'm lost, with no cause why I'm feeling blue
Is it real? Is it fake? I don’t got no clue

I feel I lost you
Please say it’s not true
Please say you love me
Even if it’s a lie
You said you’re brand new
You love this new dude
You said you hate me
Wish I wasn’t alive

I know I'm in lust but this girl is a dime piece
Know I can’t trust but I just need more time please
she pulled up on me, on G what good timing
Heart it beats quicker, anxiety rising
Unlock the door and explore my horizons
She looking mad like she checked my Verizon
Truth it hits harder then that dude named Tyson
Got it all out of me no more to syphon

She lied, he lied that’s all facts
I fell in love with anthrax
Guess opposites do attract
Because you’re in my mind
I feel you’re gone, I lost that
Lost all I love too damn fast
Don’t think I wanna come back
Because you left me blind

I’m a mess and I confess that I'm obsessed with you
I feel attached and I can’t pass or match this feeling boo
Some days I'm lost, with no cause why I'm feeling blue
Is it real? Is it fake? I don’t got no clue

Spotify

ANTHRAX

VENFEX & VALI$BEATS - INSANITY

Cloud Surfing

Tsunami J. & YCK & Walt - Echo

Lyrics:

Too much on my mind, I had to learn to keep it out of sight
Soon as I let my guard down, they're asking me if I'm alright
“Yeah I'm fine”, I reply as I fake a smile
From time to time, it's real but in reality it's been a while
Since I had some peace of mind
You wouldn't want a piece of mine
Trying to find solutions for emotions that I can't define
Or should I say I can't recall
Barely feel anything at all
I find I'm always waiting for the fall

It's gonna be alright
Take care 
When it's all too much to bear
Everything you wanted
Don't you know you've got it right there 
Long nights
Nightmares
Life don't fight fair
Look inside my mind
You might not like what you find there

Yeah, yeah
Lost myself one day and I'm still trying to find my way
Try to explain it but I never find the words to say
Searching everyday for ways to take my mind away
From the darkness, now I figure that it's here to stay
But it's okay
Honestly I'm quite acquainted
I learned from my mistakes, it takes its toll when I fake it
Used to think I'd never make it
Now every chance, I take it
If this is the hand I'm dealt then I'll play it

It's gonna be alright
Take care 
When it's all too much to bear
Everything you wanted
Don't you know you've got it right there 
Long nights
Nightmares
Life don't fight fair
Look inside my mind
You might not like what you find there

Alright

🖤pyrrhic🖤
@dearpyrrhic
☠️www.instagram.com/dearpyrrhic/
lyrics:
(Giggle)
Computer, Start

Target acquired. Scanning parameters:
Dimensions: 38, 22, 38
Heart rate: Elevated
Previous casualties: 27

Aw, they're perfect!

Caution: Detecting emotional manipulation protocols
(What!?)
Subject exhibits patterns of high-risk behavior

WARNING!: Multiple red flags detected
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She got a habit of leaving men without a -
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Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
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Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
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Now I need a -
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She got a habit of leaving men without a -
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Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
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Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
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Wasted time, I rotted up on the shelf, ya
By your side, I never felt like myself, like an
Accessory
Accessory
Accessory
Accessory

Give no signs before you commit the crime
Take my life and use it as a disguise, I'm an
Accessory
Accessory
Accessory
Accessory

You call my phone, I won’t pick up
The broken words are not enough
You call my phone and I won’t answer
I don’t need another cancer

You call my phone, I won’t pick up
The broken words are not enough
You call my phone and I won’t answer
I don’t need another cancer

WARNING!
She got a habit of leaving men without a -
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Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
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Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
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Now I need a -
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She got a habit of leaving men without a -
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Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
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Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
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Shimmy shimmy yo, shimmy shimmy yay, shimmy ai
Can you put it in reverse? Can you pop it like a 9?
I don’t sugarcoat a thing that I sing through this Apollo
Guess that there’s the reason that my words are hard to swallow

Broken teeth, broken hearts
Something I’m used to
Bite my tongue until it bleeds
Baby, like you used to

Treat me like an obstacle
Guess my love was optional
Stupid bitch don’t know that when I’m broken,
I’m unstoppable

Technicolor film, play the scene
My life be cinematic
I might cut this check for a bean
Because I’m problematic

Breathe the trail of smoke when you leave
I might just go nomadic
Now I’m just a ghost in the breeze
I guess I’m too dramatic

Shoot, baby, shoot
Like I’m begging you to
Baby, move, please move
I got nothing to lose

Choose, baby, choose
What are you gonna do?
Is it me or you?
Or this XLR noose?

WARNING!
She got a habit of leaving men without a -
WARNING!
Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
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Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
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Now I need a -
WARNING!
Just give me a -
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She got a habit of leaving men without a -
WARNING!
Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
WARNING!
Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
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Now I need a -
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Just give me a -
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ERROR! System malfunction
Mission Task: Unsuccessful
Ah! What the hell was that?

Analyzing damage:
Sir, your vitals—
Run it again!

ERROR! Unauthorized access detected
Emotional firewall: Breached
No! No!

(Giggle)
Silly boy, should have listened to the—
WARNING!

WARNING!

prod: @tangent-beats
I’ll be ready to be happy on the day I fuckin pass 
Why they acting tryna stab me in the back before they last 
I’m just walking tryna move on put my foot up on the gas 
Life an auction tryna keep all that I got as far as laughin
I want to feel the floor 
Wanna matter any more 
In my bag I’m feeling sore 
tryna work it out n sort 
Demon knocking at my door 
Asking me the time of day 
Tryna flip my time into another ballad with the grey 
It’s the pain I’m in 
I’m tryna heal it bitch
Tryna be within 
 I got people to fill in 
On the steeple growing thin 
Pray to god I get a gift 
Need a moment just to breathe and feel the season in the wind 
I feel like seizing up and dying on a mother fucking whim 
I can’t believe it tryna give me up I know I gotta win 
Yo I know just where I been and I’m never going back 
Soap an ocean drowning in my personality it’s bad 
and It’s a 
fuckin problem 
Finna get it finna solve it 
idea of me I dissolve it
There’s Anxiety in the solvent 
Cleaning it up I’m upon it 
Molecular imma go bomb it
Imma just turn to my tonic 
Sicka the runnin I’m sick a the sonic 
Boom boom bitch shit
Cracked my wrist my whip whip 
When I crashed that shit shit 
Reminded me of this this 
So I Subsist on uplift 
Member them days on Sussex 
All of them days I was kid 
All of that shit a past life

i wanted to be someone (prod. tangent)

Dumb (feat. GIA)(Prod. Balloon Beats)

CLOUDED NORTH ☁️
UK Cloud/Emo Rap Artist & Producer

Alright

NTHN