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Walking on a tightrope in the end
Been looking at the way down from the air
It may be time to ease the pain
Broken stride caught in the rain

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

If I don’t do something right
I may disappear
I’ve been lining up the white
Look in the mirror
I couldn’t see my reflection
My course in need of correction
I’ve been hanging by a thread
Don’t look at me unravel
You’ve been running through my head
I’ve been kicking up gravel
To keep up with you
We made it through the summer
Make no sudden moves
No telling what I might do

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

Ad Nauseam ft. RiverKinn (prod. 52Blu)

IDLEGLANCE x Rivilin x Sepha.

Rivilin: @rivilin
Sepha.: @sepha-joey

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/o9d0qB-Efow

Lyrics:

[Voicelines]:

I don't wanna d*e
Or k**l myself
I just wanna disappear
Until I feel okay

[Rivilin]:

You didn't want to understand
That's fair, that's ok
My head just hurts a lot
And every day just ends in constant pain
I met him down underneath
In the dark depths of my dreams
He tells me don't trust a soul
Cause no one is ever as they seem

Too bad it doesn't matter anymore
Glock straight to the temple
Dreams of dying by the door
And you can't get in
Cause my body's in the way
And you're screaming out for help
But nobody turns your way
And lately every night
Is plagued by nightmares
Waking in a sweat
Yeah I know I need some therapy
But I can't get a grip
Cause I can't afford the rent
And I can't afford to eat
Man, I always try my best
But this tastes just like defeat

[SEPHA.]:

Every time that I said I was fine
I was never
I was never
They who interrupt every dream of mine
I’ll flee from them forever
Flee from them forever
Maybe I’ll just look away
Maybe I’ll just quit this
Maybe I’ll just flee forever
Maybe I’ll just flee forever
Maybe I’ll just look away
Maybe I’ll just quit this
Maybe I’ll just flee forever
Maybe I’ll just flee

Nightwalking dark alleys with a shrug
Self critical thoughts like a warm hug
Affirmations crushed like a bug
With a hard shell under your heel
As days get shorter
Feels like time tries to steal
All the comfort that you held onto
And say get real
Here's responsibility laid on a plate
Sorry that it's dry and it has no taste

Every time that I said I was fine
I was never
I was never
They who interrupt every dream of mine
I’ll flee from them forever
Flee from them forever

Maybe I’ll just
Flee from them forever
Maybe I’ll just
Flee from them forever
Maybe I’ll just
Flee from them forever

[Voicelines]:

Sometimes
The only way out
Is to fade away
Leave everything behind
And never look back

Flee Forever

Rivilin x Sepha. - Flee Forever

LEDs blind me
yeah, stigmatism covers up what I wanna see
when I’m looking at your pretty face, yeah you got me
wrapped around you little fingers yeah, my soul was free for the taking
 
it’s like what did you mean I didn’t get it
stuck in the past with my obsession
got a collection of memories 
burn them on the wall for all to see
 
it’s like what is that smell my flesh is burning
stuck in the tide I see you turning
fragments of wood sticking out your flesh
the void is leaking from my chest
 
my friends now covered in the dragon’s rot
they didn’t seem to mind that I was stuck
with the crows above calling out my name
didn’t seem to matter how much I changed
 
loved ones passed out in the burning house
smoked bellowed in my lungs and I’m left in doubt
like was I the one to start this flame
didn’t mean to burn out now nothing remained
 
now the clouds above are looking at me
filling their guts with my pity
crying out loud, I’m smothered in shame
resurrection the love I called pain
 
now the fragile bodies pile up like logs
turn my back on my problems cus I know its a lot
this reality is nothing that I could dream
guess misery has finally found his peace

I guess the person that just I really miss is me
yeah, what have I become
misery just finds a way to seep into me
I guess it’s time to say that I’m done
 
every day is suffering so please won’t you leave
you only care to know that you’ve won
sink into the past to find that memories haunt me
this wasn’t something that could be love

sick of me, sick of us
yeah, every time I try to
explain it I seem to rot
yeah, fake friends corrupt
 
yeah can’t get grip on myself fingers are shaking losing patience
of me and the place I call home from the start I was just alone
lather myself in drugs to feel nothing cus it better then feeling something
cus I don’t want to feel this anger again from a childhood where I didn’t understand
 
the consequences of being different pushed aside there was no interest.
of understanding who I could be and who I became
until I met you I thought you were everything that I deserve
you brought hell to my mental state I didn’t think it could get worse
 
down here now in the abyss I see friends are suffering  all the same
burning out our mental trauma from the bones of family ones that lay 
when the osulouths come down and change the forms that we try to portray
distorted figures is what became, no face could recognize the pain.
 
how do we survive when we don’t understand the person in front of us
disgusted by reflections of everyone that just seem to pass.
now time doesn’t wait for now one, so we ignore the issues and drown it out
so, we live in constant agony fill us to the brim aching doubt

I miss me

In my dreams, in my dreams I’m framed for murder
Run away a bit further, they say I did it cus they hurt her
You pushed him through the window,
watched him splatter hit the girder
 
You through your phone its just a burner,
Your face is up and, on the server,
They pushed you into limbo watched you scatter,
need some nurture
 
but you didn’t get that though
you’re running down alley ways that foreshadowed
your demise and the end of this
and as the sun creeps in I feel the skin just burn
 
and as you hit me in the face I freeze,
slow static to the ptsd,
and the shakes start to come with this
and you feel like yeah, you’ve just lost everything
 
When will I be free, I wanna be just me
But I get no rest from nightmares plaguing me in my dreams
Yeah, I just want them to leave
 
Theres no time to grieve,
 As my mind deceives
I beg to the ones above that I have some reprieve
 
As I go further down, it surrounds me
The doubt in my mind it gets so cloudy
Yeah, to the point where they don’t allow me
Just to be and live alone
 
Cus they’re scared ill hurt me
If I was serious, I wouldn’t be lurking
But instead, they just don’t understand
They all point and stare.

Murder

IDLEGLANCE x Chief Kelly x RiverKinn x Kasper Fell

Chief Kelly: @chiefkelly
RiverKinn: @riverkinn
Kasper Fell: @kasperfell

(Prod. grayskies)

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/KfSjfxiSl-Q

Lyrics:

THEY'LL NEVER KNOW
HOW VERY DARK
AND VERY COLD
MY HEART IS

YEAH NOW
SHAWTY COME BACK
CAN'T DEAL WITH MYSELF
YEAH LOSING MY GRIP
BEEN LOST WITH NO HELP
DYING EVERY SECOND THAT WE WANNA WASTE
YEAH SINKING MY TEETH INTO YOU FOR THE TASTE
I'M TANGLED IN THE VINES OF MY
GREATEST REGRET
THESE THORNS START BLEEDING
AS THEY'RE RIPPING MY
HEART FROM MY CHEST

YOU WANNA NUMB THE PAIN
AND TAKE AWAY THE SHAME
YOU GOT ME TRAPPED
AND LONELY ON THIS ISLAND
AND I DON’T FEEL THE SAME
YOU MAKE ME RE-ARRANGE
THESE THOUGHTS INSIDE MY BRAIN
CAN HEAR THEM STALLING

YOU'RE NOT
EVERYTHING I’VE ALWAYS WANTED
BUT I CAN’T STOP
DREAMING OF YOU GIRL
I SAIL AWAY CAUSE I’M A LOST SOUL
I’M DROWNING FAST, CAN’T HEAR YOU CALLING
I START TO PRAY CAUSE I FEEL SO LOW
THESE OCEAN WAVES THEY CRASH
AND THEN I FALL IN

FALLING
FALLING
FALLING
FALLING
FALLING
FALLING
FALLING

MY HEART ON THE FLOOR
MY HEAD IN MY HANDS
I’VE BEEN HERE BEFORE
BUT STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND

I SHOULD’VE SEEN IT COMING
I CAN’T FEEL NOTHING
NOTHING EXCEPT THAT I GOT NOTHING LEFT
OH, WHAT AM I BECOMING?
KEEP RUNNING
RUNNING UNTIL I’M RUNNING OUT OF BREATH

YOU WANNA NUMB THE PAIN
AND TAKE AWAY THE SHAME
YOU GOT ME TRAPPED
AND LONELY ON THIS ISLAND
AND I DON’T FEEL THE SAME
YOU MAKE ME RE-ARRANGE
THESE THOUGHTS INSIDE MY BRAIN
CAN HEAR THEM STALLING

YOU'RE NOT
EVERYTHING I’VE ALWAYS WANTED
BUT I CAN’T STOP
DREAMING OF YOU GIRL
I SAIL AWAY CAUSE I’M A LOST SOUL
I’M DROWNING FAST, CAN’T HEAR YOU CALLING
I START TO PRAY CAUSE I FEEL SO LOW
THESE OCEAN WAVES THEY CRASH
AND THEN I FALL IN

BUT I DON’T CARE NO
I DON’T CARE NO MORE
I DON’T CARE
AND I DON’T CARE NO
I DON’T CARE NO MORE

YOU'RE NOT
EVERYTHING I’VE ALWAYS WANTED
BUT I CAN’T STOP
DREAMING OF YOU GIRL

Chief Kelly x RiverKinn x Kasper Fell - Dreaming Of You

VØJ,Asketa,Daedra - !Sorry

IDLEGLANCE x Chief Kelly x RiverKinn x Kasper Fell

Yates XV: @yates-xv
B Murph: @b_murph
Kasper Fell: @kasperfell

Watch on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SfVc5z1BI_s

Lyrics:
I THOUGHT
MAYBE YOU COULD LOVE ME LIKE YOU USED TO
EVEN THOUGH I'M
DIFFERENT

I'VE BEEN REALLY HATING YOUR TOUCH
THESE FEELINGS I'M HAVING GOT ME SO F*CKED UP

AND I'M SIPPING ON SOME
GIN AND TONIC WITH A CIGARETTE BUTT

SPENT A FEW YEARS IN A BAD PLACE
LOST TIME TO THE PAIN THAT I MISTRACED
BLEEDING HEART FOR A GIRL THAT I MISPLACED
SO F*CKED UP ON THE PILLS THAT I MISTAKE

AND I CAN'T GET MY HEAD RIGHT
SO I'M SMOKING ON THAT LOUD PACK
5 SHOTS TO THE DOME, THROW THEM ALL BACK
YOU CALL MY LINE, YEAH, YOU KNOW I GET A HEART ATTACK
YEAH
AND I MIGHT RELAPSE
GOTTA POP A COUPLE PILLS SO I CAN RELAX
HEARD YOU TALKING ON MY NAME I DON'T NEED THAT
BUT IF YOU NEED ME BABY, YOU KNOW I COME RIGHT BACK

AND SLEEPING ALONE
GETS HARDER WHEN IT'S COLD
COULD YOU HIT MY PHONE
SO I KNOW YOU GOT HOME

I WANNA KNOW? I NEED YOU RIGHT HERE
I GOTTA GO, I DON'T WANT YOU MY DEARLY

I DON'T WANT YOU
I DON'T NEED YOU
I WON'T WAIT UP
I DON'T FEEL YOU
I WON'T STAY UP
I WON'T LEAVE YOU NOW

IMMA NEED YOU TO LET YOU GO
WANT TO RUN IT BACK OR LEAVE YOU OUT IN THE COLD
IMMA LEAVE YOU ON YOUR OWN
EVEN AFTER HOPE, I WILL NEVER LET YOU GO YEAH

I'VE BEEN REALLY HATING YOUR TOUCH
THESE FEELINGS I'M HAVING GOT ME SO F*CKED UP

AND I'M SIPPING ON SOME
GIN AND TONIC WITH A CIGARETTE BUTT

SPENT A FEW YEARS IN A BAD PLACE
LOST TIME TO THE PAIN THAT I MISTRACED
BLEEDING HEART FOR A GIRL THAT I MISPLACED
SO F*CKED UP ON THE PILLS THAT I MISTAKE

YOU'RE NEVER GONNA GIVE UP ON ME
ARE YOU?

Yates XV x B Murph x Kasper Fell - Wasted Love

I don't want
I don't want
I don't want anything but you
Time goes on
I know what it is that I don't want
It's anything but you
Anything but you
And all I ever ask is you better see it through
Whatever we would do
Your all I ever had and you never even knew

It seems so simple
High
Above the temple we love
Your arms they reach out mine
While I sink deeper in mud
You're like the apple in sight
That kind that Eve couldn't run
I might stay in for the night
But I can't leave you for long

I don't want
I don't want
I don't want anything but you
Time goes on
I know what it is that I don't want
It's anything but you
Anything but you
And all I ever ask is you better see it through
Whatever we would do
Your all I ever had and you never even knew

You're all that I want and you're all that I need
The image of you is like a movie to me
Most people purchase a ticket go on they way
But you're something special I had to meet you some day
Wait
Wait
Wait
Got my heart breaking every time you're not around me
Wait
Wait
Wait
If this is what love is you got me falling for you

I don't want
I don't want
I don't want anything but you
Time goes on
I know what it is that I don't want
It's anything but you
Anything but you
And all I ever ask is you better see it through
Whatever we would do
Your all I ever had and you never even knew

saffron feat. Spaceman Zack

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Lyrics:

Here I go again
Every now and then I need a way to decompress
Desensitised, every time I feel a little less
Searching for a new sensation so I do it in excess
Guess I never learned my lesson, it's hard to admit 
Old coping mechanisms I'm trying to resist
Weighing heavy on my conscience I should probably quit
But right now it's the only thing that's taking me away from it

Fix me for today
I'll pay for it tomorrow 
Consequences of my actions are a bitter pill to swallow 
With a half empty glass, knock it back until I'm hollow
Probably best you don't follow

Running from my problems, I never needed a
chaser
Wake up in the afternoon and wonder where the day went
I'm not doing well and you can tell from my behaviour
I know that I should ask for help but that's not in my nature, nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature

Over and over again
Can't break the habit, no matter the damage I know that I'll only regret
Goes hand in hand with helping me manage the memories I wanna forget
Never gets easier, seems like the further I come, the harder it gets
Always appealing when I'm at my lowest, I know that it does me no good
Mistaking the feeling for something that's real, never stop when I know that I should
Cause I never learn, I'm far too concerned with escaping until I feel numb
I know in the morning I'm gonna be wishing to take it all back if I could

Fix me for today
I'll pay for it tomorrow 
Consequences of my actions are a bitter pill to swallow 
With a half empty glass, knock it back, until I'm hollow
Probably best you don't follow

Running from my problems I never needed a
chaser
Wake up in the afternoon and wonder where the day went
I'm not doing well and you can tell from my behaviour
I know that I should ask for help but that's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature

Nature

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