ABOUT THE TRACK ☁️ : do you ever feel guilty about feeling low?  does it get worse when you're reminded of how much you have?  how lucky you are?  everything you should be happy about?  this one's about being asked if you're alright by people who only wanna hear the word ‘yes’. the chorus is about the consolation I've heard that made things worse when I said no; the verses are what I'd have loved to have explained to them... but usually I just say “yeah, I'm alright, you?”.  I've wanted to make this song for a while but now that things are going really well for me, it seems even more relevant, for those off days - a reminder to myself that even if I am lucky to be where I am in life, it's fine not to be alright all of the time. ☁️

LYRICS:

Verse 1:

Hey there
Me again
I thought I’d let you know that
I made it
Are you proud
I wish that you were here now
Why the fuck do I try
I can’t sleep why can’t I die
I’m cursed to live here
Wondering what I did
What did I do
Just tell me
Just call me someday
I’m so alone I can’t breath here
The walls are closing in let me
Out this place
I’m begging 
Please just let me out of this place
Let me free
Lose the chains
I don’t know if i will make it

Hook:

Save me from myself
I don’t wanna be here
I don’t miss you
But I can’t get you out of my head 
Save me from myself
I don’t wanna be here
I don’t miss you
But I can’t get you out of my head 

Verse 2:

You found me
And told me 
life would get better if I
Held onto what I loved
Now I lay here with shattered dreams
Same thing new day
When will I feel something new
Same pain all day
Broken heart and fucked up wrist
I don’t miss you
But I can’t help but long for what we had
Why did I waste all this time
Searching for myself and I
Cant take this pain away no
This pain won’t let me go

Hook:

Save me from myself
I don’t wanna be here
I don’t miss you
But I can’t get you out of my head 
Save me from myself
I don’t wanna be here
I don’t miss you
But I can’t get you out of my head

I DON'T MISS YOU

I DON'T MISS YOU [prod. CRCL]

Follow $lothboi: @slothboipapi
Follow Rivilin: @rivilin
Prod. Grayskies

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/xrW21bT-yUA

Lyrics:

Shine
Darkness
There’s people inside
Mind broke
These voices they lie
Telling me
I already d!ed
Liars
I feel so alive
Liar liar
The pants on fire
Higher higher
My mind in the fryer
Live and d!e here
Filthy s*x and desire
Loopty doopty
I’m spun like a dryer
Oh no yeah I’m spun out
Aye
High dose till the sun out
Yeah
Walls talk in the fun house
Yeah
Shadow people won’t get out
F*ck

Yeah deceiver
Dissembler
Has the noose become too tight
Are you hanging from the doorway
Are you screaming to the night
Just a cheater
A gambler am I fishing for a life
Am I searching for the truth
Tell me how to outrun a lie

You put the knife in my mouth
And you shake it all around
Can you tell me what's real
As I spit blood on the ground
Just a creature
Remember the facts that come in dreams
Am I fumbling for another pill
I swore that I'd get clean

I see your body dance up in the sky
So lifeless but you give a smile
And you say
It's ok
It's not like our life
Really mattered here anyway

40 stuck between
In the back seat
Dumb geeked
They capping ain’t the same
I'm a fact sheet
Trust me
Wide up and awake
Love a night shift
Create this
And lately I been dreaming wide awake
Imma make it

Liar liar
The pants on fire
Higher higher
My mind in the fryer
Live and d!e here
Filthy s*x and desire
Loopty doopty
I’m spun like a dryer
Oh no yeah I’m spun out
Aye
High dose till the sun out
Yeah
Walls talk in the fun house
Yeah
Shadow people won’t get out
F*ck

Yeah deceiver
Dissembler
Has the noose become too tight
Are you hanging from the doorway
Are you screaming to the night
Just a cheater
A gambler am I fishing for a life
Am I searching for the truth
Tell me how to outrun a lie

You put the knife in my mouth
And you shake it all around
Can you tell me what's real
As I spit blood on the ground
Just a creature
Remember the facts that come in dreams
Am I fumbling for another pill
I swore that I'd get clean

So the sandman will sing
Feelin' stress issa mess drowning neck deep
Take my hand and search with me
Hearing shrieks in the walls calling me sweet
I wake up see him in my screen
Shadowed eyes in the back, help I can’t sleep
The shadow people wont let me leave
All the same need a change looping last week
Looping last week
Filthy in the back geeked
Shadows on the wall
I’m feeling like they trynna grab me
Cult up in the cut deep
Roots in different countries
How the f*ck we get here from the bottom
Now we up sheesh

SHADOW PEOPLE

$LOTHBOI x RIVILIN - SHADOW PEOPLE

Pseudo - Red on the Inside

kiLLa Laharl - Otherside (feat. s0cliche)

Follow $lothboi: @slothboipapi
Follow Nicolas Sales: @nicolassales
Prod. Grayskies

Watch on YouTube: https://youtu.be/LtUeTlERXQM

Lyrics:

[$LOTHBOI]:

STARING AT THE SKY
LOOKING GOD UP IN HIS EYES
ANGELS ALL AROUND ME
BUT THE DEMONS STAY INSIDE

DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
IN THE CLUB I'M ROLLING DICE
REALIZE
DEVIL STILL AN ANGEL
BEAUTY NEVER DIED

WAY ABOVE MY HEAD B*TCH
I BE DROWNING IN THE SAND
FRAYED STRANDS
HOLDING ME TOGETHER
WISH I HAD A HAND
PLEASE
HEAD UP IN THE SKY
WITH MY MIND HIGHER IT ASCENDS
THE END
I BECAME WHAT IMAGINED I TRANSCEND

LATELY I SEE CREATURES SHIFTING
VOICES IN MY HEAD BEAT
CALL THE ONE THAT SHARES MY MIND
MYSELF IN DIFFERENT MEMORIES

SIPPING WINE I FEEL ALIVE
ASCEND I SHINE IN STARRY SEAS

PALACE SO DIVINE I EXIT
FLASHING LIT THEM LIKE A SCENE


[NICOLAS SALES]:

RUN
RUN AWAY
RUN IN PLACE
I CAN’T RUN AWAY
AND I’M BACK WHERE I STARTED
MUST BE A BETTER WAY
INNOCENCE YOU’RE MIXING IT UP
CONFUSED WITH IGNORANCE
NOW I DON’T KNOW WHERE
ALL MY FEELINGS WENT
WHERE MY FEELINGS WENT
YEAH

[$LOTHBOI]:

WAY ABOVE MY HEAD B*TCH
I BE DROWNING IN THE SAND
FRAYED STRANDS
HOLDING ME TOGETHER
WISH I HAD A HAND
PLEASE
HEAD UP IN THE SKY
WITH MY MIND HIGHER IT ASCENDS
THE END
I BECAME WHAT IMAGINED I TRANSCEND

[NICOLAS SALES]:

SKY FULL OF STARS
LOOKING DOWN
THEY’RE ALREADY DEAD
YOU'RE NOT YOUR JOB OR THE VOICES
YOU HEAR INSIDE YOUR HEAD
YOU DON’T HAVE A NAME
YOU DON’T HAVE A PERSONALITY
YOU'RE JUST THE OBSERVER
TRYING TO SET YOU FREE

[$LOTHBOI & NICOLAS SALES]:

I SAW A LIGHT AND FOLLOWED IT
DO YOU BLAME ME FOR ALL OF IT
I’M SORRY THAT I LEFT WITHOUT A BYE
BUT I BE TIRED OF IT

SIGIL IN THE NIGHT
I ABIDE
CAN YOU GUIDE ME RIGHT
EVERYTHING’S CONNECTED
SO IT MATTERS WHEN THE TIMES RIGHT

THROW ME IN THE FIRE
LET THE EMBERS FLOAT AWAY

LET THE FATES DECIDE
IF I’M GONNA GO OR STAY

BURN INTO THE GROUND
AND FEED THE EARTH A BIT OF PAIN

ALL THAT’S LEFT IS SMOKE AND ASHES
HALLOWED BE THE DAY

I SAW
ANGELS
KILL MY
FRIENDS AND
I SAW
GOD PRETEND
HE CARING

Painted Clouds

$LOTHBOI x NICOLAS SALES - PAINTED CLOUDS

love is conditional when its from you

featuring @heartbreakp
produced by lil chick

[lyrics]
Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You playing the victim because you have to
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms 
But you know me better
I know that nothings forever 
These days I’m stuck in my head like I been changing the weather
See emotions cut off and severed
I don’t wanna change for whoever
Bring it back I need to recenter
Sometimes I won’t lie

I’m sick of fighting so I quit 
I took the drugs I gave you back so I can trip
Pain inside I smile I can’t let you know I slipped
I can’t give the satisfaction poison dripping from my lips 
Conversation left me damaged after all the trust I give 
Maybe it’s been a while 
I’m good with my only child 
My son here my love i’m happy watching him he runs around 
Learn to keep the family close, not my family you bugging out 
You became my only home, can’t be here if you not around


Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You play the victim because you have to 
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms

unconditional

stream

unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

IDLEGLANCE x YATES XV
Follow Yates XV: @yates-xv
(Prod. Crcl)

Watch on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_TLXeibuiE

Lyrics:

BREAK MY DREAMS IT’S THE SAME SH*T
LOST MYSELF TO THE SAME B*TCH
DR*GS IN MY CUP IS MY LANGUAGE
SHE DON’T WANNA TALK
BUT I TELL HER THAT I HATE THIS
I DON’T WANNA BE WITH HER
SHE DON’T WANNA BE WITH ME
I BEEN TAKING DR*GS WITH HER
SHE BEEN TAKING DR*GS FOR FREE

SLIPKNOT
LOOSE LINE
DROPPED FROM THE EDGE
F*CK MY MIND
SHE’S RIGHT
I’M RIGHT
USELESS TALKS IN THE MOONLIGHT
LIKE LAST NIGHT
MAKE FAST TIME
ONLY THING SHE LOVE IS THE DOPE LINES
SO I COPE FINE
TAKE MY TIME
END MY LIFE IN THE NIGHTIME

THINK I’M DONE WITH THE DR*GS
NAH I’M DONE WITH THIS B*TCH
SAID THE SAME WITH THE LAST
JUST REPEAT THE SAME SH*T
AND IT’S USELESS
AND SHE’S PSYCHO
DOWNED ABOUT A HALF BOTTLE NYQUIL
GOT ME NODDING
GOT ME SLEEPY
CHOKED ME HAD MY NOSE BLEEDING

GUESS THIS’LL NEVER CHANGE
I LOCKED MY HEART IN THESE CHAINS
LAST NIGHT BAD MISTAKES
I TOOK YOU BACK I WAS OFF MY
BRAIN

GUESS THIS’LL NEVER CHANGE
I LOCKED MY HEART IN THESE CHAINS
LAST NIGHT BAD MISTAKES
I TOOK YOU BACK I WAS OFF MY
BRAIN

SLIPKNOT
LOOSE LINE
DROPPED FROM THE EDGE
F*CK MY MIND
SHE’S RIGHT
I’M RIGHT
USELESS TALKS IN THE MOONLIGHT
LIKE LAST NIGHT
MAKE FAST TIME
ONLY THING SHE LOVE IS THE DOPE LINES
SO I COPE FINE
TAKE MY TIME
END MY LIFE IN THE NIGHTIME

BREAK MY DREAMS IT’S THE SAME SH*T
LOST MYSELF TO THE SAME B*TCH
DR*GS IN MY CUP IS MY LANGUAGE
SHE DON’T WANNA TALK
BUT I TELL HER THAT I HATE THIS
I DON’T WANNA BE WITH HER
SHE DON’T WANNA BE WITH ME
I BEEN TAKING DR*GS WITH HER
SHE BEEN TAKING DR*GS FOR FREE

Yates XV - Slipknot

Produced By. NAVJAXX
Artwork By. Sick Again
Engineered By. Baby Gos

Green flames corrupt me in the presence of night
I see the demons they tell you to fright
i saw my death and there wasn’t no light
i saw my death and there wasn’t no light

Ominous actions take over
crying i feel like a poser
You left and i didn’t get closure
Hating the more i get older
So baby where did you go?
When did you leave?
And where can i find you?
Shorty you’re colder then snow
Can’t even grieve
I’m right behind you

Wasting my life and it still feels incredible
Can’t face my actions cause i’m barley bearable
Offered her green and she thought i meant vegetables
Offered her genitals i stay professional
This a confessional bitch i’m the worst
Can’t leave the house unless it’s in a hearse
I think they hate me i’m there they disperse
The drug in me is you as i fall in reverse

Baby I been lost in medication all the days be grey im losing hope
I been tryna make it doing everything but selling dope
Somedays i be thinking about tying that knot to the rope
All i gotta say is nope
Manifest it into scope
Lowkey losing all my hope
Crawling up a downward slope
Baby i’m just tryna cope
Ever since you told me no
My love its been eating up in me
Feels like i’m finna blow

Walking through the valley filled with shadows and death
Lowkey I think i gotta deathwish i gotta confess
Because i love to feel adrenaline pump through my chest
Bitch i’m not cruising to your spot unless i know that it’s sketch
I like to drag my sharpened blade up and down my skin
I been looking for a church to get fucked up in
If he really wants to die i’ll make it happen
Lay him down in some roses piss in his satin

I like to drag my sharpened blade up and down my skin
I been looking for a church to get fucked up in
￼
I been looking for a church to get fucked up in
If he really wants to die i’ll make it happen
Lay him down in some roses piss in his satin

Ominous actions take over
crying i feel like a poser
You left and i didn’t get closure
Hating the more i get older
So baby where did you go?
When did you leave?
And where can i find you?
Shorty you’re colder then snow
Can’t even grieve
I’m right behind you

Green flames corrupt me in the presence of night
I see the demons they tell you to fright
i saw my death and there wasn’t no light
i saw my death and there wasn’t no light

OMINOUS

Lyrics:

Too much on my mind, I had to learn to keep it out of sight
Soon as I let my guard down, they're asking me if I'm alright
“Yeah I'm fine”, I reply as I fake a smile
From time to time, it's real but in reality it's been a while
Since I had some peace of mind
You wouldn't want a piece of mine
Trying to find solutions for emotions that I can't define
Or should I say I can't recall
Barely feel anything at all
I find I'm always waiting for the fall

It's gonna be alright
Take care 
When it's all too much to bear
Everything you wanted
Don't you know you've got it right there 
Long nights
Nightmares
Life don't fight fair
Look inside my mind
You might not like what you find there

Yeah, yeah
Lost myself one day and I'm still trying to find my way
Try to explain it but I never find the words to say
Searching everyday for ways to take my mind away
From the darkness, now I figure that it's here to stay
But it's okay
Honestly I'm quite acquainted
I learned from my mistakes, it takes its toll when I fake it
Used to think I'd never make it
Now every chance, I take it
If this is the hand I'm dealt then I'll play it

It's gonna be alright
Take care 
When it's all too much to bear
Everything you wanted
Don't you know you've got it right there 
Long nights
Nightmares
Life don't fight fair
Look inside my mind
You might not like what you find there

Alright

I can feel your pulse thumping in the walls
I can hear the silent echo from across the hall
It's in the air and I can feel my body rise and fall
Chills down my spine, poltergeist in my visual

Ghost in the sheets, get no sleep when i think of you
I'm not at peace, let me be or let me be with you
I need some closure, ain't had rest in a week or two
I'm sleepwalking with the spirit living in my room

I'm sleepwalking with the spirit living in my room
I'm sleepwalking with the spirit living in my room
Sleepwalking with the spirit living in my room

Your eyes imprinted, metaphysics stuck inside my head
Impulse, admission, ammunition aimed right at my chest
Your disposition fought the prison you were taught was blessed
You sold your wings to please the beast, your head laid on my bed

You said it's what you wanted
But now it's like I'm haunted 

And now I feel you every time I turn my head
I toss and turn all night, I'm broke inside this empty bed
My dreams of blue, they fade in hue, turn into ruby red
Your apparition in my vision haunts me till I'm dead

Ghost in the sheets, get no sleep when I think of you
I'm not at peace, let me be or let me be with you
I need some closure, can you call me for at least a few
I'm sleepwalking with your spirit living in my room

Sleepwalking with your spirit living in my room
I'm sleepwalking with your spirit living in my room
Sleepwalking with your spirit living in my room
With your spirit living in my room

mixed & mastered by @nicolassales

.you still haunt me.

Alright

NTHN

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