Butterfly

Walking on a tightrope in the end
Been looking at the way down from the air
It may be time to ease the pain
Broken stride caught in the rain

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

If I don’t do something right
I may disappear
I’ve been lining up the white
Look in the mirror
I couldn’t see my reflection
My course in need of correction
I’ve been hanging by a thread
Don’t look at me unravel
You’ve been running through my head
I’ve been kicking up gravel
To keep up with you
We made it through the summer
Make no sudden moves
No telling what I might do

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

Ad Nauseam ft. RiverKinn (prod. 52Blu)

Prod, ARQ
🖤pyrrhic🖤
@dearpyrrhic
☠️www.instagram.com/dearpyrrhic/
lyrics:
Runnin' into your forest fire
Walkin' onto your razor wire
I swear I'm fine but I'm alive

I'mma kill myself leave a pretty body up inside the grave
Now, it might be in a year or it might be here today
Tell my momma not to cry, put my body on display
'Cause the roses look pretty when they die and wilt away
Light me at both ends and watch me disappear into the smoke
Why you kickin' at my chair when I'm not finished tyin' rope
I'mma tell you when it's time, I'mma show you all the signs
I'mma tell you when it's time, I'mma show you all the signs

If I spilled my heart, and it landed up on the carpet
Come on tell me baby girl would you pick it up, would you stomp it
'Cause I'm really not the one to ever go and get nauseous
But all these feelin's in my stomach make me wanna vomit, vomit
Say you hit rock bottom and you drownin' in your stress
I'm throwin' you a shovel I'll show you how deep it gets
When yo life is on the line and yo body no longer listens to you
To you

Don't tell me you ain't done enough
Don't tell me you ain't man enough
I feel like we don't talk enough
I feel like we don't "fuck it, fuck it"
Cry enough
I feel like we don't laugh enough
I feel like we don't matter much
I feel like we don't "Fuck it"

Runnin' into your forest fire
Walkin' onto your razor wire
I swear I'm fine but I'm alive

I'mma kill myself leave a pretty body up inside the grave
Now, it might be in a year or it might be here today
Tell my momma not to cry, put my body on display
'Cause the roses look pretty when they die and wilt away

Hold steady don't waste your time
There's nothin' between these lines
If ever I'm feelin' short
I know that my dealer's blind
How many levels of gray
Does it take to shade the pain?

The crack of my skin
Pale of your bones
All that I lack
Is nothin' you hold
Hide your keepsakes
It's all that you'll have
When you meet...

Old medicine inside my desk that don't remember me
Workin' for a life that is best, I fill your every need
Cherish the knife inside my back that you have given me
Stop cryin' baby boy

I'mma kill myself leave a pretty body up inside the grave
Now, it might be in a year or it might be here today
Tell my momma not to cry, put my body on display
'Cause the roses look pretty when they die and wilt away
Light me at both ends and watch me disappear into the smoke
Why you kickin' at my chair when I'm not finished tyin' rope
I'mma tell you when it's time, I'mma show you all the signs
I'mma tell you when it's time, I'mma show you all the signs

I'm Still Alive

prod. rick hardy

It's not hard
To fall down
And the scared
Want the crown

Never bother your mistake
You will be forever pained

So be quiet

So be quiet
Don't be
An excuse of life like me
I'm afraid
I'll see
Im weak
Cause these pills have rescued me

It's not hard
To fall down
And the scared
Want the crown

Never bother your mistake
You will be forever pained

So be quiet

No I wont, I wont keep my voice down
even when, blood is filling my mouth
torn throat, paint me as a turncoat
kicked down, im running out of all hope

hang me up above, watch my limbs dangle
as I fall, straight into your arms
so I wait, accept it, hold me down cant collect it
my thoughts my memories all the clouded judgment burst from the seams

I am nothing, more then me, a hollow husk that's caught in-between
of the down fall of my own existence, I hate everything that I've seemed to become

It's not hard
To fall down
And the scared
Want the crown

Never bother your mistake
You will be forever pained

So be quiet

quiet feat. Rivilin

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AGONY

GRIEF

Lyrics:

I don't have to remember cause it's still my everyday
Living with the same problems that I thought would fade away
Self destruction on my mind
Self esteem is hard to find
Self reflection seems to be my only way of getting by
I ain't even chasing highs, keep my expectations low
As my mind, trying to fight the feelings as they come and go
See the signs of decline but I never let them show
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know 


Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know 


Seems to be my affliction has become my addiction 
Been a while since I gave in but my time is still wasted
Contemplating if it really ever solved anything
Or if I was just distracted by the pain that it brings
Ain't ashamed to admit that it remains how I think
But even if I had the choice I wouldn't change anything
I'm still the same as I was, only difference is
I'm in control
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know


Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know

2024 eighteenSAINT / Clouded North

All That I Know (Alt Version)

All That I Know

DREAD

IDLEGLANCE x Chief Kelly x Kasper Fell x  RiverKinn

Chief Kelly: @yates-xv
Kasper Fell: @kasperfell
RiverKinn: @riverkinn

Watch on YouTube: -to be updated-

LYRICS:

NO I
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE
NO I
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE

BURY ME IN THE DIRT TONIGHT
COVER ME WITH THE EARTH ALRIGHT
MY HALO SHINES
GOT ME BATHED IN LIGHT

I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT IT'S ALL MY FAULT
NEVER REALLY CARED IF I'M ALIVE
THOUGH I BELONG HERE
IT'S QUICKSAND
NO TIME
BEFORE YOU CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER MY NAME
TRAGIC IN THE MAKING
NOW SILENT
WHILE I'VE BARELY BEEN GONE
LET ME DOWN

NO I 
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE
NO I
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE

BURY ME IN THE DIRT TONIGHT
COVER ME WITH THE EARTH ALRIGHT
MY HALO SHINES
GOT ME BATHED IN LIGHT

HOME
THAT’S WHERE I WANT TO BE
WHERE I FALL THROUGH THE SEAMS
AND THE CRACKS IN BETWEEN
ALL I’VE KNOWN
THE NEGLECT THAT YOU’VE SHOWN
IS APPARENTLY WEARING ME
DOWN TO THE BONE
WONDERING WHY
YOU LED ME ON JUST TO THROW
ME TO THE SIDE
BUT I STILL TRIED
I SEE YOU EVERY TIME
I SHUT MY EYES

NO I
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE
NO I
I CAN’T ESCAPE HOW I FEEL
DON’T WANNA BE ALONE

BURY ME IN THE DIRT TONIGHT
COVER ME WITH THE EARTH ALRIGHT
MY HALO SHINES
GOT ME BATHED IN LIGHT

Chief Kelly x Kasper Fell x RiverKinn - Shut My Eyes

🖤pyrrhic🖤
@dearpyrrhic
☠️www.instagram.com/dearpyrrhic/
lyrics:
(Giggle)
Computer, Start

Target acquired. Scanning parameters:
Dimensions: 38, 22, 38
Heart rate: Elevated
Previous casualties: 27

Aw, they're perfect!

Caution: Detecting emotional manipulation protocols
(What!?)
Subject exhibits patterns of high-risk behavior

WARNING!: Multiple red flags detected
WARNING!
WARNING!
WARNING!

WARNING!
She got a habit of leaving men without a -
WARNING!
Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
WARNING!
Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
WARNING!
Now I need a -
WARNING!
Just give me a -
WARNING!

She got a habit of leaving men without a -
WARNING!
Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
WARNING!
Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
WARNING!
Now I need a -
WARNING!
Just give me a -
WARNING!

Wasted time, I rotted up on the shelf, ya
By your side, I never felt like myself, like an
Accessory
Accessory
Accessory
Accessory

Give no signs before you commit the crime
Take my life and use it as a disguise, I'm an
Accessory
Accessory
Accessory
Accessory

You call my phone, I won’t pick up
The broken words are not enough
You call my phone and I won’t answer
I don’t need another cancer

You call my phone, I won’t pick up
The broken words are not enough
You call my phone and I won’t answer
I don’t need another cancer

WARNING!
She got a habit of leaving men without a -
WARNING!
Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
WARNING!
Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
WARNING!
Now I need a -
WARNING!
Just give me a -
WARNING!

She got a habit of leaving men without a -
WARNING!
Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
WARNING!
Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
WARNING!
Now I need a -
WARNING!
Just give me a -
WARNING!

Shimmy shimmy yo, shimmy shimmy yay, shimmy ai
Can you put it in reverse? Can you pop it like a 9?
I don’t sugarcoat a thing that I sing through this Apollo
Guess that there’s the reason that my words are hard to swallow

Broken teeth, broken hearts
Something I’m used to
Bite my tongue until it bleeds
Baby, like you used to

Treat me like an obstacle
Guess my love was optional
Stupid bitch don’t know that when I’m broken,
I’m unstoppable

Technicolor film, play the scene
My life be cinematic
I might cut this check for a bean
Because I’m problematic

Breathe the trail of smoke when you leave
I might just go nomadic
Now I’m just a ghost in the breeze
I guess I’m too dramatic

Shoot, baby, shoot
Like I’m begging you to
Baby, move, please move
I got nothing to lose

Choose, baby, choose
What are you gonna do?
Is it me or you?
Or this XLR noose?

WARNING!
She got a habit of leaving men without a -
WARNING!
Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
WARNING!
Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
WARNING!
Now I need a -
WARNING!
Just give me a -
WARNING!

She got a habit of leaving men without a -
WARNING!
Symptom of toxic love, wishing that I had a -
WARNING!
Watch as I self-destruct, guess I shoulda saw the -
WARNING!
Now I need a -
WARNING!
Just give me a -
WARNING!

ERROR! System malfunction
Mission Task: Unsuccessful
Ah! What the hell was that?

Analyzing damage:
Sir, your vitals—
Run it again!

ERROR! Unauthorized access detected
Emotional firewall: Breached
No! No!

(Giggle)
Silly boy, should have listened to the—
WARNING!

Spotify

WARNING!

Original version: https://soundcloud.com/cloudsampling/nature

Lyrics:

Here I go again
Every now and then I need a way to decompress
Desensitised, every time I feel a little less
Searching for a new sensation so I do it in excess
Guess I never learned my lesson, it's hard to admit
Old coping mechanisms I'm trying to resist
Weighing heavy on my conscience I should probably quit
But right now it's the only thing that's taking me away from it

Fix me for today
I'll pay for it tomorrow
Consequences of my actions are a bitter pill to swallow
With a half empty glass, knock it back until I'm hollow
Probably best you don't follow

Running from my problems, I never needed a
chaser
Wake up in the afternoon and wonder where the day went
I'm not doing well and you can tell from my behaviour
I know that I should ask for help but that's not in my nature, nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature

Over and over again
Can't break the habit, no matter the damage I know that I'll only regret
Goes hand in hand with helping me manage the memories I wanna forget
Never gets easier, seems like the further I come, the harder it gets
Always appealing when I'm at my lowest, I know that it does me no good
Mistaking the feeling for something that's real, never stop when I know that I should
Cause I never learn, I'm far too concerned with escaping until I feel numb
I know in the morning I'm gonna be wishing to take it all back if I could

Fix me for today
I'll pay for it tomorrow
Consequences of my actions are a bitter pill to swallow
With a half empty glass, knock it back, until I'm hollow
Probably best you don't follow

Running from my problems I never needed a
chaser
Wake up in the afternoon and wonder where the day went
I'm not doing well and you can tell from my behaviour
I know that I should ask for help but that's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature

Nature (Acoustic Version)

NTHN

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