Departures

Coasting (feat. Fletcher  James)

Coasting feat. Fletcher, James

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BOARDING CALLs
walking through the terminal
now I'm OUT OF REACH
away from everyone I know
CONTINENTAL nights
and this DUTY FREE life
mean nothing in a double room alone
SUITCASE on the other side
wishing you were near
spent half my time away
wondering why I'm HERE
SEARCHING for myself but in the end
it seems all that I've found
is DISTANT friendships 
and homes I'm never around
and now 38 THOUSAND feet
it's not unusual
takeoffs and TOUCHDOWNs
I'm used to it all
but in the end it's my HOME
that I'm missing most
over TWENTY EIGHT years
still I find myself COASTING
seasons change but I'm still here
FALLEN LEAVES, the same days
same career
SOMETIMES it feels like I've 
LOST my way
other SIDE of the RIVER
but the view's the same
and it's a
strange feeling knowing that
I've never been better
can't complain but it comes
with its own pressure
knowing I could lose it all in a moment
crash back down 
with no GROUND CONTROL and
that's why I need to get away sometimes
FLIGHT MODE, an escape
from my own mind
trying to find my way
and it starts with
DEPARTURES

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THIS IS NOT AN INTRODUCTION

Lyrics:

Yeah, it's days like these, I'm moving with no contemplation
It's days like these, probably welcome the confrontation
It's days like these
It's days like these

Yeah, it's days like these, that I can never get away from
It's days like these, I know I'll never escape from
It's days like these
It's days like these

Trying to make the most of the life I was given
Trying to do the best with this life while I'm living
Good days, bad days, hard to tell the difference
How'd I get here, was it even my decision?
Feeling like I'm cruising but I'm fighting for control
Cause I don't wanna lose it all and crash like before
Can't go back to before, when I couldn't find a purpose
I know I seem alright but it's only on the surface

Yeah, it's days like these, I'm moving with no contemplation
It's days like these, probably welcome the confrontation
It's days like these
It's days like these

Yeah, it's days like these, that I can never get away from
It's days like these, I know I'll never escape from
It's days like these
It's days like these

But I hate when it's controlling me
And when it takes a hold of me
Although I seem okay the feeling's probably hanging over me
I said it all before, I'm not new to this
It's been years now, I'm far too used to this
Cause I've been holding out for change but I fear it's neverending
Been this way for years, still, I can't comprehend it
Wanna make the most of my time, so I spend it
Trying not to show it but today I'm not pretending

Cause it's days like these, I'm moving with no contemplation
It's days like these, probably welcome the confrontation
It's days like these
It's days like these

Yeah it's days like these, that I can never get away from
It's days like these, I know I'll never escape from
It's days like these
It's days like these

2024 eighteenSAINT / Clouded North

Days Like These

Lyrics:

I don't have to remember cause it's still my everyday
Living with the same problems that I thought would fade away
Self destruction on my mind
Self esteem is hard to find
Self reflection seems to be my only way of getting by
I ain't even chasing highs, keep my expectations low
As my mind, trying to fight the feelings as they come and go
See the signs of decline but I never let them show
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know 


Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know 


Seems to be my affliction has become my addiction 
Been a while since I gave in but my time is still wasted
Contemplating if it really ever solved anything
Or if I was just distracted by the pain that it brings
Ain't ashamed to admit that it remains how I think
But even if I had the choice I wouldn't change anything
I'm still the same as I was, only difference is
I'm in control
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know


Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know

2024 eighteenSAINT / Clouded North

All That I Know (Alt Version)

All That I Know

Lyrics:

I don't have to remember cause it's still my everyday
Living with the same problems that I thought would fade away
Self destruction on my mind
Self esteem is hard to find
Self reflection seems to be my only way of getting by
I ain't even chasing highs, keep my expectations low
As my mind, trying to fight the feelings as they come and go
See the signs of decline but I never let them show
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know

Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know

Seems to be my affliction has become my addiction
Been a while since I gave in but my time is still wasted
Contemplating if it really ever solved anything
Or if I was just distracted by the pain that it brings
Ain't ashamed to admit that it remains how I think
But even if I had the choice I wouldn't change anything
I'm still the same as I was, only difference is
I'm in control
Cause now it's all that I know
It's all that I know

Tell me what my future holds
If this is becoming all that I know
Help me not to lose my hope
Cause this is becoming all that I know

2024 eighteenSAINT / Clouded North

All That I Know - Alt Version

Original version: https://soundcloud.com/cloudsampling/nature

Lyrics:

Here I go again
Every now and then I need a way to decompress
Desensitised, every time I feel a little less
Searching for a new sensation so I do it in excess
Guess I never learned my lesson, it's hard to admit
Old coping mechanisms I'm trying to resist
Weighing heavy on my conscience I should probably quit
But right now it's the only thing that's taking me away from it

Fix me for today
I'll pay for it tomorrow
Consequences of my actions are a bitter pill to swallow
With a half empty glass, knock it back until I'm hollow
Probably best you don't follow

Running from my problems, I never needed a
chaser
Wake up in the afternoon and wonder where the day went
I'm not doing well and you can tell from my behaviour
I know that I should ask for help but that's not in my nature, nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature

Over and over again
Can't break the habit, no matter the damage I know that I'll only regret
Goes hand in hand with helping me manage the memories I wanna forget
Never gets easier, seems like the further I come, the harder it gets
Always appealing when I'm at my lowest, I know that it does me no good
Mistaking the feeling for something that's real, never stop when I know that I should
Cause I never learn, I'm far too concerned with escaping until I feel numb
I know in the morning I'm gonna be wishing to take it all back if I could

Fix me for today
I'll pay for it tomorrow
Consequences of my actions are a bitter pill to swallow
With a half empty glass, knock it back, until I'm hollow
Probably best you don't follow

Running from my problems I never needed a
chaser
Wake up in the afternoon and wonder where the day went
I'm not doing well and you can tell from my behaviour
I know that I should ask for help but that's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature
Nature
That's not in my nature

Nature

Nature (Acoustic Version)

Lyrics:

PART ONE
So many nights spent fighting the feelings
Is it the reason why now I feel nothing at all?
Put up the walls that I'm now trying to break down
But don't be mistaken

Taken too long to get where I'm at
And I don't wanna throw it away
But everything I used to care about
One day it all faded to grey

Can tell by my face, behind the visage
If I seem okay, it's just a mirage
To get through the day
Just playing the part
No one's to blame
Don't take it to heart

But when did it start? I don't even remember
The feeling before it all changed 
Or the reason why every September that I'm never looking forward to the day

BRIDGE
Happens every year
And I don't know what I'm doing here
All I want is space
How do I end up in this place
Every September?


PART TWO
Yeah
They can't do it like me
Probably wouldn't wanna either
Cause when it gets too real I see them switch up like the seasons
But I'm accustomed to it now, so I don't even need 'em
I could drop 'em any day and wouldn't need a reason

Why do you think I barely ever let somebody feature?
Feel like Pluto when I say they gotta know the meaning
Far from sunny round here, so I bring the heaters
Clouded North, if you don't know the reason

From a small town in the North where nobody visits
Dealing with depression, no direction, clouds in my vision
Thought that if I made it out, saw the world and moved into the city
I'd be better but still I carry the same thoughts with me

Only difference, nowadays I don't fear it
Cause there's power in the pain, you can hear it in my lyrics
Try and replicate my sound but you'll never come near it
Yeah, my style's underground but in the clouds, I think the clearest 



September

CLOUDED NORTH ☁️
UK Cloud/Emo Rap Artist & Producer

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