The Dreaming Boy Is A Realist

god im unbearable 
only fine when the cameras on 
keep replaying my favorite song 
i got narcissistic flaws 
i dont see em don't see em at all 
imma work on ts till i ball
tryna blow 20 k i
n the mall
tryna buy my own mother a home 
so she dont gotta care bout the cost 
old friends left me alone 
i keep telling myself im the cause 
love the music dont care bout the check 
tryna live on this shit till im dead 
told my father im trying my best 
got the weight of the world on my chest 
im inconsistent consistent i try my best i swear 
excluding me for my differences man this shits unfair 
project their flaws on my body make fun of what i wear 
told em keep me out that highschool gossip ass shit 
told my brother go get help then  he switched like a bitch 
i been dead by myself for like a year and a bit 
i hat that man that i see in the mirror for a min 
i done tried all  that shit tried ot pray tried repenting 
i cant climb ou that pit, chose the path of most resistance 
i might jus fly out that bitch if i start im gon finish 
why?

tryna buy my own mother a home 
so she dont gotta care bout the cost 
old friends left me alone 
i keep telling myself im the cause 
love the music dont care bout the check 
tryna live on this shit till im dead 
told my father im trying my best 
got the weight of the world on my chest 

love the music dont care bout the check 
tryna live on this shit till im dead 
told my father im trying my best 
got the weight of the world on my chest 

"project their flaws on my body make fun of what i wear"

im inconsistent consistent i try my best i swear

weight of the world prod kenzee

thank you guys for the contentious amount of support, i know i haven't been putting in work recently but trust me i got yall

first beat prod @jaechily second one prod @gemlyfe

4u (prod. jaechii + vuitton)

its been forever since the day
that my ass started smoking
no i dont fucking eat
cause it feels like im choking
i killed myself
and now my body bleeding out
on the sofa
aint nobody even care
and no my father dont know yet
my mother walking in
and now she screaming and crying
she dont know why i died yet
she been fighting the silence

i did some drugs
just cause i could try them
i smoked some weed
just to slow the time down
i did some shit
that you wont ever find out
i did some things
that will not ever come out

cause imma kill myself
before im 22
i know my birthdays coming
im turning 20 soon
and imma be all alone
ill fucking sit in my room
im gonna stare at the wall
cause i dont know what to do

ill fucking stare at the wall
ill shove a knife in my chest
i swear ill twist it around
until my body distressed
until my veins start to pop
until my heart wanna stop

its been forever since the day
that my ass started smoking
no i dont fucking eat
cause it feels like im choking
i killed myself
and now my body bleeding out
on the sofa
aint nobody even care
and no my father dont know yet
my mother walking in
and now she screaming and crying
she dont know why i died yet
she been fighting the silence

i did some drugs
just cause i could try them
i smoked some weed
just to slow the time down
i did some shit
that you wont ever find out
i did some things
that will not ever come out

been forever since i started smoking

came up on some money, ima spend it on you baby
sorry i'm a drugie, i been hella on em lately
pills they keep me company i'm sorry that i love em baby
so when i'm gone yeah when i'm gone bury me with my vices
please dont count me out i know you saw me at my worst baby
tryna be like me n him why cant u be yourself baby
i'm w slime he just rolled a 3.5
this hoe mine i aint even know that she was mine

i hope you don't mind baby
i'm hoping that you don't mind i j put my new bitch in some mf skims
my hoe she got in the gym, now she showing me ass i been thinking she kim
i'm high as fuck everywhere that i be and they wonderin who the fuck high as him?
who the fuck high as him?
who the fuck buying this?
who the fuck buying that?
i'm tryna get so high that i don't even care if that hoe not by my side
she don't do this often hoe why the fuck you love to lie
tell yo friends about the party i'm tryna catch a fucking vibe

tell yo friends about the party i'm tryna catch a vibe
tell yo friends about the party i'm tryna catch a vibe
you can hear the money on me
uhhuh

came up on some money, ima spend it on you baby
sorry i'm a drugie, i been hella on em lately
pills they keep me company i'm sorry that i love em baby
so when i'm gone yeah when i'm gone bury me with my vices
please dont count me out i know you saw me at my worst baby
tryna be like me n him why cant u be yourself baby
i'm w slime he just rolled a 3.5
this hoe mine i aint even know that she was mine

tell your friends (prod. reef)

@oviyan @mohsiris

lyrics:

benz coupes, when i'm pulling out the fucking lot
i'm with this new korean girl, she's showing interest in my wristwatch
she spilt moscato on my seats, and that shits got me pissed off
this girl she bad on Instagram, but she way badder on the tiktok

i'm in this s class, i'm swerving lanes, i'm driving like i'm crazy
i've got partnas coming from the states say I've got funny money
bordens in my hand i'm stacking up, but i'm not in the country
i swapped my elizabeths for my swiss francs, i'm balling like it's wembley

i can tell she's wearing ysl lipstick, it's leaving marks on me
i feel like a dachshund, i'm a dog, with pedigree
i was in miami, swerving amgs and bentleys
flew back to the 6ix, now i'm in gles and m3s

i can't love her 'cause i can't open my heart
too bipolar for these girls, too bipolar for my cars

i can't pick

young and rich, feel just like i'm tony stark
i've been stepping out in arc'teryx, a dino on my heart

my hoe eating saffron every meal she cant even taste that shit
im with oviyan, we in the 6ix, foreign whips and foreign bitches
i just spent the night in amman, im with hamoudi im with majd
eating caviar off my hand, like

bad lil bitch from soho, bad lil bitch from doha
my name on her arm she wrote it in henna
yall stay over there, yall cannot come هنا
maxin out my cards, مش ممكن كده

benz coupes, when i'm pulling out the fucking lot
i'm with this new korean girl, she's showing interest in my wristwatch
she spilt moscato on my seats, and that shits got me pissed off
this girl she bad on Instagram, but she way badder on the tiktok

i'm in this s class, i'm swerving lanes, i'm driving like i'm crazy
i've got partnas coming from the states say I've got funny money
bordens in my hand i'm stacking up, but i'm not in the country
i swapped my elizabeths for my swiss francs, i'm balling like it's wembley

oviyan, mohsiris - wristwatch

behind us (truman +barkonten + malvi)

ft @trulykursed 
lyrics.
me:
baby i gave u my best 
i wanted u not the rest 
bae lmk what u left for i was tryna make the best of this
only so much i can endure im not tryna make a mess of this 
yes imma rot imma stay to myself 
how could u go fuck on anyone else? 
i say that im better i lie to myself 
20 years and i been cryin for help
so many nights that i cried to myself 
u couldn't handle the cards i was delt 
u couldn't handle the shit i was delt with, oh 
pull me down and pick me up 
za gimme that pick me up 
smoke ts that keep me dumb 
oh 
i fucked up and i cant run 
so ashamed of what ive done 
paranoid i keep my gun 
lately been caught inna middle 
shawty play me like a fiddle 
lately been caught in tha 
baby im medicated i been medicated and ik we can do it 
baby im tryna make it i been tryna make it i been tryna pursue it
baby i know u better and i love u better yk im an improvement 
baby im tryna make it i been tryna make it and yk imma do it

both sides ft xeno prod bradxday + shazy

prod. me

i wish i could be perfect
so all my flaws and sins would be gone
i wish i could get rid of all this greed
grab the guillotine cut my head off
oh in my final moments ill pray to you
oh my god is a woman she'll make do

ooh my god is a woman 
and she is so perfect
ill repent all my sins
so you can heal me with both hands
(x2)

i fell flat on my face
i need to pick my head up
im on my knees and ill pray
i want you to come home 
it doesnt matter the day
please just dont lead me astray
im your sheap
and your the shepard
baby just take me away

ooh my god is a woman 
and she is so perfect
ill repent all my sins
so you can heal me with both hands

i thought i had it all
but i could barley grasp it
its in the palms of my hands
girl i cant let go from it

its like your an arrow
and baby im the target
just hit a bullseye 
ill fall down right infront ya

i lost alotta friends
i still hold them close in my heart
cause now im the man 
they helped me build up in the start

but now im where i wanna be 
and everything feels wrong
so now ill do this for you
everyone i lost

i put my trust in you 
i put my trust in god
i put my trust in you
i put my trust in god

ooh my god is a woman 
and she is so perfect
ill repent all my sins
so you can heal me with both hands

been forever since i started smoking

burningclovers