its been forever since the day
that my ass started smoking
no i dont fucking eat
cause it feels like im choking
i killed myself
and now my body bleeding out
on the sofa
aint nobody even care
and no my father dont know yet
my mother walking in
and now she screaming and crying
she dont know why i died yet
she been fighting the silence

i did some drugs
just cause i could try them
i smoked some weed
just to slow the time down
i did some shit
that you wont ever find out
i did some things
that will not ever come out

cause imma kill myself
before im 22
i know my birthdays coming
im turning 20 soon
and imma be all alone
ill fucking sit in my room
im gonna stare at the wall
cause i dont know what to do

ill fucking stare at the wall
ill shove a knife in my chest
i swear ill twist it around
until my body distressed
until my veins start to pop
until my heart wanna stop

its been forever since the day
that my ass started smoking
no i dont fucking eat
cause it feels like im choking
i killed myself
and now my body bleeding out
on the sofa
aint nobody even care
and no my father dont know yet
my mother walking in
and now she screaming and crying
she dont know why i died yet
she been fighting the silence

i did some drugs
just cause i could try them
i smoked some weed
just to slow the time down
i did some shit
that you wont ever find out
i did some things
that will not ever come out

been forever since i started smoking

burningclovers