i've also been thinking about suicide a lot more than i used to. this song describes a lot of what im doing right now, but i can't commit suicide if i've got your music to look forward to.

randomly found ur music and apparently ur friends with elias

Why do I find music that relates to my situation right there in time😅

Do You Want me

Do You Want Me (feat. nick szpara) [p. siemspark x ninewaters]

every second I wasted feels just 
like ive misplaced myself cant replace myself
money gone like its nothing impulsivity shines 
i need help not a thing on the shelf

i just dont have it in me im a ghost a mirage
my life is like a montage this act wont get an applause
if i could change it all back i would just because
like a box in a garage its an unfortunate colllage

im tired of illusory i feel sick to my stomach
in my head again im doing laps around up to the summit
im stuck in these cycles some shit that ill never break
just a lesson well learnt these tables turning so fake

guess its not cut out for me a picture painted wrong
ive always had my doubts i kinda knew it all along
fuck a repost check im working hours way too long
i want it anyway i dont wanna stay here
stuck on this repeating cycle i dont wanna stay here
and i dont think i wanna fight no more sick of going on
like what the fuck is this for?

forfeit i cant fucking take it
crash against the cement
cant take it anymore
pretend wanna leave an indent
cycling back not content
fuck this i want more

impulsive (p. yungspoiler)

Produced by Cian
Engineered by @marcdoesmusic
link to all platforms: https://ffm.to/donthold

Lyrics:
(Cian)
(And we're running out of time to make this right,
I was hoping that we'd turn out just fine,
But I know that it's my fault every time, yeah)

Don't hold it against me when I say I'm empty
I just wanna hold you through the night
Every time you let go
I just wanna get close
I was hoping we'd be alright
And I said I'm fine but I know I never will be
Wish I could pretend we were living in a movie
Don't hold it against me
Don't hold it against me
Every time you leave I just feel so empty
Don't hold it against me

And you said it again
I think that you were right, yeah we were better as friends
Every time you storm out I try to pretend
That everything around me isn't crumbling again
Now I'm crying alone in my bedroom
And I wanna be lying beside you
But the only one lying here was you (you)
And I'm running out of time to make this right
I was hoping that we'd turn out just fine
But I know it's my fault every time (yeah)

Don't hold it against me when I say I'm empty
I just wanna hold you through the night
Every time you let go
I just wanna get close
I was hoping we'd be alright
And I said I'm fine but I know I never will be
Wish I could pretend we were living in a movie
Don't hold it against me
Don't hold it against me
Every time you leave I just feel so empty
Don't hold it against me 

©2022 TMM Entertainment

don't hold it against me (prod. cian)

produced by twobox
referenced a sendflowrs line

completely non profit

lyrics

swearing that i came outta nowhere
i just think ur pretty so i stare
u got a little sumn in ur hair
keep that between u in me
i think thats just fair

so
i just left a stain on her skirt
in public bathrooms
i just run my fingers thru dirt
before i cap u
only met in person on 3rd n
she bring the wap dude
shawty good to fuck in the park
i got a damn room
bed too
i got a backyard with a nice view
im just tryna feel myself rn before i pass u
im cracked dude
i love a shawty with an attitude
i just need someone to call me on my bs
can i count on u?

alright so 7g last me like 3 days
and at least when i was younger
i could find some ways
to leave the safety of my home
without an eye glaze
theres an ounce on the table:
crushed; fuck it, we blaze

i just got a text
theres medical w my name on it
i'll just let u know 
the second that i can pay for it
i just hit my reup on friday
so thats a shame n shit
im just here to ruin ur day
i hope i savour it

air inside the venue feeling like a foreign atmosphere
3 piece suit from politix im sweating out the m i did
someone call an uber someone get me fuckin out of here
cus every time i leave the house i end up wishing i never did
never did
ask me where its at i tell u LL on krink n shit
trust me when i say that we gon be here thru the thick of it

this beat keeps fucking changing man

(yuh)
(shee)
she say she a freak
bitch u dont got shit on me
i could make u bleed
hope u do the same to me
this freakish beauty on display
i swear this shit just make me weak
every time she try to pay i tell her
nono thats on me

half price 
know my face each time i walk in
top class
shawty an 8
im fuckin balling
i just put my phone on airplane mode
when we was talking
i just think its better if we focus on the moment

backflip off da roof (twobox)

AllForYou

Pass the Huh? - Nick Tobias

got so much money i could buy the mona lisa
had extra money so i threw some at your grandma
im not too picky with these bitches long as they dont want a cut
uh
im cutting up
uh
we cutting up
uh

lyrics dont mean nothing we just speaking buncha bullshit
i took a hundred thousand then i threw it at ya new bitch
im sitting breaking clocks cause there ain't time for all this bullshit
and outta every other person in the world i just been knew it
 

i'll show my face but i got 2 ill let u pick one
twin this ain't love this ain't friendship this a stickup 
u got money and a life you better pick one
my trigger finger's getting itchy
off the percs u know im geeked up
geeked up
uh
heard that u ain't fucking with me? my switch just perked up

(@1lua)
fuh
fuh
new hoe
milly rock
i cant find no plug cuz i
i been sippin on the percy 
man it fuck me up
i got a bad lil hoe 
she don’t wanna act just like dat bit sabrina
better off against sia
i tell my phone
no need to-
20 grand on my son
thats some fucking rick
i dont give no fuck bout that hoe cause im so lit
popping em all with the beamer
fucking a bitch like sabrina
hoe wanna talk lemme lean up
got a glock 19 gon beam em

got so much money i could buy the mona lisa
had extra money so i threw some at your grandma
im not too picky with these bitches long as they dont want a cut
uh
im cutting up

got so much money i could buy the mona lisa
got so much money that i threw some at ya face 
don't need a wraith 
im showing face
i got my blicky strapped on waist
fucked up, dead eye
you know i don't play nice
blue face, purple drank
i don't even hesitate 
my blicky ain't talk nice so let me fill in as the speaker
itchy arm, tweaker
touch me you get beamed up
looking like a sponge with all these holes oh he still breathin 
eugh

MONA LISA w/ lua (oddfish.flp)

LOSER LOVER

REALITY (prod. Alien OG)

walls feat. heylog (prod. holly)

everything is ok 

written + performed by colliding with mars
produced by colliding with mars
mixed and mastered by polearm
additional vocal engineering by leorinda
artwork by colliding with mars

lyrics:

Do you ever think about ghosts
Cause I’ve been thinking about suicide a lot more than I used to
Would you feel the adrenaline
If you read that I died

I can’t take these photographs
Or find the strength to hold your hand
And I don’t want to lose a friend
But I can’t help but push you away

And you can find me by myself
Cause I don’t feel alive
I think I need an angel or some pesticide
I’m by myself
You don’t have to tell me twice
To get my act together or I can say goodbye 

ごめん話がしたい
Gomen hanashi ga shitai
(I want to talk, sorry)

And the crowd goes wild
When I make them worried sick
Tears streaming down her face
With her jaw dropped open
Phone falling onto the ground
Glass breaking glass breaking
Would you consider this
That I’m not coming back

I can’t take these photographs
Or find the strength to hold your hand
And I don’t want to lose a friend
But I can’t help but push you away

And you can find me by myself
Cause I don’t feel alive
I think I need an angel or some pesticide
I’m by myself
You don’t have to tell me twice
To get my act together or I can say goodbye

adrenaline

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