Lyrics by Daria Geske

In a world that's like a game, 
Being queer can feel the same, 
Like an NPC, 
I'm in the back, 
No control, no agency, just a hack. 

I see the players all around,  
They move with ease, their feet on the ground,  
But I am stuck, I cannot move,  
I feel invisible, like I have nothing to prove. 

I long to be a player too, 
To have a say in what I do, 
To choose my path, to make my mark,  
To be seen and heard, to light up the dark. 

But sometimes I feel like I'm not real, 
That I'm just a character in someone's reel, 
A stereotype, a token, a prop, 
A mere decoration, to be used and then dropped. 

I want to break free from this game…  
To live my life without any shame, 
To be accepted for who I am,  
To be seen as a person, not just a program. 

So let's rewrite the rules of this game, 
Let's challenge the norm, let's break the chain,  
Let's embrace the diversity of all,  
And let each individual stand tall.  

For being queer is not a flaw,
It's a unique trait, a special draw, 
And though it may feel like being an NPC, 
Together, we can create a world where all are free. 

I shed the skin I once wore, 
A transformation to adore, 
The person I was, now no more, 
A new life I embrace and explore. 

Living in fear, trying to please, 
Society's norms, their beliefs, 
But their attacks didn't cease, 
Till I decided to break free.  

I killed the person I used to be, 
To live my truth and finally see, 
The person I was always meant to be, 
Living my life fearlessly.  

A metamorphosis, painful but true, 
A journey of self-love, long overdue,
I stand tall and proud, as I pursue, 
The life I was always meant to do.
No longer living in fear and shame, I embrace my true self, unashamed,
A phoenix risen from the flames, 
A new life, a new name. 

I killed a part of me to live, 
A death that brought forth life anew,
A fear that once consumed my heart,  
No longer holds its hold so true.  

I shed the skin of who I was, 
A shell that couldn't hold my soul, 
A metamorphosis profound, 
A transformation, my life's goal.  

I couldn't bear to live in fear, 
To please those who would hate me still, 
So I cast off that mask I wore,
And let my true self have its fill.

I am reborn, a new creature now,
And though the journey's just begun,
I walk with pride and newfound grace, 
My battle hard, but it is won. 
I live with courage, not with fear,  
My heart and soul now free to soar.

And though the road may not be clear, 
My strength will guide me evermore.

Failure to consider the outcome

Nothing to dissolve

More on the 636th weekly Disquiet Junto project, Left (1 of 3) — The Assignment: Record the first third of a trio — at https://disquiet.com/0636/

Uno With Wild Card-40 BPM (disquiet0636)

Based on 
https://soundcloud.com/tunelight/disquiet0636-1of3-implexus
by @tunelight

My soft R panned synth track (a soloist impro using a mono lead on AAS Ultra Analog) over his L panned original.

I improvised over 6 tracks from last week to see what happened on "first take" , decided to keep 3 for the second week.
Today, while choosing just 2 to share here, I decided to keep this one, even if I didn't develop nor edit my take I thinks it's nice to have a pure 2 synth duet and I like his basic track (reminds me of Penguin Cafe Orchestra's "...Found Harmonium" track) and my impro as as good as I can get, it is rambling  but I am  really happy with of it.

I interpreted his title as "I'm Plexus" before realizing that  implexus was a thing...
Too late, my track was already titled "We'r Plexus"...


The pitch here:
https://llllllll.co/t/disquiet-junto-project-0637-right-2-of-3/

WERPLEXUS - disquiet0637 w/tunelight

En Yta Av Is

the smuggler

Thinkingle_03

In toent day, In till way_02

Dive into this electrifying journey filled with deep bass, hypnotic synths, and hard-hitting rhythms. Perfect for dancing, late-night drives, or losing yourself in the music.
💥 Style: Electro / EDM / Synthwave
🎧 Energy: High, immersive, nocturnal
🔊 Feel the massive drops and futuristic textures!

Eclipse of Us

Tess Harper feat. Amon Vale – "Turning Page"
Label: Silent Room Records
Genre: Ambient Chillout Fusion

With "Turning Page", Tess Harper steps into uncharted sonic terrain, blending ambient chillout with meditative world textures in a bold artistic evolution. Known for her emotive depth and connection to introspective themes, this track marks her first official foray into spiritually-infused soundscapes — a natural extension of her personal roots in the meditative community.

Led by hypnotic handpan melodies, grounded by organic djembe rhythms, and layered with subtle world percussion, the production sets a tranquil yet empowering tone. Tess's raw, emotionally charged vocals intertwine seamlessly with Amon Vale's raspy, earthy delivery, creating a dialogue between inner healing and grounded presence.

Lyrically, "Turning Page" is a poetic journey of self-acceptance, transformation, and liberation from past burdens. With lines like “My past is not my cage / It’s just the turning page”, the song becomes both a mantra and a meditation — a soft rebellion against internalized pain and a reclaiming of personal light.

At 85 BPM in G minor, the track gently pulses like breathwork — calm, cyclical, and alive. A standout release on Silent Room Records, "Turning Page" is a sonic ritual: contemplative yet cathartic, grounding yet expansive.

In German: 

Tess Harper feat. Amon Vale – "Turning Page"
Label: Silent Room Records
Genre: Ambient Chillout Fusion

Mit "Turning Page" wagt Tess Harper ihren ersten bewussten Schritt in eine neue klangliche Welt – eine Fusion aus Ambient, Chillout und meditativen World-Elementen. Obwohl dies ihr offizieller Ausbruch aus bekannten musikalischen Pfaden ist, spürt man in jedem Ton ihre tief verwurzelte Verbindung zur spirituellen und achtsamen Community, die ihre künstlerische Entwicklung stets mitgeprägt hat.

Der Track wird getragen von sphärischen Handpan-Melodien, erdenden Djembe-Beats und feinen weltmusikalischen Texturen, die zusammen eine Atmosphäre von Ruhe und innerer Kraft erzeugen. Tess Harpers verletzlich-starke Stimme trifft auf das rau-melancholische Timbre von Amon Vale – ein berührender Dialog zwischen Licht und Schatten, zwischen Verletzlichkeit und Selbstermächtigung.

Inhaltlich erzählt "Turning Page" von einem transformierenden Prozess: der Ablösung vom Schmerz der Vergangenheit, dem Ankommen im Jetzt und dem mutigen Weitergehen. Zeilen wie „Meine Vergangenheit ist kein Käfig, nur eine Seite, die sich wendet“ machen den Song zu einer musikalischen Heilreise – sanft und tiefgreifend zugleich.

Mit 85 BPM in g-Moll pulsiert der Song wie ein meditativer Atemzug – entschleunigt, rund und getragen. "Turning Page" ist mehr als ein Lied – es ist ein Klangritual für alle, die nach innerer Stärke, Loslassen und bewusster Selbstfindung suchen. Ein eindrucksvolles Debüt auf Silent Room Records, das Raum schafft – zum Fühlen, zum Heilen, zum Sein.

Turning Page

Congee Rats is a project of Dong Zhou's, which explores all genres of electronic pop music and reflects the life situation of marginalised people.
Here are all demos. Please find my release on Bandcamp and other platforms.