this soo good. luv both of yall on this ^^

"deserve this" produced by @prod_acu @prodpawl4k & @azami37

Performed/Written by @counterxo

(Lyrics)
I’m so cold, alone 
I don’t feel like I have grown
The parts I hate about myself are making themselves known 
I can’t fold, I won’t
I can’t turn off the phone
When I look into the mirror it’s like all my flaws are shown  
What did I do to deserve what I’ve been through?
Need an answer, cause I put my trust in you.
Is it over for me too?
I wish I knew
Cause I don’t and I have no clue
Need an answer, cause I have to find what’s true
Is there hope for something new?

All the pain and misery
Is this what you want for me?
tried so hard to push through stress so much I had to grit my teeth
All the strain and history
Sometimes I can’t even breathe
Went too far and did my best but in the end what do I see?
Nothing at all
I came all this way just to fall
So much I could say, I just wait and rot away
Do you hear my call?

deserve this (acu + pawl4k + azami)

@1akura @yuikase
https://open.spotify.com/track/1YEPlMIIDeyhBDkOpyyKBa?si=a602d569728d4184

you know it hurts me
to see u cry
you know it hurts me
so wipe ur eyes
baby believe me
i wouldn't lie
baby im falling
into ur eyes
so baby this time ill do better for the both of us
this time i wont pull away when it gets hard to love
i wanna learn from you
i hope you love me too

maybe ur just way to perfect for mee
im sorry that im not the person u want me to be
i just want u to see
that ur all that i needed
baby believe it
so baby believe it
im falling to pieces
remember the day u said there'd be no more secrets
it keeps me awake
i find myself sleepless
dont throw this away
cus baby i need this

you know it hurts me
to see u cry
you know it hurts me
so wipe ur eyes
baby believe me
i wouldn't lie
baby im falling
into ur eyes
so baby this time ill do better for the both of us
this time i wont pull away when it gets hard to love
i wanna learn from you
i hope you love me too

akura - learn (asagao)

@rewind214

what're u so afraid of ?
take my hand i'll keep u safe 
now ur all I think of 
cuz of u I lie awake 
ur love what I need now 
plz give me ur time of day 
say u won't go away 
i'll show u that i'll stay 
rest assured, it could be worse 
life takes its turns but i'm along for the ride
and u could be shotgun be mine 
girl if looks could kill I would dieee X_X

going in circles with the thought in my head 
these thoughts so hurtful I can't put em to rest 
i don't deserve u but i'm trying my best 
what could this turn to i'm not holding my breath
either the stars are aligned or my hopes too high .. 
so scared saying goodbye will it be the last time 
smoke u up talk all night 
ur in my arms it feel right 
i'll be urs u'll be mine u'll be minee 

girl i'll stay, wait right here 
spendin time away from u and it pass so slow :( 
i'll decay for u, in ur brain need to know need to know 

what're u so afraid of ?
take my hand i'll keep u safe 
now ur all I think of 
cuz of u I lie awake 
ur love what I need now 
plz give me ur time of day 
say u won't go away 
i'll show u that i'll stay 
rest assured, it could be worse 
life takes its turns but i'm along for the ride
and u could be shotgun be mine 
girl if looks could kill I would dieee X_X

oh girl i'd die, oh girl i'd die 
u know i'd die, u know i'd die 
oh girl i'd die, oh girl i'd die 
u know i'd die, u know i'd die 


if looks could kill (rewind)

@1akura @rewind214 @yashio20k @afterstoryx 

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so turn me to ashes and turn me to dust
u know i dont want it if it isnt us
u made me feel like a monster
&& everything stuck
u watch me step in the picture
22 keep us one

if its me vs u know i dont wanna lose
when im battered and broken
black and im blue 
tell me all i can do

now that i finally have you

@1akura

now that i finally have you
i cant live without you
so baby dont leave 
just wanna be around you

if all i could see
is your face in front of mine 
then bae i dont mind it 
im scared of the silence

yeah i need u to call me back 
its the end of my world
think im falling fast
u are my only girl

i dont want u to cry
give u my life
its not worth being alive
if our futures not us together

ashes&&dust +akura (rewind, yashio)

"no defense" produced by @spaceboyry & me
Performed/Written by @counterxo & @s0lemn

(Lyrics)

(counter)
Take my breath away,
I can’t ignore that it was us till death, remember when we swore?
It’s hurt me as you left you dropped both of our hearts to the floor, someone has to clean up
Cause the fragments of us from before 
mattered to me so I can’t afford to lose you again, It makes no sense.
I trusted you with no defense.

(s0lemn)
ion wana change ill die where im at ,
drop another pill im high where im at 
outside where u at ?
i was feelin 4 u til i got attached ,
would it evr b the same if i came back ?
wait , ion want that
nevr told u wat i wanted2 
im js sry tht i lost u .
i think ima back down . i feel like im fading 
im tellin u rn ,ik tht u h8 me
i promise 2 let go , the second u save me
im falling 2 slow , i wish i was faking .

(counter)
Sent a text and I called but I still got nothing.
I’m so confused girl my heads still buzzing.
I try to not care, but the pain keeps crushing me.
Why would you leave?
Believe in me.

no defense w/ s0lemn (spaceboyry + counter)

"if I can't cry" produced by @luckeyknows @mental & @akasukii

Performed/Written by @counterxo

(lyrics)
I used to feel pain
I used to feel alive
I used to feel like the rain hit me like some blunted knives
Nothing hits the same
There’s nowhere to confide
Say I’ve been acting strange lately, hate that you’re so right
I can’t put up a fight
I think I lost my sight
I need the tough of light
My chest is getting tight
I hollowed my own heart for this life
I’ve calcified, can I tell you that?

If I can’t cry can you please be my eyes?
I’ve numbed what’s inside need my soul to revive
There’s no hope inside my eyes 
I’m glad that you stuck right by my side
I’m too broken to tell a lie 
I pushed you away as I crystallized, cause it’s suicide
Is there another way?

Don’t think I’m a victim, I’m sorry
Cause I didn’t listen to you and it scarred me
I don’t mind being this alone cause I’ve hardly healed, but it’s fine, cause there still is a heartbeat
If I get out of this I promise not become this again
Had some feelings come around, they didn’t stick, they came and went
I gotta keep my head down, it’s so much different than back then
Like a voodoo doll the thing that’s killing me’s my only friend

if i can't cry (luckey + mental + akasuki)

u can blame me if it makes it better
baby i know u been fed up 
just know baby i dont blame u
hope u dont blame urself
i dont care abt what they do
i just need u to myself

can u tell me all ur secrets
i promise ill keep em
i promise im holdin on
pray that im the only one
fall into my arms girl
im right there
im not good at givin comfort
but ill try my best

before i never see ur eyes
for the last time

girl u know ill try
because its all i can do
i see ur face at night
for u i put aside my pride
just like every other time

i got the world on my shoulders
i pray that u dont
cuz w every little mistake
i can feel the earth quake

promise (friendly)

shoutout @counterxo n @yashio20k

@haunted_sad
all the shit we had i watched it turn to dust
i knew baby there was jus never us
i was rollin over sad i was outta luck
i was always in my head i was not enough
u betrayed me baby ya u left me in the past
gave u everythin everything i fucking had
u left me deserted u left me in the past again
i was rollin over sad i wasnt sleeping

ya ik baby im getting betternbetter
another day passes me all stormy weather
and i dont think bby that im getting better
im hiding in my room think im dyin lone again
all the shit baby that u fkn said to me
u ripped my heart out left me with all this anxiety
now it passes me by and im not sleepin
i wanted to live my life give me a reason

@counterxo
Eyes wide open, i don’t get any rest 
I still feel so broken, so much pressure on my chest
Can we keep this moment? I’m scared of what’s next
Even at my lowest you know that I’ll make the best 
I tried to dig you out this hole and start up something new
Why did you give up on me I still have faith in you?
Lies were only told about about me cause you fear the truth
Cry for what we take for granted and for what we’ll lose
Even if it’s done with now I will always feel that pain
I’ll always remember you but I know you’ll forget my name
what a shame

no defense w/ s0lemn (spaceboyry + counter)

counter

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