restless failure

i know you - faye webster

am i falling in love?
are we something or not?
i can tell something's wrong in my head
am i dead?
use your words of affection and lies to reflect it again
again

tell me what i'm waiting here for
any time they'll blow through that door
put it to my head,
put it to my
bullet through my head

she said that she's tired of this nonsense
tell me where i'm lost at
don't know where i started at
why's it so hard on us
tell me what's your purpose
just tell me it all
girl tell me i'm worthless
i deserve my scars

reflect

https://open.spotify.com/track/0oRSlrEkJxqpNYXpCTE5Wl?si=7df53339a4ec43b2

even the people you love the most change

p. @blurxy

https://open.spotify.com/album/19HHGaAHNEIVt9P7xqWuEL?si=fwftpZ-GRUavti1VkzCO1w

all these memories they fade, oh everyday i just wait
yet id rather be dead than live another instead
thought i found myself cause he brought life in my lungs
now ur smoking away, but all this pain it still stays 
fucked up? i fucked up, yeah i just poured out my love
detach, i still latch
oh where’d you go with my heart?
(but u always told me and said that u will  stay
now it just hurts to know, without me ur still ok)

wish i could find your old love letter (og)

i hate everything and everyone around me
tear my skin apart, i hate my flaws
like why'd you ever doubt me
and i'll figure it out, you hold the revolver
don't take a bullet out, she aimed right down & shot me

i'd end up like this regardless
i know i'm a loser but, i'll end up fine

i'd end up like this regardless

mesmerized by the way that you speak to me i said

always callin me late at night wonder when you go to bed

and i realized, something, split into two


and now i'm constantly asking myself if we gon' b ok

and everytime you walk in my direction i lose all my pace


and now i know, 
and now i know


and so i can trust my own, but i can never trust my ends

but i've been on my own where i can feel u

[can we] talk, for a minute

girl i want to know, 
your name

can we?

i tried it gets harder
yeah i been the problem
i hope you can solve it, my darling

don't shoot us down (don't shoot us down, don't shoot us)
please
don't shoot us down (don't shoot us down, don't shoot us)
la la la la
la la la la
don't shoot us down (don't shoot us down, don't shoot us)
don't shoot us down  
la la la la
la la la la

inside my brain you're killing me
i'd slay them all so easily
these razor blades keep tearing me
i'd rather leave i'm so naive
it's something i couldn't believe
all of this weight you put on me
all of this weight you put on me
you put on me

don't shoot us down

it doesn’t matter at all
play with my psyche my,
brains in a spiral for love
love.
love.
love.

wolf in a sheep’s skin
if i die, bury me with all your sins
did you try?

i don’t think you ever did
is it my fault see a different lense

now it’s all gone
yea it’s turned to shit
now my life is shit

would it even matter if i found the end?
i wish i could kill em all and start again
voices gettin louder as a i slit my wrists

matter (love)

hyakkei - mahou no jyuutan remix 
dm @yaskets on ig for removal

i locked myself away
nb even likes me anymore but thas ok
i still wont sleep @ night, ill do it in the day
if uu dont wanna see me then ig ill go away
she said stop makin it bout uu and then i locked myself away

nb even likes me anymore but thas ok
i still wont sleep @ night, ill do it in the day
if uu dont wanna see me then ig ill go away
she said stop makin shit bout uu i said okay okay okay

locked away p. hyakkei

ep at 1k
by: @anjiwdoves

Lyrics:
somethings up 
somethings up w u
i cant stand myself
i dont need ur help

somethings up

you cover your eyes

i knew that you were up to something
everyone knew they told me all about it
if you were in my shoes i know that youd be drowning
in sadness and doubt that nobody loves you
becuase thats how i feel
i know that you wont get it but its worth a try
i hope im not alive when hes on your side
i woke up so hung over that i called your line
i know that you dont love me theres no point in trying
im not alright i need more drugs to keep me fine
and feel alive and feel alive and feel alive and feel alive

alive

less special

i never cared about how you feel no i didnt ill do anything to get in your bed when i wake up i set my alarm the same as yours because i read it last time that you let me in i try to run into you everywhere i go it doesnt work now you must be catching on you must be so scared the first few times is just coincedence but i know you know now now you know what i want what i want from you now you know what i want what i want from you now you know what i want what i want from you now you know what i want what i want from you

coincidence

lyrics: 
i been thinking really spending time away
i know in the end, it's never gonna change
i think i found you crying, bawling in the rain
every time i think about it, i'm insane
im a fucking lunatic, a fucking loser
looking down the barrel
swear to god, ill shoot it
swear to god, i'll do it
fuck!
don't laugh at me overreact
i could dull the blood until my blood is plastered
such a peasant, i don't know like what's the matter

i been still, don't know where all of the time went
doesn't matter, bae i just love when you're lifeless

hate where you're going, cause i need more
hate when you're crying cause i get torn
this aint a fallacy anymore
they coming after me it's annoying
like it would matter if i'm a corpse

hate that you're reminding me here every time
feels like i been slowly just crossing the line
tell me what's the 
point,
blank, 
range!

i feel like it's running it course
no one even listens to me anymore
i'm a fucking peasant too you, whore
i thought i was special to you, wipe the floor
with your fucking brains, i sit and then record
all i ever wanted was to be your one and only
now i got em blaming you for shit it's all according to plan
i had and now we're all here mourning for ya

fuck, fuck, fuck!

i hope they don't fucking care when you die
no one knows how i be carrying my

weight on my shoulders, damn
i feel so overwhelmed

PEACE, YOU IDIOT

point blank range

w/ @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
shoutout field medic

haven't seen you guys, or too many people
sorry i cant do what u want im still the same
i know you'll choose
i'll always lose
i hate to remember our last talk
you've been complicating things and it fools my heart
im so confused
what cant you do 
every time u call know i crawl right back
cuz darling u know i love your act
love so construed
you're all i knew

Whenever I make a mistake, I tell myself that I'll start over
But I do, do, do it again, and I cried whenever you left
My friends tell me I got terrible habits
Remember drinking, smoking, laughing
I fell in love again, and I don't want to pretend it didn't happen

all i knew

Are you sick and tired of us? Oh God, 
and what you take for granted is my love, my trust.
Girl, I'm terrified of you, of you 
keeping my loss. 
while You pick at my flaws. 
Girl, you're drunk as fuck is it my fault. 
There's no alibi. 
i wish it was you that died. Oh you oh you.

im terrified of you

https://open.spotify.com/track/2MKDKEc1f9wEMbzB6pqomV?si=Ws6Eh4CRTdiKucF3zYYy6Q

@six-days-after-christmas
prod me

@copics
mistakes that i've made
but i don't wanna talk about a thing
tearing me up until i can't feel pain
it's all i know so i stay insane
i think it's time you cut me off
put a bullet through my head
you can take my spot

i see the look in your eye
hold my hand and we'll be fine

let me go
let me go

@six-days-after-christmas
let me go
im tired of the same you know
was all my love in vain oh
girl im not one to blame but oh
u make me feel insane

let me go w six days after christmas

intoxicated with you

@sucidialloser

i’m hiding inside ur walls
no no ill never come out 
i know exactly what ur thinking 
i know what its about  ^_^
im just another fucking creep, fucking unoriginal 
can you spit in my mouth? :3
normally i never speak
but when im with you im loud

im loud 

all my songs are ass 
and i know i can’t write for shit 
but all these thoughts of you 
are pilling up 
and it makes me sick :/
i wanna build you up 
and take you apart brick by brick ;)
i’ll keep all ur fingertips 
keep them inside my fridge 
i know ur sick of it 
i know ur sick of this

restless failure

soju