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i dont see
how i was the fastest seed in the race
cuz now im so slow
and i cant outrun the pain

and all those fucking years
of being told that i was gifted
they've made me so indifferent
to any task that comes near

and i think
that it's probably improbable that in 
any other timeline im not still a dick

all my bad qualities
anxieties, insecurities
culiminate into a really shitty tasting soup

and all those fucking years
that i wasted online
of all the possible universes
i know im living in the worst timeline

and i think
that it's probably improbable that in 
any other timeline im not still a piece of shit


im living in the worst timeline

The Worst Timeline

VERSE 1
wanna get a get away from here
wanna do a do a runner
i dont wanna be fucking near
this goddamn bummer

of a life, of a life
need a car to fucking drive
away from this place
that i really do not like

face the pain
fading away
i hate the way that it feels


VERSE 2
wanna run a run away from here
need to find a find a new life
everything i want is all so clear
but is too far from my

grasp, my grasp
need to drive really fast
away from this place
leave it all in the past

face the pain, fading away x3

i hate the way that it feels

i said face the pain
fading away
i hate the way that it feels

bummer life

giving up and wasting my time
finish college just to end my life
i cant take everyone is falling in love
i cant take that im gonna die alone

thought that id be dead by now
im still here and its so much worse
i liked you but im so bad at talking
without you i am nothing

i dont have a job
i got anxiety
i cant go outside
without getting so depressed
its useless
to try
cause i
always seem to fail

i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone
i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone

i cry for help
and you ignore me
i made it worse
and now you hate me
you were all my hope
and now im nothing
its my fault
for thinking i had a chance

i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone
i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone

this shit wont stop
until i pull the trigger
paint the walls with my brain
cant feel anymore pain
or maybe ill pull out a knife
and put an end to my strife
cause im just so fucking done
dont really care anymore
so long as i am dead
i really couldnt care less
dont wanna see what ill miss
havent even had my first kiss
so what if i am a bitch
i wont remember a thing

i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone
i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone
i cant take
everyone is falling in love
i cant take
that im gonna die alone

These Songs are About You

Everyone is Falling in Love - Penguinband

Rest in peace to Lil Watermark, who helped me write this track.

Lyrics:
I’m an ogre now
Disgusting lumbering freak
I scare everyone
And live off memory

Break my mirrors, claw my eyes out
It won’t fix the shame
I can’t control how you see me
But I can show you pain

I’m a fucking freakshow to you
That’s all I’ll ever be 
Cuz I’m a mutant now
And pain comes naturally

I’ll live comfortably
When you know misery
You say I’m a disgrace
For things that I can’t change

I can hope that one day you’ll change
I’m not that naive
I can’t control how you see me
But I can make you grieve

I’m a fucking freakshow to you
That’s all I’ll ever be
Cuz I’m a mutant now
And pain comes naturally 

I’m a fucking freakshow to you
That’s all I’ll ever be
Cuz I’m a mutant now
And pain comes naturally

Mutant

never wake up again (demo)

Do You Have A Vision ?

Sports

does she know
im all alone
standing here
does she know

does she know
im all alone
standing here
in front of her

does she know
my face
through this wall
she placed
in front me

does she know
who i am
what i've learned
and what i can
do for her

transapparent

i was raised by a place
ive been on since i was eight
or maybe 9, the internet,
sat online, on the world wide web

everything i've ever seen
ever learnt, its from a screen
and who i am today
was influenced by the way
i was raised on the World Wide Web
raised by the Internet

raised by the World Wide Web
don't have any real life friends
mind melted by the internet
World Wide Web

i was raised online
i was raised online
maybe that is why
i came out behind
all the other kids
all cause i had unrestricted
access to the internet

knowledge at my fingertips
and everything that any kid
really shouldn't be seeing when
he's browsing at the age of ten
terrorist beheadings
and anything with death in it
propaganda, fucking goatse
i came out so fucking lonely

raised by the World Wide Web
im anxious with every breath
cause i was raised by the world wide web
World Wide Web

Raised By The World Wide Web

I Wish You Responded To My Text

Can’t get out of this mess
Always stuck in my head 
Never leaving my room
Fuck the world fuck you too

Just seems like common sense 
In the world that we’re in
I’m never going to try
I’m staying NEET til I die

Always feeling so blue 
What am I supposed to do?
Life is too hard for me
I’m so goddamn lazy

Just seems to be correct 
Modern life is worthless 
Why would I ever try?
I’m staying NEET til I die

The Worst Timeline

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