theres a pain inside my chest
only a bullet can fix
theres some thoughts inside my brain
i need some help i need one wish

i wanna see u sad
i wanna see u cry
i can tell u are a lying whore
i see it in ur eyes
why r you looking at me like ur so fucking terrified
i dont wanna hear those words no more
ill tell you all goodnight
i cant look past the words u said
yeah theyre all trapped up in my head
i cannot trust u anymore
ur sucha stupid fucking whore

(hook)

and just like that i ruined everything

written about someone who is completely devoid in my mind but i like my vocals so im keeping it up

waking up here again
above all you said we'd be here together
but nothing lasts forever
yeah nothing lasts forever
stuck inside this game of yours
constantly worried that ur bored
bored of me my texts are green
i texted u so patiently
please tell me is it worth it
take oxy my stomachs hurting
throw up outside the curtains
wish i still knew for certain
sweet release
you got me down on my knees
ill do whatever you need

hook

Forever

methhead & 67 ~ monster's allergy 😒😵

prod desmi

theres this girl
shes online
i want her to be mine
long black hair
and pretty
i think that
she'll kjill me
why does she stare at me
gave her a note
that she didn't read

femcels demo

Track 7 from “Clown” - Out Now Everywhere

Stream/Download: aeter.us/clown

Lyrics:
Did you ever notice that were nothing alike?
Did you ever notice that were nothing alike?

Parties at my house 
Never going back, its over
Yeah its over
Parties going down
Throw me through the glass, its over

But you were never invited
Invited at all.
No need to get all excited
And break down the walls
The walls, ou-ou-ou-ou

spotify 

the party

im scared to go outside
life just slowly eats me alive
im gonna close the blinds
god i hate the sunlight


i used to play outside all day
well thats the old me
people are so scary


cant face my fears
its a disaster
please just dont look at me
my heart is beating faster
im not going anywhere
im stuck up in this chapter
everybodys giggling 
theyre filled up with laughter


stuttering my words
im filled up with a curse


i cant talk to the cashier
its way harder then it seems
why was i born so weak?
i cant do anything

theres some people on ur right
u better run and hide
or theyll ruin your life!!!

im scared to go outside

lmk if u guys like the guitar stuff more or if u guys want more synth stuff


this halloween i wanna celebrate 
my own suicide its gonna be great
and everyone knows ive got nothing to lose 
i want no control
of my soul anymore

im cutting the light right out of my life
take my final breath 
i guess this is goodbye

life got too hard but at least i tried
now im gonna die
my skeleton is ur decoration
i know you’re scared but my body is waiting

you know that if you liked me back i wouldn’t have to die 
and now you’re staring at my corpse until you start to cry 
hang me up onto your wall
 reminding you that it’s your fault 

just take my body out the box 
and use it as ur little halloween prop

my corpse is your decoration

wake me up in the morning, im just gettin started
pour four in my tylenol, im retarded
you looked like a stranger when we parted
feel like, feel like i got what i wanted
left alone in the house i was haunted
bridge boys make the money move, iconic
you looked like i knew you when we bonded
feel like, feel like i got what i wanted

standin in the corner like a loner, im baller
blood in my nose from when i rolled up a dollar
charms on my flip phone i dialed and called her
everyones starin as my eyes start to wander
in the night im a ghost imma haunt her
i been walkin in the dark skinwalker
im a bad dog i eat like a donner
im a good guy watch out for the slaughter 


feel like (prod. crowxan + tkk)

prod me // mixed by me

why do i care so much
about people who don't care at all
i understand i'm in the wrong
but i need you so damn bad
it's not my fault

and i'm trying so hard baby
you been driving me so crazy
i just wanna kill myself
i don't think she'll ever date me
and she probably thinks i'm crazy
i think i'm a little crazy
everything just for a maybe
i just think u really hate me

leaving me behind while i'm laid up on the side
you watch me while i cry
so fucked, i'm so fucked up for u girl
wasting all my time on people who don't care
you watch me while i die, i swear you never saw a thing
i know you're there

why do i care so much
about people who don't care at all
i understand i'm in the wrong
but i need you so damn bad
it's not my fault

and i'm trying so hard baby
you been driving me so crazy
i just wanna kill myself
i don't think she'll ever date me
and she probably thinks i'm crazy
i think i'm a little crazy
everything just for a maybe
i just think u really hate me

i care so much

FIX UR ATTITUDE W/ CTRLMYHEART prod me

you were never in my head x3
youre in everybody
why do i do this myself
i need help
hows it like to live in hell
im all by myself
looking in the mirror and starts talk to me
like why am i so ignorant 
like why am i me
so tell me mirror what do you see
i see pathetic person and hes staring back at me

uninvited x4

ctrlmyheart