playlist 2023

Crunkin ts

produced by soloft and lavendertxwn
mixed and mastered by mvø

I try my best to let go of the things I can’t control
This constant state of finding things to hold to when I fall has gotten worse 
I wasn’t perfect, maybe I deserve it 

The sun coming up is not the same since you left
Yeah, it’s hard to accept that everything I’ve come to love now hurts me
Should’ve never said I was you one and only
And still I try my best to breathe slow
Say you love, I was nervous, so I stared out your window
Never knew someone could make me feel this low
No need to talk, I’ll just go

Tried to make you happy I won’t leave unless you say so
Never wanted me but I was there when you got low
Switch up on the scene I see you act like you don’t know
Don’t care if you’re fake don’t hit me up when you’re solo

And I don’t really have the words to say
The ones to make you stay with me all day
Never thought you’d ever make me feel this way
Just let me go cuz now I can’t stay

no need to talk, i'll just go w/ flowers for you (prod. soloft x lavendertxwn)

hope yall enjoy
shoutout @seejayxo
prod. @splashgang

goner w/ seejayxo (splashgvng)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

autumn_leaves w/ getbetter (clou6y & splashgvng)

prod secre and prophecy
mixed/mastered by me

Lyrics:

blood drips from my eyes
i still hate our mutual ties
heart beats fast while lines of powder
find their way inside 
i decipher lies
from the look upon your eyes
and i could find my way
but i won’t make on my own
i spill
my heart out on the line
i cry 
more when i can’t decide 
and i wish
that i made up my mind
before i went and 
carved your life from out my time

well you shouldn’t
and for that
i shouldnta stood it
you brought it up
shoulda kept that shit inside
cause how the fuck
you gon wish that i had died 
like i’m not perfect 
but i got an ounce of pride
and i still hold it in my heart
the words you swore were not a lie
but it’s still hard to decipher
i gotta dislodge the knife first 
gotta dislodge the knife first
not really much of a fighter 
and i hold my tongue back
but you jump at the spark of a lighter

_brighter_mood_ (secre x prophecy)

thank u 4 listening <3

lyrics: 

and i, just wanted u to stay one night 
so can you, try to find the pieces that’s u broke
i’m all alone

like oh god ur the one 
do i wanna fix this idk
all the fuckin time that i spent 
tryna figure out this distance, yeah

but I tried, i tried so hard
but I was not enough, for u love

and i know, it gets so cold sometimes 
the snow is fallin down on your face
am i a disgrace, i just wanna leave this place 
and never look back, never look back 

like oh god ur the one 
do i wanna fix this idk
all the fuckin time that i spent 
tryna figure out this distance, yeah

distance (pekarot & splashgvng)

produced by @kingtheta

[@lottaheart]
used to think you were the best damn part of me
now i see who you are and its so hard for me
to believe you could do me so horribly
after everything, you saw the heart in me

but i guess that wasn't true
now i don't know what to do
i was falling hard for you,
you were out with someone new
while i working away
to get you out that place
the place that you hate
you were hiding your faces
its outrageous
the way you faked this
and left me vacant

[@xobroken]
where are you?
i need to see you one last time before you go
i just need to let you know im vulnerable
because you fake all the emotions you show

but i cant do it the same
run away from the other pain that we face
be yourself, lately im too blame
is it really me or is it you that you hate?
baby what you saying?
telling me she loves me, i know that she's faking
lying to my face and i just cant take it
feeling out of place, got too many things changing

[@lottaheart]
used to think you were the best damn part of me
now i see who you are and its so hard for me
to believe you could do me so horribly
after everything, you saw the heart in me

autumn_leaves w/ getbetter (clou6y & splashgvng)

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