departure.

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

shake me when im drifting away
and i dont do that much so when i write i aint nothing to say
i go ghost so much wouldnt be surprised if i just fade away
i been on the fence for so long i might just go and jump off the gate
but when youre here in my arms all this other shit goes away
im sitting here tweaking off this hybrid but imma smoke anyway
my hands fucking shaking wondering how imma tell you nothings okay
the man youre dating is right in front of you but hes miles away

but while im here
ill try to enjoy this
ill hold u when we wake in the morning
ill never make a day feel boring
ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

all i wanna see is some meaning for this
i keep my head down and i work hard and one day ill get paid for it
she said dont drink that cause its too much and its dangerous
baby i know danger when i see it this is childs play
i see safetly everytime im looking at your face
but i only see you on the weekend im in a tough place
i wanna love the part of my self that lets me feel grace
so when you leave i just want you to stay

but baby I just want you to stay
without you the blue skyies turned to grey
my heart has lead me astray
and I can't cope without these compounds
pumping through my veins
sorry that I'm such a let down
i burn in the flames

you can't wait in place
and I don't expect you to
but it hurts me that you'd choose him
cause baby I'd choose you
despite the abuse
our differing views
my drug overuse
your volitile moods
i still don't want to lose you

shake me when im drifting away
i dont really do much so i aint got nothing to say
i swallowed my pride and i looked death in the face
theres a couple nights i know that imma take to the grave
but while im here
ill try to ignore it
just hold me when i wake in the morning
i went to sleep not wanting to see the morning
but ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

jumping off the gate w/ weepings (under the maple tree)

im sorry for not posting in awhile, i've been making some stuff im proud of but havent finished them so ive been strugglin to get somethin out that i love. if u still stickin around ily. i have stuff for u this year :)

i dont wanna talk like that
nothing rly said and it's goin right back, right back
pressure weighin on my head, scars on my skin till the lights turn black, turn black
look like a cracked phone screen, nobody rly knows me 
can't talk to anybody
sometimes it gets deep, but it's hardly there
hardly here
im hardly..
i wonder what u thought when u saw me
if u need a friend u can call me
im right here man im sorry im sorry

it was not supposed to be like this
3 o clock and i feel like shit
and im feelin it oh the sky is weighin in
got so much potential, potential that im not weighin in
gotta retry, retry don't watch time go by
everyday that i wait it feel like a lie
everyday feels the same im just fightin time
got so many songs to finish jus gotta fkn try

i dont wanna talk like that
nothing rly said and it's goin right back, right back
pressure weighin on my head, scars on my skin till the lights turn black, turn black
look like a cracked phone screen, nobody rly knows me 
can't talk to anybody
sometimes it gets deep, but it's hardly there
hardly here
im hardly..

hardly (prod. neverforever)

veins. w/ sevenfeet (king theta)

healer. w/ brecken & lil booj (king theta)

broken home. w/ greenwood (king theta)

forever, yours. w/ vails (king theta)

im no different than yesterday
days will bleed together
we’ll all be replaced
some of are us fake
but i’ll share my thoughts out
you won’t hear me 
you just hear my sound

i got lots of words to say
i don't share them here
they're all on my alt page
i hate to leave my house
i fear they laugh at my face
i walk into work in fear 
and i dont know how to behave

idk where i'm going
same song it’s still not flowing
what if they hear
what if they find the real me
change their mind
they'll change their mind about me

all they say is ‘nice song’
like did u read the lyrics...
ignorance is bliss 
maybe they just don't see it
maybe they don't know

i'm crashing out in a song
where did this come from
where did i go wrong
i have been feeling this
i have been feeling this for so long
wanna ruin my body like i ruined my brain
the cycle is repeating and the cycle is insane

oh its only 10pm on a wednesday
why it got me feeling this way
tell me how to erase my brain
all my songs are sounding the same

everything just sounds the same now
in the mirror i've been looking lame now
i don't even wanna fucking go out
i ruined everything i ruined everything

do u still listen
to my songs
used to see ur name
now it's gone
seems i've been replaced by the one
i don't think she's changed
why don't u run

real me [nctrn]

and we all know happened
 I think It all burnt down in auburn 
And I won’t warrant that reaction 
but you can tell me all about it while we go

check out consignment and every store 
It’s not replacements but holding places 
we cherish more than we know in the core
choose the new ones it’s hard to face it 

adjust the ocular focus what’s ahead and I credit 
those before me chose adore me 
open the levy let’s start this out  
we gotta start letting this go to start living out our lives oh 
better said than done put the effort in we’ll get it right this time 

And if we don’t then I won’t hold it against you 
No I won’t 
I won’t 
I said 
Just Sever everything 
I thought I could 
I doubted through it all 
I called I talked 
It didn’t solve a thing 
I crawl along it’s staying underneath 
and we grew this outward 
distance claimed by forces 
outlawed from the trinsic
Plains and we can just get out of there
Out of reach again this time 

adjust the ocular focus what’s ahead and I credit 
those before me chose adore me 
open the levy let’s start this out  
we gotta start letting this go to start living out our lives oh 
better said than done put the effort in we’ll get it right this time

we all know what happened (King Theta)

elevator w/ lovematt & junkai

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @noahmadethiss & @horoshavibes
Mixing, additional vocals & guitars by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by @melmige

LYRICS
(sewerperson)
All alone on this Summer night
Look for me in these velvet skies
Pray for me while I walk this fire
Anything just to see you smile
November came and our Summer had died
Leaving us with nowhere to hide
When everyone dropped dead like flies
I had no choice but to make you mine

When we fade away where do the feelings get dropped
'Cause I got boxes of these things like home videos
I'm away like half the year
She doesn't miss me though
All while I'm thinking about her touch
It makes me miserable

(Carlby)
Somehow I'll find a way to reach you
Drag you through the screen
This time I'll tell you everything
How much you really mean to me
And all I am today
Because the bleakest weather is better in your company
Although you're long gone now
I hold tight to your memories
Like home videos
Just know I'll never forget these

I still stare at old photos
Wonder where does the time go
How can I get it back

(Horosha & Carlby)
The past is dead and yet I still I feel it
A shadow sliding over concealing
Anything in the present that would bring me joy
And still I miss the pain

I knew our time was short
But your summer eyes
They captured me by force
A willing prisoner
Even with a painful ending you made every moment shine like gold

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Home Videos w/ sewerperson (Prod. noah thomas)

turning shepherd into flock, he's bare and punching out the clock
and left it's hands a ten and two, and of it's bell, a copper blue
if it's the best that it can do, to buy him, should he re-coop
the inner portions have been warping, while his skeletal is looped

girl, i'm only a fractional gland to the tanner
organic of matter, in service of hazard
with the spirit coaxed in snot, they steal his crops, then send him off
the palpatations sign alignment that the collar had been popped
so watch him flee into trees where he is deemed a foreign beast
and of it's fauna, granted ease, 
the runic symbolism breathes
but as the phoenix tucks it's wings, the animosity is sworn
the creatures force him to a corner, as the ritual repeats

but most invited are divided by the drink
some evoke and others physically impede
but fuck it, i'm dunking my soul in elixirs
and ripping up scriptures they told me to read
evading persuasion of linear staging, 
you think in equation from playing campaign
i remember you had felt what i be
chrysalis tethered, eternally green

and she was lock and key, to his belief
internal leak is running deep and sinking streets
cold and heat have come to meet, releasing steam
but that peace is soon to cease, 
and he's deceased

turning sheperd into flock, he's bare and punching out the clock
and left it's hands a ten and two, and of it's bell, a copper blue
if it's the best that it can do, to buy him, should he re-coop
the inner portions have been warping, while his skeletal is looped

grace period betrayal (branwen)

stuck.

I love and appreciate all of you out there whoever and wherever you are. It took me awhile to except life for what it is! U don’t gotta be foolish like I was u can escape this bull shit system.Recorded 3/2/24 Indianapolis Indiana somewhere up ina burbs. live in the NOW

broken home. w/ greenwood (king theta)

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