i swear ive listened to this song a thousand times

decomposing (switch)

i’ve been going insane
worrying about you everyday
and i’m not sure if i can continue 
the struggle in my brain has become an issue
and how do i know that you’re telling the truth this time
the-the-the consequences of your untold lies
will lead me to my direct demise 
will you still feel for me when i die?
cause i won’t be the one that you forget 
yeah you’ll regret
leaving me alone 
broken down on the ground
alone and forgotten 
dead and rotting 

(AUTUMN)

dead and rotting, my blood is clotting i'll
lay in a bed with a similar scent 
to the ones that are pinching my tongue
weight on my lungs
fat in my veins
begging the sun, to go away
what does he want? keep me awake 

i gotta answer questions time's creating
cold cause i'm dissociating fast

(2x)
the smoke and ash is all i need
life is fast, so leave me be

untold lies w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

(intro)
i feel so stuck
won’t you let me go..

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

(verse)
now i’m shaking 
and i can’t fucking stop it 
my world is breaking 
apart and u were on it
when all i wanted was for u to be honest
i’ll close my eyes as i beg for u to stop it

(bridge)
my bones have decayed with the winter
but still i feel her

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

i know u have to go (hero)

hope yall enjoy
shoutout @seejayxo
prod. @splashgang

goner w/ seejayxo (splashgang)

i'll be the first to admit this one is rlly weird
song i was originally gonna post for my birthday but then just didn't :')
hope u enjoy it

lyrics:

rip me apart
tear me a new one
gashes n scars from all of the old ones
birthmarks show my alignment
i couldn't betray it's not in my wiring
posessed by a spirit u know what i saw
hundreds of symbols engraved on my walls
if i'd said a thing i'd be in asylum
i should've screamed but i didn't mind it

i didn't mind it
i didn't mind it
i didn't mind it
i didn't mind it

sat in front of my mic started seeing thru walls
some kind of emblem appeared on my palms
recent nights i dont know who to call
i'm losing my mind i think once and for all
my frie̴̔nds all tell m̶̮̍e to get a gr̵ip
i̷͓̊ frä̴̰́n̸k̵ly don't g̴ive̶͈͆ a single sh̴it
̷̦͛t̵́͜h̵̟͠e vō̵̖i̴̮͑c̸̬̚e g̸̞̾ets loud i̸̲̗̒̐n m̴̡̎y̴̬̅ hḙ̷͝a̴̮͠d aga̴̠̚i̷̞͂n̵̩̔
t̴̿́o t̴̡̖͕̥̃h̴̩̖̒e p̶̐̓ǫ̴̱̘̀̀͠i̷̦͂̌̈n̷͖̪͈̯̓̂t i th̷i̵͕͗͐n̵̹̓k st̷͉̞͛͂r̸͗ang̵̤̒͗é̵͘rs r̵̨̜̣̣͐̏̚ h̵̛̜̝͊̉̓͐̓͝eȧ̶̻ring it
ƚ̴̧̤̠̃̈͒เ̷̧̦͘͘ ̴̯̽́ǫ̵̤̚ᴎ̸͂̌͊เ̶̧͓̥̹̀͋̊͝ɿ̴̨̤̝̠̓ɒ̴̉ɘ̵̨̫̰̋ʜ̷͑͘ ̶̦̀̀̕ɿ̵̗͔͔̌̑ ̷̢̲̼͇̋ꙅ̴̎͋ɿ̵̼̤̦̀̒͜ɘ̷̢͖̋̃͘ǭ̶̬̜̼̩̿͂ᴎ̵ɒ̸͖̇̉͐ɿ̶̝͙̆ƚ̶̧̄͋͝ꙅ̸̲͙̟͌̒ ̵̭̦̎ʞ̶͓͙̿͒͠ᴎ̵̼̻̙̺̂เ̸̣̬̺͕͊͆͆͛ʜ̵̘̯̀̃̀̀ƚ ̶͖́͠เ̶͍͖͙̯̂̈ ̷̯͎͋̽͗̎ƚ̴͍̹̯̲́̎̓ᴎ̴̧̡̝͚̈͌เ̴̟͍̍͆͜͠๏̷̺̪̮̊̆̄͑ợ̷͇͑̋ ̵̪̗̠̍͆̈́͝ɘ̸̡̱͔̠͌̂͝ʜ̵̳̦̻̪͗͛̆̅ƚ̶̰̠̗͗́̆͝ ̵̳̥̺̘̄͐๏̴͇́̽̅ƚ̷͑̀͆͝
̶̡̞͆ᴎ̸̝̘̾เ̷̰̩̮́̕ɒ̵̪̫̝͊̈́ǫ̷̛͙̞̝̗̂̕͘ɒ̷̯͈̉͊ ̴̯̥͇͛๔̶̘͒ɒ̶̞̒̽̂̕ɘ̸̥̔͊ʜ̵̢̛̣͈̽̑ ̶͔̋̑̌ʏ̶̜̌๓̴̜̲͉̱̄̎͒͝ ̸̲̻̦̓́ᴎ̸̥̝̲̃เ̸̾͝ ̵̨̨͉͑̕๔̴̙͇̯̟̍ย̷̞̦̐̆̽̈๏̵̯̥̲̍̾̾|̴͍̻͙͕͛̾̚ ̸͓̗̈́ꙅ̵̹̲̫̀͋͘ƚ̶̻̀̔ɘ̷͚̤̦͚̅̎͐̊ǫ̴͉̰̻̜͛̓̑͐ ̷̙͇̋ɘ̵̤̜̞̍͜ɔ̵̧̡̠͐͜เ̴̲̻̤́̒͝͝๏̸̛̮ש̴̨̛͕̾̽͝ͅ ̷̢̪͒̈́ɘ̸̳̖̆͑̒̉ʜ̶̢̩͇͋͝ƚ̷̗̲͐͌̆͐
̸̢̜͇͐ƚ̸̢̉เ̸̮̱̈́̄ʜ̷̖̟̬̭͑ꙅ̵̙̎͛͐͠ ̴̱̿̈́̈́ɘ̷̧̹͓̑͘ͅ|̴̩̣̱̇͒͋͜ǫ̵̲̫͐ᴎ̵̭̿̕เ̴̩͚̆͆͂͠ͅꙅ̶͕̰̩͋̌̚ ̸̹̚ɒ̷͕̎̀́̀ ̸̧̧̲͒̍̈́̃ɘ̶̢̺̥̌͊̚ͅש̴̜͇͗เ̵̧͔̼̀ǫ̶͖͖̂̚ ̵͙͒͘ƚ̴̤̼͂̎͘͝'̴̲̔̍̋ᴎ̴̨̲͂̌๏̶̖̲̣̗͊๔̸̫̱͕̤̈́ ̵̟̋̉́͠ʏ̵̦̈|̴̫̱͎̘͋̇͐̋ʞ̷͈̻̳͎͛́̕̕ᴎ̸̙͖̋ͅɒ̶̰̙͖̇͘͝ɿ̷̮̽Ꮈ̷̘̖̎̂ ̷̦̏̔̈́̿เ̵̠̪̐͜
̶̛͇̍̔̚ǫ̷̛̛̣͎̓͊͋เ̴̰͐ɿ̶͍̪͕̝́ǫ̵͉̅ ̸͓̝͛ɒ̴̛͉͙͗̉ ̸̯̻͌̄̊̕ƚ̴̙̞̇̋ͅɘ̸̪͈͕͊̕ǫ̵͖̠̗̓̋́ ̷́͌̔͜๏̴̨̢̮̬̑͗ƚ̶̲̱͉̃̃ ̷̧̟̐ɘ̷̢͙̰͎͋͝๓̷̢̣̩̕͝ ̵͍̲̏̈͠|̴̪̹̰̂̋̊͠|̴̬̤̻̈́̄ɘ̴̤̩̺̋̋̀͝ƚ̷̪̲̦͓͌̈̍͌ ̷̣̍̒̾|̴̞̭̀|̶̤̣̂̚ɒ̵̨͍͎̿̒̋ ̵̮͛̕ꙅ̵͕͆̓̏̆๔̶͓͒̇ᴎ̷̱͔̀ɘ̵̬̊͊͝เ̷̛̟̥̻ɿ̷̲̲̓́͌͌͜Ꮈ̶̟͇̬̈́͌͘ ̷̧̢̨̎̈́̓̍ʏ̶̟̩̪̿̚๓̷̼͓̳͓͂
̵̣̭͊͒|̷̫̜̯̞̈́͒|̴̩̰̥̙̏͊̚̕ɒ̵̼̅̕ ̵̢̱̜̒̽̀̕͜ɿ̷͇̻͔̺͒๏̷̖̫̩͉͛Ꮈ̸̰́͊̍ ̸͍̫̍๔̶̝̦̉̽ᴎ̸̠̩̲̆̄͆ɒ̶̰́͆͝ ̶͖́̊̇͜͠ɘ̸̩͋̄̊ɔ̷̪͎̼̋̀ᴎ̸̼͒̐̀๏̷̜̎ ̶̲͆͗̓ʞ̷̝̘͐͜ᴎ̵͝ͅเ̸̞̱̺͒͆ʜ̴̨̢͓͑ƚ̷̞̯͋̄̂̕ ̸̻̾͒เ̵̨͓̮͈̀͆͊͂ ̴̙̒̌͋͘๔̴̨͙̰͒̅ᴎ̴̢̟̫̈͐̏̒เ̶͉͎͐̇̆̚๓̶̧͕̜̅͛ ̷̛̥͈̽ʏ̵̦̿̔๓̶͚̬̍̑̓͊ ̴̢̠͎͋̚ǫ̷̖̍̚͜ᴎ̶̞͉̃̽̋เ̷̨̼̦͒̀͝ꙅ̴̠̋̎͝๏̵͍́|̸͎̮̘̪͆ ̴͔̆̋̊̔๓̶̭̯͊̒'̷̼̜̤͕̀̀̉̚เ̵̱̉̾̊̋
̷̛̳̊̆͑|̷̢̗͎͑̐͆͊|̵̩̓͛̕ɒ̷̬͈̊̀͛͘ɔ̸̥̙̟̌ ̵̭̠͗๏̸̼͍̼͂ƚ̶̬̦̤̳̋͝ ̵̱̞̽̏̕๏̸͔͖̮́͂ʜ̵͕̃̇̎̚ฬ̶̤̑̑̓ ̸̬̌̈́̕ฬ̵̢̺͍̽̏͝๏̸̤̩̠͝ᴎ̴͇̐̃́̕ʞ̵͓͈̭̿ ̴̘̰̹̫̍͂ƚ̵̞͖̉͐ᴎ̸̢͉̣͑๏̸̯̳̣͙͒̉͝๔̶̢̺̜̗͌̆̀͝ ̷̠̩̲̠̾͘เ̴͖̠̟͕̉̑͐͆ ̷̫̉̓ꙅ̴͓̞͙̾͗͠ƚ̵̛͈̱͊͘ʜ̸̧̤̲̊̾ǫ̵̡̫͒͒̎͜͜เ̷̮̳̽͆͝͠ᴎ̶̛̯̘ ̴̩́͐͝ͅͅƚ̴̟̣̳̹̇ᴎ̶̛͍̜̭̃͜ɘ̸̡̣͗̊ɔ̷̰̟̜̽͘ɘ̷̢̲̹̣̊͝ɿ̸̎͜
̷̮̞͋̃̊̒ꙅ̷̳̘̾͋͝͝๓̷̧͖͋͑̌͘|̵̦̥̯̀̾ɒ̷̰̯͑͌̈́͝ợ̷͖̈́ ̴̠̑͌̾͒ʏ̸͚̙̤͝๓̴̱̖̳͕͐̃̑͝ ̵͚̔̄̉͘ᴎ̶̱̤͚͑͝ͅ๏̷̧͍̯̀̾ ̸̢͙̐͠๔̶̭̿̆ɘ̴̥͍̩̈̀́̕ͅɿ̴̘̈́͌́̚ɒ̵̤̐ͅɘ̶̜̺̭̅̕ợ̴̣͉̠͊́ợ̷̢̤̣̖͊͒͊ɒ̵̘̜͔̀̈̌ ̸̢͉͖̬̍๓̷͍̱͊̈́̂͆ɘ̵̨̺͕͊͋|̴͈̒̍̒๔̶̣̓̑̔͆๓̴̮̰̠̤͛̐ɘ̶̞͎̼̦́̀͘ ̶̳͌͌Ꮈ̵̨̟͠๏̵̢̫͖̓̆̐̒ ̵̼̘̌̐͜๔̵͙͖͑̋̀̌ᴎ̷̳̲͖̀̊͂เ̸̹͚͉̉ʞ̷͖̗̳͔̎ ̶̖͉̔ͅɘ̶̓͆͐ͅ๓̵̗͍̳̓̓͠๏̶̡̫͋̐̌̔ꙅ̸̗̅͆̕͜
̸̢̳͒ꙅ̴̗̯̈́̃|̶̡̯͊̉͘|̷͙̖̬̔̕ɒ̶̺̟͙̀͒̐͝ฬ̷̳̒͒̄̔ ̷̨̰̒ย̵̡͔̈͘ɿ̷͈̄̓̈́͜͠ʜ̷̧̘͇́ƚ̶̰̗̘͒̈́̏͝ ̶͖̭͆̓͠ǫ̸̤̝̼̈ᴎ̷̼́เ̵̺̬̋̕ͅɘ̴̨̟̝͊̅ɘ̸̫̦̇͒͂̅ꙅ̸̬̭̉̍̇̈ ̴̨̜͗̅๔̷͓͖̌̄͛́ɘ̴͍͍͔̋ƚ̸̢̞̘̮̿̉̄͊ɿ̵̦̰̏̚͝ɒ̵͍̗̋͝ƚ̶̝̭͔̓̓ꙅ̵̭̦̭̱͐͝ ̸̰̱͔͍̈́̌ɔ̶̙̳̒̌͠เ̸̪̤̦̞̚๓̸̤͎͖̐ ̵̡̳̱͗͂̈́̎ʏ̵͚͉̿̽͘͝๓̴̨̙́̉̓͌ ̶͎̩̜͊̇̕Ꮈ̷̨̈́̊๏̴̳̺̎̉̄̓ ̴̺͍̀͜͜ƚ̸̭̘͈̝͗ᴎ̷͓̙̃͂̉๏̴̢̛̯̞̙̊͗ɿ̶̛͙̮͇̽̿̉Ꮈ̶͓͙̩̔̒̏̐ ̶̡̤͗ᴎ̷̯̘̒̀́เ̶̜̼̟͐ ̵̣̭̜̽͑ƚ̵̭̺̒ɒ̶̼̞̫̠̋̍ꙅ̶͚̖̤̖̏̾̕

prophecy (canyouseetheghost)

all i want/hold me tight (smokerose)

music video
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https://youtu.be/w9Jfkvx8xbY
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prod. beamerboy
..............................
lyrics_
------------------------
hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold, on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when i sit, and think about my future, always running free

death was creeping on to me
in my mind,, i could never say what's right
i keep pushing on the knife, let me be, let me breath
disassociate with me
climbing high, cause i cant see
where am i suppose  , to be
hate just keeps waiting, on me

hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when I sit, and think about my future, always running free

you were pushing on to me
always sexualizing me
always mess a making me
just come decimate me please

patient 23

【﻿ｎｕｍｂ　ｍｙ　ｔａｓｔｅ　ａｎｄ　ｆｅｅｄ　ｍｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ】

thank you for listening. i really, really appreciate it.

produced by @prod_death 🖤
hope you enjoy.


walking with grace 
behind closed curtains
and i know that pain
finding out they're not the same
it's just not the same.

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

fuck that
i'm ripping the tape off of my face
but don't look at the paste please :(
i wake up and i'm already shaking
there's only so much i can take in
loss of dexterity causes corrosion
i missed every note that i needed the most
don't open their heart till' you've opened your own

the truth (i'm boutta fall through)
i guess you never really knew me (knew me)
that's why i never get through (give a fuck abt you)
it's connection we're losing (losing)
i'll reach my hands through the screen
till i see the spark's out
they're starin' at me; said
"you should be star-bound"
take in the scene
and don't you forget it
the ocean'll sink (sink)
just cause i let it
(let it)

is there even a deeper meaning?
i study her every pattern
i ache then break but they don't seem to take it as a heavy matter
and that's hefty ladder that i'm probably gonna climb forever
and if she goes i let her
and if she goes i let-

kay, i've opened the shades
i thought it was grace, i guess that it's hate
fool me once and take my change
no wonder why i feel the same
fool me twice; i'll start anew
my misfortune falls right back to you
the scent of colors fill my room
to numb my taste and feed me truth

(truth)(4x)
i don't know what does it mean to you..
what do i mean to you? (you-you)
what do i mean to you
you-you-you-you

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

i feel like a mime (4x)
(i feel like a mime...)
(am i wasting my time?)

feed me truth [prod. death]

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

prod me.
-lyrics-
there's so much to do in my life
so why you picking fights
cutting you out for the morning, cause, I cannot even eat right

when ur on me like that
holding the knife to my back
cursing and swearing, attack
me and you, are just trtying to get back

to the way it was
when ur on the drugs
you can t even, get up
honestly, im fed up

theres so much to do in my life
so why you picking fights
cutting you out for the morning, cauese, i cannot even eat right

when ur on me like that
holding the knife to my back
cursing and swearing, attack
me and you, are just trtying to get back

ima wreck, ima try
at times a really happy guy
i just wanna be a man
tough as hell, keep composure, what is that

i used you, to be a better man
in a past, I was blind, not a scratch
there were bumps in the road
2020 was a mess out control,

keep composure 84_

no samples used
visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LKv2MdMEQ5I

hey guys, i haven't been able to record much vocals lately, so here's this instrumental i've been working on & off on for the past few months.
hope you enjoy 🖤
i appreciate you all so much.
thank you for being here & listening

ａｍｏｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｅａｒｔｈ，
ｂｅｎｅａｔｈ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｉｒｔ

decomposing (switch)

cutdeep

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