im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

stare at my body as i bleed
what did u even find in me 
a bucnh of dreams ill never reach
a lot of ideas ill never be 

stare at my yeah (4x)

im fucked up and shits not over
i want to but i can't get sober 
ur death made my whole body colder
everynight i dream about when i used to hold ya(2x)

love life but death seems charming
can't stop myself from falling 
eyes glued to the back of my eyelids
when i die fill my coffin with violets 

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

misfit (santana)

take what you need
take the rest of me
been nauseous all week
you've been haunting my dreams

don't tell me you care
you're sittin right there
fuckin around while i rip out my hair

so tell me
was it worth it
i had never meant to be a burden

tell me was it worth it
i don't wanna wake up i don't think there is a purpose

but does there have to be a reason
i don't wanna be here anymore i'm barely breathing

while you're barely bleedin
you're the only reason that i'm drowning in the deep end

so rip out my heart 
tear it apart
if i were to keep it i'd have to restart

if that's what you want
i'll pack and depart
i'll gather my shit and head straight to vermont

to be with the trees
is all that i need
i don't need you here
i just want all the evergreens

and i might fall apart beneath the trees
that overlook the spot we used to meet
i promise that it's everything i need
should have never worn my heart upon my sleeve

and i might fall apart beneath the roses
a deathwish and a pocket full of poems
i promised you but you ain't even notice
i hate myself i'm drowning at my lowest

a pocket full of poems (king theta)

Lyrics:
It’s been hard to ignore
When the pain feels like before
Never meant to leave you all on your own
The way it breaks my bones
Crushing my throat
The drugs they call cause I don’t wanna mourn
Oh oh
Another break down
On the blow I’d breakdown
I cannot escape
How can i ever fake
When everything gets spilled out
Take my name
Take my shape take my clothes
Take everything I own
Leave my guts on the floor
Leave me deaf to your tone
I’m out of my mind
Get out my mind 
Something I can’t find
Looking for insight
I get so high 
Underneath starlight 
Now we’re saying good bye
Can’t sleep at all, I got too much in my brain
Driving me insane, think I gotta change 
Highs I gotta chase
Drugs that imma taste
It got easier to tell when they were fake
There are demons in this race but the devil gave me his grace 
Imma go crazy you can’t come in my lane
Fuck money fuck drugs fuck fame
I do this shit so I’m remembered in my grave
I do that shit so I can feel okay
If I’m not okay, I won’t elaborate 
Everything hurts
So I try to numb the pain
it never works like that 
I know you know that
I know it gets bad
Fallin through your hands

MOURN (prod. iamlonely)

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anytime soon...

3/8/23
reprod by me
original song creds towards @guardinmusic △

guardin - anxious (one take cover)

its been a year since I last posted on here. if you're still here I love u thank u for listening. sorrow world forever...

lyrics:

its 3pm and I just woke up
my stomach kills think I might throw up
yea I threw up
wish we never grew up
Cuz we’re getting older
Its already over
The future is scary
The past dont bring closure
Whenever you’re over
I feel my heart getting colder

Cuz I wanna face this
Dont wanna evade it
Whenever you’re with me
I feel like the greatest
I hate when we fight but
I cant just erase this
Your love is like water
And I wanna taste it

Money comes and money goes
I just hit the road cuz they booked me for a show
Im making plays now
They know my name now
When I get my first M
I know they’ll hate wow
I guess thats just the life I live
U hear my pain give me a kiss
Im burning up like an angel falling
From the sky
U in my head and every time I reach
You multiply
I did this shit all on my own
Aint need no one
But im thankful for the people who show love
Im still tryna make it out im stuck in Florida
Ill be in la next month im tour
I always dream of this
I know my parents doubted me but
Thats the price I get
Im off the edge might jump cause
I cant sleep, every night I battled 
Demons they cant take me

love like water

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

overdose (ft. safeatlast) (Ciche&Jarn)

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 
at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 


grabbin a drink feeling hopeless again
on my face's fallin tears, bottle gripped in my hand
outside i look fine 
but inside im fighting a war all alone on the losing end 
losing end but i can't see the end
losing all i have, losing my head 
i fight them off but they keep coming back
like cancer cells, avoinding treatment

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie

at least i tried (sorrow bringer)

I thought I needed you
I thought I'd bleed for you
I thought I'd rip open my heart so I could be with you

girl I never needed you
why did I bleed for you
ripped open my heart to give a fraction of the world to you
fraction of the world to you

no I'm not okay
but I'll say that I am in the doorway
I don't ever wanna get in your way
I just wanna be with you who cares about the foreplay

killing my vitals slowly
how did I get so angry
ripping my hair out with my claws
I don't wanna be here like at all

time kills everything I thought I'd never see you again
withered away as all the termites ate at my skin
everybody said I fucked up when I told them the truth
maybe I am just a suck up to the plot of the news

dont wait for me
two blankets in the trunk of the 95 pontiac babygirl that's a must

oh cant you see
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all so we can still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

heartaches

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