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Vibes VI

idek anymore

❤️

ft. @internetsacha
prod. @whereisnomu / @prodnomu

SPOTIFY

butterflies w/ sacha online (nomu)

awful ways

awful ways w/ bronclair [blackwinterwells]

feel free to follow me on my instagram xo:
https://www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

lyrics:
I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Call me a fuck up
My whole life's been a suck-up
Can't do anything right
Laying here every night

Thinking about it
But don't wanna talk
And my thoughts keep on screaming
They never shut up

And I don't want the help
I will never know why
Something's blocking the feelings
'Cause I think that's right

Oh, you know it all
Tell me how I feel
Since you love judging me
Oh, you don't know
'Bout what I'm dealing with
You don't know at all

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am,
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel

Walking out and
I feel like everybody is staring at me
Reminiscence bout the days
When I felt ok

Maybe I need meds
To numb me out
I don't wanna take them
But I'm already fucked up

Can't just feel all right
I just can't feel ok
That's why I can't sleep at night
I won't tell no one a thing

I don't know why
Voices tell me what do
Bottle up my pain, so you
Can look at me falling through

I can't stand all this pressure
Weighing on my shoulders
Staring at the ceiling all night
3 am
And I still can't sleep
Keep on fucking up
'Cause I still can't feel
x2

3 am

spotify/itunes

guitar by: ryini beats

dedicated to everyone i love ❤️

home

First track fully recorded out of the hospital. Just another one about a girl playing with my feelings I am getting back to normal now!

I Hate This

Stream Paperface Album
https://album.link/9v0tjbkpvqnb7

Cassettes

i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

shoutout @sendflowrs for the carry
prod: @afterlife66

polaroid w/ sendflowrs (afterlife)

come2grips w/ Shiki XO (iris + fortuneswan)

hey, thx 4 listening, seriously.
this is the first song i've mixed completely from scratch,
so i hope it doesn't sound too foul 
prod. @prodskellington <3
cover art sketch by @bleulmao

~~~lyrics~~~
a minute away
i’m gonna fade
back into the nothing
shit what do you say
fear to be fake
look at my face
fucking disgusting
throughout the day

i can’t talk if i can’t even breathe out
she seems off there’s gotta be a reason
raindrops fall everywhere i don’t need it
think this calls for the death of a weakness

check, check, check,
troubled mind, covered ears
less, less, less, chitter-chat full of tears
let’s, let’s, let’s, get the fuck outta here
can’t afford being gone
but i’ve lost will to care again

the cycle ends
what’s the point in this
low love, slow thumbs, so numb

winter crept upon my hands
and all i am’s ideas through a screen
is it true that you were never meant to be?

troubled mind, covered ears [prod. skellington]

vocals by me and rouri 
art by phixel


wut do u want frm me?
i been silently waiting 4 u to leave
its a problem with u & not a problem w me
i been stuck in place, not moving constantly
u think ur safe w/ ur back trned
dnt feel surprised when this blade makes ur neck hurt
jus close ur eyes & wish 4 things to get bettter
acid lies always burning thru my sweatshirt

YOUTUBE

problem with u ft. rouri404 (yungspoiler)

drown U

close ur eyes w/ lilac heart (prod frevel & pekarot)

PK FIRE (livxloner)

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below [prod. branwen x rvrhiv]

https://open.spotify.com/track/6CbxhNDiS43RkM728SpInl?si=e92a5e39fcfc4020
prod. @dercept + gateway & danielsara
cover art done by kittikyu <3

this ain't a ballad; fucking unbalanced
give me a challenge, i'm in the smog
tossed like a salad; thought i had talent, guess i was wrong 
putting the p in pain, everything ain't what i want 
you put that shit away, it's new a day, in a NEW DAWN

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego, but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

two-faced; show faith
walkin' round the town in my mind with a mace
i'm a fucking loser, so i never show my face 
wish i never knew her; couldn't believe what i'd say
so i rest admist the panic, going manic, tryna change
if ur talkin' shit then can-it, all your bullshit; it can wait
i got way too damn satanic, pull me closer to the flames
you should quit this life and hand it over, imma take your place

(i'm looking through the fog)
(i've been confused for so long)
(the things that i've undergone)
(are proof that i don't belong)

leeches! clogging every vein from the start
secrets!! i wanted to keep in my heart 
bleeding! blood is looking blacker than some tar 
don't communicate, because your brain's already charred

no chance, i ain't ever doing any shit like that again
i don't have an ego but she fucking with my head
racking up the people that'll probably want me dead
said i'm fucking lethal, tell me what did you expect?

leeches! [prod. dercept x gateway x danielsara]

hope you guys enjoy this one <3 each track i put out means a whole lot 2 me, 
so tysm for taking the time out of your day to listen

prod. by @sorrow_bringer 🖤
cover art done by an acquaintance of mine

(got me asking my lungs)
("can you cave in?")
(in need of a reason for clearing my head)

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

heart's beating, now i'm way heated
took off and ran on my own
asking my past demons, "did i really mean it?"
was i in control of my soul?
now i gotta wait. 
i know what i am; shit wasn't great
so why do i stand?
never complained; wished that i did
they'll get what they get
i'm not giving in

they all wanna see me fall, hear me bawl
i know i shouldn't have set foot
into the cage that i'm in
the person i was; he told me to stay where i must
oh the ground personifies
we walk all about it and never bat an eye

let me loathe (let me loathe)
swear i'm changing..
this feeling i know
lessened the seasons

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

subside [prod. sorrow bringer]

https://open.spotify.com/track/3PMZOguzvVjniDrURFbpdL?si=84e189e1d5984fc1

really hope u guys like this one. put my god damn everything into it :)
prod by my bro/the goat @blvnkface & @012207 on guitar!!! 🖤
cover artwork done by @hh3vc <3

they don't wanna 
cut me off these vines
shit's outta control
this is quite the haul

i'm blessed with 
friction of the mind
i gave it my all
but this is getting old

red bleeds into green
i can see it through my chest
i'm seen as a fiend
who doesn't deserve what he gets
if you're talkin down on me
i'm tellin' karma do it's best
if you're fuckin' with the scene
i'm comin' straight after you're head

i'm an addict; is it adding up?
never passive
don't think that i've had enough 

read a passage
it told me "mass erupt"
so i damaged
everyone i knew and loved

AND IT'S TEARING ME UP
(OH IT'S TEARING ME UP)
BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP
(NO I'M NOT GIVING UP)
LOVE IN THE WORSTEST OF WAYS
THAT'S HOW I WITHER AWAY
STUCK INSIDE THIS FRAGILE FRAME
AND IT'S BURNING ME UP

(it's never too late)
(to disintegrate)

letting karma do it's thing
don't you worry about me
even in a state of panic
i can manage how to breathe
it doesn't matter if you brace
imma break your fuckin' face
i can tell they're in a trace
by the way they retaliate

the reptile; it lays awake
in hope the sun will finally fade
for colder blood is due today
if i corrupt, dissect my brain

AND IT'S TEARING ME UP
(AND IT'S TEARING ME UP)
BUT I'M NOT GIVING UP
(YEAH)
LOVE IN THE WORSTEST OF WAYS
THAT'S HOW I WITHER AWAY
STUCK INSIDE THIS FRAGILE FRAME
AND IT'S BURNING ME UP

vines [prod. blvnkface x baz]

sleepatnite w/ casperrr (5head & splashgang)

all i want/hold me tight (smokerose)

hearteater w/ skrwd (splashgang)

This one goes out to all the strict mommas; we love you, but we still won't listen to you.

Mixed and Mastered by Nate Rogers






















Prod. by TheBeatPlug

Mommabtellnme

twitter

distance

Lyrics: 

Only time you call is when you fucked up
Only time i pick ups when im fucked up
If i had a choice 
I would undo
If i send the addy will you come thru

Only time u call is when you fucked up
Only time i pick ups when im fucked up
Uber to me now have a fun time
& ill fuck you til the sunrise

Body so nice ima paint you
Lay down only move when i say to 
Model for me ima turn you to a angel
Feel like 
Yung picasso
Leme frame you

O thats my favorite view
Not the only one but youre my favorite muse
O im not savin you
Just come here & do what you came to do

Only time you call is when you fucked up
Only time i pick ups when im fucked up
If i had a choice 
I would undo
If i send the addy will you come thru

Only time you call is when you fucked up
Only time i pick ups when im fucked up
Uber to me now have a fun time
& ill fuck you til the sunrise

Croosh

Only Time (Prod. Zaytrackz & Croosh)

In Touch ft. DYSN

mastered by: @forest_bae

co-prod by: @mattburtonmusic

we turnt the airbnb to the trap house...

Around (Prod. Croosh & Matt Burton)

produced by: @malithmusic

lyrics:

and ill stand right by ur side, meet u at 9,
behind ur hair u hide, and thats a bad sign,
i wanna make it to July, hope we make it to July 

everytime she's around, yeah I fuckin flatline, 
pretty sure nobody should be that nice,
in my arms you cried, i promised you a better life

get out
im done
say goodbye to your mum
they all told me
you're the one
I guess everyone was wrong
ppl keep on dragging
my name in the mud
u cant catch me lacking,
I put that on my blood,
I FEEL THE scene is cracking,
and it don't feel too good, 
about the boys in black, yeah
you're fake not misunderstood 

and ill stand right by ur side, meet u at 9,
behind ur hair u hide, and thats a bad sign,
i wanna make it to July, i hope we make it to July 

everytime she's around, yeah I fuckin flatline, 
pretty sure nobody should be that nice,
in my arms you cried, i promised you a better life

meet at night
bedroom eyes
thats a sign
did u lie
I fell on
to the knife
arms u cry
better life

july (malith)

produced by: malith
everything else by: me 

lyrics:

one touch, ill never be the same
moving way too fast yeah we need to pump the brakes
one love, thats all that it takes,
everytime we fight you always put me in my place 

poison, my little rattlesnake
I dont wanna risk but she's raisin all the stakes
she's gonna be the death of me yea
she's gonna be the death of me

now when u textin my phone I jus break it 
even when ur alone yea u won't face it 
I hit my friends up 2 gram blunt ill face it
shoutout my dogs on them roads they dont fake it
hoppin out the whip
baby das me! 
I be rocking all black w/ a white tee
yeah I dont give a fuck if you dont like me 
pussy u an old boy, u a spike lee

n I been feeling down for the last few days
and I kinda like this mask shit I can hide my face 
think my hearts about to cave in I cant take this weight
and the smoking kills me baby let me rest in peace

(sendflowrs, jmtly, decks & cherryrizla)
I been feeling down for the last few days
and I kinda like this mask shit I can hide my face 
think my hearts about to cave in I cant take this weight
and the smoking kills me baby let me rest in peace

one touch, ill never be the same
moving way too fast yeah we need to pump the brakes
one love, thats all that it takes,
everytime we fight you always put me in my place 

poison, my little rattlesnake
I dont wanna risk but she's raisin all the stakes
she's gonna be the death of me yea
she's gonna be the death of me

smokingkills (prod. malith)

and how sad must i be 
to fall for you
just lay me down lightly
not far from you
you don’t even like me
but i’ll call for you
i smile when you bite me
i’m so confused 
just pass me the knife please
i’ll cut you
you did this to spite me
you’re cruel

my soul lives while my body dies (wisssery)

my heart beats so fast when u text me,
when i’m on the road, need a pick me up
i don’t pop pills, that shit works against me,
i just smoke a couple blunts, that’ll lift me up
in my dreams yeah baby you’re still with me
in reality you never hit me up
i hate your eyes and the way that they effect me,
heart black, never breaks, she’s obsidian 

it’s the last time that i’m gonna say it,
laying in the rain face down in the pavement,
that’s our song and i love it when you play it
got me on my knees, eyes closed i be praying 

do you want me baby?
luv it when u say it!
push me to the side,
outside and it’s raining

i know u love it baby
u know that i hate it
got me on my knees, eyes closed i be praying

where’s your friends at?
where you headin?
she only wanna know me yea cus i’m trendsetting
scene all fulla echoes pussy boy ur not kevin
call me whitney winn .44 i put lead in 
x2 

my heart beats so fast when u text me,
when i’m on the road, need a pick me up
i don’t pop pills, that shit works against me,
i just smoke a couple blunts, that’ll lift me up
in my dreams yeah baby you’re still with me
in reality you never hit me up
i hate your eyes and the way that they effect me,
heart black, never breaks, she’s obsidian

polaroid w/ sendflowrs (afterlife)

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