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summr (IOF)

(casperrr)
i'm drowning 
and i keep pushing myself down
crying
i feel like shit i think i'm drownin
in my own fears 
i think im drowning in my own tears

(gloomybaby)
i’m drowning in tears
i’m scared of what i fear 
this isn’t even 
real just past me another drink so i don’t feel 
this is not what i planned 
i don’t wanna hurt so bad this not what
i planned 
i dont wanna hurt so bad 
nothing you ever said 
could be as bad 
as what i call my self 
maybe i should get some help but i just don’t think that would help

(casperrr)
i'm drowning 
and i keep pushing myself down
crying
i feel like shit i think i'm drownin
in my own fears 
i think im drowning in my own tears

drowning w/gloomybaby (dead spyro)

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(verse) 
i thought you cared about my feelings
every night i’ve been screaming
questioning what’s life’s meaning 
what i’ve been believing 
holding on to every little thing that ever mattered
you know that my hearts been shattered
sayin that the medicine will always make me better
but every single day i always get sadder
when will i be okay
when every day feels like the fucking same
i’m holding on to all these memories 
but still i question why things won’t change

(bridge)
everyday feels like the same thing 
and i’m fucking don’t with it (i’ve had enough)
when will i 
be set free
from this life

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

blood doesn't run thicker than water (discent)

decomposing (switch)

@uvshy is fucking awesome i love him
(casperrr)
they're talking way too much
they didn't like what i've become
they think i don't care at all
they wonder what i did wrong

(shy+ casperrr)
and she asked me why should i believe that
if i know you did nothing wrong
and i told her what if i deceived her
she keeps telling me it's not your fault

and she asked me why should i believe that
if i know you did nothing wrong
and i told her what if i deceived her
she keeps telling me it's not your fault

(shy)
they're talking way too much
they didn't like what i've become
they think i don't care at all
they wonder why i do-

(casperrr)
and she asked me why should i believe that
if i know you did nothing wrong
and i told her what if i deceived her
she keeps telling me it's not your fault

and she asked me why should i believe that
if i know you did nothing wrong
and i told her what if i deceived her
she keeps telling me it's not your fault

deceived pt2 w/ shy (02ashes + reesoo)

EPITOME:

i-i-i-i-i try to forget the past 
but it just keep bringing me back
n-n-n-no we didn’t  know how this would last
is it funny to you to see my life shatter like glass
t-t-t-the world around me left me broken and scarred
don’t be surprised when i’m dead in the dark
these lonely feelings that i can’t shake

oh god
when will i break

(epitome & casperrr)

all of these feelings 
what is the meaning
i struggle every day to keep on living and breathing 
at this point i’ll be dead hanging from the ceiling 

i’ve been so alone
got no where to go
not even a home
walking down this lonely road
no hands to hold
i’m really on my own
it haunts me to know 
that i can’t let 

c-c-cant let
GO
of the past

it haunts me to know 
it haunts me to know

CASPERRR:

u keep haunting me in my sleep
n u keep haunting in my dream
i thought u were mine to keep 
but nothings really what it seems 
everything is black and white 
so much shit that i can fix
the only coloured thing is lean

dirty sprite makes me feel fine
all this buzz man am so high
did i lose weight i feel light
do you still remember thst night

it haunts me to know w/ casperrr (cl6udy x yunny goldz)

Wish I could  (prod hieloways)

i'm a casualty of life...
prod. @gonetoofar x @memoryroseishere
cover photo taken my by girlfriend :)
hope u all enjoy <3

lyrics:
oh how i dream of the west coast
or maybe somewhere thats not here
i’ve been all cooped up inside
need a place to reside
where the water can run clear

i hate to wait for my chances
but i’m a casualty of life
my brain cannot wait
for the day i can say
everything’s gonna be fine

don’t want to be here tomorrow
but in the sense i don’t exist
i’m sick of basic routine
need a change in my scene
i don’t know how to fix this

i think i'm tumbling backward
i need a hand to life me up
or maybe air i can breathe
maybe eyes that could see
why the water has dried up

freshwater [toofargone x memoryrose]

spotify!

mix & mastr @fleshgolem

ft @lxstboymusic 🐐

lyrics

[mæsk]
i felt planets hit and all took was a single touch
it was a smoothe sail out to nowhere so ima a bit out of touch
i hit the main land swear it wasn’t this lush
but now i seek more just a temporary rush

scattered throughout the stratosphere 
holding down the atmosphere 
let ur guard down, drop my wings and let’s get the hell outta here

avoid the snakes when they appear
a fallen angel anaware
surrounding take its toll
but this endless ether baby

how much more
more can u endure
it’s gone get hot, just don’t get torched

there’s gon be changing course
and err pushing through a force field 
my voice is hoarse 
but we can make it out no matter the power that storm yields

just follow my lead 
what is life without a dream
extrinsic value to me has never meant a thing 
i’m finding lightning from within
but there’s more behind my skin
ur over more than half of me
am i fighting just to win?
(this is endless ether baby)

[lxst boy]

(this is real life, open your eyes)
I made a pact with the devil
he told me im destined for damage
I gotta go, running away 
packing my stuff in a panic
my life aint worth the air that I breathe
but im finding a way to manage
I guess ill keep quite 

I aint got philosophise im too afraid to talk about
maybe its not 

the real man in charge is in the sky and hes just looking down
I am not worthy of the life that ive been living now

but lately ive been tired of fighting entities who live around

my brain my rules thats something they better figure out

the sun it scorched my eyes

I keep records of pain thats what this is
yeah and day 14 I really hate the wilderness
but I gotta push through coz survivals worth the risk
I guess writing all these poems aint gonna fix my loneliness

I guess its over now
we can settle down

endless ether ft lxst boy (fantompower)

unfinished
oct 22
scrap
night

lyrics:
remember when u said that it was the little things
that were differing
like the potholes we danced in, my street filled with rain, like a symphony
is that what you mean?
fallen branches littered every chance of us
i might cancel on you
the night we split is ringing in my head, im done
i can’t see this through

watch the last
two years of my life
slip away like a bad dream
u never quite had me at all
im just lookin onward
it pains me to think about
you while you sleep in his arms
remember the night
we sat under stars
soaked it all in
while we’re fallin apart
i hope this is all just a bad dream
i’d be happy

summr (IOF)

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