WHY I HAD TO LEARN

why i had to learn to be a man
why i had to learn to be a man

it's understood, there's a right and a wrong way
if that was taught at school taught I missed that day
all the other boys seemed to catch on fast
I stood watching as they ran past

dad worked long hours and he'd often come home late
mom would talk to him as he ate
slipped off his shoes and found his favorite chair
we watched tv while he was sleeping there

life's not a game but all the same, there's rules
a life to build but which are the right tools?

Cour D-'mours

Why I Had To Learn

My new album "Dreams of the Byzantines" is streaming June 13th, 2025. Please check out my new website darrencsullivan.com for videos and albums to purchase.

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it's easy to be "unique"
one just refrains from making the effort to immitate someone*

*(me, this year)

Blessed be the atheists. 

Any feedback is very welcome. I aim to improve!

Each to their own. 

This dramatisation is inspired by true events. However, certain scenes, characters, names, businesses, incidents, locations, and events have been fictionalised for dramatic purposes


That’s all for now.

With a lot of patience, consistency, and effort, something mediocre will be created and put up here.
Have you ever been to the Black Lodge? (0,0)

Ourcapsoul

Deutscher Singer-Songwriter über fünfzig Jahre alt. Seit fast vierzig Jahren schreibe und singe ich Lieder. Mein Hauptinstrument ist die akustische Gitarre, aber ich mag auch Perkussionsinstrumente (Cajon, Maracas, Gurio). Ich liebe es, melancholische und poetische Balladen zu komponieren. Aber manchmal schreibe ich auch (schwarze) humorvolle Songs, Jazzstyle und -Rocksongs. Meine Hauptsprache ist Deutsch. Aber in Zukunft will ich mehr Songs auf Englisch und vereinzelt auch Französisch schreiben.
In meinen Kompositionen bin ich inspiriert von Leonard Cohen, John Lennon, Jacques Brel, Van Morrison und Bob Dylan. Auf meinen Platten spiele und singe ich alles alleine. Meine Vision für die Zukunft ist es, Musiker aus verschiedenen Kulturen zu finden, die gerne ihre Tracks mit mir teilen wollen.
Mein persönliches Mantra ist ein Satz, der von Paul Mccartney auf dem Beatles-Album "Abbey Road auf dem Track "In the end" vor fast Fünfzig Jahren geschrieben wurde:

Die Liebe, die Du bekommst ist gleich der Liebe, die Du gibst.

German singer-songwriter over fifty years old. For almost forty years I have been writing and singing songs. My main instrument is the acoustic guitar, but I also like percussion instruments (Cajon, Maracas, Gurio). I love composing melancholic and poetic ballads. But sometimes I also write (black) humorous songs, jazz style and rock songs. My main language is German. But in the future I want to write more songs in English and occasionally also in French.
In my compositions I am inspired by Leonard Cohen, John Lennon, Jacques Brel, Van Morrison and Bob Dylan. On my records I play and sing all by myself. My vision for the future is to find musicians from different cultures who would like to share their tracks with me.
My personal mantra is a sentence written by Paul Mccartney on the Beatles album "Abbey Road on the track "In the end" almost fifty years ago:

The love you take is equal to the love you make.

Composer of Quirky Lyrics and Squiggly Melodies.
Author of "The BumbleBeatle Battle" Novel.

And a Part of this Grand Orchestra.
The One And OliBoli.

NOTICE: I DO NOT PAY FOR PROMOTION. EVER.

SPOTLIGHT: Sexagenarian Volume VI is now complete after the addition of its twelfth tarck, "where once...". Check out the other five (5!) volumes of Sexagenarian as well. 

BIO: I started writing songs in high school (1969-1973!) and I've pretty much never stopped. These are mostly solo recording projects (my brother, Fog City Fogey, contributes sometimes).  I don't do much self-promotion, not a fan of Repost Exchange etc, so all of you who find this page and like a song or two - you are truly appreciated!

Finest sleepy garage jazz on the market.
Only original tunes.

From the live houses of the Jing to busking in tunnels (Granted, the 33.3% donation rate was based on the fact that he had removed his stifling white collar shirt and was dancing bare chested) in Singapore, Psychedelic Revolution (aka Psyche Rev) is a one man project that likes most things such as alt r&b and alt rock. Made it as a semi finalist in 'Song of the Year' competition in 2022 with his song 'Cassius.' Finalist in 2023 with 'We'll Go Down.' Finalist in 2024 with 'Sigh' and also taking semi finalist positions with 'Heartbeats & Inner Turmoil' and 'You Had Me'. Finalist in 2025 with 'Cold Cold Storm' and semi finalist with 'So Typical.' Tastes like Kung Pao Chicken. Looks like a cross between Brag Pitt and Heath Leather. Smells like team spirit. Feels like baby powder. Oh the music. Yeah, it sounds good. 


Don't respond to DM's on here so if you would like to get touched pls contact  via some other avenue. He does have a sun fetish though.

Daily Musing:

Nov: Funk
Dec: a cover. Demo version. But I will do a full length cover for once.
 I've been thinking that I want to do a 'How to Train Your Dragon' theme. I've really only seen the third one and the live action version (the recent) but they moved me. Multiple times. I was with my friends and I took off my 3D glasses. Started wiping my eyes. Look to the right and everyone else is just fine.
Which reminds me of when I was in the band in uni and my Indian friend/guitarist started teasing me about crying in Titanic. 
"I was 6! Motherfucker you cried in Lagaan!"
Then he started chasing me around. Cos' that's what guys do when they like each other. 
 Which I guess also says something about how the filmmakers handled No Time to Die. 
So maybe like medieval rnb. Worked for Seal.
The only low for this year has been working with the label. They are called Raw Doggy Records. I contacted them saying I know you guys do electronic but I don't. They did like my music. Were gonna release stuff. Then they heard the mix for 'Heartbeats' and wanted me to remix some songs. I said, "that costs money." Then, I changed my mind and still got that mixer to mix the old songs. 3 of em' and then the label said, "to be honest, we prefer the older mixes." They were taking 2 weeks to reply to my emails aaand not so much as a "sorry we made you pay all that money for...nothing." So I said, "to be honest, I prefer the new mixes" which is a polite way of saying "go fuck yourself." And, that was that. They seemed to have gotten the msg. If you check out the artists on their roster all I can say is, "it's not my cuppa tea" I prefer electronic music like Daft Punk/Kavinsky/Infected Mushroom etc. The good news is that I wasn't particularly down about it.
Regarding Bharat, he's really the first person who believed in me as a singer so I owe him that much (or quite a lot). It meant and still means a lot to me because i consider him the best guitarist I've heard. I've heard Fripp, Slash, Petrucci, Laiho, and attended a Hendrix tribute with Eric Johnson, Satriani, Vai etc. He only practised 4 hours a day after school by ear. I could do that for the rest of my life and get to 1/5 as good as him.  It began in Florence and there was this kid from Jersey called Alex who was a somewhat decent singer and a good pianist. He was better than me at the time at singing.  I give Bharat an A- as a band leader cos' he was very patient with Rauf, our friend and bassist who barely practised. With me, he was encouraging. So, I think they thought they could fit Alex and me in the band together. I had no problem with that. Now Alex had an interesting take on songwriting which was to bring pop into whatever genre. So if it was rock he liked Spin Doctors. Now, don't get me wrong, I like 'MMMbop' by Hanson every now and then but in a band, playing that type of stuff? No. Bharat and I were on the same page. He liked his metal, hard rock. So, Alex would sing whenever I sung. Or make noises cos' he was the better singer. Zero band etiquette but...I can see where he's coming from. Bharat did nothing about that which is where the A- comes in. So, I got fed up with Alex acting like a child and walked out of rehearsal. My goal was to find the nearest American for inspiration. This was when I was in NY. I ran into a marine near a bar after 30 secs. I said, "Look we're in a band and we wanna play hard rock but there's this kid that keeps singing whenever I sing..."
*inspirational moment right here*
"ah fuck it. what am I saying? I'm gonna go back in there and kick his ass...musically."
"Sounds good man."
"Thanks for serving the country!"
So that was what happened and I walked in there danced and sung. Alex got all red in the face. And, that was the last time we had band practise together. I actually wasn't that confident back then and it was the first time singing for a band. Now, I would say to Bharat,
"hey, can you tell your friend to stfu when I'm singing?"

As far as my middle school 'friends' go, well I'm really a huge fan of that guy one who went through his ex's phone, cried on a date, and then hacked her when she broke up with him. 
I'm also really a huge fan of the guy who kicked his ex.
I'm also a huge fan of the guy who got his head shoved down the toilet and claimed 'PTSD.' 
Soldiers who've served in Iraq and Afghanistan: Really? Would he like to go on tour with us?
I think he'd die of super PTSD before the plane takes flight so I can answer for him.
I heard some people wanted to donate some money and pay for my monthly mixing. And, I was very happy about it. I recently came into some money like how Starlight got insurance. The first thing that came into my mind was how I didn't have to take shit from my bosses anymore. You know, they say "不是说人是说事" (I'm critisizing what you did. Not you as a person) And, it's these same people that proceed to critisize you as a person after that. So, I no longer have to take that shit and I couldn't be happier. So, it's an A+ of a year. I'm still temping every Tuesday. Thankfully, the new school seems to be accomodating. What happened at the last school was...an obvious case of "management is restructuring"
The song...if you like it it's for you. I don't want to put pressure on anyone by saying it's for anyone.

Luv to anyone reading this. Basically I produce all of my own shit and sing aswell. The music speaks for itself. I try and be nothing but honest through my lyrics so to understand me better it looks like you’re gonna have to hit play ;)

@_alex._.hugo on ig

Why I Had To Learn

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