Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

Lyrics:
and i still feel my hands on your thighs
and i still see the look in your eyes
and i remember when you wanted to die
well i did too but we learned to get by

stay close cause i miss you on your smoke break
they know that im crushin but i wont say
lay low holding secrets make my throat ache
i hope you know just how i feel because i wont break

i cant connect, open my mouth, i try to speak but no words come out
i cant connect
thoughts in my head, wish i were dead, im zoning out into the ceiling again
i cant connect

i dont blame you if you ended up not liking me
im a bore and im a menace to society
every day lost in my mind im tryna find some peace
im a ghost and im a shell of what i used to be

always keep you close you know i just cant connect
girl i kept you by my side i had my lips on your neck
if i could only use my words to tell you that im a wreck
and that i need you next to me so i feel safe in this bed

i got some real dark secrets that im hiding away
im tryna keep mental sanity and lock it in place
you know im tryna do my best to make it feel like im sane
i got a fucking parasite i keep it deep in my brain

and you know i might explode, like a land mine
and im sorry if i panic at a bad time
i know you prolly wanna fuck but i flatlined
im just sorry im a wreck im tryna get by

Can't Connect

cant connect

feat. https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7
prod. https://soundcloud.com/user-597676997

Lyrics:

I've been waiting for the day when I fall apart
I've been steady grinding in room no I don't care
working in the silence, I can't help but feel the stare
looking right upon me
smoking palm trees in the air
I don't know where to go, where you at babe?
I can't get their quick I'm stuck up in the traffic
up a couple days making tracks now
turn up the attack think I'm gonna snap wow
thats shit hit, jump in crowds getting lit
like down another bottle of the gold bacardi quick
pop out to your party but I'm sad asf
I can't find no fucking end I never get enough
~
I cannot fight that
feeling so I sit and zone by myself again
In love with creation
Taking my mind to a different location
Fill up the spots in my chest that lay vacant
It's like a drug cannot refuse to take it
Exhale all the vapor I've been holding in ...
Use it as my Medicine ...
Frequency Irrelevant
Vision going black, back to the past now
Got all of our pictures on the wall
Slowly watch us fall
this winter the end of it all
~
Unknxwn
I've been waiting everyday but you don't call
I don't think I can be saved from the snowfall
I don't feel no love inside of my heart no more
If this only the start than I dont' want to know more
All I really wanna know it where you at babe?
Got my heart trapped stuck inside a damn cage
I don't like that baby don't you damn play
This getting old, Don't hit me up anymore
bullshit again I can't take this
Fucking with me and I hate it
Can't give a fuck no not no more
In the cold I've been stuck I done got so cold
Lost all my trust I can't cope no more
Mind filled with love that I can't show
Anyone what I feel inside
Anyone get what that feel like?
I can't let no one get inside
Of what I like to call my mind
I've been waiting for the day when I fall apart
I've been steady grinding in room no I don't care
working in the silence, I can't help but feel the stare
looking right upon me
smoking palm trees in the air
I don't know where to go, where you at babe?
I can't get their quick I'm stuck up in the traffic
up a couple days making tracks now
turn up the attack think I'm gonna snap wow
thats shit hit, jump in crowds getting lit
like down another bottle of the gold bacardi quick
pop out to your party but I'm sad asf
I can't find no fucking end I never get enough

where you at babe? w/ unknxwn [prod capsctrl]

prod. @sorrow_bringer 🖤


~~lyrics~~
fuck where’s the trust
leading lust, between us 
heating up, on the cusp 
self-destruct, blowing up
into dust
i wanna fall
(don't wanna fall)
into my own hellish spiral

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blow my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

co-depend, don’t forget
that i’m fucked up in the head
leavings cuts cause i’m not enough
and you won’t believe a single thing i said

i got too much on my plate
so i just puke it up & regurgitate
i do not fuck with the fate
pushing away the people
that would try to relate

trust my spirit
(where is the trust?!)
do you hear it now?
(i’m not enough)
it hurts falling down
just let me drown

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blew my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

i know what i’m doing, i know what i did
what i would give to go back to a kid
selfishness underneath my skin
to begin again, i would have to end
i’m a letdown, fight it off
hellbound, so fucking lost
count down, until i’m gone
ultimately i’m not what you want

(3x)
not what you want
(yeah…)

hellish spirals [prod. sorrowbringer]

Poison Bird w/ American Dead Cross (prod. splashgvng)

i like this one, my girlfriends kina in it too, enjoy

<3 much love too sorrow bringer as well

lyrics
---------------------
so.
i just wanna let you know
drinking in time for the show
its better to get ur heart broke
no one could know, no one could care

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldnt imgaine, it feels like

i swear my heart is a mess
you came to my life and you made it amends
im focusing energy to my own time
i cant let you go, cause i swear it feels right

im not as pretty as people would say
its all in the edits, i cover my face
im fake and im nauseous i guess
yeah im broken hearted, im ugly, so goo

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldn't imagine, it feels like

i just wanna let you know
my feelings are outta control
takin a drive just to past time
pass my line, and go

makin sure you get home
this world is a mess and i know
were all gonna die, it just takes time
i couldn't imagine, it feels like

I Swear It Feels Right (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

<3

Lyrics:

Lost in the abyss and I can’t find a way out
Voices talking in my head getting to loud
I can’t find any shelter from these rain clouds 
your gonna find my lifeless body on the ground
Lost in the abyss and I can’t find a way out
Voices talking in my head getting to loud
I can’t find any shelter from these rain clouds 
your gonna find my lifeless body on the ground

All these fucking lies, I don’t wanna hear it anymore
I just wanna die, I don’t wanna be here anymore 
And I can’t ignore 
Life’s a fucking chore
Wish I wasn’t born 
I don’t wanna 
I don’t wanna feel at all
I just wanna 
I just wanna numb it all
I’ve been trying fucking hard to drink it all away 
All it does is make me more depressed I’m still the same 

Lost in the abyss and I can’t find a way out
Voices talking in my head getting to loud
I can’t find any shelter from these rain clouds 
your gonna find my lifeless body on the ground
Lost in the abyss and I can’t find a way out
Voices talking in my head getting to loud
I can’t find any shelter from these rain clouds 
your gonna find my lifeless body on the ground

abyss (sketchmyname)

sampled @marlasdreams for guitar :)

Lyrics:

take a minute start asking yourself
what are your worths if u don't have ur wealth
who are your friends i would call it to question
what are the kinds of stories they tell
i didn't know that we needed permission
i guess i've been used to plain fighting it out
i have met plenty of people in life
and enough had a hiss so i keep to myself

in due time you'll have seen it all
what happens then
personally i would hate every breath
if i spent my whole life locked inside of a shell

-

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

I REFUSE TO EVER FEAR YOU
THROUGH THAT TRIAL I FOUND MY VALUES
IF I WERE MORE HONEST I'D BE SEE THROUGH
SPOUT MORE LIE TILL YOU BELIEVE YOU

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute

depersonalization

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace ft. popularreject (hero)

LYRICS:
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading  
Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 

Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying  

Yeah please just hear me out 
I wanna know the things that you think about 
Please please just hear me out 
Run away then back to me I'll be around  
And if wanna walk under city lights 
So close with your hand just next to mine 
Hit me up I know backways even to your heart 
Wanna start again that way
Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading

abyss (sketchmyname)

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