Miami’s washed me up 
I had lived there 27 years 
I thought I built this up 
but I always lived my life with fear 
I’m always so worked up 
I have a feeling that the end is near 
I’m not okay, my dear 
put the car In gear and 

Drive 
so that I can feel alive 
I’m bleeding through my paper skin 
I’m shattered and I’m wearing thin 

we hit each other up from time to time 
tell each other I love you, yeah, it’s fine 
you’re with him now
so fuck me up, give me drugs and give me medicine to sleep tonight 

this pressure’s building up all of this tension 
got my heart bleeding, needing intervention 
in my mentions only looking for attention 
break my chains, set me free, let me ride and put my car in gear and 

We hit each other up from time to time 
fuck I think I need to go for another drive 
I was hoping that this was the last time 
but you’re still keeping me in mind 

Ocala called again
so I moved up thinking that I would change
I left you far behind always regret that now I drown in shame 
you gave up on me 
I’m begging on on my knees 
please i just need some peace
I’m trying to believe 
that you would come back to me 
baby just tell me that you’ll never leave 
take a couple pills to relax just so I can breathe 
I’m never finding answers in these drugs so I write these songs that I sing 

you left me now 
god I feel so left out 
I just hope you stick around 
so that I can go and find out 
If he gives you everything 
I couldn’t imma stress out
cause I failed at loving you 

and now I’m just a burnout 

yeah I’m just a burnout 
a motherfuckin let down 
I’m trynna shut down 
baby shut my lights out 
Bring the knife out 
yea I’m gone now 
when I think of suicide I always put the car in gear and

Drive (Prod. Jolst X Irby)

bc i love u (prod splashgvng)
Key Ab Major
Bpm 90

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🎸 Guitar by Splashgvng

bc i love u

If ur suicidal please reach out and talk to someone
me if you need to

Lyrics:

why
you offer so much to our lives
they’ll all wish they could take your place
or remember your face
or feel guilty cause i
tried
man
that’s pretty selfish of you
to waste your whole life when there’s others still counting their days and still clinging to

i would drop anything everything
to see you still breathing
i learned some lessons from life
that gave it real meaning
so please don't you end it
tleast can we talk if you end it
i'm really scared to forget
our history gone in an instant oh

our history gone in an instant
and i'm really scared to forget you
our history gone in an instant
our history gone in an instant
i'm really scared to forget you

ally

lyrics

———————————

I miss how 
Everything was
I wish i 
Was going back home
I hate being alone 
I miss how 
Everything was
I wish i 
Was going back home
I hate being alone 

Can’t stand the way that I feel 
I Hate it so much that I’d rather not deal 
Get rid of the pain but is that even real 
I don’t fucking know I just keep it concealed 
I remember where this all started
Now you and I have departed 
You left me broken hearted
My home is where your heart is

I miss how 
Everything was
I wish i 
Was going back home
I hate being alone 
I miss how 
Everything was
I wish i 
Was going back home
I hate being alone

my home is where ur heart is (johnnyfriend)

@yoimn3ver
@northshoremusic
@caspywaspy
@emptychest
@kuriositylol

(teddyboi)

demons after me I'm in a crisis all white gucci suit, yeah

I've been feeling righteous can't breathe, feel like I got bronchitis

I ruin everything that i touch like my name is Midas

yeah spread, spread like a virus, yeah demons chasing after me it's a crisis,

yeah, all white gucci suit,

I feel righteous tired of fist fightin demons, think I'm bout to shoot them

wanna know the truth?

baby I'm a little ruthless ill stab you in the back make you feel like Julius

(TNS)

Holding onto everything

Words in my head

Can’t catch a break

Slow it down and speed it up

Places to go don’t give a damn

Worry about myself and don’t give in

bullet in my brain just to feel the pain

Worry about the things I can’t control

I’m gonna fill my body with bullet holes tonight

(casperrr)

3am throwing up all the shit I ate

now I'm on the bathroom and my body ache

I think I smoked more than I could take

I don't fuck with anyone, everybody's fake

trade me, replace me I know u fucking hate me

the way u try to make me feel the way u try to break me

go away and leave u make me feel sick with all the shit u say with all the things u do

(emptychest)

im fine till i cope

try to breath air but i choke

pretty purple lights glow inside my room tonight im always hot like cryoscope

wrote a note in envelope sent it out to the seas

on a boat and hope it makes it there yet

i live there nothing could ever be fine but i wont ever care im wishing for the best

and im staring life right in the eyes saying, "test me." saying "test me."

(kuriosity)

should’ve known that she was a hoe

said i blow me a k

gotta get me some more gotta louie bet on the floor said i walk in the room

and her belt on the floor im too busy stackin my dough

i cant worry bout u i cant stress onna hoe

i feel like ive been here before feel like i’ve been here before

and ive been searchin through my own past tryna figure out who the fuck i am

and i’ve been getting in my own bag

i cant focus on u gotta focus on bands

good deeds cant cover up my bads

i did what i did i am who i am

the shit u said hurt so bad but u wouldn’t get it u wont understand

Crisis w/ casperrr, teddyboi, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

Lyrics: 

Don’t see the point in
Anything anymore
I feel so torn
I despise this vessel that I’m in
And I hate myself wish I didn’t ever live
Tryna find a reason to exist 
But I can’t find shit cause life’s so fuckin dim 
I despise this vessel that I’m in
And I hate myself wish I didn’t ever live
Tryna find a reason to exist 
But I can’t find shit cause life’s so fuckin dim 
I’m so exhausted 
Demons feeding my mentality and I can’t block it
They said the only way out is to off it
can’t wait to lay down in my coffin 
The colors have faded 
I can’t fake it
I’ve been trying hard to embrace it
Tired of lying 
I fucking hate it
Can’t keep trying
My life I’ll take it
I despise this vessel that I’m in
And I hate myself wish I didn’t ever live
Tryna find a reason to exist 
But I can’t find shit cause life’s so fuckin dim 
I despise this vessel that I’m in
And I hate myself wish I didn’t ever live
Tryna find a reason to exist 
I don’t see the point anymore
Anymore

dont see the point anymore (rx808)

Lyrics:

I’m not alright 
I really wanna die
Say goodbye
Taking my own life
Getting high
Throat is getting dry
Outta time 
My demons won’t comply
And I don’t know 
If I’ll get closure
I’d only hope 
I’m fine when it’s over 
Nobody knows
How I feel when I’m sober 
Bout to explode
Cause I’m losing my composure
I tried to get help but no one knows
They don’t see the hints that I try to show
Distract myself again, don’t know how to cope
I’ve been losing friends, I feel like a ghost
I can feel the hate taking over
Get tf out the way thought I told her
I’m aBout to grab the gun from holster
PTSD go insane like a soldier
I can’t fucking stand myself I’m a piece of shit I deserve to go to hell
I should really get some help but my fucked up mind doesn’t know who to tell
Every single day I contemplate 
I just wanna take my life away

im not alright (venus)

prod. nevrfall






mix. ztope


lyrics-

swno-
Aye cup full of vodka
I’ma chase it down right
Nah nah yuh 
Aye cup full of vodka 
I’ma chase it down right
Nah nah yuh 
Aye weed in this blunt 
Gonna roll it up tight
Yuh frost on my finger
Tips call that frost bite 
Yuh running out of fucks
To give Ima be fine 
Ima die no life line
Aye fuck what I said
Bitch I’ve been up for
2 night drinking all night
Just to sorta feel right
Aye cup full of vodka
I’ma chase it down right
Nah nah yuh 
Aye cup full of vodka
I’ma chase it down right
Nah nah yuh 

Aye fuck what I said
Bitch I’ve been up For
2 nights drinking all night 
Just to sorta feel right
Aye fuck what I said 
Bitch I’ve been up for 
2 nights smoking all night
Just to sorta feel right


2nd verse-
swno-

Aye Putting my thoughts in my notes
Yuh Writing this shit help me cope 
Yuh making this shit while I float 
High for two nights yeah I know 
Aye I do not care what you wrote
Like Why do you still hit my phone


 shizukesa. -

i know that i should try
but i spend every second second guessing if i'm alive
that's why, i been gripping at the knife
cause at least i know myself, but myself wanting me to die
and i don't really wanna cry yet
fucking dissect
everything in my head
can i die yet?
tell me i'm a reject
let me bleed out
fell inside the trap now
just a rebound

2nites w/ shizukesa. (nevrfall)

2nites w/shizukesa.   (nevrfall)

Play Dis Tuune

Make My Way (Feat. Swazzzy)

Thanks to Skele & Cxld Blxxd for helping me out, Links Below!

Skele:
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://twitter.com/lilskele
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCJJSOhs3_5gxJVtdwmjwPIg
https://www.instagram.com/ripskele/?hl=en
https://open.spotify.com/artist/423Khduf8laJb7K4Otg6M2?si=o6Ug-jCoQgKnV21R9dWH7w

Cxld Blxxd:
https://soundcloud.com/cxldblxxd
https://traktrain.com/cxld_blxxd#501028
https://twitter.com/CXLD_BLXXD
https://www.instagram.com/prod.cxldblxxd/

Lyrics:
Shooting stars in the sky,
Time to take flight,
Feels like yesterday,
That i saw you in the moonlight,
Glad that i'm happy now,
Cause without you id be dead by now,

Rotting in the grave,
Don't know what to say,
I wouldn't be here if i wasn't saved,

Sometimes we lose connection,
That's fine,
We just reset our problems,
Like our WiFi,

Everything's turned around,
Cause you helped me out,
How do i thank you,
For putting me on the right route,

Need to hold you tight,
Need you in my life,
Need you by my side,
Need you to say everything's alright,

Shooting stars in the sky,
Time to take flight,
Feels like yesterday,
That i saw you in the moonlight,
Glad that i'm happy now,
Cause without you id be dead by now, (X2)

Skele:
I'm glad that i'm happy now,
Cause without you id be dead by now,
Voices in my head screaming words so loud,
Trapped in my mind i cannot get out,
When I saw you in the moonlight,
I swear to god I fell in love that night,

I never meant to make you cry,
I just wanted you forever to be mine,

I swear to god I fell in love that night,
I never meant to make you cry,
I just wanted you forever to be mine,

my home is where ur heart is (johnnyfriend)

cyzun