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lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

music video:
https://youtu.be/DyWl0tQbD9Q

don’t go
please don't go I need you
you’re a fever dream and I'm sick of you
i can't find a reason you'd wanna be here with me
i adore you
you keep breathing yeah I'm in ecstasy
i won't stop
i’m driving all night just to have this for a second and

i’d ride all the way across the desert for you
y’all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
they don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
you the only one I can't see myself getting over

i’d ride all the way across the desert for you
y’all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
they don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
You the only one I can't see myself getting over

i really wanna be fine
i’m sorry I can't be that all of the time
you understand I'd do anything to make you smile
i don’t even wanna save you from yourself
i just wanna make you someone you like
i was lost and taking it slow I thought i’d do this right
got on i-95 and drove all night
when you're all alone I can't stand it
call me back when you hear this

i’d ride all the way across the desert for you
y’all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
they don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
you the only one I can't see myself getting over

i’d ride all the way across the desert for you
y’all don't know my pain I've tasted fucking poison
they don't even know my name ah they just disappoint me
You the only one I can't see myself getting over

spotify

fever dream (p. tennis player)

sampled @marlasdreams for guitar :)

Lyrics:

take a minute start asking yourself
what are your worths if u don't have ur wealth
who are your friends i would call it to question
what are the kinds of stories they tell
i didn't know that we needed permission
i guess i've been used to plain fighting it out
i have met plenty of people in life
and enough had a hiss so i keep to myself

in due time you'll have seen it all
what happens then
personally i would hate every breath
if i spent my whole life locked inside of a shell

-

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

I REFUSE TO EVER FEAR YOU
THROUGH THAT TRIAL I FOUND MY VALUES
IF I WERE MORE HONEST I'D BE SEE THROUGH
SPOUT MORE LIE TILL YOU BELIEVE YOU

i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you
i refuse to ever fear you
through that trial i found my values
if i were more honest i'd be see through
spout more lie till you believe you

take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute
take a minute

depersonalization

hi<3

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic & https://soundcloud.com/splashgvng , v talented prods 

enjoy:)

lyrics:
my necks sore, holding up
weight, from my mental it still brings me down
i cant ignore it, but i cant make it stop
i just cant find a reason to give a fuck

alright, ok, ive had it
waste a new day, damn thats tragic
alright, ok
(alright, ooo)
alright, ok, im not me
i want to leave my body
and really im so sorry, i dont know what to do

my chest sinks, im used to it
i was on the brink, you picked me up, dont mean shit now.
oh you overthink? well so does everyone
now im on the ropes, feel it slip, falling down

i get this feeling makes my head spin
i cant really explain just how its been
im so sorry for the distance
i try my best for everyone who listens

honestly cant show up, nah
too busy in my head, numb
try my best to show love, so
you know im always here
um, i kno that i care, but to me it feels you dont
really understand me

alright, ok

alright, ok (branwen x splashgvng)

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace ft. popularreject (hero)

ｓｃａｔｔｅｒ　ｍｙ　ａｓｈ　ｔｈｅｎ　ｐｕｔ　ｆｌｏｗｅｒｓ　ｉｎ

keep going
love you guys.
ty all so so much for the support recently
check up on your friends, and in retrospect, more importantly yourself.
thank you so much for listening.
prod @cartermetro x @gavinhadley 🖤

(i barely feel at home right now)
(so i sedate through the drink and hope it all works out)

cauterize with the lime
press on the wound 'till i start feeling fine
why are the genuine so hard to find
but if i was counterfeit,
i would shatter on the ground when i fall
call; anyone but me at all
i'm out my element, don't be afraid though
i feel like porcelain
scatter my ash then put flowers in

i ain't want screen time
they think i ain't worth shit when my light dies
but i'll brush it off and say, "fine, yeah."
just don't get back to me for hi's
'cause that was our last goodbye

(who am i?) (2x)

avoid coming 'cross me
i don't talk often
sugarcoated but without the chocolate
you got the message, so ignore the comments
but my heart is nauseous, that's the problem
i drink and repeat 'cause i love the peak
down with his men-tal, knights, now the king
stuck in this hell, into hell i will sink
if i died, would you grieve?
i'd like to believe
and i can't remember how i felt
the moment had seized me, it's really so evident
all that remains are reminders and remnants
i wish i told you how i felt.

wade through the rain
cherish the moment
difficulties only prove they're golden
full exhaust, eyes sewn wide open
regard me as dust
just a road with no bliss

foaming at the lips
if i'm human, i admit
i hold a heavy distaste for what you have to say
but i'll listen
i'll listen anyways

cauterize with the lime
press on the wound 'till i start feeling fine
why are the genuine so hard to find
but if i was counterfeit,
i would shatter on the ground when i fall
call; anyone but me at all
i'm out my element, don't be afraid though
i feel like porcelain
scatter my ash then put flowers in

porcelain [prod. cxrter x gavin hadley]

As i fade away
I suffocate
I handle the blade and alleviate
The writhing pain
I felt today
When i found out the eternity of my fate

Im dealt these cards
And i cant get far
My stillborn heart
Will not restart

Take it away from me
Before i hurt myself
Im not too well

baby ur all that i need
when i’m stuck inside my shell
this stupid hell

don’t look back
when you walk away
i’m too far gone
I cant be saved

so tell me what’s real is it all in my head?
did u ever mean anything that you said
heart swellin up cuz it’s fillin with dread
don’t wanna fix it i’ll stop it instead

what is the point if i can’t even have this
it was my fault now it’s lost in the past tense 
i’m bleeding out while ur sitting there laughing
at my expense so i’m just getting blasted

i drink too much it’s a really bad habit
life is a test and i don’t wanna pass it
cant show my pain so i’ll sit here and mask it
even when you took my heart and stabbed it

don’t look at me
when i’m weeping from my sins 
im on my knees
will i sink or will i swim

follow still vanishing

suffocate (still vanishing)

by the graves in the dark
*hold my hand*
i cant see, not even spark
on this land, fall apart

i just played you, im not smart
dripping faucets, hear the bark
from the dogs
in the old mans house

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

i just wanted die, good thing you'd never understand
i know i got too close to it, the days were running thin
outt line
really outta time

running through the trees, yeah im running through the breeze
now its set, im crying help!
no one ever talks now
this shi*s like poetry, im just tryna help myself. 

im just tryna walk my way out of this hell
im just tryna make a name to feed myself
the photos never really cut it, its an act im sorry please
dont just cut me off cause im not rich as i seemed
blood all on  my sheets
you name keeps ringing back amongst the graves, i just need to find some peace, oh well

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

grave 2 (prod. AsharpTheOne)

Lyrics:
so what am i left to do, when bridges fall apart
we did not need burn 'em, they were doomed right from the start
and it left a void of blackness deep within my heart
i hope that i see you again when i walk into the dark

and now i got questions, like "when can i end this?"
like "is it a sin to keep wanting to die and not mend it?"
like why im not stable, please if youre able
just give me a bottle sedate me, pay under the table

i just lay in bed all summer like im mortified
stare at the ceiling, if i close em i just see your eyes
these sleepless nights and waking terrors got me mesmerized
im making friends with all my demons for a better time

like im mortified
im so mortified

i see the shore, and the moon, they wont be the same
memories stay and rot deep within my brain
summer scents, a cup of rosé, and a side of pain
blackened ink, plus a needle, and your name

the tick of my watch is all that i hear while i waste away
its like purgatory, repetitive story at the end of day 
i cannot smoke and i cannot sleep all the pain away
i wanna lay flat, stay warm in my casket while i start to fade

i just lay in bed all summer like im mortified
stare at the ceiling, if i close em i just see your eyes
these sleepless nights and waking terrors got me mesmerized
im making friends with all my demons for a better time

but im so mortified
all thats in my mind
whats on the other side
of the fading light

Mortified

my vocals mixed and song mastered by ztope <3
prod scottysplash

lyrics:

Pour another shot yeah
I ain't even feel it yet
Livers gonna rot
It's okay cause I'm feeling dead
I don't wanna talk
So ima leave that bitch on read
I don't give a fuck
Of all of the shit you said
Pour another shot yeah
I ain't even feel it yet
Livers gonna rot
It's okay cause I'm feeling dead
I don't wanna talk
So ima leave that bitch on read
I don't give a fuck
Of all of the shit you said
Yeah the silence pretty violent
Conscience in my head asking why I haven't died yet
Feelings from the past that's what I'm tryna forget
Forever feeling sad I just wanna hit the reset
Hearts gone black like the smoke in my lungs
Yeah I'm really hurt
I don't do this for fun
My demons pretty fast
That I can't even run
Let them take over
Cause I'm tired and done

I been upping doses till my body is numb
It's only half past one and I'm already gone
I just need a fix and I'll come back to life
All these Cali in my woods lift me up like a kite
This cookie gonna ignite with match sticks
No one in they right mind could match this
Everybody else inside this party got a broken heart
Minus me but that's cause I dipped off inside this jaguar
Vroom
Hit the road
Girl lets see where we could go
We could Take it slow
I got places I could be but I stay at home
These open roads will set me free
When I need it most
I been my zone when I work alone
But I prefer you here with me cause it help my soul
If u told me how to be than I would fit the mold
Just know
If u gave an ultimatum I would surely fold
Slow down
I'll give you something to help you calm down
Open my bag and pour the flower out
Roll it up and ingest
Kiss me in the smoke I could smell it on her breath
Pour another shot yeah I ain't even feel it yet
This burn inside me stop the bleed just like a tourniquet
As I sit here on this porch outside my new address
I don't like the damage caused but I love feeling it

Pour another shot yeah
I ain't even feel it yet
Livers gonna rot
It's okay cause I'm feeling dead
I don't wanna talk
So ima leave that bitch on read
I don't give a fuck
Of all of the shit you said
Pour another shot yeah
I ain't even feel it yet
Livers gonna rot
It's okay cause I'm feeling dead
I don't wanna talk
So ima leave that bitch on read

rot w/ sewerperson (scottysplash)

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

rot w/ sewerperson (scottysplash)

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