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2022

i cant do this anymore 2

Vibes XIV

Lyrics

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

I'm so cold, I don't think I feel a thing
I just wanna get a pole, put a bullet in my brain
I know you ain't wanna know about the shit that I can say
When I'm in my room alone, letting out all of this pain

But I gotta let it out, yeah I gotta let it fly
I don't wanna see you pout, I don't wanna see you cry
When you see I'm out of time in the moment that I die
Cause when I was still alive you ain't pull me to to the side

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

alone. | Produced by sketchmyname

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

All the pain that I have, I'ma leave it in the past
Every thought that is bad, I'ma throw it in the trash
I can see what's to come so I can't go back
And I hate that bitch, so I throw her on a track

Used to want her love, now I want cash
All these bitches leave me crushed, I don't want that
I been through that shit enough, so it's fuck that
Heart broke so much, at this point it can't crack

You can say what you want
But I promise that I won't give a damn what it is
I'ma do what you don't
Ego, this not that, I'm a God in the flesh, that's a true fact

If hell's in my head I'll see heaven when I'm dead
Fucking regret all the fucked up shit I said
Played with a demon and now It's in my bed
Don't ever ask why at night I just don't rest

Get the the fuck out my mind
You'll never see all the shit that I hide
Say I'm okay when I'm not really fine
I start my day with a fuck ton of lies

Heaven sent, when I'm around you smell that heaven scent
She say omg when I'm inside, that's heaven sex
And it's once in a lifetime, ain't seen her ever since
I can't make a bitch my bride, it's something I don't get

But what I do, you can't know
If I'm not on other shit, then my wheels don't roll
Might stress, might bend but I will not fold
I confess my sins to the mirror that I hold

Cause I'm the only one that needa know, I never told another soul about the glass that I have broke
I'm a roll, I know I'm chose to talk about what I have wrote
I'll never go back to the place where I had not one ounce of hope

Broke my two horns, made them a halo
They say too far, fuck what they say though
Demon mode inside of an angel
Break my heart, I'll live past the pain hoe

You don't really wanna see me turn back into what I used to be
Being the asshole a hobby to me
I let it go but it's right in my reach

You're not mine, bitch why you trippin'?
You're too late, turned off my feelings
I'm so fake, I don't give two shits
Fuck her face until she toothless

I'm not what you need, girl I warned you, tread lightly
She think I'm a fuckboy, I might be
Do I give a fuck though? Not the least

Stopped caring, started stackin'
It's apparent, I'm not cappin'
"Where'd you go? Like bro what happened?"
I went ghost and I won't tap in

ethereal!

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead

lyrics
(cyzun)
You tell me that you love me but I really don’t see it
I’ve been lying on the floor eyes glued to the ceiling
I really wanna die but you gave me a reason
Heart so fucking cold you must be a heathen
Why you gotta act like this
You fucking up my life n shit
Sparked a blunt n took a hit
I’ve been waiting for the end of it
Feel like Gucci I’m so sick of this
Grab the gun I’m gonna end this quick
Like the ocean my head will split
I’m talkin bout that Moses shit

(autumndropsdead)
let the ocean split, i could make a list
for every time i fucking lied
 it would've made you pissed
i'm sorry about that again
how long ago did it get to your head?
i know you aren't proud
yeah you hate me now
cause i turned out fine
let me lay it out
every night i'd cry
but would never shout
holding on for life
till the truth comes out
i'd take my spine, and tear it out
i can't bare it all
i got too much weight
and it really stings
so i contemplate 
i'll let my body hang
and they just say to let it roll over
they say i'm extraordinary..
and i'll admit it's kinda scary

(cyzun)
You tell me that you love me but I really don’t see it
I’ve been lying on the floor eyes glued to the ceiling
I really wanna die but you gave me a reason
Heart so fucking cold you must be a heathen

heathen w/ autumndropsdead (ahnboi)

silence...

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its the sounds on in my head
(yah yahhh)
is this really how it is
(yah yahhh)
beat my face in, im a mess
(yah yahhh)
the sound of silence is immense
(yah yahhh)

wake, waking up late
u smoke a blunt and im feelin like shit
ur up in the clouds for an hour i guess
while i sit and cry, lay on top of my bed

is it the ocean, where i be
but the water be frozen, -20 degrees
drill me a hole, so i can drive in
BE PART OF DEATH, WITH THE REAPER AGAIN!

its the sounds on in my head
(yah yahhh)
is this really how it is
(yah yahhh)
beat my face in, im a mess
(yah yahhh)
the sound of silence is immense
(yah yahhh)

 i dont do, too much, with my life
i sit right here, learn about this shit, but why
there's no point at all
yet i wright, these songs
spend my money and my time, just to hope it all, works out

its the sounds on in my head
(yah yahhh)
is this really how it is
(yah yahhh)
beat my face in, im a mess
(yah yahhh)
the sound of silence is immense
(yah yahhh)

the sound of silence (prod. bowniebeats)

Way 2 Scared To Tell U (ft. zen online) [prod. betwixt]

hope yall enjoy
shoutout @seejayxo
prod. @splashgang

goner w/ seejayxo (splashgvng)

It’s Your Weakness

prod. @sorrow_bringer

lyrics
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waking up's easy, falling asleep isn't even a fucking option
i'm laying out on the roof
tell god to come get me, i'll pack my bags real quickly
i'll catch that flight, when it's leavin', i'm leavin' too
dreamin' of moments where i ain't have no opponents
all my components assembled outside the booth
you were a phone call away, i guess your number has changed
and you weren't home on that day or something

i've been tryna gain control of my life
open up these blinds so you can dissipate the limelight
only time will tell if i'm unwell inside of my mind
tripped fell into hell and now this television sounds like
we got more to conquer
so get up outta your bed and get your shit outta your locker
we ridin' back to the seventh floor, realigning your chakras
put soul inside your body, we leavin' the past behind us

this is all i wanted from the jump
just a friend that i could talk to bout anything off the cuff
been plottin', no hesitation, the future ain't lookin' rough
i wanted it so i did it, made symphonies outta cuts

we were back at home and it was gettin' hella cold
used to pass out when the sun come up but now we gettin' old
'member summers back in 2015, we was actin' grown
built a bridge to terabithia made outta sticks and stones
had that fire pit though i'll admit, you built that on your own
brought that bedsheet out my room, we made a flag & called it home
hit that bottle with some gasoline to pass between our souls
if we make it all that glitter's fucking gold

rain, rain, go away, you fucked up another day
i was feelin' fine but then you took me to another place
we go back and forth for fourteen minutes in my hideaway
now i'm headin' north just tryna answer who am i today?

i've been tryna stay in line, gotta figure out the truth
i don't like the way i hide, i much rather be with you
full eclipse, skippin' pebbles in the water off the roof
i don't mind, rain or shine cause my skin is waterproof
go inside, hit the wine, coraline on the tube
what do i do when i feel like my life's set on loop?

follow sorrow bringer

waterproof (prod. sorrow bringer)

hope u all enjoy this,, TRACK 2 from my debut album "home away from home" releasing 10th of FEB.

written, mixed, mastered and recorded by me
produced by: @prodgrayskies

LYRICS:
You said "don't you go"
"No, not alone"
But baby, I'm moving on and moving out from you
So I'm going back home
I'm going down that road
'Cause baby, I'm moving on and moving out from you
So please just let me go

There's cracks all on the walls and this fire keeps burning our home
The ceiling starts to fall yeah, this home is no longer a home
The things you say to me are lies I could tell just by your tone
You don't have the guts to face me so you just tell me on the phone
You told me this shit would last forever
(Guess you don't know what forever means)
I don't eat til I'm as light as a feather
I do whatever to fucking please
You cut me up til I can't breathe
I love all the agony
I needa find something that I believe in
'Cause lately I been making friends with my demons
And now she tells me that she's mad at me
Like what the fuck makes you happy?
I'm sorry baby but it's time for me to leave

You said "don't you go"
"No, not ALONE"
But baby, I'm moving on and moving out from you
(FROM YOU)
So I'm going back home
I'm going down that road
'Cause baby, I'm moving on and moving out from you
So please just let me go

have a good day/night,, love each n every1 of u <333+

moving on

prod. moneo

lyrics: 

(You know it just sucks like I’m so lost with what to do with my days now. I feel like I’m wasting time and I’m trying to get out of that feeling but it’s hard but eventually I’ll get there. But as of now I feel like I’m like mentally and physically melting, like melting away.)

I don’t feel at home
I’ve been all alone 
Wtf am I suppose to do 
I’m just stuck here missing you
I don’t feel at home
I’ve been all alone 
Wtf am I suppose to do 
I’m just stuck here missing you
I’ve been trying my best
I’ve been trying to change 
Think about why you left 
Don’t think that I’d be the same
I miss the tone of your voice 
I miss the memories made 
I wish that I could forget 
Make it all fadeaway 
Fadeaway x1000 lol
sorry I’m a fuck up and a mistake
You probably wished never talked to me in the first place 
I don’t feel at home
I’ve been all alone 
Wtf am I suppose to do 
I’m just stuck here missing you
I don’t feel at home
I’ve been all alone 
Wtf am I suppose to do 
I’m just stuck here missing you

wtf am i suppose to do (moneo)

FURLED

The Boy Who Died Wolf

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My Name Is Human

it was all the same (prod. KAYVXN)

produced by classixs beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCkNqXC7nc4gtHQ8cKU48iow

lyrics:

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

hit me with a feature boy just know this is art
come at me with garbage and ill rip it apart
honestly i been about it prior to you
and i dont need a fucking friend i need a drink and a dart

i dont even smoke but i think i should start
take a couple years and give em back to the dark
eliviate the pain and fucking take out my heart
eliviate the pain and give me back to the dark

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off

they want a love song
but i havent felt love in a minute
its been so long
truthfully im not sure if i was ever in it
but now its all gone
the people and the visions we both thought of as vivid
thought of as lucid
fuck all the bullshit
strangle and beat up and fucking spit on the cupid
im so gone
scotch and a spliffy had got me saying some shit 
i never dreamt of
sertraline pills im not an artist im a motherfucking
pill box
right now fuck the flashing lights i think id rather see a 
red dot
headshot
maybe its time that i met god

4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

i cant finish project
or put it in motion
everythings sounds shitty
by the damn second verse
got some real friends
sending me some warm texts

but its a shame that my phone dont work

i got debt on debt
u like my shit oh bet
i might not make it for a while
cause im fucked in the head
find me sleepin in bed
i got a 12 hour rest
imma wake up for an hour then go do it again
i needa wean off

give a fuck if im dependent on the meds
as long as i get up and think enough to make a track
its weird to have a thousand people screaming what i said
im good at working under pressure when im sad i write the best
smoke alot of weed but im addicted like its crack
i been rippin blunts until i feel it in my back
when you adopt the music you adopt it till u dead
your brain'll change and you can fire thoughts like your a gat

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

wean off (prod. classixs beats)

sorry (hbeatz)

if i die b4 i wake i pray 2 lord my soul 2 take i long 4 days i don feel pain at all...

SOULTAKER ft. Soryn

Lights Out (Prod. Frozy)

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