the amount of times i go back to this is inane

this tiny little synth omg 🥺🥺🥺 I just wanna give this little guy a hug

Obsessed with this song. I love it. Been listening on repeat for weeks.

im speechless. i am  genuinely tearing up rn.

blep

https://fauxxmusic.bandcamp.com/track/callmedumb
https://youtu.be/M659xAEY8Eo

callmedumb

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[Verse 1]
and the pain right in my chest
while im waiting i cant rest
no
and i want u
here but ig nows the time 
to learn to be more patient huh?

[Chorus]
the feeling left on my heart
takes a second to absorb
give me more x2

[Bridge]
i want u so bad 
but i gotta wait till
time moves
and i shouldnt
rush the pace that 
we have
and i rly like u
please just kiss me all over 

[Verse 2]

Am I bad for my self
the thoughts that hurt my health 
I hold a bandage to my soul 

I cant just stop and stay
I need improvement 
to keep on moving
or I'll get led astray

do i runaway
or should i just leave u more
cus anymore and you're out of my life
gonna think while im away
is it needed being away
maybe I'll grow better in my own space

[Chorus]
the feeling left on my heart
takes a second to absorb
give me more x2

[Outro]
i want u so bad 
but i gotta wait till
time moves
and i shouldnt
rush the pace that 
we have
and I rly like u
please just kiss me all over
please kiss me all over
please kiss me all over
please kiss me all over x2

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seanie

Music Video: https://youtu.be/SZW7eoFDP6k

ITS TRUCK MONTH BABY !!!!

thanks to @jessephamel for the cover art and the MUSIC VIDEO!
thanks to @wishlane for backup vocals on the last chorus !
thanks to all of YOU for your love and support !

lyrics:
i'm scared to leave my room now
i'm scared to leave my house
my mom says it's unhealthy
that i never get out
i'm scared of the helicopters
scared of the cops
i'm scared of the chem-trails
keep my door locked

keep in the filtered air
recycle everything
everywhere now
see me through my webcam
you know they can
you know they can
you know you know

don't want my life to pass me by
god damnit maybe it's really my star sign
you said i'm prone to hiding
i said it's just anxiety
"why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
take the risk take the shot
and see wherever it goes"
i wish it was that simple
but i can't shake this syndrome

i'm tired of baggy eyes
of being an adult
white guys on youtube always tell me it's my fault
i need to try to meditate
get off of these meds
if there's no [redacted] left
then fuck it it's the end



keep in the filtered air
recycle everything
everywhere now
see me through my webcam
you know they can
you know they can
you know you know

don't want my life to pass me by
god damnit maybe it's really my star sign
you said i'm prone to hiding
i said it's just anxiety
"why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
take the risk take the shot
and see wherever it goes"
i wish it was that simple
but i can't shake this syndrome

PG-13

(why does love keep letting me down?)

performed, written and produced by me
mixing and mastering by me with help from @ryptage
additional vocals from @blissom and @starsbeforesunrise
screams from @blimeyarts
violin from @taivasa
cover art by @clawsomebeats on twitter

lyrics
there's a feeling in my chest and it won't go away
i see skies and they're all shades of gray
more than anything i want, i just want this to last
i know you don't feel that way
and i'm sorry that i'm not what you want
but i gave it my all and i was never enough
and i miss you to death but that don't mean anything
"if you wanna go then i'll be okay"
but now its all gonna break.

is it too late to say that i'm not okay?
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away.

let me waste away
i can't even stand to look you in the face.
left in the dust underground
and i don't know how i'm gonna get out

shouldn't get too attached, but i can't help it
i see stars and it hurts to admit
that just like every single one, you're a part of the past
i know you don't feel it
i'll be waiting for someone to hold
like a blanket keeping me from cold
i've been spilling my guts on the pavement
and all that i'm left to do is crawl into my shell
and now it's all gonna break

is it too late to say that i'm not okay?
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away

is it too late to ask for a reason why?
cause i'm just sick and tired of saying my goodbyes
and when i fall down i just get kicked to the curb
don't understand why i ever even tried.

let me waste away
don't remember the last time that i've seen your face.
left in the dust underground
and i don't care if i ever get out

i've been lost in the dark
you're all i have
you're all i've got
and there's no way
nothing i can do to get you to stay by my side
why do i always waste my time waiting for another mistake?
if i just caught in the waves?

is it too late to say that i'm not okay
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away

is it too late to ask for a reason why?
cause i'm just sick and tired of saying my goodbyes
and when i fall down oh i'll just lay in the dirt
don't understand.

i won't waste away
i'll just yell at the clouds until i'm blue in the face
left in the dust but i'm breathing
it's the least i can do just to deal with you leaving.
———————————————————————————————
if you're reading this, this song isn't about you. you know who you are.

dust.

blair's problem

produced by me
written/mixed/mastered by me
cover illustration by server (https://serverxyzz.carrd.co)
interpolates jishoumushoku by sasanomaly

[lyrics]
~verse 1~
i like to keep things close to the same
got personal problems adapting to change
i always plan things so far away
but when i get started its far too late
i like pretending i know what to do
like if i really feel at home then itll all come true
i like pretending ive made it on my own
when it could all end with a phone call home

~bridge~
god, its so hard
to juggle all the things that have been handed to me
but i cant stop
ive got to get back up

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

~verse 2~
i try to sleep well, but every night
i cant shake the feeling im wasting time
ive gotta sink before i can fly
but im still afloat and i dont know why
maybe its all gonna slow way down,
thats all i can hope for, but i still dont know
i roll with the punches, i live in the now
i take a step forward and i double back

~chorus~
so im step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
maybe i just need something,
something to keep me down
it feels so lonely when i dip
my head into the clouds
this gravity's too open
sometimes i miss the ground
it feels so weird to kiss the earth
i wanna get right back to
step, step, stepping it up
im catching up in a rush
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
step, step up and jump
im reaching up and above
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop
(step, step, step step it up)
im always some ways away
from where i wanna end up
(step, step, step step it up)
im always running away
when i dont know how to stop

Steps

(Let's go!)

I couldn’t name the place I’m going
Even though I’ve been there six or seven different times
I can tell the sky is getting darker
I might fuck around and walk back home alone tonight
And even though I came here just to nurse a bottle, to the mouth or to the face, my mom says not to talk to guys
But if a stranger looks me in the eyes and orders me into the restroom, I’m just not the type to put up too much of a fight

You know I’m not like all the othеr girls around the function
He could have gonе and chosen any single one of them
I know it’s not my voice, it’s not my looks, he wants to rush in
When you’re a rarity, you end up shackled to a bed
The music’s way too loud and I don’t care if he don’t love me
It’s just a number, what’s a couple drinks around some friends?
And for some reason I don’t mind it when he interrupts me
He looks me in the eyes and I can tell i might be dead

Put me in your pocket, baby, let’s go for a drive
Let me tell a little secret, I’ve lived way too many lives
I know that you want it, baby, let me be your little crime
I don’t know where i would end up if i make it past tonight
Put me in your pocket, baby, let’s go for a drive
Let me tell a little secret, I’ve lived way too many lives
I know that you want it, baby, let me be your little crime
I don’t know where i would end up if i make it past tonight

(The devil inside of you says to listen to secret girlfriend)
(Secret girlfriend 2036 world domination)
(My lifelong dream has finally come true)
(Of course i’m not in love with him, It’s just a convenience)

I see it coming for me six or seven miles away
I greet it standing in the road, a smile on my face
He treats me like a million bucks when he wants something i can give, i wake up in the hospital along with bruises on my face

I see it coming for me, I’m convinced i love the pain
I greet it standing in the road, a smile on my face
He treats me like a million dollars, give him everything
I wake up in the hospital alone with the new-

Never thought I’d make it this far off the path
Got a smoke in hand like I’m a man
Then he gives a smile, spits a laugh
“You know pretty things like you aren’t meant to throw-“ (ugh)
Got a funny feeling in my chest
Got a smoke in hand like I’m a man
Then he flicks the lighter, takes a drag
“You know pretty things like you aren’t meant to throw tantrums”

dust.

daniboi

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