music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mncM2SX8Wz8

produced by me and lynU

lyrics:
i-i can never lie, I'm not switching sides
you know where I'm at, you know what I like
its a waste of time, you been on my mind
g-guess I shoulda known I couldn't ever hide
lately its been hard to ignore all the signs
you stab me in my back its hard to let it slide
don't know who to trust, think I got some spies
try to put me in a box I can not be confined

@7akkiro
think im out of time
i got no emotions 
like im out of line
tell me if you notice 
noticing the lies
sing it like i wrote it 
i punch in everytime

i could never switch thats on my fuckin soul
posing for the video
plotting on me but i can see it from the screen tho
put me in the lens like a movie tarantino
you got fake friends why tf you even need those

@deepinparis
you better hope your bitch lied cuz she tryna fuck
i cant deal with all the snakes that keep on popping up
yeah i dont want you get off you dont offer much
yeah im rapping from another planet bitch im off a bunch
blunt what i had for lunch
i cant let em see my face so i put up a front
i always been all by myself the door is always shut
i wanted everything but i think lifes just gotta suck
aye no i cant go for nun

signs ft. akkiro, deepinparis

💔💔💔💔
now my @withoutalifeline is gone
feat @cheetoed
prod @2rel & @bound2return

she like where u goin
i cant fw you because i think my heart is broken
yea my moneys up yea my cash it keep on growin 
yo btc dumb asf but i dont think that she know it

ya my money up, i dont give a fuck
yea i got a weapon not in sight i keep it tucked
i hate my life i need a blunt this shi is rough
posted with the team im V.I.P up in the club

ya i hate this shi im in a bad mood
time to cut em off i think its past due
if you talkin tuff i might jus blast you
and they steady asking me like what my racks do x2

[@cheetoed]
I dont wanna text, don't mean shit to me
cuz its fuck all your friends, ya i got shit to be, 
no we cant make amends, that shit is killing me,
cuz you said fuck us, were never meant to be. 

yeah ima stay at home, but i can tell when your lying,
hot face red eyes I can tell when your crying,
dont waste my time, want you thinking im trying, 
im kinda wishing your mine and. 

ya i hate this shi im in a bad mood
time to cut em off i think its past due
if you talkin tuff i might jus blast you
and they steady asking me like what my racks do x2

bad mood ft cheeto

https://soundcloud.com/prod-rioxion
https://soundcloud.com/user-923518542

i made bad decisions
i wont try to make it right
cause i gave all i can now i cry every night
its not okay
please give me your sympathy
same flow every fucking song are u sick of me
british kid said i had a lisp
i cant really tell would you tell me if i did
coloniser told me im not aussie idk what he is
guess im chinese and he's just.. british...

shout out all my scottish friends out there
shout out jane shoutout dan shoutout goobin
rlly need to link w my bros thinking soonish
im just too autistic i cant talk to a new bitch

guess what...
chicken butt
i got brad on my line yes im tryna ****
im w noah.. i wish i was.... i miss my brother
ive been stuck in one place swear to god i just hover
i dont ever wanna go to a seminar again
like it wasnt that bad its just shit that i alr knew
hate me for a minute but now im ur friend
FUCK YOU you can miss me with that BULLSHIT!

i love helpy 
can someone help me
cause i dont think ill last another night
its so weird cause i should be okay
cause i talked about it
but everyone just says "you should talk about it"
i dont wanna talk to another careless ignorant pretentious husk of a human 
i CANT be bothered
saying youre a christian wont just send you to heaven

hello girlfirend
im sorry i dont talk a lot i cant help it
i was prepping lunch and the box melted
the food was very hot and the box was plastic

bad decisions 🚫 prod rioxion elow

@zzoos

#darkbeautycastle

@raaynen:
Like whatcha want from me?
 I’m staying up and talking to ya till it’s 4 am
 Cause I can’t go to bed
 A former shell of who I am
 I look inside the mirror and I see a different man
 So put your face on mine
 Tell me that you love me till the end
 It’s not my fault I’m crying
I just miss the person that I am
 Look at my face I’m fine
 And you can tell that I’m lying
 I’ve been staying up crying 
Cause I feel like dying

 Like whatcha want from me?
 I’m staying and talking to ya till it’s 4 am
 So could you hold my hand? 
And let me be your man 
'Cause I can’t go to bed 
A former shell of who I am

  Don’t forget what you started
 You know that I want it
 And I’ll be here regardless of what you say you wanted 
Just living life is the hardest 
Why’s everybody so heartless? 
My heartbeat sounds like it’s marching 
Baby can you tell me I'm something? 
I’ll jump the bridge in my harness
 Maybe then I’ll feel like you want this  

Like baby I’ll pop out and show you I’m something
 I got my friends with me right now, we got this bitch jumping 
You won’t see me for days, ’til I’m happy in my own skin 
I’m going nowhere but I still feel homesick 
The rain is pouring down I can’t feel it my coats thick 
Is it really my fault that everything is so hopeless?
 I smoke the gas ’til I’m numb, I just need something to cope with
 There’s no way, there’s no way I’m going home
 There’s no way, there’s no way that I’m alone
 I close my eyes I feel the world around me going numb 
And it don’t even matter ‘cause I’m going dumb 
You want some money? Come my way and I can get you some 
There’s no way, there’s no way I’m coming home 
There’s no way, there’s no way that I’m alone 
There’s no way, there’s no way I’ll pick up the phone
  (There’s no way I’m coming home)
 (There’s no way, there’s no way that I'm alone)  

Like whatcha want from me? 
I’m staying up and talking to ya till it’s 4 am 
Cause I can’t go to bed 
A former shell of who I am
 I look inside the mirror and I see a different man 
So put your face on mine 
Tell that you love me till the end 
It’s not my fault I’m crying 
I just miss the person that I am
 Look at my face I’m fine 
And you can tell that I’m lying 
I’ve been staying up crying 
Cause I feel like dying

 Like whatcha want from me?
 I’m staying up and talking to ya till it’s 4 am
 So could you hold my hand? 
And let me be your man 
'Cause I can’t go to bed 
A former shell of who I am
A former shell of who I am

#darkbeautycastle

who i am @zzoos

prod ssoh & me

@ssoh
====================
girl take one last look at me
going way too fast i think you can see it now
open your eyes baby oh why cant you see it
youre refraining me from being beyond my true self
i didnt like it that way, so i cried
there's a part of me that stays when i die
so the rest of me that i lost i gotta find
at least can i drive you home?

@outfed
=====================
nothing i can do to change ur mind
who am i 2 kid myself ill find a way
and when its said & done ik that you'll still feel the same
if u evr need me pls dont turn the other way
ur hair ur lips ur perfume
ur scars & how they hurt u
ik i cant ease the pain
so when it's said and done i hope that you don't feel the same

eyes

✧₊⁺🕯⋆.˚୨ৎ
spiderwebs hanging off my skeleton
ive been hanging with my friends for the hell of it oh
insecure so i stay relevant
lying on my living room floor, yeah i lost control long ago

feelin anxious is my enemy
every word that rides my breath is passive, aint mean shit to me
everyone thats rotting in my past, u a bitch to me
i got vines climbing my carotid when its hitting me

(spiderwebs hanging)
being anxious is my element
i just got eroded, like a rock, now im sediment
correct my vision, now i watch, like a second hand
correct my vision, now i watch
(spiderwebs hanging)
being anxious is my element
i just got eroded, like a rock, now im sediment
correct my vision, now i watch, like a second hand
correct my vision, now i watch

@zzjay
i think you see me in the worst light
even though i think that im the only one on your side
but i think it makes me childish if it's true
and i never go to sleep i fear of bedbugs in my room
thats another bad excuse
not knowin what to do
im too focused on you
im too focused im blue
i lack focus in school
cause i always look out the window
i remember you was my kinfolk
i remember everything was simple
that time

(spiderwebs hanging)

@sinefelt
lately my mind been fogged up
can't hardly read the cost of
scratches from her claws
i hate holding a grudge
up my tongue, put down a blotter
i can't stand up to get water

i'm js tryna go out warm
about to freeze, i'm snowed out
stare colder than a snow storm
if my soul out-pours
there's too much to account for
that all hardly matters
i think, but i'm not sure

let me out of my body
couldn't care even partly


october beatleech 𓇢𓆸 feat. zjay & sinefelt

Lyrics:

Drowned out now and my head hurts
Im trying to write me a song my head curbed
Im lying sick in my bed i close my eyes where it led
Im popping all of these meds i wanna feel me again
Feel me again feel me again
Im all in my head tryna feel me again
Scrolling my phone seeing where will it led
Im feeling tightness my chest tell me where my life will led
Led led led led
Spin my thoughts again
Uh huh
Again again again again
Feel like myself yeah

If i if i dont lie dont lie
Will i come back to mind tonight
If my thoughts shout and no ones out
With my head overground with my heart beating loud

Started out moving blocks and making sounds
Moved it out tried to show it off they told me they aint proud
So i stayed in my room tried to talk they was blocked
They hear my new sound the sound of my all
Ah huh
All ah huh
All ah huh
Heard it all
Lost
Lost
Lost
Lost
Try oh try but i feel lost

I hate who i am sleepover

I wanna feel me again
Feel me again feel me again
Im all in my head tryna feel me again
Scrolling my phone seeing where will it led
Im feeling tightness my chest tell me where my life will led

i just want to feel like myself again

prod and vx by moss

mv out now

bloom ...../////EP....now

can't take it

we didn't crash yet!! +/ prod bnnett

prod @kirostardew
happy new year dropping this now cuz ill be busy

mfs blow up then ghost you n thats crazy to me

lyrics are 

pushing paper out to cut me off
u know i wouldnt do the same, dont get me wrong
20 runs and still i fall
1 thousand hours, and i still suck
run with scissors and im still fine

im not one of ur options
dont treat me like a last resort
watching as the clock ticks
cant see me moving on the court
u cant swap places with me u cant do this
look i got somewhere to be can you move it

and now you talking crazy like im supposed to owe you sum
u never supported me so i already owed you nun
i see all the leeches in the swamp get turned to dust
yeah u can rot the fuck away already know i cant give one

and thats that
leave me alone in the back
ion got time for the nonsense
im just tryna get up my bag
and im running out of options
you talking
your posts are obnoxious
you wanna be my friend
but only when you wanna benefit from me

think about it and thats so fucked up
i got one last chance to make it out b4 im done
and it all just sucks
and its all just dumb
you been talking shit on me behind my back, good luck

lastresort @kirostardew

ALL BEATS FROM JAN15-DEC29 2025 NOT CHRONOLOGICAL
thank you to @marusaki @ariaoasis @fruitydelay @2rel @lumyere @01satu @heyscripy @uxiexo @cldxp @ivoruu @advxrse @kylanonline @ssoh for doing tags and thank you to everybody i have worked w u saved me from killing myself probably

IDs 
0:14 "ferd nation" [@makemeapromise] [@rhekdens] [@r2s2d]
1:46 "overhaul" [@rhekdens] [@2rel]
1:50 "im in beijing w these hoes" [@rhekdens] [@16fc] [@2rel]
2:11 "CRUNCH" [@rhekdens] [@16fc]
2:24 "brainfog" [@pw4prez] [@rhekdens]
2:37 "decision" [@rhekdens] [@2rel]
2:50 ??? [@7mental7] [@1burningjuly] [@heyscirpy] [@rhekdens]
3:03 "esdeath" [@rhekdens}
2:16 "angels" [@rhekdens] [@16fc] [@2rel}
3:28 "luv" [@rhekdens}
3:41 "with maya' [@rhekdens] [@????]
3:54 "ida" [@tgwog] {@cruseyyyy] [@2rel] [@rhekdens] (https://soundcloud.com/uxiexo/liaison)
4:06 "joker" [@rhekdens]
4:19 "1000 - 7" [@rhekdens]
4:32 ??? [@rhekdens]
4:45 "aizen" [@rhekdens]
4:58 "bad" [@rhekdens]
5:10 "nezu" [@rhekdens]
5:23 "kenpachi" [@rhekdens]
5:36 "suzaku" [@rhekdens]
5:49 "ulqiorrra" [@rhekdens] [@kirarrii]
6:02 ?? [@rhekdens]
6:14 ?? [@lynyou] [@rhekdens] [@eboof]
6:27 ?? [@rhekdens] (https://soundcloud.com/monsain/analyze-1)
6:40 "3crown" [@rhekdens] [@2rel]
6:53 "breakthrough" [@rhekdens] 
7:06 "TTM" [@rhekdens] [@pitchweavr]
7:18 "cranker bitch club" [@rhekdens]
7:31 "SOUL SOCiETY" [@RHEKDENS] [@PW4PREZ] [@VENEXXi]
7:44 "start up" [@rhekdens] [@heygwuapo]
7:57 "visual novel" [@2rel] [@rhekdens] (interpolates https://soundcloud.com/kevinrianto/back-number-happyend)
8:22 "frendli" [@rhekdens]
8:35 ??? [@kylanonline] [@rhekdens] [@salviaparadox]
9:32 "weird chords" [@rhekdens] [@on1yone]

JAN15 to DEC29 2K25 clips w friends

dont know if i want to be back or not

@aisle-4
@1gutter
@100signs
@fishrealmontop

lastresort @kirostardew

Daikyu