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YIII

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I don't wanna feel anything anymore
i just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I remember everything from the time that you left my side
Wiping the tears 'no don't fuck with my eyes'
Biding my time, i wanna try 
Just to forget you but i feel alive 
Oh please take my life
Please take my life
Its the best time to die
Like now, i wanna right now 
I wanna die

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I dont wanna live in a world without you
Even after al the shit you put me through
You're still the one 
Night grow cold and I'm alone
And you don't ever pick up the phone when i call
So let me die here

Let Me Die Here w/ scum (prod. trxpicvl )

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjU1z2PbKtA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjU1z2PbKtA

mixed by prettyheartbrake 

art by sympathy dropout

love casualties (prod. Charlie Shuffler) VIDEO IN BIO :)

Mixed by @wgm2093
produced by @treetimee

[Hook]
I just bought some xans yeah you know that I had to
I just fucked his bitch yeah you know that I had to
I just popped another yeah you know that I had to
She look me in my eyes and she know I wanna die to
I just bought some xans yeah you know that I had to
I just fucked his bitch yeah you know that I had to
I just popped another yeah you know that I had to
She look me in my eyes and she know I wanna die to

[Verse]
Know I wanna die to
Fuck me in the bathroom
First time I saw you it was up in the classroom
Up in the classroom
That’s when you found me
That’s when you chose me
Hold my hand baby
Know I wanna die to
Fuck me in the bathroom
First time I saw you it was up in the classroom
Up in the classroom
That’s when you found me
That’s when you chose me
Hold my hand baby

[Hook]
I just bought some xans yeah you know that I had to
I just fucked his bitch yeah you know that I had to
I just popped another yeah you know that I had to
She look me in my eyes and she know I wanna die to
I just bought some xans yeah you know that I had to
I just fucked his bitch yeah you know that I had to
I just popped another yeah you know that I had to
She look me in my eyes and she know I wanna die to

i want to wake up in hell (prod. treetime)

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lyrics
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oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

oh why does it always feel like i’m a ghost
i’m floating in & out of all these homes
i don’t even have one to call my own 
i’ve been on tour for such a fucking long time
can’t remember what my bedroom looks like
cause hotel rooms and bnbs are all i
see when i’m away & i don’t know why
i signed up for this until i go live
talk me out of fighting with myself 
right now i could use some fucking help 
i scribble words until i feel myself 
homesick has never felt so fucking swell

oh my
this just doesn’t feel right
i’ve been in this car all god damn night
so high 
smoke until i go cry
you say i’m a mess but at least i try

follow jody

at least i try (prod. jody)

if looks could kill  (prod. CapsCtrl)

I hate you music video https://youtu.be/vgcgRiBs1kI.

I Hate You

Too Bad

Too Bad feat. 916frosty & Trill Sammy (Prod. Pasko)

SPACEMAN w/  LIL POH  prod.  YOUNG TAYLOR

Rezcoast Grizz - Water

@Rezcoast Grizz - Lost You (prod, SevenOnTheTrack)

She stay right beside me
she gon guide me when I'm feeling low
picture out of focus, every opus help me out the cold
shivering from head to toe
extremities are turning blue
memories stay haunting you
bring it back to the present view

This is not what I asked for
Light another blunt and dump the ashes on the dashboard
they say money cannot buy you happiness, got jack pour; pack more
Frostbite on my tounge
I've been feeling numb

rose decay away
get nauseous when I hear your name
walk away each day but really I'm the one to blame
lets not play this game
can we fix the pain?

fuck what said and then fuck what I did
I am so damn pathetic, been lost since a kid
I am problem magnetic and cope with the gin
getting so lifted ain't talking no gym
it's 30 below and I walk in the snow
contemplate life yes I've been feeling low
losing this money I spent on promo
yes I'm collapsing can't handle the load

I try to just forget that cold Iris
I'm clogging my sinuses
curing these viruses
inside of my mind that is

Frostbite [prod. idly blare]

youre the one who said i meant the world to u

LYRICS: 
am i too dangerous for you,
(for you)
i’m too dangerous for me,
when i get overwhelmed i try so hard,
to just stop and breathe, (and breathe)
i don’t really think that i’m still losing,
but i know i’m not catching a dub,
i think that i’m not broken , 
cause i always seem to think about love.

i remember when things were easy, 
and i remember when i didn’t have a job,
i remember when i didn’t wanna kill myself,
i remember when we all just got along ,

but now im falling apart inside my basement,
and i remember all of the moves i made wrong
but if i roll another glizzy imma face it,
and write about my feelings before they’re all gone,

it’s the coming of age that made me hopeless,
it’s the 9-5 job that made me feel like dick,
it’s the way the acid hit on the carpet, 
and it’s the way i never realized to talk my shit,

i remember when things were easy, 
i remember when i didn’t have a job,
i remember when i didn’t wanna kill myself,
i remember when we all just got along,

but,
 i fall down and i don’t get up much,(get up much)
and i’m getting high before i think bout lunch,
but i think i’m finally at a crossroad, 
i wanna give up but what the fuck do i think i know, (x2)

Spotify <3

remember when? (prod. twintails)

nicoteen ninyo - somethings wrong *cover* (vaegud x sketchmyname)

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Now im not fine
singing to the dead I just wanna realize
Wanna be okay but you running through my mind
Take me to the light, or ill never be alright
Aye
6 Feet down, ill never feel shit
Coping with these songs, hoping that I make a hit
Remember when you told me that ill never be shit
Now you check my page, and you gonna see me lit

Im on death-row
writing down names like im from death note

Shawty is baddy she dont really give a fuck
She dont want me, she dont like me, she dont wanna feel the love
Im alone in the end, i been running outta luck
Crying almost every night, im not movin i been stuck
Sometimes wanna see the light, sometimes i wanna be done
Feeling anxious everytime, waste my time dont give a fuck

Im not alright, I dont feel fine
Crying almost every night im stuck inside a loop i might-

Might just end my life
Imma never feel alright x2

Now i’m not fine
Smoke until I’m numb I don’t wanna see the light
Aye
Comfort into sadness
I don’t wanna feel alright
Man I know these people hate me
They just want to see me die
Babe you got one shot
Can you put it in my chest
Write my name on a bullet
Put me in a grave to rest
Never feel excited and its always been this way
I just wanna make it out
Wanna get up out this rain

Now I'm Not Fine [feat. Toyk](prod. metlast)

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Lyrics:

[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse1]
fuckin' hell
Im not well
Trusted you
And then I fell

So afraid
I'm awake
Friends' like who?
Cause ya'll so fake

I might break
Then remake
Save my heart
From all the ache

Got my blade
I might fade
3 more lines
I wish you stayed


I'm so fed, no longer full
On every lie that you pull
Strings from above I'm their fool
Mastermind drowned in the pool 


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse2]
You hate the way I numb my pain
I've hung myself inside your brain
An ornament for severing
The insecurities I'll bring

Bestow upon me gifts in vein
I'd follow you into the rain
But now you've gone and I'm insane
And you're the reason I'm to blame

It's suffocating not knowing where you lie
Awake I'm waiting for all to be made right
It's hard to believe me when I say that I'm alright
I live every day but I don't feel like I'm alive


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

Health Issues (prod. Bartes)

Prod. Airavata 

Mixed/Mastered by Neon Dion & Wethher 

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Heal Your Scars (Ft. Wethher) (Prod. AIRAVATA)

at least i tried

co prod @hellahaunted

lyrics:

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

i was focused on the music
you were tryin not to lose it
i was tryin not to lose you
but the bass slaps and the queues rip

like damn nates really goin in
like damn nates really poppin off
like new fit like every week
match primitive with the polo socks (awe yea)

grape jays in my jansport
got mad stamps in my passport
gon drop sum you won’t ask for
i smoke big gas in my back porch

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

you need a song you can rock to
ill give you somethin to scream
our generation’s so fucked up
nobody knows what to think

and i been thinkin on the days when
everything was what it seems
way before i felt grown up
or even knew what that means

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

ALIT

With the legend himself @vito2300 ! Thank you for listening <3

prod/mix/master by @farhantnvr !!!

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iTunes: https://music.apple.com/us/album/white-flags-single/1538212935

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Art by Anthonette Bueno

Lyrics:
How come I don’t feel that bad?
I swear to god I will never go back
Lights cameras and all that action
I’m trying hard not lose my traction
He’s got your wrist leading you out
There’s nothing I coulda told myself 
We let it go without a fight 
But what conversation could make it right?

There’s white flags in the air have mercy 
Getting close to the edge I’m hurting 
I don’t want this and I’m still learning 
It could work baby I’m determined

Stay, stay, stay if you want to stay 
Or leave me here in the pouring rain
Hate, hate, hate if you want to hate
But I’m too caught up with the city in my gaze
Might go MIA
Don’t want to hear them speak my name
And you’re all the same 
I’ll light the match, watch it go all up in flames
He’s got your wrist leading you out
I can’t save you, I can’t save myself 
We let it go without a fight
But give me a chance I could make it right

There’s white flags in the air have mercy 
Getting close to the edge I’m hurting 
I don’t want this and I’m still learning 
It could work baby I’m determined

Stream

I'm Geist x VITO - White Flags (Prod. TNVR)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we dont break
ill love u till the end
dear anjed
i need to say something
id fall in love again
i wish u the best

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

u recalling what u said?
you was talking behind my back
i deleted everything
i cleared out all the messages
he was like a brother
i hate him for doing that
deep down it still hurts
but ill b over it
dear anjed i lost
dont know if i can get u back
now since weve matured
maybe try again
i can take us places
am i overthinking
ur in another book
while im flippin through these pages
hey anjed im sorry
i got to get this off my chest
we been together twice so we have learned from our past
its like ur a stranger
i get to know u once again
could never function right she got me short im losing breath
dear anjed this is me
giving u my heart
theres nothing to be afraid of ill keep in my arms
i havent gone to sleep
cause im thinking of u in the dark
join me in this journey i believe three times a charm

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

dear anjed i want
u
like really bad
hope this isnt dumb
i hope that youll be glad
hey anjed hello
u
it got me sad
years have gone by
patience really met
here we are again..

spotify

dear anjed

im the best you heard around, and when im dead, hear me through the ground
im in my grave, you could hear the sound
of all the souls lost up in the sound

im a dog, take me to the pound
im a ghost, in the lost and found
dont belong, in this stupid town
feeling lost, feeling like i drowned, I'm

hopping on board while we smoke on the boat
been, craving that feeling we lost in the smoke
you, say that im dying that ill be a ghost
im, more than aware cause ive been diagnosed

im depressed, im fucking dead, i hope you shoot me through the head
dont wanna wanna wake up in my bed, smoke till i forgot things you said
and now im only seeing red, i got no future left ahead
i got too scared so i just fled, im on this path now that i tread

im the best you heard around, and when im dead, hear me through the ground
im in my grave, you could hear the sound
of all the souls lost up in the sound

im a dog, take me to the pound
im a ghost, in the lost and found
dont belong, in this stupid town
feeling lost, feeling like i drowned, I'm

going to die
im, saying goodbye
steve, martin could write
my, obit tonight
my, life is a comedy
I, feel like a dramedy
I'm, explaining this homily
I'm, done with this bodily vessel

im the best you heard around, and when im dead, hear me through the ground
im in my grave, you could hear the sound
of all the souls lost up in the sound

im a dog, take me to the pound
im a ghost, in the lost and found
dont belong, in this stupid town
feeling lost, feeling like I drowned, I'm

going to die

Stevemartin

stevemartin

I don't want problems with myself, maybe I need some help,
it's not your fault, I'm unwell, it gets hot down here, it's hell.

pray to the skies, no one ever leaves here,
rather be dead, than face my worst fears,

Watch me fade, watch me drift away, 
and I don't like the pain, it's jus something I face,
I don't like the pain, it's getting hard to face,

Praying to the Skies (part 2)

LITERALLY MY LIFE IS
STAYING AWAKE EVERY NIGHT
SUICIDE IS ON MY MIND
LITERALLY MY LIFE IS 
CUTTING WHILE I BLEED TO DEATH
MASTURBATE THEN GO TO BED
LITERALLY MY LIFE IS
LITERALLY MY LIFE IS
OOOWEEE
WHY DO I EVEN TRY?
I JUST WANNA DIE
OOOWEEE
IM ABOUT TO CRY
IM TRAPPED INSIDE MY MIND

LITERALLY MY LIFE IS
A BURDON ON EVERYONE
I JUST STOLE A FUCKING GUN!
LITERALLY MY LIFE IS
LITERALLY MY LIFE IS
DRESSING IN BLACK EVERY DAY
I DONT GOT MUCH ELSE TO SAY 
LITERALLY MY LIFE IS 
OOOWEEE
YOU FUCKING KIDDIN ME?
IM ON THE TV
OOOWEEE
SEARCH PARTY
YOULL NEVER FIND ME!

LITERALLY, MY LIFE!

Boston
Songwriter + Composer - no box, just sounds :)

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Praying to the Skies (part 2)

dead broke