I’ve never made a song about my upbringing when it comes to religion but was inspired to make this one day, maybe you’ll find some solace in this track and thank you for listening ~booj

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I never said that I was a believer
I don’t try to disprove so I guess I’m neither  

recite what’s on the page I’m not aware of what I’m saying 
my thoughts are on a swing they’re never still it’s always swaying 
hop up right on the scale with all the choices that I’m weighing
there’s just no chance I’m staying 
there’s just no chance I’m staying 

the praise is way too often where’s the meaning where’s the source 
they try to make you feel all safe and sound up in those doors 
I’m not okay that I had no say in what was placed inside my brain 
ironic in the way of how that window pain was stained 
it’s how I feel inside it’s partly beautiful disdain 
but the rest I’ll sum it up it’s pretty much revolving pain 
I don’t look back and see it as helpful more so detrimental
the judgement isn’t justified it’s only supplemental 

they say it’s bad manners 
when you don’t share but I don’t want none of what you got to offer not in there no
they say it’s all that matters 
when you reach a breaking point all that’s left is that you still get to own your share 

2X
recite what’s on the page I’m not aware of what I’m saying 
my thoughts are on a swing they’re never still it’s always swaying 
hop up right on the scale with all the choices that I’m weighing
there’s just no chance that I’m staying 
there’s just no chance that I’m staying

there's just no chance i'm staying (Dead Spyro)

Lyrics:

lights out
i guess im tired
and i been fightin sumthin
im goin silence huntin
i just want a moment, give me a second to hone it
every day that i wake, i gotta sharpen the blade

oh you're takin it back like it was a typo uh
i guess i was never your type then huh
cause you only like em when they love you and then leave but i wasn't that cause i never did mistreat you
you put up your guard, defend
how do we start again
when every conversation we're havin ends in disgust
cause i got insecurities and i know you don't trust
but honestly baby i don't want it to be the end of us

every time that we start to get close you pull away
and i know that i still gotta say it right to your face
but i make time to make sure that i'm around
but you never called, even when i'm not im town
oh i'll stay here even tho i know that it's fake
and i guess that we tried but it's just not aligned to fate
honesty and regret abstained, i think i almost loved you

every body got an opinion, i will just shut down
cause maybe i don't wanna hear you out the picture run mouth
and baby if i'm honest, i think that you should run now
cause ain't it bout that time for us to get close and then bounce out
eyes bled red but i want hazel instead
i'm sorry that i wasn't there when you wished you were dead
axe grind, cut the line, let my neck snap
make sure that it's taut baby won't work if it's slack

overdose license, pure death i siphoned
bro said stick to the tests, don't give a fuck i did the rest
swallowed all dat shit to give my respitory a rest
i was doin shit that'd give a baby hair on chest
and no im not proud, but i escaped from that cloud
shut the fuck up, boy them voices aren't loud
all those numbers on the internet, but you can't pull a crowd
and if we post up on this side then you are not allowed

oh shit i gotta, lie down
im dyin here won't you pipe down
you always said that what goes around comes back
but orbital, that's not how i'd describe my path
cause i just looked ahead and i see distance in my past
and things ain't goin slow your just too used to movin fast
i still got a couple questions i'm afraid to ask
understand i would but right now ima let it pass

a_pattern_of_disaffection_ (secre x splashgvng)

everything to me ft. days to waste

If Heaven Won’t Take Us

𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓲'𝓶 𝓷𝓾𝓶𝓫

@caspywaspy this turned out fckin incredible ilysm bro

- lyrics -
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

i got so much to say
but there's no point to mention it
i love to just decay
a void marks where my presence is
am i even around?
am i making a sound?
i smoke
and then i choke
and then i fold
im going deep into the ground

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

tape my fucking mouth and blow it shut
mixing different drinks with teeth and blood
nothing can erase the shit ive done

isolating myself in a wooden hut
listening to birds singing when im up
forget about the things that got me fucked

i can't keep people close
cuz of the wounds i hold
some new and some old
but none of them close
why do i keep drowning feelings
and not search healing in all of the people i know

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

all plats

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

produced by raspo

lyrics:

im so done you made me feel like im a ghost
i feel out of place and still have no one to call my home
if im a creep then your a weirdo
ill never ask for help, your the same as me

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i feel lost in your eyes
do you feel the same as me
you can lie

i can try
but i wont
be alive
for very long
i could cry
oh could you
if i died 
would you

lost

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

guitar by melonmusik <3

lyrics:
no one to call my home 
you were gone before i had even known 
never safe when you were close 
youre not my home 
we’re so unpredictable and now i know
it was never my fault 
nothing i could’ve done would have changed the outcome 
you were never my home
never safe when you were close 

always alone 
maybe i’m better off on my own 
do still think of us? 
and what once was

no one to call my home 
you were gonna before i had even known

abode

1st song off my album "pity", out september 25th 

@lilskeleskrrt @bitekivibes @ytstatic
produced by me, guitar @ikarinan @tnvr555

lyrics:
i started running from you
too fast
n i fell to the ground
spilled out blood on the grass
you said you needed me
like you could never leave
and i fell for it dreaming
made it easy to breathe

but you broke it all
paper walls
you were supposed to be here
but you’re so good being gone
and i felt it all
8 missed calls
hit me up when u need me
and leave me hurt when you don’t

don’t act like you’re so innocent
like it’s not what you want
i gave u all that i had
while u were holding the gun
oh god
it was everything you said from the start
i was waiting on it falling apart

oh oh
what a waste of my time
but if it’s all with you
i’d gladly waste my whole life
oh no
i wish i didn’t say goodbye
the paper walls are burning down
our home is gone..

god damn
i feel my heart tear on every beat
the silence is deafening
truly it’s killing me
u try to forget who i am
i try to forget how your eyes were like thousands of galaxies..
oh, consumed i’m so lost in your stare
comfort i felt like i wouldn’t have fears
writing you poetry wishing you were here
if i held on longer would i still be scared

spotify

paper walls w/ skele

i knew it at 17 that you'd haunt me
//
prod. @fleshgolem & @pekarot_161
===================
lyrics:

i cant imagine how exhausting
it must be
just to want me
in the peak of october;
flaunting
what its like to be seen
i won’t live out this dream
i knew it at 17
that you’d haunt me,
you’d haunt me

come inside
what’re we doing standing here?
cold as ice
i guess theres no point acting cavalier
its my right
to wanna be angry, i don’t wanna be angry, but its all thats here
i won’t bite
you couldn’t get that reaction, now could you?

take me, break me
i know lately
i haven’t been at my best love
it isnt all what it seems so
make me stay please
its been fading
i know its all evocation
you know i’d never erase it

well, its all in the past, thats fine
i wonder what could’ve been that night
i’m always down on my luck in spite
of all the times that you proved me right
love, what’re we doing standing here?
i don’t wanna be angry but it’s all thats here

come inside
what’re we doing standing here?
cold as ice
i guess theres no point acting cavalier
its my right
to wanna be angry, i don’t wanna be angry, but its all thats here
i won’t bite
you couldn’t get that reaction, now could you?

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the eleventh hour

spotify & apple

the eleventh hour [flesh x pekarot]

acoustic album this weekend on @plslovejai


ima bird in the sky heading straight to the ground
like i clipped my wing
shes an angel in disguise i dont pay her no mind
cuz they always win
no i dont got a shot fucking with somebody like you
no i dont got a lot but she saying that im type cute
well babygirl im far from it
everytime i get a itch im road running
off to the races and its on to the next one
i cant give you mt heart
and ill take all the blame i dont want no damn apology
it was my fault

and she took a part of me that i wont get back anytime soon 
and i took a piece from her now she only gets drunk alone in her room
its like we're falling straight out of orbit
you stopped calling cause i always ignore it /:
and yea i miss you more than ever but right now its not that important </3

i think about you and the kid we almost had baby
like if we kept where the fuck would we be at baby
i left you all alone to go and get rid of it
honestly my stomach was turning and i was sick of it
looking back now i feel so hideous
i didnt even tell my dad hed be furious 
im sorry from the bottom of my heart 
i couldnt be the one you wanted or let alone needed
baby i been crying to the lord oh i been pleading
begging for forgiveness but i cant give him a reason
and bae you got my heart forever 
i just hope you know i mean it

and she took a part of me that i wont get back anytime soon 
and i took a piece from her now she only gets drunk alone in her room
its like we're falling straight out of orbit
you stopped calling cause i always ignore it /:
and yea i miss you more than ever but right now its not that important </3

shudda cudda wudda //;

with the life i’m given, i’m healing.

@lovelessgroup
@butaneband

the eleventh hour [flesh x pekarot]

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