This song is just so beautiful, smooth flow and a beautiful voice

self produced
follow decks: @decksmusic
cover art taken by decks
lyrics

getting back to my feet standing up again
guess i wasnt ready for the fight that u brought again
said i was the one that u want can u want again
im been trying hard but im ending up distraught again
guess i wasnt ready for the battle to be fought again
guess im just relearning all the lessons ive been taught again
i can only take so much that ur throwing at me
when ur angry it feels like 100 degrees

decks:
when ur mad no i can’t take the heat
i just back down fallin onto my knees
i dont wanna be a problem babe im beggin please
im retracing all my steps and now its hard to breathe

so i fucked up
pass time cuz im done up
second chances arent free but i could earn em
suns up
wake up early cuz the funs up
out of time baby im not what u wantttt

100 degrees w/ decks

I'll waste my time if it's wasted on you
I don't wanna sink alone
And your not mine but you're so damn fine
Why does it feel right when it's so wrong
I'm stuck inside my head again
Think I need my medicine
Ashing on your windowsill
I'm hardly making any sense
Saying things I never meant
And you're so filled up with regret
Tell me what the fuck is next
Cause your someone I can't forget

Ooo
Ooo
Guess I gotta let you go
But tell me why the fuck is it always my fault
They always break my heart
And I never know the cause
I can't handle new scars
So I'm always running far

I'm always running from
Those things you say you want
Picking up again
I got a brand new scar
Got a brand new heart
Come and take it all
Leave me hurt again its probably all my fault
It's always all my fault
I fucking hate those songs
I'm losing everything i'm breaking
I don't want you gone
Tell me anything that I can do to make it stop
I been waiting here alone for fucking way too long
So tell me all about how you been waiting for it
I wanted innocent love you wanna leave me damaged
So tell me all about how you been waiting for it
I wanted innocent love you wanna leave me damaged

Ooo
Ooo
Guess I gotta let you go
But tell me why the fuck is it always my fault
They always break my heart
And I never know the cause
I cant handle new scars
So i'm always running far
Don't know what I need but I know what I want yeah yeah
Still feel empty nothings enough gotta get it all I know

ALWAYS MY FAULT

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ALWAYS MY FAULT w/ ghoul_001 [lilbiscuit]

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below (branwen x rvrhiv)

@prodjpjp @prod-oc <3


its like you never even cared
 stripping me bare
 now i got holes in what i wear 
getting prepared
 so u can throw me down the stairs 
how is it my fault i was never even there 
blame it on me so u can sleep in someones bed
how is it my fault i was never even there
 pull me away i get so awkward and i stare 
stop waiting for me im busy pulling out my hair 
how does it feel ? 
im sick of hearing that u care :p

throw me in the sea and let me drown in the ocean 
body going numb and my heart got frozen 
i dont wanna die but my lungs cut open 
pressure in my eyes built up both swollen

crawling to demise my time im chosen
 tell another lie, ill cry, wont show it
 bleeding thru the cracks in my hands cant close them 
wish u never hit me got ur wrists both broken

did i let you down
 dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

did i let you down 
dont look around
 i need you now 
wont save me now

Tear me up and peel the flesh off my body
“It wasnt like that” you know I wasn’t ready
And I know that, there’s nothing you could tell me
I wanted love back, the feelings getting blurry

Spending too much time on my own
Rejecting everybody that I know
 hiding every message on your phone
Start to realise that I got nothing to show

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care [JPJP x OC]

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:

Lay in my bed and the time
Is running away but thats fine
I feel like I dont try enough
To make anything out of my life

Tell me that I am not wasting my time
Tell me that I didnt fuck up my life
Feed me your lies and make me feel secure
I can’t tell the truth and dont want to anymore

Dont call on my phone
Leave me alone
You say you’re a bro
But I don’t think so, no

I don’t want to hide
But I dont have a choice
Bottle it up
I feel like a toy

Seems like every day’s just getting worse
And I’m taking all these pills but there’s no difference at all
Its gotten to the point where I’ve given up hope
But I keep on faking smiles cause they want me to

I can’t just sit n chill
By myself cause then I would
Find myself just breaking down
Thinking bout my life and how

Itd be easier to end it
Thinking bout it but then still
I got someone to live for
Dont know how much I need them

Lately its been way too much
Weight on both my arms
Been carrying way too much
Troubles, stress still not enough

Looking at the time and I’m wasted
FUCK
It’s another day, nothing changing
Still feel like shit and head’s aching
Take another pill and forget it
x2

change

@hiraethsry
@prodjpjp 

lyrics
// hiraeth
stab with me with a knife and put it in my back
“i could never love you” wym by that
i don’t wanna die but life is going fast
text me when ur drunk and say you want me back

i don’t wanna talk to you
lemme go i swear i never intrude
stressed out now my hands are blue
left me, what’d i mean to you

cut around my wrists i’m laying staring at the ceiling
out of body fuck i swear i’m living for a reason
blood trail on my arm i’m steady looking for a meaning
tryna cut you off ur never good to me i’m leaving

i don’t wanna talk to you
lemme go i swear i never intrude
stressed out now my hands are blue
left me, what’d i mean to you

// geist
what’d i mean to you?
you crossed my name out in red love
held me close, just to say that we’re losing touch
cut me deep and then scream that i’m not enough
want me now, when i say that i’m giving up

here we go again
dancing in the rain
couldn’t save my face
so i ran away
pretty little waist
only caused me pain
covered in my blood
oh, how you love the taste

did you mean it?
tell another lie or you could say that i’m the reason
people fucking change but just as not as quick seasons
you know that i’m hurting so just leave me in the deep end

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Intrude w/ hiraeth [JPJP]

we all need time to bloom...
prod. @prodmichael
art by @ejcarrmusic
mastered by @jolst
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
if i take the time i find
some part of me is left behind
i’ve broken thru the ice
and now i need a place to dry

we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

and i can feel it gettin better
i wanna be here forever
the trees are all turnin red
and i love her to fuckin death and i

saw this coming, no more running

i been livin like a dweller
im sinkin into my bed
and im hiding under the sheets
cuz my hair is a fuckin mess but i

saw this coming, no more running

if i take the time i see
im needing closure desperately
i failed to close the chapter of my life
i was living previously
what to do?
where to go?
i can’t handle questions, no
i do better living never
shitty weather suits me so
well
so well
if u ask me how im doin i won’t say im doin
so well
so well
cuz the time it takes
will lead the way for me

we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

and i can feel it gettin better
i wanna be here forever
the trees are all turnin red
and i love her to fuckin death and i

saw this coming, no more running

i been livin like a dweller
im sinkin into my bed
and im hiding under the sheets
cuz my hair is a fuckin mess but i

saw this coming, no more running

we all need time to bloom
we pick and choose, we win and lose
we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

bloom [xmichaelwarren]

prod by me : - )
guitar played by acey

lyrics

soil come home now
your my home now
i'm alone now
need you now and you know it
speaking out but you spoil it
what you got planned for the evening
wasn't me that your needing
everything is gonna be ok ik its hard
i rlly rlly need you in my way, hearts in shards
i fucking know that your not gon be
here when i die, alone in my room
i fucking hate the way i was made
empty carcass collides w ur face

your all i know
leave me down here
how about me and my phone
we all fry

I DONT FEEL MYSELF AT ALL
PEEL IT BACK GOT BLOOD ON THE WALL
QUESTIONING RESISTANCE
MIGHT GROW UP MIGHT BE YOUR PETAL
THE SEA IS FILLED W SERPENTS
WONDERING WHY I DONT SLEEP AT ALL
SKY IS FILLED W POISON
FUNNY HOW YOU FIGHT THEN WEAR IT UP

go, go, go, no : (
i know hes the one for you
at home my love so blue
in a room full of people
she can't let go
oh he is the sequal (he has a sequal?)
and he has my home
are you miles away
are you near my house (oh no)
see the tears on your face (crystals)
its like a puzzle to my house (minimal)
now your miles away, drive me there
deep w the woodlouse, in your hair
take my piece, bury it there
so u could push it out, swear that u cared

woodlouse

it's the way that you said w/ keeper

Stream on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/5o3zeb6JhEP7x2jGYZj7oa

Artists:
@prod-oc
@heylog

Lyrics:
did i want this, no not at all
does it concern you we still talk
i tried my best but it didnt work out
im tryna see you, dont know if ur taken now
i wanna get what was lost
i just want that for us
and tell you i love you

you lied to me
now the text box is green
so now is it tense
we went through this once
cant do it again
but thats what you get
i dont love me
so how can i love you
when i stand
to look at myself
no im not a fan
i wish i was dead

baby im not the same person i used to be
and when you left, did it have something to do w me
running around with you like it was yesterday
and if i saw you i wouldnt know what to say

you lied to me
now the text box is green
i dont love me
so how can i love you
so how can i love you

oc & heylog - love//heartbreak

produced by nevrfall, artwork by @punimonnn on instagram

ive been grinding too long and im tired of waiting
on me
its all about who you know, and nothing else
i dont wanna spend the time to see where im headed
imma quit this shit because i dont like the setting
"you got a new fan", thats what they said, i appreciate it, but,
i..
ill never see the better side
this is a goodbye letter
it was fun, but i gotta get better
and you should know that i cant get it like this
so imma get it somehow else, i swear
its not what i wanted to do, but i have to
lifes pale like blue
youre someone i knew.

a goodbye letter.

the trees sing back 2 me

dearly departing (album) 9/9
anchor (single) 8/19
presave:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/decksandjolst/v-anchor

@lovelessgroup

bloom [xmichaelwarren]

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